thousand cups

What happened later, in Jiang Mo's view, looked like a dream, a nightmare.

There wasn't even much time to be sad, many things had already quietly and slowly weighed on his shoulders.Jiang Mo put everything down, and almost all of them lived in the hospital.Shen Chaowen took all the leave he could take, and accompanied him to rush around for Jiang Qidong's illness every day, thinking that he could share a little bit.

But going on like this is not the way to go, Shen Chaowen's horrific job can't bear to ask for leave every day.He really couldn't take care of both ends, and he was already planning to leave the job in the second month.

Jiang Mo was the first to see that he had the idea of ​​resigning, and drove him back to work in the office with a sentence of "don't come to see me again after you dare to resign".

Jiang Mo was very optimistic at first, thinking that no matter how hard it is, he will accompany his father to fight this cancer. Anyway, he will not be able to break down. He will hold on to the day when he will be better. The family will work hard together and cannot give up.

But as time went by, Jiang Mo's initial optimism was gradually dragged down because of this painful illness.

No good news on every check.

First of all, the tumor has metastasized to the liver, and surgery is not possible, only chemotherapy.

From the beginning, Mei Qing grew up with tears every day and quickly grew to another stage. She took care of her husband with all her heart every day, and it was hard for her to be a delicate young lady. Now she basically took over all the close things of Jiang Qidong, scrubbed her Body, food and water, she does everything, but Jiang Mo refuses to let her help.During that time, Jiang Mo couldn't believe that it was his mother, but it was also because they believed that sentence, a friend in adversity sees the truth.

That menacing illness tortured Jiang Mo's father, who had always been as stalwart as he remembered, into a different look.He is in pain almost every day, and most of the time he has to rely on painkillers and painkillers to relieve it.

Every time Jiang Qidong was distorted in pain on the hospital bed, Jiang Mo would collapse.

He couldn't figure out why his dad got this disease.

Jiang Qidong has no bad habits, doesn't smoke, and occasionally drinks alcohol because of work. He was born in a poor family, and it was not easy for him to achieve this position. He has always worked hard and never slack off. He has always been kind and gentle to his family. He is a stable and reliable father. , Jiang Mo has always respected him.

He didn't do anything wrong, Jiang Mo couldn't figure out why God made him suffer from this disease to torture him.

Ascites, edema, jaundice...it just kept getting worse.

By the eighth month, Jiang Qidong couldn't eat anymore, and it was difficult to drink some rice soup, so he had to take nutrition injections.

Shen Chaowen resigned during that time.He explained the situation to his boss who appreciated him very much, saying that his family members were seriously ill, and he was really not in the mood to take care of work.After listening to the whole story, the other party expressed his understanding, and explained the situation to Shen Chaowen. After all, the red circle is a place with fierce competition. When he comes back, he doesn't know if there is still a place for him here. I hope he will seriously weigh it.Shen Chao wrote his resignation report the next day without even thinking about it. He was no longer in the mood for work. A good job was precious to him, but Jiang Qidong only had one life. Under that circumstance, he had to give up.

Many people came to visit, but Jiang Mo was not in the mood to say hello at all, leaving Shen Chaowen to take care of everything.

Those who are sick are in pain, and those who accompany them are also in pain.Jiang Mo lost a lot of weight during that time, and he was out of his mind every day, as long as he fell asleep, it was a nightmare.

At the ninth month, Jiang Qidong's condition had deteriorated to the point where he started to have blood in his stool.He didn't get better and his condition got worse and worse.

Jiang Qidong finally said that he wanted to go home.

He only lasted two days at home.On the first day, he was lethargic. On the second day, Jiang Mo fed him some painkillers. Seeing that he had regained some energy, Mei Qing was very happy, and brought him a bowl of rice soup and said he wanted to feed him.Jiang Qidong nodded in agreement, saying let's have a drink.

When Mei Qing was feeding Jiang Qidong, Jiang Mo just looked at the side in a daze, didn't speak, just watched, with a numb face.When Shen Chaowen told him to eat, he shook his head and didn't want to say anything.

After drinking a little rice soup, Jiang Qidong beckoned him to sit down.

Jiang Mo walked to the bed and sat down. He and Jiang Qidong looked at each other, and his eyes turned red instantly.

"Xiao Mo." He spoke every word very slowly, "Chaowen told you to eat, why don't you eat?"

Jiang Mo lowered his head and did not answer.

Jiang Qidong said again: "In the future, eat well, drink less alcohol, and pay attention to your body." After a pause, he seemed to smile, "Don't be sad, birth, old age, illness and death are normal. Why are you crying? Dad remembers you don't love to cry."

Jiang Mo answered him: "I didn't cry." After a pause, he whispered, "I won't cry."

Jiang Qidong sighed.

They sat quietly for a while, and Jiang Qidong said, "Go and call Chaowen over."

