After the death of thousands of people, the enemy regrets it

What surged in his heart was great pain, a feeling that Zhang Jun, who had always been good at calculating, had never experienced before.

Strange and cold, it hit his heart little by little like a gangrene, making his mind uncontrollably panicky, as if something would completely collapse and collapse in the next second.

He stubbornly believed in his heart that he could do what Ling Feng could do, and if Ling Feng could make Chu Yan accept him, then he could do the same.

He was willing to show his sincerity for Chu Yan to see.

But maybe Chu Yan's eyes were too cold, too cold, like frost on a snowy day, surpassing the malice and resentment he had touched in the past.

He has seen the hateful and ferocious eyes of the enemies he brutally killed, and the jealous and crazy eyes of the stray dogs he suppressed step by step. He took them all at ease, even willing to treat them as own glory.

But Chu Yan is different.

As long as he shows even the slightest bit of hatred or dislike towards himself, a huge sense of crisis will surge in his heart, the alarm bells will ring loudly, and he will be at a loss.

Maybe he didn't know how difficult this feeling was, but when he really felt the unease and fear in his heart, when his fingertips trembled uncontrollably, he knew that he was afraid.

But no matter what, he must not let go.

No matter what, he couldn't accept that this person left his sight and went to a place he couldn't touch or find.

It was too painful, and too cruel.

He absolutely cannot leave.

Unless you die.

Only then would he be willing to let him go.

Zhang Juan knew that if he showed that he was on the weak side and let Chu Yan know that his every move could easily grasp his heart, then he would have no hesitation when he left, because he knew that he was absolutely Don't dare to do anything to him.

Therefore, Zhang Juan took a deep breath and forced himself to calm down.

His gaze slowly dimmed, and an indescribable sense of oppression swept over him.

Zhang Juan's eyes were even a little sick, and Chu Yan felt that his arm was pinched by him.

His dark eyes were buried in the shadow of his hair, like the night, making it impossible to figure out his emotions.

Zhang Juan's voice returned to the usual calm and calm: "Today is your birthday, don't think about those unhappy things anymore, okay?"

Chu Yan sighed in his heart.

People who pretend to be asleep are really hard to wake up.

***

In the evening, candlelight was lit in Zhang Juan's residence.

In front of Chu Yan was a gorgeous cream cake, and the birthday candles on it were dancing with subtle firelight.

Perhaps this kind of atmosphere seemed too warm, the smoldering candlelight softened the contours of the person, making Zhang Juan's face look so affectionate, and his eyes so softly smudged.

He lowered his eyes and said his sincere blessings gently: "Xiao Yan, I never thought that I could still celebrate your birthday like this, do you know, when I thought you died in that explosion At that time, my world became black and white, and many things that I used to care about suddenly became lifeless and extremely dull.”

"I am a person who has a plan for everything I do. In the future I plan, you are always there. When you leave without saying a word, my expectations for the future will suddenly change. It’s a shell, and it’s like, whatever I do from now on has lost its meaning.”

When Zhang Juan spoke to him in such a solemn and flattering tone, he felt only ridicule in his heart for a moment.

I still remember that in my previous life, in order to survive under Zhang Juan's hands for a few more days, I was trembling while pleasing him like he is now.

The intuitive feeling is like a dog shaking its tail without dignity while shivering uncontrollably.

Lovely, pathetic, deplorable....and also hateful.

There was no way. At that time, he just wanted to live a good life. Only by living could he have the hope of seeing tomorrow. If he died, he would have nothing.

But now, time has passed, and the person he once desperately tried to please turned around and tried to use this warm birthday atmosphere and exquisite gifts to lure him back. How can this not make people feel ironic?

Maybe the world has really collapsed and can no longer collapse.

In the dappled candlelight, Chu Yan looked at the tempting cake with a calm face, but his heart was calm without any ups and downs, as if it was just an object that could only emit fragrance.

Seeing that he didn't move, Zhang Juan didn't get angry, but a gentleman picked up the knife that was put aside, very smoothly cut a piece of beautifully shaped cake for Chu Yan, and carefully placed it on the plate in front of Chu Yan, Passed him a fork.

Chu Yan didn't take it.

He really didn't know how he could be ashamed to eat this piece of cake in this situation, and eat the cake handed over by the person who tried to destroy Pavesh himself.

