An Lan of Rebirth

Bars usually open at nightfall, and Geng Xinlei came to see An Lan when the bar was busy, so it was almost ten o'clock in the evening when the two went out.The temperature in early spring fluctuates, and it may be warm during the day, but it can plummet to the depths of winter at night.Facing the menacing cold snap, most people prefer to stay at home to keep warm at this time.Due to the lack of consumers in the market, the shops on both sides of the street were happy to close their doors early, making the whole street deserted, and the occasional roaring cars became the only noisy scenery.An Lan and Geng Xinlei walked side by side aimlessly along the street, neither of them said a word, letting the dim light cast by the street lamps stretch their shadows infinitely.

"It's really cold tonight, and the weather forecast says that it's going to be 'cold spring' in the near future." The two walked in silence for half an hour, Geng Xinlei still kept his head down and didn't say anything, An Lan thought that if the stalemate continued, the two of them might finish shopping around the city There will be no results, so I have to take the lead in breaking the deadlock.

"En." Geng Xinlei responded sullenly, as if he didn't intend to answer.

"Although it's cold, I'm still happy because this is the first time I've gone for a walk." An Lan said with a smile, as if to prove what he said, her steps seemed a lot lighter.

"Don't you usually go out?" Geng Xinlei raised his head and asked in surprise.

"Before I was busy looking for a job to support myself, but now you understand." An Lan shrugged, the working hours of the bar have always been chaotic, and he, who is reluctant to be the owner, is even less leisurely.

"Why do you work in that kind of place?" Geng Xinlei asked.

"Just to make a living. Although I learned a lot in school, I found out that it was useless after leaving school, not to mention dropping out of school. How can a person like me with no diploma and experience find a decent job? And You know the reason why I dropped out of school, even if I want to work as a construction site worker, no one will accept it. Could it be that I can still have the cheek to go back to the orphanage to grab food for those children?" An Lan curled her lips.In fact, even the original owner himself, without Kay's experience, can find a legitimate job with less income. He just deliberately made himself miserable in order to cover up.

"I'm sorry." Geng Xinlei's face was a little sad, he couldn't help but feel guilty for not being able to help An Lan when he was most helpless.

"My experience has nothing to do with you, so there's no need to apologize." An Lan sighed in his heart, and actually took the responsibility on himself. His roommate is really an out-and-out fool.

"Although I don't know the circumstances under which you went to work there, that's not an excuse for you to help the evildoers." After a while, Geng Xinlei changed the subject and became serious.

"Baffling." An Lan replied coldly.Aside from talking about his real purpose of working in the bar, he only stayed there for more than three months. During this period, apart from teaching the disciples who had unreasonable thoughts about him, he kept his own place and did not participate in any evil. action.Although the environment he was in made it impossible for him to be alone, it was really unfair to be labeled so for no reason.

Geng Xinlei looked at An Lan with a sullen expression, and knew that it was okay to blindly criticize the person in front of him, and he didn't want to make the relationship between the two of them stiff, so he thought about it and said softly: "What happened in the bar last time, you Want to know what's next?"

An Lan didn't speak, but looked at Geng Xinlei calmly with her arms folded.

"The girl cried for a long time after waking up. She said that she met those two people on the Internet, and that day was her birthday, so they met to celebrate together, but they didn't expect things to turn out like that. You know, She just turned 18, and her life is ruined." Geng Xinlei looked at An Lan and said slowly, tears seemed to glisten in his eyes.

"It's so pitiful. With such remarks, the crime index of those two unlucky bastards will probably be doubled." An Lan sneered, snorting at Geng Xinlei's words.

"An Lan, did you choose the police academy because of financial difficulties? It wasn't the blood in your bones." Geng Xinlei asked. He couldn't believe that the person in front of him had stayed with him in the police academy for only three years. It has become so indifferent for more than a month.

"What do you think?" An Lan asked back, as if acquiescing to Geng Xinlei's statement.

"Although you are withdrawn at school, I don't think you should be an indifferent person." Geng Xinlei said, An Lan felt too strange to him now, but it made him even more worried.

An Lan was noncommittal to Geng Xinlei's words, thought for a while and said: "Actually, that colleague of yours really didn't wrong me. When I saw those three people, I knew that kind of thing would happen. In a sense, I condoned it." Suspect established."

"Why? Are you really the An Lan I know?" Geng Xinlei was very bitter in his heart. Can different environments really change a person beyond recognition?

"The reason why I say this is because I have had three exchanges with that girl, and each time I persuaded her to go home early." An Lan said, and continued without waiting for Geng Xinlei: "For the first time, she smiled and introduced me to me. Her so-called friend invited me to drink together. The second time she was too lazy to talk to me and drank hers on her own. The third time she thought I was meddling and started yelling. So the fourth time I decided to avoid suspicion and stop hindering others. Good thing, and then you all saw what happened shortly thereafter."

