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Seeing Zhou Xia, Shengfang's dim eyes that had no brilliance suddenly brightened again. He quickly walked over and stood in front of Zhou Xia. He disappeared for a long time. He missed Zhou Xia a little bit.

"Xia Xia."

Zhou Xia looked up at him: "It's so cold, why are you standing here, you're not waiting for me."

Just as Sheng Fang wanted to say "Of course", he thought of what Zhou Xia said in the taxi before saying that he was too clingy and that he would affect his love life, so he endured it again, shrugged and smiled and said, "No, I just had enough. Come down for a walk to digest food."

Zhou Xia's eyes fell on a wet mark on his shoulder, which even had a faint tendency to frost. It looked chilly, and he knew that he must have been waiting here for a long time.

She pursed her lips, but didn't expose him: "Then you go on walking, I'm going upstairs."

Sheng Fang followed him immediately: "No more walking, let me go with you, anyway, I'll drop by."

Isn't it on the way? It's a dormitory.

Zhou Xia could feel the confusion of his thoughts, and knew that he must be full of words and wanted to ask. He actually wanted to say something to Sheng Fang, so he walked a few steps and stopped again.

Sheng Fang didn't know what he was thinking, he didn't notice that he stopped suddenly, almost hit him, stopped in time, lowered his head in doubt: "Xia Xia?"

Zhou Xia raised her head: "Sheng Fang, do you have something you want to tell me?"

Zhou Xia has a physique that is afraid of the cold, and hats and scarves are indispensable when going out in winter. At this moment, there is a light beige woolen hat on her head, half of her small face is wrapped in the scarf, only a pair of clean and bright eyes are exposed, and the cute heart is trembling .

Sheng Fang's fingers moved, and he did not forget to answer his words: "Yes, I have something to say."

Zhou Xia looked directly at him, signaling that he was listening.

Shengsheng's eyes moved, and his voice was dry and hoarse: "I, I ate sweet and sour pork ribs at night. It was delicious. I will take you to eat it next time."

Zhou Xia: "..."

Zhou Xia: "Forget it, just go upstairs if you don't want to talk about it."

Zhou Xia walked past him, and was grabbed by the wrist without any surprise. Standing beside him, Sheng Fang looked down at his soft and fair side face, gritted his teeth: "Xia Xia, I really have a lot to say. I want to ask you, but I'm afraid you will be angry again if I ask."

It's really rare that he still cares about whether he will be angry or not. It seems that instilling in him the awareness of keeping a distance from him on the sidelines in the past two days, it still has a little effect.

He raised his head and looked at him softly: "If you don't ask, how will you know if I will be angry?"

Listening to his calm and gentle voice, Sheng Fang calmed down a lot, and took a breath: "Xia Xia, what did you talk about with that Chu Qing for so long this afternoon?"

Knowing that he would definitely ask about this matter, Zhou Xia was not surprised: "I took him to see the school, went to the gymnasium, and had a meal together."

"that's it?"

"that's it."

This is not what Shengfang wanted to hear, he frowned, and unconsciously clenched Zhou Xia's wrist: "Then, did he say something to you that shouldn't be said, for example, he still has that kind of thought about you, Xia Xia, you are simple and easy to soften your heart. You don’t understand these deadly homosexual routines. Some of them will not be so obvious when they approach you at the beginning, and they will confess to you when they come up. Doing that, after a long time, when you get used to his existence, he will climb up the pole and take the opportunity to pull you into their world, making you hard to guard against, very wicked."

Zhou Xia heard him say so much in a clear and logical manner, and carefully checked each of these words with someone's usual actions in his heart, then raised his head and looked into his eyes seriously: "Well, yes Pretty wicked."

Sheng Fang saw that he seemed to have listened to these words, and the stone in his heart fell, and he moved his big hand down, wanting to interlock his fingers: "Yes, it's good that you can understand, that Chu Qing, look It was with that kind of idea, your attitude towards him today is still so kind, he must think you are very good at strategy, those thoughts about you in high school will come back again, Xia Xia, it’s too dangerous, you have to talk to him keep distance."

Hearing that he seemed to have finished speaking, Zhou Xia was silent for a moment, took his hand out of his palm, looked up at his puzzled expression, and smiled lightly: "Yes, it's quite dangerous, but it's not Chu Qing, but you, Bloom."

Sheng Fang blinked blankly: "Me? What do you mean, Xia Xia, why am I in danger?"

