that summer

The practice match with Xiangbei was over, and soon there would be the college league, and one day before the start of the college league, Weiyi heard an unexpected news from his mother at the dinner table.

"Did Yazhi get into a car accident?" Weiyi put down her chopsticks unconsciously, with a look of astonishment on her face.

"Yeah! It happened last week, it seems to be to save a manager of their tennis club... But don't worry, when I was in the supermarket, I ran into your Auntie Tamiko, and your Auntie Tamiko said that Masaharu was just injured foot, it’s not life-threatening, and he’s been discharged from the hospital today, so don’t worry.” Knowing that the relationship between Wei Yi and King Ni was pretty good, Mrs. Tian Gang gave Wei Yi a consoling smile, signaling that she didn’t have to worry, “It’s just because he hurt his foot. The injury seems to be quite serious, the doctor advised him to lie down at home for ten and a half months, so it's hard for him that he can't go to school for a while!"

Mrs. Tian Gang's words made Weiyi's heart sink slightly.Nioh is the main candidate for the Tennis Club of Lihai University. When he was in the third year of junior high school, Lihai University did not realize the dream of winning the national championship three times in a row. Therefore, Yukimura and the others will apply for the senior high school of Lihai University together after they are selected, hoping to complete it in high school. Their unfulfilled dream in middle school, this year is their first game after entering high school. Its importance can be imagined. Fox suffered such a serious leg injury at this juncture, and I am afraid that he will not be able to catch up with this time. It's the qualifiers, and it's even a question of whether he can participate in the Kanto competition. Thinking about this time, Fox must be in a bad mood.

After entering high school, the number of times Weiyi and Niwang met is very small. Even though the two families are very close, the time when they go out and go home is different from each other. When they meet occasionally, it is just a nod and a polite way And strange, worse than ordinary friends, suddenly, introspection, because of Lingnan, because of the immortal way, she and the fox gradually became two opposite lines, walking farther and farther...

"Weiyi, what's the matter with you and Masaharu? Did you quarrel?" Mrs. Tian Gang asked her this more than once, and even Madam Tian Gang asked Weiyi not to be self-willed because of a little thing, "You and Masaharu grew up together. A kindergarten, an elementary school, and a junior high school, and their homes are so close to each other. Nioh's father and Nioh's mother take good care of you on weekdays. When you take the entrance exam, sister Yumiko will help you make up lessons with Masaharu. You can't be ungrateful , even if there is something wrong with Masaharu, you have been in love for so many years, you can't say that you won't meet if you don't meet! You are like this... It will be very difficult for your father and me to be in front of your Uncle Niwang and the others."

Mrs. Tian Gang also told Weiyi that people need fate to get along with each other. Friends in this life may not be as good as strangers in the next life. She hopes Weiyi can know how to cherish and not regret it until it is really lost.

After hearing Mrs. Tian Gang's words, Weiyi's heart was quite heavy. At night, lying on her bed, Weiyi stared blankly at the ceiling, all kinds of things between the past and Nioh unconsciously appeared in her mind.

"Yazhi, why don't you practice with me!"

"What are you practicing? Don't! I don't have time! I want to dance and find someone else!"

"It's because no one else is looking for you! What's more, you are a boy! If you fall in love with a girl in the future, but miss the Unabara Festival because you can't dance, you will lose a lot!"

The memory is still fresh, in the first year of Haiyuan Festival in Lihai University, the cheeky she insisted on pestering him who was full of displeasure, and insisted on forcing him to be her dance partner temporarily and accompany her to practice dance.

He had a stinky face, and at first he was reluctant to dance with her, but when she looked at him tearfully and pulled his sleeve pitifully, he would unknowingly let go and agreed to be her practice partner .

"Hey! I danced with you only to sympathize with you! Don't get me wrong!" He put his arms around her waist awkwardly, and spoke fiercely.

She nodded and hurriedly responded.

Having known each other for so many years, of course she has heard his set of criteria for girlfriend selection:

You don't have to be beautiful, but you must be smart; you don't have to be able to sing, but you must be sociable!

He likes girls who are smart, generous, and sociable—this point, she at that time, heard him say it many times when she was a child.

And she obviously didn't meet his standards.

It doesn't conform to his aesthetics, but he treats her very well.

He would force himself to dance with her who has no dancing skills, and even asked her to be his dance partner on the night of Haiyuan Festival the year before last—even if they didn't enter the playground; even if his invitation was not considered a gentleman .

But, at least, he didn't make her lonely like that.

Nioh Masaharu, he was actually a very awkward boy, and she was too slow, now that she recalled carefully, she suddenly saw clearly that the real fox turned out to be a boy with a hard mouth and a soft heart.

Maybe, many times, she can't stand his sarcasm to her, but now, after chewing it carefully, she calms down and recalls it again, and she finds that every word and every sentence he said to her is for her good ——The matter of Fujita Kenji is one of the best examples.