Seeing him like this, Zhang Juan felt a little heartbroken.

But now he will no longer force him to obey his orders.

He was already scared, for fear that this person would leave again because of his fear.

It was luck to find him this time.

But if there is a next time, how will he find him next time.

Is it really necessary to lock him by his side so that he can never lose him?

Because of the uncontrollable distortion and lust, at certain moments, Zhang Jun felt a little out of control.

In fact, he really wants to do this, and as long as he wants to, he is fully capable and has the means to do it.

He can give Chu Yan a new identity, and then hide him in a place that only he knows.

But...he knows Chu Yan's temperament best. He seems to be able to be manipulated by others, but in fact he yearns for freedom the most.

Yes, he can give them all.

But if he wants to leave himself, go to someone else's arms.

He really didn't know what he was going to do.

.......

In the dancing candlelight, Zhang Juan rolled up his cuffs a little, and then started pouring wine for Chu Yan again, and helped him cut the steak in front of him.

The fat and juicy pieces of beef were neatly stacked on the plate in front of Chu Yan, but he didn't have the slightest appetite

If it were viewed by uninformed outsiders, in their eyes, Zhang Juan was definitely a gentleman, elegant, and well-bred man.

But in Chu Yan's view, the more meticulous he was, the more afraid he felt, and even the things in front of him became hard to swallow.

The person Chu Yan feared most in his life was Zhang Jun, because he had controlled his few lives for several years in his previous life.

What's more, his current performance is very unusual compared with the past.

If it was before, at this time he should have forced himself to eat with an order, or find someone he cares about and force him to pay the price he least wants to see if he doesn't do what he says.

Zhang Juan's eyes were terrifyingly calm, but it seemed more like he was at a critical point.

Once he breaks through that point, he explodes.

Chu Yan watched in silence for a while, and finally picked up the knife and fork slowly.

Because Ling Feng was locked up, he hasn't eaten properly for many days.

Worrying about Ling Feng's safety is one aspect, and another aspect is that his stomach has been spoiled by Ling Feng, and he is not used to the usual meals.

Seeing that he finally tried to eat a little, Zhang Juan slowly pulled a gentle smile from the corner of his mouth.

However, Chu Yan couldn't help but ran to the bathroom to vomit before taking a few bites.

His current stomach is indeed very fragile, and he can't accept a steak that smells of blood for a while. What's more, his heart is as tight as a bow, and he has no appetite. When he eats such expensive food , and even feel a little nauseous.

He thought to himself mockingly, could this be the legendary wild boar's unpalatable chaff?

But in Zhang Jun's eyes, his current appearance turned into a different understanding - Chu Yan was so disgusted that he couldn't eat.

When Chu Yan realized it, he felt that Zhang Juan's face was turning black to carbon.

There was no ups and downs in his voice, but it made Chu Yan feel uneasy: "You just, do you hate me so much?"

Chu Yan lowered his eyes, trembling his fingertips, took a deep breath and said, "Before asking this question, you can try to reflect on what you have done."

Zhang Juan looked at him deeply, and Chu Yan could see himself in his eyes.

"I know you like it here, so I won't do anything to Pavistar."

Chu Yan stared at him in a daze, without saying a word.

When he was still in a daze, Zhang Juan quickly swept away the gloom in his eyes, and even asked him with a smile: "Are these dishes not to your liking? I can make new ones for you."

Chu Yan actually wanted to say something at this time, in fact, as long as you let Ling Feng out, everything will be easy to talk about.

But he didn't dare to say it out, for fear that he would run into Zhang Juan's minefield by accident, and then it would be a big move to court death...

.......

A birthday party that only belonged to two people broke up unhappy after all. Fortunately, Zhang Juan didn't push Chu Yan too close, and he didn't force him to look very happy. After all, for the current Zhang Juan The most important thing is the person's true feelings.

They need time and patience to repair their relationship with each other.

At the beginning of the night, Zhang Juan came to the place where Ling Feng was.

At that time, Ling Feng was looking at the night through the window, and when he heard the sound of the door opening, he turned his head slightly, without any fluctuation in his eyes, as if he was not surprised by his arrival.

Zhang Juan randomly pulled a chair and sat down, crossed his legs, stared at Ling Feng with eyes that were darker than the night, and asked him unfriendlyly, "How did you seduce him?"

