God said I would meet you

The winter wind in the north is always colder than that in the south.

With the advent of winter, the time for the sun to hide below the horizon is getting longer and longer, but the time for shining is getting shorter and shorter. Zhang Xinli stepped on the dry and cold floor tiles of the street, walking under the haze of light gray clouds. , Zhao Wujie was holding a cigarette crookedly at the corner of his mouth, and kept calling him behind him.

Zhang Xinli turned a deaf ear to it, and just walked forward in a hurry, as if he was eager to get rid of a piece of sticky brown sugar.

"Hey, no matter how I say it, I've done you a favor," Zhao Wujie said, "You're so unhuman."

"No one asked you to help."

Everything that happened on the garden path is still vivid in his mind. Zhao Wujie "helped" him deliver a wad of money to Lin Jinyu, but Zhang Xinli hesitated for a moment and chose to remain silent.

In that context, silence can say a lot.

Lin Jinyu stared at it for a long time but did not wait for Zhang Xinli's reaction. He looked at the two people who suddenly put on a pair of trousers, and after being extremely angry, he laughed instead. Zhang Xinli seemed to be able to see the disappointment solidified in his eyes. .

Zhao Wujie was standing next to Zhang Xinli, almost shoulder to shoulder with him. Those who didn't know the scene thought they were good friends, and they were fighting against the enemy who came to make trouble together.

Lin Jinyu brushed her hair back, held the stack of money in her hand, pointed at them, and said, "Okay, very good..." He looked at Zhang Xinli and said, "I thought, whether you continue or leave, you At least I won't let others meddle in our affairs."

Zhang Xinli was speechless for a moment, then said, "...you are the one who made trouble out of no reason."

He seemed to have exhausted all his patience, so that when Lin Jinyu turned and left, he didn't chase after him.

"I said... where are you going?" Zhao Wujie followed him all the way out of the school gate from the main road, and persistently said behind him: "I have a car, take you?" He stretched out his hand to pull him.

Zhang Xinli opened his hand mercilessly, turned around, and said with a gloomy face, "No need, don't touch me with your disgusting hands."

"Disgusting? How disgusting," Zhao Wujie said in a nonchalant way when he was so skinny and shameless at times, "I'm kind, so there's no need to use such adjectives... Is it because I've slept with so many men? I'm dying of laughter."

Zhang Xinli began to walk back to the direction of the rented house, and Zhao Wujie was still talking about something behind him: "Hey," he lowered his voice a little: "How many times have you been there, let's hear it."

"Nothing to do with you."

"Tsk tsk tsk, now you're upright. It's not like this when you need me." Zhao Wujie talked to him seemingly warm and friendly, but his eyes caught every slight change in Zhang Xinli's face.

Zhang Xinli walked his own way without even looking at him. He sneered and said, "When will I ever need you?"

"Just now," Zhao Wujie moved the cigarette back and forth in his mouth with his tongue, and smiled inexplicably: "Maybe there will be... some moments in the future."

While turning the lighter back and forth between his fingers, he watched the expression on Zhang Xinli's face, trying to find any signs of awkwardness or disharmony... Zhao Wujie didn't trust anyone, he doubted everything, this delightful scene The quarrel seems to have happened too coincidentally. Although he always believed that debauchery is the nature of all gays, and scoffed at the loyalty and love that Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli once showed, but for the time being... he will not fully believe what he sees.

But on the way from the garden to the street outside the school, he couldn't get any information from Zhang Xinli's expression. This guy had no expression in the first place.

He didn't even bother to pay too much attention to Zhao Wujie, he probably regarded him as some unimportant passerby, still translucent.

"Hey, don't keep talking," Zhao Wujie said, "Where are you going now?" He said, "Don't forget, if you owe me now, or if you immediately slap the money in my face with interest, I will disappear immediately." , otherwise you, who owe money, will act like an old man who can't justify it."

Zhang Xinli moved his eyes, glanced at him, and finally said, "Pack up your things," he said, "I told you I'm not from your school. If it wasn't for your scum, I wouldn't have come here at all."

Zhao Wujie looked at his eyebrows and eyes from the side: "You should thank me. Thanks to me, you can get rid of your boring, incomprehensible little boyfriend, who may have a lot of sex friends outside... ex-boyfriend."

