[HP] How to properly feed the savior

Harry was lying on the bed, curled up, as if he couldn't lift his strength anymore.

He stood up, but noticed that the other party trembled with his movements, his lips moved, but no sound came out. "I know this is hard for you." Instead of leaving, he sat down on the edge of the bed.

"They all know, don't they? They just don't tell me, for fear I'll run away, run to Voldemort, tell him the truth, seek his protection." There was a hint of mockery in Harry's tone.

"The members of the Order of the Phoenix don't know it, they just follow Dumbledore's orders faithfully." He must admit that the Order of the Phoenix and the Death Eaters are two highly similar organizations in terms of leadership style and superior-subordinate relationship.

But Harry wasn't listening to what he was saying. "I won't, I won't betray the Order of the Phoenix, I won't betray Dumbledore, I...I would rather die!" The other party emphasized emotionally.

He reached out and lifted Harry's short hair on his forehead, his fingertips brushing over the lightning-shaped scar. "You're scared."

Harry's body trembled violently, and his emotions seemed to have completely collapsed, "It's useless, isn't it? No matter what I do, no matter what I think, I have been defiled... Voldemort has possessed me, I'm like something unclean... Even if they don't know it now, once they know it..."

He looked into Harry's eyes, so clear, so pure, and the flickering tears soaked the emerald green, making his heart feel as if he was hit by something in an instant.He didn't know why he did this, as if his body reacted faster than his brain, he gently held the other's hand, approached him, and lightly printed a light smack on the other's lips under Harry's surprised eyes kiss.The boy's lips were so soft and clean that when they parted, he still felt a little reluctant to part.

"No matter what you become, you will not lose what you got from me." He said softly.

Harry blinked, a blush quickly spreading from the tip of his nose to his cheeks.

"I understand the situation you are facing and your feelings." He gently stroked the blush on the other's cheek. "The worst thing is not the established fact that you are Voldemort's Horcrux, not the misunderstanding and alienation of those who once cared about you, not the terrible future that you as a Horcrux must be wiped out, but you want to live. When you know When you realize the truth, you clearly realize what it is to be alive, life is so important to you, you don't want to die."

Panic swept through Harry's body at a speed visible to the naked eye, "No, I just... I will still... I have no reluctance..."

"That's why you're so eager to deny the truth. Your will to live makes you feel dirty, essentially unclean. You can't deny your survival instincts, you can't turn a blind eye to the desire to live, you're alive Every minute and every second, you are clearly aware of the evil within you. This evil makes you out of tune with the environment you are in. Everyone around you has the idea of ​​kindness and justice. They gather together Fighting Voldemort here is not to save yourself, but to protect more people. And you, you fight Voldemort because you want to live. Now, defeating Voldemort will no longer make you live."

Harry buried his head in his palms, as if refusing to face it all.

"You will say that you are willing to give your life for those you care about," he said softly.They were so similar that he had no trouble guessing what Harry was thinking. "Yes, you do, that's why you're terrified of yourself, and you don't understand why you don't seem to be as sacrificial as you realize when Riddle tells the truth. It's not your fault, Harry, it's only when people love Your sacrifice only counts when you are in love with you. They love you as a savior, not as a dark lord. You died to fight Voldemort, which is a great sacrifice, in death In that moment, you can still feel the connection between you and more people - that is what we call love. Such a death is not terrible, on the contrary, it is happy and safe. And you When a Horcrux is destroyed, this bond doesn't exist."

"Choose to die, and you lose the love you had as a savior. Choose to live, and you prove to people that you are not a savior, and you still lose their love. You discover that living or dying is equal pain. Death is not as sweet as it used to be, that's why you realize that you have changed and become less keen on sacrifice. Your nature has changed, you have become something that hurts other people as long as you live, you The purity and kindness of nature are in conflict with your instinct to survive. They are fighting, just like the Order of the Phoenix and the Death Eaters. It can only be the end of one party destroying the other. Unfortunately, your kindness is not as you thought That can overcome everything."

"They have something in common," Harry eagerly grasped the fact, "If I offered to sacrifice myself, I'd still be contributing to the war! I've wiped out one of Voldemort's Horcruxes..."

"You thought that people would be mourning for your sacrifice, but they were cheering for the destruction of the Horcrux." He easily pierced the fantasy that rose in the opponent's mind.

"What should I do?" Harry looked at his hands, blankly. "You know that right? You always have the answer."