Ling Feng seemed to have heard some good joke, and his shoulders trembled slightly as he couldn't help laughing. Then, as if he had noticed something, he asked, "You also know?"

Zhang Juan just looked at him coldly, as if he was very dissatisfied with his attitude.

Ling Feng likes to see Zhang Jun bumping into a wall, so he feels that he can finally take off his superior coat and learn to reflect on his mistakes.

He simply sat down and looked at Zhang Juan with a look of arrogance, which made Zhang Jun, who was sitting opposite him, itch his teeth angrily.

Ling Feng said calmly: "I have never lied to him from the beginning to the end, nor have I done anything irreversible to him. I have always treated him wholeheartedly, which is completely different from you."

Seeing that Zhang Juan was lost in thought with an unhappy expression, Ling Feng continued to make up his sword contentedly: "You only want to take by force. With Xiao Yan's stubborn temper, naturally he can't wait to run away from you."

Hearing him speak out his pain points so unabashedly, Zhang Juan's face turned livid, and he wished he could immediately stop fighting with him.

After the two had been in a stalemate for a while, Ling Feng finally stopped using sharp words to ridicule him, but communicated with him about the matter.

While Zhang Juan was still angry, Ling Feng suddenly asked a question: "Have you ever doubted a question, how did Xiao Yan survive the explosion?"

Zhang Jun was taken aback for a moment, and couldn't help thinking in this direction.

He is different from Ling Feng, until now he is still immersed in the joy and bewilderment of regaining what he lost, so that he has no energy to think about these details for a while.

And Ling Feng had been alone with Chu Yan for a while, he was so smart that he realized this very quickly.

An extremely important point.

When the explosion happened that day, although they were not present, Jun Buchen faced the whole process directly.

But if even he firmly believes that Chu Yan really died in that explosion, it means that it must be some kind of incredible power that can save Chu Yan.

The power to deceive them all.

Zhang Jun fell into deep thought.

At this time, when Ling Feng was concentrating on thinking, he said something that surprised him: "Zhang Jun, why did you monitor Xiao Mu in advance before the assassination of the Federation?"

***

This sentence made Zhang Juan unexpected, and his heart was shocked.

Indeed, the fact that Xiao Mu is a spy has always been hidden very deeply, even in his previous life, he has never been able to find out.

The reason why he was able to take precautions in advance in this life is naturally because he is a reborn person and has a bottom in his heart.

But why did Ling Feng ask such a question.

Under the dark moonlight, the eyes of the two of them were equally mysterious.

Zhang Juan looked at him deeply, as if reading something from his gaze.

He said bitterly: "Yes, for me, this is not the first time I have lost him."

Ling Feng only answered him with silence.

The two reached an inexplicable tacit understanding at this time.

A truth was reached in the hearts of the two of them by coincidence—they are both reborn people.

After each of them was sad for a while, Ling Feng raised a possibility: "I think we misunderstood the former Chu Yan. In the previous life, there may be some kind of force that controlled him and made him have to fight against us."

"And the power that saved him this time may be the same thing as the power that used to be."

"Not only that, but nothing that can heal Xiaoyan's eyes has yet to be developed, and what Xiaoyan can use is only a chip that allows him to see things for a short time."

"But now, he can actually see things with his own eyes."

Zhang Jun could also feel the difference between Chu Yan in these two lifetimes, but he didn't take it too seriously, because after all, Chu Yan was a child who grew up with him since he was a child, and he could feel that his nature was not bad. In this life, the reason why he didn't fight against Ling Feng immediately was because at that engagement banquet, Chu Yan didn't meet his own mother, and she didn't reveal the cruel truth by herself.

But Ling Feng gave him a new possibility.

Could it be that Chu Yan is actually a reborn person, so he doesn't want to make the same mistakes again.

However, Ling Feng obviously knew more than him.

Ling Feng rubbed his wrist, his eyes seemed to find a focus for his eyes, and he seemed to be recalling the past.

He said softly: "Actually, in Chu Yan's previous life, from the beginning to the end, he never hated me."

Hearing this, Zhang Jun's eyes widened slightly.

Ling Feng stated the fact to him frankly: "In my previous life, after I obtained the status of First Prince, I found a diary in his room."

"In this diary, he apologizes to me almost every day, and spares no effort in telling me in the diary how happy my future will be."

