street people

Xie Shuangyu raised her eyes suddenly, and the disbelief, surprise, and fear in her eyes were all clear at a glance.

Sun Yan looked at her resolutely, and put warm palms on her thin shoulders: "Shuangyu, don't carry it alone. Although I can't be your knight, I can still help you and protect you. Can you tell us exactly what happened back then? What happened between you and Lei Bin, did he do something wrong to you?"

[Although I cannot be your knight, I can still help you and protect you. 】

These words made Xie Shuangyu's psychological defenses completely collapse. She was dazed for a moment, then hugged Sun Yanshi, buried her on his shoulder and wept loudly.Different from the suppressed sobbing just now, she was crying without any scruples at this moment, expressing her emotions that had been hidden for a long time.

Lang Song turned on the light and closed the rolling door.Afterwards, he turned around and went to the kitchen, and closed the door connecting the small shop and the yard, shutting the crying in the small shop.

Xie Shuangyu's actions had silently given an affirmative answer, and some details captured by Sun Yanshi came to mind again.

In the past, he and Lei Bin didn't like each other, but after he went to university, the two rarely had the chance to meet. This disgust should have gradually faded away with the passage of time.However, when he returned to Lanying Lane two years ago, Lei Bin's dislike for him increased instead of diminished. He still didn't understand what kind of deep hatred between him and Lei Bin was worth the other party's concern for so long.

Why did Lei Bin always insist that he did not molest Xie Shuangyu, but he refused to tell the cause and effect? ​​Was he unwilling to say or not?

Not long ago, at the request of Xie Shuangyu, he brought her to Lanying Alley once. At that time, Xie Shuangyu asked him "Does Lei Bin still live here?" There was no fear of someone who had molested him in his expression.Moreover, when he was going to park the car, Xie Shuangyu said that the company was busy and left early, which did not conform to Xie Shuangyu's behavior style.

When Aunt Ding saw Xie Shuangyu, she felt familiar. After he helped out, she didn't think much about it.Now that I think about it, a businessman like Aunt Ding always cares a little more about the people he comes and goes with than others. What she said she saw before must have really seen her before.

And after Xie Shuangyu came to Lanying Lane, that is, on the 29th day of the twelfth lunar month, he and Lang Song went back to Lanying Lane to pack their things. In the store, he heard the conversation between Lei Bin and Ren Sufen's mother and son.Ren Sufen works as a tally clerk in a supermarket, and her salary is not high. Of course, it is impossible to add 20 yuan to her account all at once. Where did she get the [-] yuan?Did Lei Bin ask that because he noticed something?

But these questions obviously need Xie Shuangyu to answer them one by one.

Sun Yanshi hugged Xie Shuangyu sighingly, giving her some warmth and comfort when she was shaking from crying.He has no distracting thoughts, only sympathy for a woman who was not loved since childhood, pity for a woman with ill-fated fate, and concern for his former classmates.

When Lang Song went to the kitchen, he took a small basin, a towel, and a bag of instant soy milk from the shelf.He boiled a pot of water, soaked a cup of soy milk, cleaned the basin and towels, filled another half basin of hot water, and took them to the shop together.

At this time, Xie Shuangyu had stopped crying.

Lang Song wrung out the towel and passed the steaming towel over. Xie Shuangyu took it and wiped his face mechanically.Then Lang Song handed her the soy milk, and she took it too, holding the sips in both hands and sipping.

Even so, everyone could tell that she was in a very bad state, her lips were as pale as paper without makeup, and her eyes were empty like the fake eyes of a beautiful puppet.

Sun Yanshi patted her on the shoulder and asked her if she wanted to go upstairs to take a rest, she nodded in agreement.

Lang Song and Sun Yanshi escorted her upstairs one after the other. Lang Song made the bed and said, "Lang Yue used to live in this room."

Xie Shuangyu's eyes finally regained a gleam of light. She sat on the edge of the bed and touched the white-and-yellow check sheet, and said hoarsely, "Thank you."

