[Vampire Diaries] I can't give you happiness

My anger changed nothing, and the next day it was not polished, and Malisa knocked on the door to wake me up. With her help, I finished washing, and a footman came to tell that the carriage was ready, and we could start after breakfast.

In front of the door, a man wearing a black hat sits high in front, holding a whip in one hand, and the brim of the hat covers his face. I can’t see his appearance clearly. Two men with the same black hat are standing behind the car, one on the left and one on the right. , what is even more exaggerated is that a square box-shaped carriage the size of a pumpkin cart in a fairy tale is actually pulled by four white horses.I sigh mockingly, Clause really thinks it's a long time ago, and still uses the number of horses to show his status.

But it is also a wonderful thing to be able to feel the means of transportation of people in the famous book. Of course, if Clause is not sitting opposite me, I think I will enjoy all this even more.We headed towards the sun, and the dawn in the countryside came earlier, and the polished sky was followed by the sunrise. A round fire slowly rose from the horizon, and we got closer and closer to it, as if we were about to run into the sun like going inside.The golden light awakened the world, and my eyes slowly narrowed until I could no longer look out. I had no choice but to turn around and found that Clause had maintained the same posture as when he got on the car. He He closed his eyes as if he was resting, but "Hey", I only looked at him for two seconds, and he suddenly opened his eyes, his eyes were so bright that he didn't seem to be awake at all, and I was also scared by his suddenness I jumped, especially after he opened his eyes and kept looking at me intently, without moving, which made my heart feel a little hairy.

"It's really similar." He chuckled and said softly. After hearing this, I felt discouraged and lost my temper, but Clause still went his own way, and he didn't have any scruples about what to say or express.

"Clause, what exactly do you want?" After feeling helpless, I think it's better to face him directly and ask him what his purpose is. "I just want to take back everything that belongs to me."

"Then what is yours?"

He didn't answer immediately, but smiled inexplicably, with a mysterious look, "You will know."

I'm tired of his repeated perfunctory responses, "Are you ready to let me know?"

"Oh?" Clause expressed puzzlement, "If you want to let me know, then why, you always answer me like this without saying anything. And, and..." After that, I'm not sure I have the courage to continue , So I stuttered and hesitated. Some people are too deep in my heart, and they become a forbidden place that I am afraid to touch. I am afraid that I will not be able to control myself and want to cry when I speak.

"And what?" He didn't give me a chance to repent, I bit my lower lip hard, looked at his insightful eyes, and wanted to break his mask, "Besides, my mother has been dead for a long time, why are you still Are you going to disturb her?" I couldn't hold back, but still yelled out.But he was not affected by my emotions at all, and he was still calm, "How can I see that?"

"Don't you play hide and seek with me again, dare you say that the person you went to China to find is not my mother? My mother died a long time ago, so please don't waste your time and don't want to get it from me What, I'm telling you now, so please, don't bother her again, okay?" In the end, I turned into a pleading, I was really scared, and instead of letting that father face Clause, I would rather Tell him the truth now.

I closed my eyes to calm down the impatience at the moment, my chest was up and down, and my emotions were finally relieved, but I found that his expression was still calm, as calm as water, I was surprised, could it be that I guessed wrong Oh, but Clause didn't actually go to find his mother?Oh, take a closer look, what's with that funny look in his eyes, is he laughing at my pretense of being smart?

"you……"

"How do you know?" he asked again.

I opened my mouth and he completely baffled me, I couldn't figure out what Clause was trying to say.

Seeing that I was puzzled, he finally started to say more, "Then tell me, how did your mother die?"

Suddenly, my heart felt as if someone had hammered it hard with a hammer. It was heavy and painful, but more of it was the sour feeling of guilt overflowing my whole body. My body stiffened immediately, but I didn't want him to see it. When I got a clue, I raised my chin forcefully, "Shut up, it's none of your business." But I didn't dare to look directly at him, I couldn't focus when I looked left and right, and I was flustered.

"Because of you," he said.Because of his words, my body trembled, and what I was most afraid of hearing was the accusation that my mother died because of me. Amidst the lightning and thunder, my face slowly turned red, but Clause was uncovering the truth of others. Behind the scar, he laughed, "It's not because of you".

"Tammy, it's because of me", he smiled charmingly at me, but the words in the smile made my brain split by lightning, and a white light suddenly appeared from it, making my brain blank and nothing can exist.

I finally closed my unstoppable lips, "What do you mean?"

"You'll know."

I clenched my fists, why, why is he always so hateful, but I didn't have the guts to ask, so I had to turn my head fiercely, still angry. Clause was so happy because of my pain, he even laughed out loud, treating me like a joke, laughing happily, that sarcastic laugh even extended all the way.

I was angry with him and myself, time disappeared in my self-pity, China arrived, until the moment I got off the plane and stood in a certain airport in China, when the wind blew my hair and the people around me turned from high nose bridge to white Foreigners with black skin turned into people of black and yellow race. When I heard the long-lost Chinese, I believed that I was back.

I suddenly wanted to cry. I thought that from the moment I got on the plane to the United States, there would be no chance of coming back, but it turned out that things are impermanent.

"Let's go to City A." Standing at the exit of the airport, Clause told me the destination close to my ear, but I couldn't help but look back at his expression, "Why City A?"

Fear of being close to home is not such a feeling, but a conflicting feeling of nostalgia and fear. I am afraid of it. It is the place where I grew up, but it is the hometown where my father was expelled from the country.My father's words have magic power, she deprived me of my surname, exiled me, I can't set foot on his domain, I can't, I dare not, I can't imagine his expression when he saw me.It was anger, it was hatred, it was anger, it was simply indifference, and each was an emotion I couldn't afford.

"Can I not go? I promise not to run away."

My expression was aching and pleading, and my voice was melancholy, and I folded my hands together, "Please."

Clause looked at me intently, trying to see through me, but he coldly refused, "No."

I opened my mouth and wanted to say something more, but I couldn't make a sound, tears rolled in my eyes, I just didn't want it to fall, I have my own pride, my request is to open up my past, even if I never said I gave details, but when I asked for sympathy, I was rejected. The shock was so great that I didn't want to sink myself into the dust, so I couldn't shed tears.

In the car, I didn't say a word to him again.When the sun rose again, when Clause stood by the train window all night, when the curiosity of the passengers on the train had gradually disappeared, we still arrived at City A.

My hometown is very unfamiliar to me, because I grew up in that small town, and the opportunities to go to the urban area are few and far between.

"I'm going to find someone, are you with me?" Clause said.

I pretended I didn't hear it and ignored it, "Tang Side, do you want to go together?"

I turned back and stared at him suddenly, but this time it was Clause who left me with a side profile, his complacency made my teeth itch with hatred, "You, how could you..."

Before I could finish speaking, he suddenly turned around, "Are you going or not? I'll let you choose."