Speaking of this, his shoulders shook slightly, and he laughed at himself: "And I don't know what he thinks, he always stubbornly believes that whether it is you, Duan Zeyun, Xiao Mu or Jun Buchen, they will eventually fall in love with me .”

After Zhang Juan heard such absurd words, he suddenly felt that he couldn't accept it.

What a joke, how could he fall in love with Ling Feng?

Not long ago, because of jealousy, he was thinking about whether to let this person disappear into the world quietly.

It's just that he was so lonely that Chu Yan would be sad, so he gave up the idea and didn't do anything.

But Chu Yan actually felt that he would like Ling Feng?

What the hell is his little brain thinking about all day long?

Of course, Ling Feng also showed a disgusted expression, but soon he continued to state his thoughts: "I know that Xiao Yan has always been unwilling to do things that are not good for me, so in his previous life, he That's why it's so painful."

"But why can't his behavior be controlled by his own thoughts? Don't you think there is something strange about it?"

Zhang Juan's expression also turned cold.

"You mean, there is something that has been controlling his behavior, so that he has to fight against us, and then kill himself?"

Ling Feng also nodded with a gloomy expression.

In fact, it was the same for both of them.

None of them wanted to believe that the assumption just now was correct and correct.

Because if this is the case, what Chu Yan suffered would be a full two lifetimes of damage.

Once abandoned, abandoned, persecuted, and finally abandoned step by step, how helpless and desperate he must be.

But what is even more desperate is that they have been on the opposite side of him from beginning to end, even the perpetrators.

The night wind slowly beat against the window.

Obviously the doors and windows were closed tightly, but Zhang Juan felt as if he had never been so cold for a moment.

Ling Feng's complexion was also not very good. Although he had already made mental preparations, when he exposed these speculations to others again, the feeling was different after all.

For a moment, the air was dead silent.

Zhang Juan froze on the spot and didn't move for a long time.

The heart is extremely painful.

The wounds that had been on Chu Yan's body seemed to return to them, tormenting and roasting each other.

After an unknown amount of time, his hands slowly rested on his face, and no one could see what kind of expression he had at the moment.

He said sadly: "I don't know, I really don't know."

Ling Feng was not Chu Yan after all, so he didn't know what unreasonable things Zhang Juan did to that person in his previous life.

However, he did see various criticisms of Zhang Juan in Chu Yan's diary.

He also knew that Chu Yan lived in great pain in Zhang Jun's hands.

This is why he hates Zhang Jun so much.

Of course, he hated himself just as much.

If I had been more careful in my previous life, would things have gone to such a tragic step?

If he was more careful, would he be able to see that every time Chu Yan came to look for trouble, even the maliciousness on his face was actually very unnatural.

If he had been more patient, would he have discovered that Chu Yan had never thought of competing with him for anything.His heart has always been clean, without any pollution.

It's just that what is missed is missed, and what is lost can never be compensated.

What is left, perhaps only the repentance, and the devastation in that person's heart.

Can it be saved?

Can it be redeemed?

Can't tell.

Under the deep night, Ling Feng resolutely said: "I will definitely find a way to find out what it is that once controlled him."

Zhang Juan's fingertips were clenched tightly, and there were complex emotions in his eyes.

***

The next day, the sun rose as usual.

Chu Yan slowly opened a pair of tired eyes.

To be honest, he felt that he was really testing Zhang Jun's bottom line again and again last night.

Maybe he couldn't help but want to kill himself someday.

He yawned, then slowly got up from the bed, carefully opened a crack in the door, trying to see if there was any figure in the living room that shouldn't be there.

Fortunately, nothing was seen.

Probably because I woke up too late, the hardworking bird has already gone out to work.

He lay down on the bed dejectedly, looking at the ceiling with unfocused eyes.

At this time, a crisp electronic sound rang in his ears.

"Su Su Su Su Master! I have brought you good news!"

Chu Yan didn't have the mood to worry about him, but said with dull eyes: "Is it the finale of the news broadcast or the national football team won the world championship?"

system:"......."

Why do you feel like this person has become even more dull after not seeing you for a while?

Still, he's pretty sure he's going to be excited about the good news he's about to say next.

"It's such a host, I have a way to take you home."

Hearing this, Chu Yan's eyes really lit up.

He said impatiently: "What home? How to go back? Whose home?"

The system replied: "Of course I'm going back to your home! I have a way to get you back to your original world!"