Seeing Xie Shuangyu's reaction, Sun Yanzhi handed out his mobile phone and said, "There are many photos and videos of Lang Yue in the album, do you want to take a look?"

Xie Shuangyu hesitated for a moment, but finally took the phone.

Sun Yanshi and Lang Song walked out of the room and went downstairs. They sat in the yard and watched each other without speaking.

Sun Yanshi put his cold hand into Lang Song's, and Lang Song squeezed it, and asked in a low voice, "Make a cup of soy milk for you?" Seeing Sun Yanshi shaking his head, he opened the cuff of his sweater and let the other party hold his hand. Reach in for warmth.

About half an hour later, footsteps came from the stairs. The two people in the courtyard looked up at the same time. Xie Shuangyu stroked his hair on the sideburns and walked downstairs slowly.Obviously, she wasn't asleep, but she was better.

Seeing Xie Shuangyu with red and swollen eyes, Sun Yanshi felt ashamed. He got up and said, "Shall I send you back to rest first?"

"No need," Xie Shuangyu raised the corners of his lips with difficulty and smiled, "When tomorrow comes, I may not have the courage to say what's on my mind."

Hearing this, Lang Song took a chair over and put it beside Xie Shuangyu.

Xie Shuangyu sat down, stretched out his hand and pulled out the clavicle chain around his neck, held the delicate little pendant in his palm, and then asked Sun Yanshi: "Lei Bin should never mention me in front of you, right? If He mentioned that you should be able to guess it's mine the first time you see the pendant."

Sun Yanshi shook his head: "I haven't mentioned it."

"With his character, he wouldn't say it in front of you."

Sun Yanshi suddenly remembered something, and said, "But he has emphasized to me many times that he didn't molest you."

Xie Shuangyu pursed the corners of her lips lightly: "I guess, he kept telling you that he didn't molested me back then, but he didn't explain the reason to you, did he?"

Sun Yanshi nodded emphatically, expressing his approval.

Xie Shuangyu smiled helplessly: "His character is just like this, stubborn and extreme but also very strong. He always feels that he is inferior to you, and he will not take the initiative to tell you the reason."

Realizing that Xie Shuangyu was about to start telling the past, Sun Yanshi couldn't help but straighten his back.

Xie Shuangyu glanced at Sun Yanshi, then looked at Lang Song again, bit his lips and hesitated, and asked Sun Yanshi politely: "I may mention you many times in the future, is it really okay?"

Sun Yanshi turned his attention to Lang Song and asked, "Is it really all right?"

Lang Song was stunned for a moment before he realized, and quickly waved his hands: "No, it's okay." After answering, he realized that he seemed to be involved.

Xie Shuangyu and Sun Yanshi both smiled, and Lang Song's cheeks felt hot.

This little joke eased the gloomy atmosphere, and Xie Shuangyu continued what he said just now: "It is true that Lei Bin did not molested me back then, but I only learned the hidden truth later."

In her sophomore year of high school, a group of punks stopped her in an alley, hugged him, touched her chest, and took off her coat.Terrified, she ran out of the alley screaming, not knowing how she escaped.

Later, when Sun Yanshi learned about this and asked her for proof, she identified Lei Bin, because Lei Bin had a tiger tattoo on his left arm, and he was the only one in the crowd with a crew cut and no hair dye, so he was the most recognizable Spend.After that, Sun Yanshi and his group had a fight. Both parties were caught. Lei Bin confessed to the molestation at the police station, and was then detained and expelled from school.

Xie Shuangyu said: "Actually, the reason why I was able to escape that day was because Lei Bin helped me stop the gangsters who were with him, so I could find a chance to escape. But that day, he was beaten by those people. At the police station, I was forced to bear the burden alone. Because those people knew where I went to school, they threatened Lei Bin that if he refused to admit that he was the mastermind, they would stop me every time they saw me, and even threatened to beat me.”

"So that's how it is..." Sun Yanshi was thoughtful. No wonder he asked Lei Bin if he was completely wronged back then, but the other party didn't answer—because Lei Bin was indeed one of those gangsters, and he wasn't completely wronged. Being wronged.

