street people

Sun Yanshi ran around the hospital all morning, did several tests, chatted with the doctor for a long time, took the medicine and walked out of the hospital gate, it was already twelve o'clock.

The sky was still overcast, and it was quite cool in the morning, but it became sultry at noon.

Suddenly coming out of the hospital with the central air conditioner turned on and breezy, it was like stepping into a steamer. Sun Yanshi habitually tore off his T-shirt, walked quickly across the overpass to the opposite side of the hospital, and entered a chain store. convenience store.

The phone in his pocket vibrated against his thigh, he took out the phone, it was a message from Lang Song.

【Brother Yan, Yueyue asked if you had lunch yet? 】

Lang Song also sent a photo of Lang Yue's chubby cheeks, holding a hamburger in her small, white and fleshy hands, smiling so hard that her eyes narrowed.

The corners of Sun Yanshi's mouth couldn't help but curl up.

Immediately afterwards, Lang Song sent another message.

[The medicine should be taken after a meal, and you should not eat indigestible or irritating food. 】

Sun Yanshi glanced at the veterans queuing up to check out, turned around and went out the door.The convenience store is cool, and he planned to buy a microwave instant food pad in the store to pad his stomach and forget it. Now that Lang Song has said so, he can't lie to the children.

Walking into a casserole porridge shop, he ordered a casserole porridge with mushrooms and vegetables. After the waiter brought the porridge to the table, he took out his mobile phone and took a photo, and sent the photo to the "left-behind children" at home like homework .

After lunch, Sun Yanshi went into a small grocery store in an alley, bought a bottle of inferior Erguotou, and sat on the edge of a flower bed by the roadside.

Today's visit to the hospital was the first time he had used medical methods to quit alcohol. Before that, he had tried to quit alcohol, but none of them could survive for three days.Generally, if you don’t drink alcohol for about 6-12 hours, you will experience withdrawal reactions, such as sweating, trembling, retching, etc. After 24-36 hours, the reaction will be aggravated, and you will have fever and palpitations. As for what will happen after 36 hours, he does not know, because He never made it past day three.

Usually on the second day, he couldn't bear the painful withdrawal reaction and rushed to the wine bottle, as embarrassing as he could be.

Compared with the physical withdrawal reaction, the psychological pain is even worse.After getting rid of alcohol, the heart will be quickly overwhelmed by loneliness, depression, and despair, and the whole person will lose all mobility. He knows what he should do, but he can't do it.There is a hole in the body, and only wine can fill it. As long as the hole is filled, all the pain and discomfort will recede as quickly as the tide.

And he would sink into a morbid addiction to alcohol, the instant pleasure that only needs a little liquid to satisfy.

Zheng Ye persuaded him more than once, and Uncle Qiang scolded him more than once, and he always knew it was wrong.

His willpower is being swallowed by alcohol bit by bit, and his life will also slowly rot in alcohol. However, he has tried several times, but he has not been able to get out of this endless loop.

This time, how many days can you last?

Sun Yanshi picked up the wine bottle and took two sips. He had been sweating since he came out of the hospital, and he gritted his teeth until now.

After sitting by the flower bed for a while, Sun Yanshi threw the wine and medicine into the kraft paper bag Lang Song gave him, got up and went to the side of the road to hail a taxi.

He didn't give the address of Lanying Lane, and asked the driver to take him to the business district in the city center. After a long trip, he had some things to do.

When he arrived at the business district, Sun Yanshi went directly into a shopping mall. When he came out again, he had a lot of things in his hands. He called a car and rushed to a nursing home in the suburbs.

Two years ago, his father moved from his family to a nursing home, and he has never been home.In order to avoid him and acquaintances, he even moved to the farthest nursing home.Every three months, he buys some seasonal clothes for his father, as well as some daily necessities and nutritional products, and sends them to the nursing home.

Arriving at the nursing home, Sun Yanshi signed at the gate guard and entered the gate. This private nursing home is small in scale, but its hardware configuration is okay, and its management is thoughtful.

Sun Yan walked to an office with ease, the door was open, and he knocked twice on the door.

Sitting inside was a woman in her sixties, wearing reading glasses, who was lowering her head with a pen to record something. When she heard the voice, she raised her head, froze for a moment, and then greeted her with a smile: "Little Yan, Why did you come here suddenly without saying hello?"

"Aunt Xiu." Sun Yanshi called out with a smile, "I'm going out to do some errands, so I came here on the way."

Aunt Xiu is an old fucking colleague and friend who only came to work in this nursing home after retirement. She and Uncle Qiang are the only two among the elders, including relatives, who are still kind to him.

"Come to deliver something to your dad?" Aunt Xiu took a glass of water from the water dispenser and gave it to Sun Yanshi, "I was thinking that you should come over two days ago."