There was no suspicious wrinkle in Zhang Xinli's eyebrows... At least Zhao Wujie didn't notice it, as if he really didn't care about Zhao Wujie's teasing of Lin Jinyu.

"I will return the money to you as soon as possible after I return to school," Zhang Xinli said, "I don't have it now, it was taken away by him, and I don't plan to get it back."

"It's really generous," Zhao Wujie said, "but...if it were me, I wouldn't want it either, I'm not short of money."

He is really generous to his friends with guns. For those little zeros who have maintained a relationship with him, Zhao Wujie is happy to send some expensive small gifts to make them happy when they are happy. Everyone only has physical entanglements, and there will be no economic fraud. ...which is perhaps one of his few strong points.

He said, "I don't care if you don't pay me back."

During the conversation, the two had already walked downstairs, Zhang Xinli turned to look at him, Zhao Wujie said: "Or, invite me up to have a cup of tea, I can give you a few more days... I can help you clean up the house as well."

Zhang Xinli didn't say yes or no, just turned his head back and started to walk upstairs.Zhao Wujie waited and watched for a while, and seeing that he had no intention of refusing, he followed behind him.

All the furnishings in the room, including the water glasses on the table and the folds on the sheets, were exactly the same as when he went out in the morning. It seemed that Lin Jinyu hadn't come back to take a nap or something. It seemed that neither of them was attached to this little girl who lived together. nest.

"The kettle is on the table. If you want to drink, pour it yourself." Zhang Xinli still treated him lukewarm. After perfunctory Zhao Wujie, he opened the cabinet and began to pack his clothes.

Zhao Wujie looked at his unrestrained actions and said, "Are you really going?"

"Otherwise?" Zhang Xinli said as he took it away, "What are you doing here?"

Zhao Wujie raised his eyebrows and asked deliberately: "You don't care about your ex-boyfriend? He even 'stolen' my jersey."

"Are you blind? You couldn't see after arguing several times?" Zhang Xinli was very impatient, as if any words related to Lin Jinyu displeased him, and he didn't want to bother anymore: "If you are blind, jumping from the window can still be in time for reincarnation."

"Uh, I don't know," Zhao Wujie said on purpose, but in fact he knew it all: "Just today I just met... a while ago, I didn't have an affectionate relationship, did you suddenly have any conflicts, otherwise it shouldn't be, it's so noisy So inexplicable."

"If you stay with him for a while, you won't feel baffled," Zhang Xinli said with a bit of resentment in his tone, as if he was not concerned about whether Zhao Wujie saw the quarrels that happened in the library or other places before: "He willful, unmotivated, incapable of earning money and spending it with peace of mind... You don't know how difficult he is to serve, he often loses his temper at every turn, or throws things down when he's down."

This is in line with Zhao Wujie's impression of Lin Jinyu: the second generation from a good family, self-centered, as for losing his temper... Shao Rong told him that this guy is still mentally ill.

These are the contradictions that are very common among couples, but the ones that drain patience and love the most. When Zhang Xinli said it, his tone was impatient and he had a unique sense of complaining about his ex. What he said was also very reasonable and true. It's not like acting at all, the balance in Zhao Wujie's heart is slowly tilting towards the side of "belief".

He thought for a moment, and walked slowly behind Zhang Xinli. Zhang Xinli was still focused on finding his clothes from the messy closet, and seemed very determined to make a clean break.

"Hey," Zhao Wujie took the cigarette he had been dangling from his mouth, and finally tentatively said behind him: "So...you are considered free now?"

"I don't understand," Zhang Xinli said, "What kind of empty window period and empty bed period?"

"It's just being single," said Zhao Wujie, who had learned a lot of vocabulary in gay forums in Taiwan when he was thirteen or fourteen years old. Couples usually don't have sex for a long time before breaking up. He approached Zhang Xinli from behind and whispered in his ear Bian said: "Since I don't have a companion...do you want to try with me? I'm still very interested in you now."

Zhang Xinli stopped packing his clothes. He paused for a moment, then turned around and faced Zhao Wujie.