Looking at his clear eyes, Zhou Xia sighed very lightly: "Sheng Fang, Chu Qing has never done anything to me about what you said just now, on the contrary, it was you who did it all, you don't Do you think this is weird?"

"What, strange?"

Now that he has made up his mind to explain the matter clearly, Zhou Xia no longer hesitates, and continues in a very calm voice: "You are too kind to me, you are too kind, you invade all my personal space, and you put me away. In a place that shouldn't be in your heart, Shengfang, you have never been in a relationship, and you have never liked others, so you may not be clear about this kind of psychology and what these behaviors mean."

Sheng Fang rarely heard Zhou Xia talk to him so patiently and meticulously, and he didn't think about it for a while, but just followed his train of thought and asked, "What does it mean?"

Zhou Xia was quiet for a moment, the eyes of the two collided under the dimly lit street lights, Zhou Xia did not dodge: "It means that what you are doing is abnormal and out of common sense, no man I will have this unwanted desire for monopoly with another man for many years. Even if I have it, it will gradually fade with age and social experience, and it will return to normal. If he doesn’t have it, it will intensify , that can only explain one problem..."

When Zhou Xia said this, he took a light breath: "He may be gay, or he may be bent without knowing it. Sheng Fang, do you think you are such a person, do you think you are gay?"

When Zhou Xia said this, his eyes kept staring at Shengfang's face, not wanting to let go of any subtle expression on his face at the moment, and then he saw that when he said this hypothesis, Shengfang's pupils flicked violently at that moment. He trembled, and his expression became extremely stiff. He seemed unable to speak, opened his mouth slightly, and lost all blood on his face.

This is a kind of stress reaction that is extremely resistant to something, and Sheng Fang really can't accept it, even if it's just a simple assumption, he doesn't want the word "homosexual" to have anything to do with him.

Zhou Xia watched his reaction, and the knife that had been hanging in his heart seemed to disappear suddenly, like a prisoner who was tortured every day and had nowhere to go to die was suddenly rewarded with a bowl of poisoned wine and given him a happy.

Although the pain is painful, the pain made his nose sore and his eye sockets hot and humid, but his heart was extremely relaxed. It was the most relaxed and carefree moment in the past few years since he noticed his feelings for Shengfang.

He felt liberated, because he once again faced Shengfang's resistance to homosexuality, and knew that he had absolutely no possible future with him.

If so, let it go.

Let go, the pain is temporary, but if you don't let go, you will follow his wounds for the rest of your life.

Thinking this way, Zhou Xia raised his hand and beat Shengfang's chest: "Just kidding, I'm so scared."

Sheng Fang seemed to have not recovered from the stimulation just now, and Zhou Xia's light thump made him stagger half a step unsteadily.

Looking at Zhou Xia's outstretched hand, he subconsciously wanted to hold it, but Zhou Xia quickly took it back. He put his hand back into his coat pocket, looked up at him and smiled: "Don't think too much, I didn't really Saying that you are gay just wants to explain a truth to you, just listen to it and don’t pay too much attention to it.”

After Zhou Xia finished speaking, he was swayed by the cold wind, sniffed, and said with a smile: "It's so cold, let's stop standing here and go upstairs."

Zhou Xia walked past him, and the familiar fragrance also wafted gently between his nostrils, and was quickly blown away by the wind, so fast that he couldn't keep it even if he wanted to.

Sheng Fang turned his head and looked at Zhou Xia's back as he disappeared at the top of the stairs.

Zhou Xia told him not to care, but how could he not care.

Zhou Xia also said that what he did was abnormal, like a gay, but after so many years, Zhou Xia had never said such things to him before, let alone wanting to distance himself from him.

Then what happened in the past few days? Something has been wrong since his birthday. That night Zhou Xia said that he had a crush, and then he revealed intentionally or unintentionally that he wanted to keep a distance from him, and said that this would cause trouble. affect his emotional life.

And today's Chu Qing, since seeing Chu Qing, Zhou Xia has defended him in every possible way, did Chu Qing say something to him, which made him feel like a gay.

Or, it was all because of his overthinking, Zhou Xia simply didn't want to get so close to him, because he wanted to pursue the person he had a crush on, and he didn't want to leave any regrets...

Sheng Fang's head was going to explode, he couldn't figure it out, and he didn't want to think about it, he always thought that everything in this world would change, people would get old and die, but the only thing that wouldn't change was his relationship with Zhou Xia. friendship.

Was he the only one who thought this way from the beginning?

Shengfang raised his head and looked in the direction of the dormitory on the third floor. The figure under the street lamp was lonely, like a cornered beast driven into a desperate situation.