Sun Yanzhi asked cautiously: "But these are Lei Bin's self-reports, which may not be true." In fact, he believed it in his heart. Although Lei Bin's personality is not very good, he is not a womanizer. .Back then when Xie Shuangyu identified Lei Bin, he also went to Lei Bin after repeated confirmation.

"When he told me that at first, I didn't believe it." Xie Shuangyu suddenly smiled when he remembered some past events, "After getting in touch with a lot, I believed it. He doesn't like and is not good at getting along with women. He always He used a fierce look to hide his shyness, and he was very stiff and reserved in front of me. He didn't seem like the kind of person who was interested in sex at all, and he didn't even understand the relationship between men and women at that time."

Sun Yanshi took advantage of the situation and asked, "Then when did you start contacting?"

Xie Shuangyu: "Do you remember that I told you before that I was tricked into Lei Bin's house by a female classmate?"

Sun Yanshi nodded: "Remember, she lied to you that my cousin needs extra lessons."

"Well, in fact, after I ran away that day, Lei Bin caught up with me." Xie Shuangyu raised her eyes and looked towards the depths of the alley, where Lei Bin's house was located, falling into a long memory.

Lei Bin caught up with her that day, eagerly and clumsily explained the obscenity, and apologized to her.She listened, but didn't believe it, and left Lanying Lane in a hurry.

After that, Lei Bin began to wait for her at the school gate every day for her evening self-study. At first she was very scared and tried to go home with her classmates who were going the same way.But after a long time, she found that Lei Bin was just waiting for her to leave school and didn't come up to harass her, so she gradually relaxed her guard, but ignored her.

Until one time, when she got off the bus and walked a small path as usual, when she returned to the urban village where her parents rented, a drunk suddenly came out from the corner and tried to pull her into the alley.When he was in danger, Lei Bin who followed behind rushed out to drive away the drunk.

Only then did she realize that Lei Bin had been secretly sending her home every day to express his apology.She thanked Lei Bin and told Lei Bin that she accepted the apology so that he would not have to follow her in the future.

But Lei Bin said: "What if I meet a drunk again in the future?" Since then, Lei Bin has not violated the rules, and he is still waiting for her at the back door of the school, following her from afar to take her home. Continued until high school graduation.

She thought that the relationship between the two would be interrupted after she entered university, but one day half a year after she entered university, she saw Lei Bin who was also wearing work clothes in a part-time coffee shop—she knew that Lei Bin came here on purpose her.

During that time, she had a very difficult time. Her parents thought that she could earn money part-time after she went to college, so they refused to provide living expenses and all subsequent tuition fees.

In order to continue her studies and get rid of her indifferent native family, she worked four part-time jobs.

The intimacy of being able to meet someone she knew when she was alone in a difficult time in a foreign land made her nose sour, and she couldn't help opening her heart.

In her sophomore year, Lei Bin confessed his love to her, and she nodded after being at a loss for a moment.

Lei Bin asked her to focus on her studies and not let her continue to waste time in endless part-time jobs.He himself worked two jobs and paid for her tuition and living expenses.She is very grateful for Lei Bin's dedication, so after graduating from university, because Lei Bin was worried about his mother at home, she also followed Lei Bin back to Jiangcheng to develop.

Although the two had established a relationship before that, because of her conservative personality and her status as a student, the most intimate behavior between the two was kissing.

After returning to Jiangcheng, Lei Bin wanted to live together, but after two days of inner struggle, she agreed.

But she never thought that her hesitation would make Lei Bin feel like a thorn in his throat.

After living together, the two began to have conflicts because of their different values, and naturally some quarrels broke out.

Once, Lei Bin got drunk at a dinner party with his friends.She felt that drinking would hurt her health, so she persuaded him to have less dinners and drinks with friends in the future. Lei Bin suddenly broke out and asked sharply: "You have always looked down on my friends, and you have never wanted to integrate into my life. Knowing my friends, Not to mention not letting me into your circle, I really want to know, have you ever liked me?"