Sun Yanshi took a sip of water, picked out all the things for his father and put them on the table: "Aunt Xiu, these are all for my father, please help me bring them to him."

"How about..." Aunt Xiu grabbed Sun Yanshi's arm, glanced at him, and tentatively said, "You bring it to him yourself? He should be playing chess with others in the chess and card room now."

"No." Sun Yanzhi raised the corner of his mouth stiffly, "It's not like you don't know, he won't see me, and when he sees me later, I might overturn the chessboard and scare the other uncles."

Aunt Xiu sighed: "You guys, father and son treat each other like enemies."

Sun Yanshi smiled, but without saying a word, he took another handbag and handed it to Aunt Xiu: "This is the maw I bought for you."

"Oh, I don't want it, I don't want it." Aunt Xiu hurriedly stuffed it back into Sun Yanshi's hands, "Why do you bring me a copy every time, or I won't help you anymore."

"If you don't accept it, I won't dare to ask you for help in the future." Sun Yanshi imitated Aunt Xiu's tone and replied.

At the beginning when he came to deliver things, his father refused to accept them, and even burned them with a lighter. Thanks to Aunt Xiu's mediation, his father reluctantly accepted the things. Aunt Xiu handed it over.

Therefore, every time he came over, he never forgot to bring a small gift for Aunt Xiu.

Although there is no blood relationship, Aunt Xiu is like his aunt, whether it is out of respect for the elders or out of a little gratitude, it should be so.

The two pushed and shoved, but Aunt Xiu finally couldn't resist Sun Yanshi's persistence, and finally accepted it.

When the things were delivered, Sun Yanshi was about to leave after drinking the water. Aunt Xiu wanted to see him off, but he stopped him.

"Hey..." Aunt Xiu took his hand and sighed deeply, "Your mother is gone, but I am still here. If you have time, go to Auntie's house and Auntie will cook something delicious for you."

Speaking of old friends, Aunt Xiu's eyes were red. On the one hand, she missed her old friend, and on the other hand, she felt sorry for Sun Yanshi.

There was a soreness in his throat, and Sun Yanshi swallowed it back before answering: "Okay."

After bidding farewell to Aunt Xiu, Sun Yanshi returned the same way and walked out of the nursing home.After going out and turning right for more than ten meters, he suddenly stopped, and after hesitating for two seconds, he changed direction.

There is a circle of metal guardrails around the outside of the nursing home, and you can peep through the guardrails to a corner of it when you get a little closer.Sun Yanshi circled around and walked to the back of the nursing home. There is an outdoor sports field, there are some sports equipment suitable for the elderly, and there are table tennis tables, etc. The chess and card room is also there.

A row of sweet-scented osmanthus trees were planted along the corner of the guardrail. It has not yet reached the flowering season, but the branches and leaves are very lush.

Sun Yanshi found a relatively secluded place, pushed aside the branches that came out of the guardrail, looked inside, and saw his father at a glance.

The elderly may not be able to stand the cold wind of the air conditioner, so they took advantage of the cloudy day to go outside.

There were two flag tables in the gazebo, and his father didn't play chess, but stood around watching with arms folded.

I don't know who made a wrong move, he frowned in dissatisfaction and pointed to the board with both hands and said something. After a few sentences, the two reluctantly stopped talking.

The distance was a bit far, and Sun Yanshi couldn't hear what they were arguing about, but he could guess that it was his father who lit the fire.His father has a strong personality and a hot temper, and it is difficult to listen to other people's words. If his mother hadn't taken care of him before, he could argue with people every day.

Sun Yanshi walked a little further and found a place where he could see more clearly.

His father was wearing a lapel short-sleeved sweater today and a pair of sports shorts, which he had bought and delivered earlier.His father is a little thinner than a few months ago, but his face is rosy, and he can argue with others in a calm manner, looking quite healthy.

At this moment, the person who had been watching chess seriously with his back to the guardrail suddenly turned his head and looked towards Sun Yanshi.

Eyelids twitched suddenly, and Sun Yanshi immediately took a step back and hid behind the dense bushes. After waiting for a few seconds, he poked his head out again to part the branches and look inside.His father turned his body to look at him like this, but he was not looking at him, but watching the two uncles playing table tennis.

Sun Yanzhi let out a long sigh of relief, took a deep look at his father, then turned and left.

Since two years ago, his father refused to see him at all, firstly because of his sexual orientation, and secondly because of his fucking sudden death.He can't change his sexual orientation, and he can't get his mother back, so there's no way his dad will forgive him, or go home.

And it was impossible for him to eliminate the barrier between him and his father.

So, in fact, he didn't force his dad to move back home, and even thought it was good, his dad had a happy life, and someone took care of him.