It took more than an hour for Shengsheng to return to the dormitory. The heating in the dormitory was still the same, and the first time he threw himself on his body that had been soaked in the cold and frost of the cold night for a long time, he had the illusion that he seemed to have passed away.

Xiao Bei was lying on the ground doing push-ups, the ground was a little wet with his dripping sweat, Chu Jinan was riding on his back to cheer him up, and he was still showing sugar oranges in his hand.

Seeing Sheng Fang coming in, he enthusiastically handed him Tangerine: "Brother Fang eats oranges."

Sheng Fang looked at him, shook his head slightly, and subconsciously landed on Zhou Xia's bed.

Zhou Xia had already taken a shower, and the curtain hadn't been lowered yet, and she was leaning on the pillow to read a book.

He was wearing a light yellow pajamas, his cheeks were still pink and looked soft.

Sheng Fang's heart, which had been wrung to pieces just now, seemed to be about to be folded together again, his chest felt a little hot, and he subconsciously walked over.

Blocked by a shadow in front of the bed, Zhou Xia raised her head: "You blocked my light."

Sheng Fang was stunned, noticing that he was reading, and quickly stood aside.

Zhou Xia turned another page of the book and continued to read.

Sheng Fang had a lot of words in his throat, seeing his indifferent attitude, he couldn't say anything, and finally he just asked dryly: "Why did you suddenly read a book, what are you reading?"

Zhou Xia didn't raise her head: ""36 Strategies for Identifying Closer Gay Men"."

Blooming: "..."

Only then did Zhou Xia raise her head, looked at him and smiled lightly: "You're just kidding, why did you come back now, isn't it cold down there?"

Sheng Fang rolled his throat and picked up the bag in his hand: "I went to the convenience store and bought hot milk. You can drink a bottle before going to bed later."

Zhou Xia nodded: "Thank you."

That's it?

Sheng Fang didn't expect his attitude to be so flat, even if he was cold, after all, he always smiled softly, and Zhou Xia's smile was the prettiest.

But if you want to talk about enthusiasm, it's even more unlikeable. Although he is smiling, the ridiculousness does not reach the bottom of his eyes at all, like a piece of ice floating in hot water. When you touch his surface, it is warm, but as long as it lasts longer In just a few seconds, he would be so cold by his original temperature that he stopped.

This is how Zhou Xia feels to him now, calm and gentle, polite and distant.

This shouldn't be the state between him and Zhou Xia at all!

Shengfang clenched his fists and looked at Zhou Xia who was reading with his head slightly down, obedient and quiet, and he was still the Xia Xia who made him want to hold it in his palm.

No matter how angry he was, there was no way to relieve the irritability in his heart, and it was impossible to do anything to hurt Zhou Xia like this.

Sheng Fang felt that he was going to suffocate, so he turned and walked towards the toilet angrily.

Sheng Fang was too angry, full of impatience and anger, and had no place to vent, so he simply took a cold shower, put his hands on the white tiles, lowered his head, and let the biting cold water wash on his smooth and strong shoulders.

After taking a cold shower, Sheng Fang dried his body and looked at the face in the mirror that seemed to be radiating cold air. His eyes were as clear as ink, his hair was still dripping, and his lips were snow white. It was obvious that he was extremely cold.

But like no one else, he took the mint candy from the table next to him, opened the lid, tilted his head up, poured the candy into his mouth, and bit it hard.

When he was going out, he bumped into Chu Jinan who was about to come in to use the bathroom, briefly touched his arm through his pajamas, and the frozen Chu Jinan immediately bounced to the side.

Subconsciously looking back, I don't know if it was his illusion. He always felt that the body that was in full bloom just now was particularly icy. The whole person seemed to have just stepped out of the freezer, exuding a cold air from the inside out.

Xiao Bei also finished his push-ups and stood up to stretch and stretch. He was wearing sports short-sleeves, and the muscles on his arms were vigorous and powerful. Sweat rolled down on them, shining brightly and very sexy.

Seeing Sheng Fang passing by him, he subconsciously said: "Brother Fang, you will also do push-ups with me tomorrow, find out how you feel, and give those boys from the Chinese Academy of Sciences a hard time."

Sheng Fang took off the towel around his neck and let out a soft "um" with a slightly hoarse voice.

Zhou Xia on the opposite side seemed to have fallen asleep, and the opaque curtain was pulled down, blocking all the scenery inside.

Sheng Fang lay on the bed, staring sideways at the curtain, his dark eyes unblinking.