My baby tamer can't be the leader

... No, that's not the case. Instead of saying "I want to be the one you prefer" so dryly, what Osamu Dazai wants to say at this moment is--"Because I am happy with you You, so I am so eager to be loved equally by you, I want to be the one you prefer. '

But Osamu Dazai couldn't say the previous sentence calmly no matter what, he even felt that it might be easier to shake hands with Nakahara Chuya than to say this sentence, so he could only swallow it as if he gave up on himself I just read the first half of the sentence in my heart, and couldn't help looking at Xia Qi with expectant eyes.

If telepathy really existed in this world, the other party would probably have been dizzy by his heart sounds. Unfortunately, no matter how loudly he repeated the first half of the sentence in his heart, it would still kill him come easier...

The self-esteem of a young man is already strong, even if the sour feeling coming from the apex of his heart is so strong that he can't suppress it forcibly, he still insists on himself and refuses to admit defeat completely.

Osamu Dazai is indeed the type who is conceited and arrogant to the extreme. He doesn't know that he is probably overly complacent, but even if he knows that he has done something wrong, he still feels aggrieved and disappointed by the other party's anger.

Doing the wrong thing is indeed doing the wrong thing, but shouldn't the other party just discuss the matter?Why change your attitude towards him because of a mistake in official business?

Just like what he promised, if she feels that this will affect her layout, she can ask him to double to make up for everything she lost, but only, at least don't put this emotion into their relationship, right?

The leader who just took office thought about it, and almost convinced himself completely, even if there was a voice in a certain corner of his heart reminding him that this kind of thinking was completely one-sided, but Osamu Dazai was used to belittle or even completely ignore his own injustice. The things I like are just staying in my comfort zone and refusing to come out, like a cat that just sticks its head in a cardboard box and refuses to come out, or it got into a mud hole and never heard anything outside the window The little loach.

He hugged Xia Qi's stuffed coat, lowered his eyes slightly, and pursed his lips showing a hurt look.

Is it because he is not important enough to her?That's why she didn't hesitate to vent her anger on him?

Even if it is true that he did something wrong, but after all, the merits and demerits balance out, not to mention that he still shoulders such a difficult fate. Could it be that the struggle to maintain the world is not worth such a mistake?

Even if he knows this, he can't tell anyone at all now, but... Even he, he can't help but look forward to it.

I hope you understand my pain, I hope you feel my struggle, I hope you can...  

……

I stopped, and when I turned my head, I saw Osamu Dazai with his head drooping and a dejected expression.

The figure of the young man holding the overcoat at this moment is more upright and thinner than before, but the bright red scarf hanging from between his arms is so glaring at this moment.

Just like when he occasionally came up with something on a whim for me in the past two years, this guy has always been the kind of guy who knows that he has done something wrong, but it is definitely better to ask him to apologize seriously. It is even more difficult than him, especially once he is said to be a little serious, he will show a sad expression that is close to tears.

Rather than saying that he felt sad because he made a mistake and was held accountable, it is better to say that what he showed was incomprehensible grief... I really don't understand, is it gender differences or something, do boys have so much inner drama ? ?

It's just that although he is not good at apologizing, he is indeed the type who will make up for his mistakes in other ways, and will never make the same mistakes again, just like a cat who is exploring around after arriving in a new territory. If you are frustrated, you will never stretch out your tentative claws in that direction again.

It may be because I have been silent for a long time, Osamu Dazai raised his eyes to look at me, the kite eyes that were exposed outside the bandages were filled with some indistinguishable complex emotions, the most obvious one was that he was almost about to melt. Out of actual sadness, he whispered, "...Is it me who is not important enough to you?"

After waiting for a while, Osamu Dazai, who was still silent when I saw me, became visibly flustered, "How will you be willing to forgive me, Xiaoqi? If you want, I can take the whole of Yokohama, No, even the entire Kanto will be handed over to you, you know, I don’t care about these—”

"Dazai." I interrupted him, and said calmly, "If you and I have never had any intersection in the past, I will not agree to you, but I will not be angry with you, I will only feel that you have other things. Sutu... But now, I can tell you that it is because I care about you that I am so angry."

"You are betraying me." I said, "You are betraying my trust in you... I can care about material gains and losses, but for me, sometimes my emotional experience is more important."