"Sorry, I don't have an answer this time." He walked to the window, and London was dark at night. "I was in a war and my lords called me to save the world. They chose me because I won every battle and they believed I could win again. There are no winners in wars, Harry. Both sides are losing. I didn't get it. I don't like war, I want to escape, my commander brought me back to earth, let me see the world, reminded me that there are people I love, everything I cherish Things, there are few precious good memories in my short life, if I don't fight and win this war, I will lose it all, just like you lost Ron and Hermione, you lost Sirius, you lost Professor Dumbledore, Lose Hogwarts, lose everything you love."

"What did you choose?"

"I won the war, the people I loved survived, and I committed terrible crimes. There is a price to pay for winning the war, and I have more blood on my hands than Voldemort and the Death Eaters combined A thousand times ten thousand times more - I exterminated a race and destroyed all possible futures for them. But if I had to choose again, I would still do it, because that's who I am, I would choose To protect the ones I love and never change. Harry, you haven't killed anyone, you don't know what it feels like... The scariest thing about killing is that it negates all future possibilities. No one deserves to die , there is no group that has to be wiped out, we cannot judge their future based on their past, because the future has not yet happened, and if their lives are terminated, we will never know what their future will be like. "

"I don't think my choice is right. Yet no matter what choice I make, it won't be right. But as long as I am alive, I will have to make a choice. I have thought more than once, if in If I did not survive a certain battle, if I would not have committed such a terrible crime, if I were not so unforgivable when I died. But however much I longed to end it all, when death When the threat of death comes, I will still choose to use all means to fight for the chance to live. I hate this, I hate my weakness, I succumb to the instinct of survival, every time I find that I am still alive, I have to bear the responsibility of being alive How many people died because I lived, how much harm did my existence cause, if I died sooner, would there be less evil in the world? Would people be less harmed? If so, why I'm alive?"

"Finally I realized that in me, living itself is a sin, and only death can end this sin. Harry, I am not suggesting that you sacrifice, I hope to give you a choice, you can choose to sacrifice , you can also choose to survive, but you have to know what the price you choose to pay, and confirm whether you have the ability to pay. Death is an easier option, but it is more difficult than death to live and bear the burden of everyone. The hatred, curses and swearing, bearing the cold future that no one will ever love you again. One day, people will use your name as the most evil symbol, no matter where you go, you will not reveal your identity—— There is no room for you in this world, and you still have to fight against the whole world for yourself. This is the greatest courage I can think of, no, it is not a great courage to sacrifice for the one you love, because when you sacrifice , You are not alone, and living soberly in eternal loneliness is the most difficult destiny for a person."

Many years ago, he also naively thought that he could choose the best path by thinking carefully before making a decision.However, the reality tells him that it is often the first to make a choice before he has the opportunity to think about why he made such a choice, just like he must live before he can think about why he should live.It seems that the heart is faster than the brain, and the reason has not finished analyzing, but the heart has already made a decision.No one knows whether he will regret such a choice, no one knows whether he will be crushed by the regret brought by his mistakes, and the most fatal thing is that no one can make a choice for others, and everyone has to make a choice for himself Taking full responsibility, all he could do was make Harry think a little more, and a little more, before choosing.

At some point, Harry came to his side and took his hand. "Even against the whole world, we are not alone."

He turned his head and saw the smile on the other party's face.

"At the beginning, I wanted to ask, why me? Why did I have to go through this? Even I found myself hating Ron and Hermione, they don't need to think about this, right? Only I am Voldemort's Horcrux, this It wasn't my choice, but it forced me to make a more difficult choice." Xiaoha lowered his head, as if in deep thought.The first rays of dawn fell over the low roofs of Grimmauld Place and fell on Harry's face. "But now I know that no matter how difficult this choice is, I will not be alone. Even if you are not by my side, even if you don't support my choice, you can still understand, right?"

"I will." He looked at the other party's eyes brightened by the morning sun, "and it will always be the same."

The author has something to say: Thank you Huahuayin for mine and Hetu~(≧▽≦)/~(Hey, is there something wrong with the format?

Post it here (I think this can be used as a character design~

Mr. Diary is the one in the Chamber of Secrets movie~ The hairstyle is too impressive.

The three of them are so cute~ The group says Xiaoha is the cutest~ But I think koalas are the cutest~ (Hey! Narcissist...

Hugging Huahuayin can be vigorously rubbed~ Vigorously~