He numbly stood up and let Shen Chaowen pass.

He heard Jiang Qidong say to Shen Chaowen: "Xiao Mo is not very sensible, please be more tolerant of him in the future."

Shen Chaowen paused and agreed.

Jiang Qidong said: "From now on, Xiao Mo will trouble you."

Shen Chaowen panicked, stood up at a loss, and called godfather.Jiang Mo's heart ached when he heard it, and he didn't have the strength to listen anymore, and strode out of the room rubbing his eyes.

Jiang Qidong died in the early hours of that day.

Shen Chaowen was basically handling the funeral affairs.Jiang Mo was out of his wits throughout the whole process, he just said you made the decision when he asked anything, Mei Qing was hit harder, Shen Chaowen didn't dare to bother the two of them, he gritted his teeth and took over the matter.

When he got busy, Shen Chaowen realized that the cumbersomeness of this funeral was completely incomparable with that of his grandmother's death. Jiang Qidong's status was there, and it was impossible for him to organize it according to the standards of a small place.Shen Chaowen was afraid that he would ruin the funeral and ruin the Jiang family because of his inexperience, and he was very worried.Fortunately, when Jiang Qidong's former secretary came to visit, he found that he was in a hurry and couldn't do many things, so he enthusiastically called a few people to come over to help, and the people from Mei Qing's family also extended a helping hand in time, Shen Chaowen Only then was he relieved.

Many people came on the day of mourning.

At the beginning, Jiang Mo was willing to stand there and perform for a while, huh, huh, and perfunctory words with his father's colleagues in the officialdom, and nodded politely when he heard other people say mourning, don't be too sad, etc. ,Say thank you.Later, he got annoyed and stared blankly at his father's portrait for a while, a little dazed.At that time, it was only halfway through the condolences, but he still willfully left the suffocating place without saying hello to anyone.

Shen Chaowen, who was still waiting outside to welcome the guests, was so busy that he didn't notice that Jiang Mo had run away at first. When Tang Li found him and asked him to take Jiang Mo's place, he found that he was gone. Only Mei Qing was still there. Standing, numbly shaking hands with relatives and friends.

After the ceremony, Shen Chaowen wore a black gauze and searched all the bars that Jiang Mo frequented, but he couldn't find anyone. He searched for a needle in a haystack, but couldn't find it.

When Shen Chaowen was rarely so flustered, he was completely flustered, afraid that Jiang Mo would do something stupid if he ran out.After thinking about it for a long time in the car, Shen Chaowen was so desperate that he wanted to call the police, Shen Chaowen suddenly remembered a story that Mei Qing told him.

When Jiang Mo was in elementary school, he secretly drank a bottle of wine from his father, and then...

Shen Chaowen drove back to Jiang Mo's house and went upstairs.

Mei Qing told him that when Jiang Mo was in elementary school, he started stealing his father's wine, and it was fine to steal it, but he only bought expensive ones, and that time it was Moutai.On the day his father came back from a business trip, he was afraid of being beaten by Jiang Qidong, so Jiang Mo hid in the big wardrobe in his parents' room.Jiang Qidong knew where he liked to hide when he made a mistake. When he came back, he went upstairs and found someone without much effort. He took him out of the closet, gave him a light spanking twice, and said that next time he wanted to drink, he would go straight to his father. Say, don't do sneaky things, do you hear me!

Shen Chaowen walked to the second floor, the room of Jiang Mo's parents, two steps inside, there was a large solid wood wardrobe that was not fully closed.

He walked over, gently pulled it away, and saw Jiang Mo squatting inside in a twisted posture, with his face buried in his arms.

Shen Chaowen squatted down with his legs bent, and gently stroked Jiang Mo's hair.

Jiang Mo said sullenly: "I can't hide anymore. I hid inside when I was a child, and the door can still be closed."

Shen Chaowen hummed: "You have grown up." After a pause, "Don't hide from now on, just face it."

Be quiet for a while.

Jiang Mo raised his face, squeezed an extremely ugly smile, and asked him, "What did my dad tell you that day?"

Shen Chaowen said, "Didn't you hear everything?"

"There must be more."

After a while, Shen Chaowen said slowly: "He told me, let me hold you when you are proud, control you, and don't indulge you too much. Let me encourage you and support you when you are frustrated. It’s time to tell you for him not to give up, he will always be proud of you.”

Jiang Mo lowered his head and buried his head in his arms again.This time he couldn't bear it anymore, he hugged himself in pain, tears welled up in his eyes.

I don't have a father anymore, he thought.

Enduring the pain in his heart, Shen Chaowen stretched out his hand, and hugged the skinny Jiang Mo out of it in the way Jiang Qidong did more than ten years ago.

Jiang Mo didn't resist, just leaned on his shoulder and closed his eyes very tiredly.