Facing Lei Bin's questioning, she was speechless.She clearly understands her personality flaws—because of the lack of care since she was a child, she has low self-esteem, sensitivity, insecurity, and lack of courage to refuse.

Lei Bin slowly approached her with enthusiasm, protecting, helping, and caring. She couldn't tell whether it was because she liked it, or because she couldn't let go of such a hard-won love and was reluctant to reject it, or because she was grateful to Lei Bin. Because of Bin's contribution, he agreed to Lei Bin's pursuit.

Her silence became Lei Bin's heart disease, and he began to become silent.Until one day, Lei Bin found her high school diary and the silver heart-shaped pendant.The diary is full of admiration for Sun Yanshi, and the pendant photo folder secretly stores photos of Sun Yanshi.

Lei Bin left their rented house in silence. A few days later, she learned that Lei Bin had been arrested for intentionally hurting someone, and the person he hurt was the gangster who dragged her into the alley to take off her clothes.

The last time I saw Lei Bin was in prison. Lei Bin looked haggard and didn't dare to look at her. He lowered his eyes and apologized, and said: "People like me are not worth giving up your dreams. Come back to Jiangcheng with me. Don't come here again, go A city far away, a country far away, run away from your parents forever."

The day before she had just learned that she was three months pregnant, Lei Bin didn't give her a chance to speak up, and she wasn't ready to speak out either.

She wanted to kill the baby in her stomach, but after half a month of hesitation, she finally made up her mind. She registered, and when the number machine in the hospital was about to call her number, she ran away.

Xie Shuangyu sighed: "What happened after that was exactly what I said before. I gave birth to Yueyue and then abandoned her."

Sun Yanshi lowered his head, and murmured again: "So it's like this..." No wonder Lei Bin kept claiming that he didn't insult Xie Shuang, but he was awkward and refused to make it clear; no wonder Lei Bin hated him even more after he was released from prison ;Because in Lei Bin's heart, he was Xie Shuangyu's crush, his rival in love, and the trigger that caused them to break up.

Lei Bin's single-parent family established his competitive character, and he became stronger under Ren Sufen's ideological indoctrination, especially in front of "Sun Yanshi", his pride, self-esteem, and conceit did not allow him to Let the past come out.He held back, endured, and finally used various methods such as cynicism and sarcasm to retaliate to satisfy his psychological pleasure.

Sun Yanshi raised his head and asked, "So Lei Bin doesn't know that you have a daughter so far?"

Xie Shuangyu nodded.

"That day I happened to overhear Lei Bin arguing with the fucker. There was an extra 20 yuan in the fucking account. Did you give it?"

Xie Shuangyu replied frankly: "Well, because I feel guilty. I asked someone to help pass it on. She will keep her mouth shut for the sake of her son."

Sun Yanshi asked again: "Why didn't you give the child to Lei Bin back then, neither he nor his mother would ignore the child."

Xie Shuangyu was silent for a moment before answering: "My father was imprisoned for stealing. When I was in elementary school, no one would call me by my name. They called me 'the daughter of a labor camp prisoner'. I don't want my daughter to be like me. Being ridiculed and ridiculed has become a shadow that cannot be shaken off for a lifetime."

So far, everything has come to light, Sun Yanshi did not feel relaxed, but felt more heavy.

He took out the silver pendant from his coat pocket and returned it to his hand, and felt that he was holding a soldering iron, which made his arm numb.Not long ago, he was delighted because this pendant was an important clue for Lang Yue to find her biological mother, but what he didn't expect was that Lang Yue's tragic fate was caused by it.

Both Xie Shuangyu and Lang Song noticed the change in Sun Yanshi's mood. Lang Song took the pendant and held Sun Yanshi's hand.