Generally speaking, face-to-face social distance is longer than back-to-back social distance, but Zhao Wujie still maintained the original posture, neither moving nor retreating.

Zhang Xinli's pupils turned down, and he looked straight into Zhao Wujie's eyes without hesitation at this distance that was too intimate and too provocative—every long-term gaze between people is a game, which is a magical, In a silent confrontation, a person's character, personality, or something that cannot be expressed in words will often be reflected in the eyes. Some people are weak, some are firm, and some are more firm... The one who is not as firm as the opponent will be here. Look away in this silent confrontation, and then obey.

Zhang Xinli stretched out his finger, and poked Zhao Wujie's chest: "I'm not interested in quilts, so you can remember them only if I engrave them on your body with glass."

Zhao Wujie has always claimed to be "pure 1". In his concept, it is probably similar to a rare, honorable, particularly strong and powerful, top-of-the-food-chain status title... His femininity in men I scoffed at it, thinking it was something lowly.

But at the moment when Zhang Xinli pointed at him, when his eyes met, he suddenly had a feeling that he had never felt before. It was a magical feeling of domination and dependence that came from nowhere but made people feel comfortable. There is no doubt that he likes Zhang Xinli, and likes to breed appreciation and admiration... Even if this like is as shallow as paper.

He likes his face, body, and the temperament and hard character that exudes.

Human beings are a collection of contradictions. Everyone has the desire to give love, to be loved by others, to dominate others, to be dominated by others... All these seem irreconcilable, but they are real. co-exist.

Zhao Wujie thought about it carefully, and it seemed that things that were absolutely unacceptable in the past became not difficult to accept.

He finally tried: "Maybe, your boring ex-boyfriend doesn't know much at first glance, I can take you...it will make you happy, trust me."

Zhang Xinli didn't speak, just watched him silently.Zhao Wujie's eyes wandered, he glanced around, and then looked into Zhang Xinli's eyes, and finally confirmed that this is a man who will not give in to anything, he is so firm, he does whatever he wants, he will not change if he is sure, and everything will change. Follow him.

"Okay," Zhao Wujie finally said with a little hesitation, "...You 1 and I 0, it's okay."

He also said this sentence in the bar, but at that time it was mainly to make some jokes to attract Zhang Xinli's attention so that Shao Rong would have enough time to run around with the computer, but this time... Zhao Wujie was serious.

However, just when he felt that he had made the biggest concession, Zhang Xinli suddenly pushed him away mercilessly, like throwing away a torn burlap bag: "Do you think the problem is here?" Be clear, I don't like it," he said, "I'm not interested in ugly ones, not even in bed."

These words seem to hit Zhao Wujie's chest with a heavy hammer. In fact, his appearance is not bad, and he has always enjoyed himself in the circle. Basically, it is only the others who support him. He has never...never made appointments. Such ridicule and insult.

"You..." Zhao Wujie was speechless. If Shao Rong or some weak guy dared to say such a thing in front of him, he would immediately grab that guy's hair and push him to the ground, giving him a life he would never forget. It's a lesson that can't be learned, but at this moment, he just... has no strength, can't do it, as if all his arrogance and vigor have been suppressed.

"Do you understand?" Zhang Xinli wrote lightly, "If you understand, then get out."

Zhao Wujie was very frustrated, but at the same time he was 100% sure that the breakup between Zhang Xinli and Lin Jinyu was real and not acting. If Zhang Xinli immediately agreed to this kind of invitation right after they broke up, he would feel weird and wrong... But he simply He politely turned him down.

From the beginning to the end, Zhang Xinli didn't show any interest in him, nor did he ask for it, and he didn't even bother to say clichés... His tone of driving him away was like asking the trash to go to the door so that he could throw it away.

"Don't give an answer so quickly." The more you can't get something, the more you want to go crazy. The paranoia in Zhao Wujie's own character has exploded to the extreme. He feels that he has never slept with someone so deeply: "We There is still a bill in the room...you just treat it as a joke, how about it."

Following Zhang Xinli's momentum to push him away, he stepped back a few steps and sat on the bed, licking his teeth: "You don't have any messy moral baggage like cheating now, I beg you...your ex-boyfriend took you All the money has been taken, right? Make an appointment, and I can help you."