"If you plan to have a pure interest relationship with me, then it doesn't matter if I stay and continue to talk to you, but if you want to maintain the relationship between you and me, it is because you are special to me, even if you put aside other things Apart from talking about everything, I think we can at least be considered friends, right? That's why I need and only need you to apologize to me." I sighed, "Some things are really not that complicated, Dazai."

It’s just that, for young people of this age, especially Osamu Dazai, who is arrogant and arrogant, apologizing is obviously extremely difficult. I even doubt that he has I haven't had a formal Daoqian with anyone, not the kind of apology that is not sincere at all, or light and airy like annoyance.

If it was a smooth adult like Mori Ogai, I am afraid that the words of apology would be blurted out immediately, right?It's just that comparing the two, I still hope that Dazai Osamu will not learn from Mori Ogai...at least not in this respect.

Seeing that Osamu Dazai was like a stuck machine, he froze in place the moment I said the request, seeing that he couldn't get around the corner for a while, I turned my head again , planning to leave here first.

But just as I turned around completely, Dazai Osamu took a step forward like a conditioned reflex, grabbed my wrist, and whispered in a soft voice like a mosquito, "I, I am very..."

His breathing was a little short, but after struggling for a while, he still couldn't utter the words completely.

I waited for a while, guessing that he would not be able to pass the hurdle, so I broke free from his hand and said, "I will wait for you."

This time he didn't stop me anymore, he stayed alone in the empty hall, just looking forward to me with a lost look while I looked back at the past, the always elusive brows are full of real helplessness at this moment I mean, like a cat that gets kicked out of the house after making a mistake.

When I think about it this way, my heart softens a little. After all, he is only 18 years old, and he grew up in a place like Mafia in the port... plus Mori Ogai's guard against him, his subordinates and others For his fear, I think, he probably has not been exposed to much "social" for normal people, maybe it is because he doesn't understand, so he messes up like this?

No matter how talented he is, the channel without contact is the channel without contact... Maybe I was a little harsh on him?

I sighed and stopped again, "What are you doing standing there? Is there nothing else to do?"

Dazai Osamu followed up almost immediately, and tried to post it as if he was wronged two years ago, but I ruthlessly pushed him away, "I haven't forgiven you yet, don't touch me until you formally apologize to me. I."

But the most obvious thing is that the mourning that had always lingered around him is gone at this moment, replaced by a carefully concealed sense of joy, as if he has confirmed his place in my heart by this , the inflated cat, which had been deflated, raised its tail again at this moment.

It's just that he also knew that he was still on probation, so he didn't show it so obviously, he just responded in a low voice and followed me obediently.

When I got out of that building, I originally wanted to go back and deal with some problems caused by the current situation. After all, I did plan to completely withdraw from Yokohama, but the new leader of the port Mafia is in front of me after all. I succeeded to the throne after solving the former leader, even if I get angry with Osamu Dazai, it will not solve the problem that I have been dragged onto the pirate ship... But if it is for the sake of profit, this may not be a bad thing, right Well, I wasn't angry with him for this reason before.

But Osamu Dazai showed that he didn't want to separate from me at all. Maybe it was because he knew that he would be punished, and I would definitely reject him mercilessly if he made an inch of it, so he suggested rather obliquely, "Don't tell me Don't you want to hear about the negotiation between me and the Supernatural Secret Service? Maybe there will be something useful to you..."

"Ha, what's so interesting about this? I don't need a license to open a business with supernatural powers. After all, I'm not Japanese? You don't know the attitude of the Supernatural Secret Service Division towards foreigners, do you?" I said without hesitation.

Osamu Dazai was obviously aware of this too, but persuading others was something he could easily do, so he changed his words almost immediately, "Of course it won't only include this point, it will definitely involve other aspects The transaction, if done well, can even force the other party to make concessions on certain vested interests... As you said, the Ability Secret Service Division has too much fear, so in some respects, they have to make concessions."

I thought about it for a while, and I roughly understood what he wanted to express. Since the Supernatural Secret Service itself is afraid of foreign forces, if I, as a foreigner, are willing to help them deal with it, they must be willing to make a certain decision. concessions.

"...That's right, that's fine."