Xie Shuangyu said softly: "Don't feel guilty, I was just afraid that you would think so, so I didn't want to say it at first. The reason why Lei Bin and I separated was that I was not suitable with him, even if the diary and The pendant is not found, and it must end in a breakup. Besides, the diary is written by myself, and the photos are kept by me, which has nothing to do with you. Abandoning Langyue is also my selfish personal choice, and you don't have to feel guilty about it " She paused, clutching the pendant more tightly, letting the sharp triangle pierce her palm, "As you said, I can ask my classmates for help, and I can give Xiaoyueyue to Lei Bin's mother , I have many other choices, but I finally chose the most extreme and hurt Xiaoyueyue the most. Because I am selfish and ruthless, I just want to get rid of my old life quickly and completely, and get rid of my leech-like parents , and I don’t want to have anything to do with Lei Bin anymore. So, I chose to abandon her at the gate of the park and let her be taken away by strangers.”

Like an insignificant bystander, she calmly analyzed her ugly and selfish inner world, without embarrassment or embarrassment on her face.For so many years, a demon lived in her heart, she dared not face it, only dared to meet it in a dream, and then woke up sweating profusely.At this moment, she personally found out the ugly devil in her heart, and she just felt relieved.

She tilted her head, opened her lips calmly and said to Lang Song: "Lang Song, thank you. I saw Xiao Yueyue's photos and videos. She is very beautiful and well-behaved. You took good care of her, and you did better than many parents. Be excellent."

Lang Song replied indifferently: "She is my sister." So doing anything for her should be taken for granted.

Xie Shuangyu understood the implication, and she smiled bitterly: "Just now in the store you asked me why I was looking for Xiao Yueyue, and what I planned to do after I found her? Actually, before today, I didn't have an accurate answer. Answer. Because at the moment I abandoned her, I already lost the qualifications of a 'mother', and I have no right to regain the custody of the adoptive family. So I just want to find her first, see if she is doing well, and give She had an operation so that she could hear her voice, and tried to make up for her. But—” Langyue’s innocent smiling face in the mobile phone video appeared in her mind, and she couldn’t help but curl her lips, “Now I have the answer, I know she’s having a very good time Well, I can hear the voice of the world, and have a brother who loves her very much. I don't deserve to be her mother, and I won't appear in front of her to disturb your life, you can rest assured. But, there is one thing I hope you can help me Transfer it to Xiao Yueyue."

She took off the clavicle chain around her neck and put it in Lang Song's palm—five five-pointed stars that were so small that they formed an arc were suspended under a thin rose gold chain, and the stars were inlaid with broken diamonds.She looked at the shining stars and said: "Speaking of which, it's probably fate. I didn't give her a formal name, I always called her Xingxing, and your parents named her Moon. I hope she is like a She is like an ordinary star, shining faintly, living an ordinary life, and you make her the moon at home."

"I designed and made it myself, please give it to Xiao Yueyue." Xie Shuangyu took a deep breath, "I desperately wanted to get rid of my ruthless parents, but I myself became like my parents. I am not worthy to be her mother, I will not appear in front of her again, tomorrow I will go to the police station to surrender and explain everything that happened back then."

"Frost language!"

"Miss Xie!"

Sun Yanshi and Lang Song spoke in unison.

Xie Shuangyu smiled: "I should accept the trial of the law."

"Shuang Yu," Sun Yanshi leaned forward eagerly, "Think carefully."

Lang Song handed the chain back to Xie Shuangyu: "Miss Xie, I can't hand it over to Yueyue for you." Before the other party had time to show disappointment, he continued, "You will always be her biological mother by blood. , this cannot be changed. The reason why I want to talk to you is to know why you abandoned Langyue back then. After understanding the cause and effect, I understand your difficulties, but I am not Langyue, so I cannot answer for her. You You should give this thing to her yourself, tell her the truth, and then ask her if she can forgive you. Of course—" He changed the subject, "I hope that when she is older, she is only six years old now, and she can't tell right from wrong While waiting for her to grow up, you can try your best to make up for the debt and guilt you owe her, but turning yourself in is the worst way. What she needs is your company, not this way Go and repent."

Xie Shuangyu's heart was shocked by Lang Song's mature thoughts and broad mind. She was stunned for a long time, and then tremblingly said: "Thank you, for being willing to forgive me for being a selfish person."