"How could she..." Geng Xinlei was a little surprised. It was hard to believe that there would be such a foreplay before the incident. There was no need for An Lan to lie, but the girl in the police station who was crying to death did not seem to be acting again. Who to trust.

"It's actually very simple. Some people yearn for excitement regardless of dissuasion, but after experiencing it personally, they find that the price they pay is far greater than they imagined, so they regret that they were looking for death and life." An Lan spread her hands, "Don't ask me why I didn't insist on persuading that girl or The criminals let it go, I just want to say that I am not a saint, nor can I be the savior of the world. It is my right to save or not to be saved, and if someone is willing to degenerate, I am also happy to stand on the sidelines."

"You've completely changed." Geng Xinlei sighed, although he had to admit that An Lan's words had some truth, but as a policeman, he couldn't do it so confidently.

"It's not that I've changed, but that you need to change." An Lan said, "The environments we live in are different. I've seen too many similar incidents. Such self-inflicted victims are not worthy of sympathy."

Geng Xinlei lowered his head and said nothing. Does An Lan mean that he is naive?But as a policeman, shouldn't it be his duty to help the general public, even if he is not understood, should he persevere?But why does he feel that An Lan's words have some truth now? Could it be that his thinking is wrong or that he is not suitable to be a policeman?

"Okay, let's not talk about this, tell me why you come here to find me over and over again." An Lan said, his position is different from Geng Xinlei's, so he can't force Geng Xinlei to assimilate, that would be harmful and not beneficial to him.

"An Lan, why did you drop out? I will never believe your so-called reason for dropping out." Geng Xinlei asked.

"The matter has come to this, is there any point in talking about it?" An Lan said.

"I'm sorry, I told Captain Li about your matter." Geng Xinlei felt a little guilty, but immediately said hastily, "But I also told the doubtful points. Captain Li promised me that he would go to Instructor Zhan for clarification. It's really instructor Zhan's intention to target you..."

"So what? Let me go back to school? Do you think the school can accept me as I am now?" An Lan interrupted Geng Xinlei. He didn't care if the previous information was exposed. The files are there, and anyone who is interested can find out.However, Geng Xinlei's words made him feel very funny. After all, not everything can be easily repaired, and his reason for dropping out is irrefutable.

Geng Xinlei looked at An Lan blankly. He really didn't consider An Lan's current situation. Even if An Lan was forced to drop out of school, what could be changed?

"An Lan, I just..." Geng Xinlei felt that he couldn't speak suddenly. He wanted to say something comforting, but felt that it was more like a sarcasm.

"That's enough. I appreciate your kindness. I can only say that good luck tricks people." An Lan smiled and disapproved. The road was chosen by herself and had nothing to do with others.

"Geng Xinlei, thank you, thank you for taking care of me at school, and thank you for always thinking about me. But you have also seen that now we are people in two worlds. You have your bright future, and I have mine. The way to go." Finally when it was time for the showdown, An Lan turned around and said slowly, "You should see that I have fallen too far and beyond redemption, so stop thinking about how to get me back on the right path. And You are a policeman and I am a gangster. We will never have any other relationship other than confrontation. So don’t come to the bar again, it will only make you trouble yourself, not to mention that there are a lot of fish and dragons in the bar. If people recognize you, be careful that your police uniform will not be safe. .”

Seeing Geng Xinlei's eyes widen, An Lan stepped forward unmoved and left him behind, "Don't question the seriousness of my words, we don't know each other from now on."

Looking at An Lan's leaving back, Geng Xinlei blurted out: "An Lan, are the rumors in the bar true?"

"Do you believe it?" An Lan stopped and turned to ask.

"I don't believe you, you're not that kind of person." Geng Xinlei's tone was very firm, even though many people in the bar saw him tell An Lan and Jin Mao about the relationship more than once after he pursued An Lan, even though those people described the relationship with sensuality, he also It's all nonsense as it falls on deaf ears.

"He and I are just brothers, that's all." An Lan said, this was the first time he explained his relationship with Jin Mao to others, relying on the other party's categorical "do not believe it".

"An Lan, I prefer to believe that you are still a good person." Geng Xinlei continued, this is what he said in his heart, even though he knew it was his wishful thinking.

"If there is such a day, I hope that you will put the handcuffs on me personally." An Lan smiled slightly. If he really wanted to return to the underworld, the only person who could move him at that time, apart from the leader of the underworld, would be the top management of the police station.

The other party's inexplicable answer made Geng Xinlei's heart stagnate. Although he didn't understand why An Lan said that, he believed that the other party meant something, and it even meant that there might be some kind of connection between them.

Looking at An Lan's disappearing back, he understood that the other party would never hear him again.Only then did Geng Xinlei whisper the words that had been hidden in his heart for a long time.

Under the dim light, the distance between the two figures is getting farther and farther away, as if two straight lines meet at a point and then separate again

"An Lan, I still like you."