"Don't you really know what I'm talking about? Have you looked at yourself seriously? Have you looked at yourself seriously? Or, do you know what your evaluation is in other people's hearts? Eyes What you see may not be true, and what your ears hear may be false. Why have you never suspected that those nice compliments are just superficial hypocrisy? Why do your ears always like to selectively hear what is right for you? The good part? Do you think everything is too naive? Do you think yourself too good? Do you really know that you have advantages? Where are your advantages? Before you shouted You want me to help you get into the tennis club, in all honesty, what can you do if you get into the tennis club?"

"Do you know how low your evaluation is among boys? Do you really believe that Fujita Kenji dated you because you are 'cute'? Does he really mean you are cute when he says you are cute? You Have you ever asked yourself what is so cute about you? Innocence is not the reason for your ignorance, one ignorance, one joke, didn’t make you face yourself? Tian Gang Weiyi, if you don’t learn to find your own self-knowledge , then you will always be the dumbest one among the girls I have ever seen!"

Opening up the dusty memory, putting aside subjective prejudices, looking back on that night, what he said to her, although hurtful, was an indelible fact—or, all along, she herself was too narrow-minded Only then, will she remember those words over and over again so clearly... so much so that she, who thinks she has grown up and is no longer the her in the past, now rejects everything about him so much, and remembers what he used to be. Some are good, completely wiped out, leaving only the pain, and always reminded.

Is she too selfish or is it human nature?The warmth and happiness of a long stream of water are far less impressive than a heart-piercing pain!As long as you have been hurt once, you don’t want to hurt again. The self-righteous protection turns out to be just to let yourself deny and forget the beauty that once existed.

Is it right or wrong?Probably, it's just that the authorities are confused, right?

Weiyi smiled self-deprecatingly, closed her eyes, and turned over, unconsciously, what Ayako said to her not long ago rang in her mind.

On that day, Ayako invited her to watch the Tachikai University match. After entering high school with Yukimura and the others, Ayako applied to be the manager of the men's tennis team. That day was the first match of the regional qualifiers. Although the opponent was not very good It's important, but Ayako still hopes that she can go and have a look. After all, she and Ayako, who are not in the same school, met only a handful of times because of club affairs, although they called each other every week , However, it is still a lot more alienated than when I was in junior high school.

But that day, she did not agree to Ayako's invitation—even though there was no practice or competition in Lingnan that day.

"Is it because of the fox that you didn't come?" Regarding her repeated rejection, Ayako still knew something, "Although I don't know what happened between you and the fox at the Kaiyuan Festival in the third year of junior high school, but since After that, there will be a wall between you and the fox."

Later, although Ayako didn't try her best to invite her to watch the game, she called her again on the day the game ended and said nonsensical things to her inexplicably.

"Fox, I really care about you, Weiyi!"

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"Maybe you don't feel it yourself, but, as a bystander, I can see it clearly."

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"Because I don't know the facts, I can't say who is right and who is wrong. However, I have seen how the fox has treated you since then. I have to say that I really want to say a few words for him. .”

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"Weiyi, do you still remember last year at the Haiyuan Festival, I told you that the fox and Fuzi were dating?"

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"It's true that the fox danced with Fuzi, but before the dance was over, the fox left Fuzi and ran away alone!"

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"The fox asked me, do you know where you are? He also asked me, where was the last time I saw you that day? It was because of this phone call that I knew that the fox would not give face that day before a song was played. Before it was over, I left Fujita Fuko alone on the playground to enjoy the cool air, for whom exactly!"

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"That night, the fox was looking for you at school for a long time! At the end of the dance, I saw him wandering around the playground with sweat on his head! I rushed up to him and asked him what happened? He refused to say a word , just kept asking me, did you call me!"

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"The fox...in fact, he cares about you very much, and even likes you..."

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"Don't deny it so absolutely. You have never looked at a fox with your heart, so how can you be sure that what I said must be wrong?"

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"Be fair to the fox, Weiyi!"

Ayako said she was unfair to the fox at all; Ayako said she never took the fox seriously.

Thinking about it carefully, what Ayako said, every single word, is correct.Since the night when the fox said she was dumbfounded, she really closed the door of her heart to the fox. She never looked at him or believed in him. The relationship has become the embarrassing situation it is today.

Is she... is she really too selfish?

The corner of the mouth buried in the pillow raised bitterly.

Tomorrow... go see the fox!

She shouted to herself from the bottom of her heart, and secretly decided to find a way to have a good talk with the fox, to untie the knot between each other—she... didn't want to lose the friend of the fox, the relationship of more than ten years, she didn't want to be like this ended inexplicably.

Even... Even if you can't go back to the past, don't be as awkward as you are now.

After all, the ten years between them was not fake.

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