God said I would meet you

In the study room, two tall figures stood facing each other.

"you sure?"

Unlike her refusal to accept the earrings, Lin Jinyu's words really surprised Ning Shengkai. Although the pair of Bulgari earrings were worth a lot, they were just decorations after all. It's optional, whether Lin Jinyu will accept it or not, Ning Shengkai is not completely sure... Probably it will be on June [-]th, but the work is completely different.

As the saying goes, cutting off one’s wealth is like killing one’s parents. For an adult, the source of income is the foundation of everything. Ning Shengkai is very aware of Lin Jinyu’s current situation. A college student who has no job and has not yet graduated needs to complete his studies and internship tasks. Supporting himself - he has nothing to do and can't go back to his old shop.

"Of course." However, although Lin Jinyu's tone was not aggressive, he was very sure, without thinking, let alone discussing: "Otherwise, based on my current position with you, do you think it is appropriate for me to come?"

"Whether it's suitable or not depends on how you look at it." Seeing that Lin Jinyu had clearly rejected the gift, Ning Shengkai tried to take a step back to give each other some buffer, so that there might be another chance in the future: "Do you think I let you You deal with documents because you pitifully provided a false position on purpose, that’s not the case, I really need someone to help me process those information...my time is precious, and I don’t have time to waste on meaningless information.”

He went on to say: "I won't go back on what I promised. Since you have a clear conscience, you can just pretend that there is no such thing and go back to the previous relationship... No matter what, at least we are still ordinary friends."

These words sound somewhat reasonable, and it will give those who want to reject Ning Shengkai and at the same time be reluctant to give up such a good job a reasonable step, so that they can comfort themselves that it's no big deal to grab both hands——but Obviously, Lin Jinyu does not belong to this type of person.

Lin Jinyu still smiled and said, "Do you think this makes sense?"

He is very clear that Ning Shengkai's seemingly reasonable logic is nothing more than a villain's self-consolation, it belongs to being a whore and setting up a torii. On relationship issues, an unsteady rejection is not a rejection.

Ning Chengkai looked at him, but stopped talking.

Lin Jinyu tapped the table with his right index finger: "That's it, Mr. Ning," he said, "I already have a lover, and... we are not the same way."

Probably because Ning Shengkai didn't understand, he showed mercy and explained: "You said that you will definitely get married in the future. Based on this alone, I will never have anything to do with you."

Ning Shengkai said: "It's not a real marriage, it's just a formal marriage based on an agreement, and it won't interfere with my real personal emotional life."

"A formal marriage is still a marriage to me. As you said, the legal relationship itself is of great significance," Lin Jinyu said, "I don't accept... Personal likes and dislikes, dislikes, it's as simple as that."

Ning Shengkai was speechless.

"Goodbye...thank you for your help during this time." After Lin Jinyu finished speaking, she nodded her head in gratitude gracefully, left all the earrings and folders behind her, got up and left.

……

It was getting late, and after Lin Jinyu walked out of the tastefully decorated and furnished residence for a while, the calm and chic look on his face gradually faded.

I have to... run around for a living again.

How to say that sentence, there really is no free lunch in the world, and there is no pie in the sky. Life has never been easy.

Originally, based on Zhang Xinli's current income plus the [-] salary given by Ning Shengkai, they finally had a little more money when the rent was temporarily settled. Even in Shanghai, they could take a breather and not have to worry about living expenses every day. .

Lin Jinyu originally thought that maybe they could live a little better, at least they could sleep when it was time to sleep, and they could see the sunshine every morning.

Now everything has to be re-planned.

Lin Jinyu leaned on the electric pole by the side of the road and smoked a cigarette, overturning all the visions that he had conceived for a long time. There was still a long time before Zhang Xinli got off work. Went to the clothing store where Zhang Xinli worked part-time.

……

Unlike other clothing stores, Uniqlo employees always seem to be walking around with a big pile of clothes.

Lin Jinyu saw the familiar figure in the clothes hanger at a glance, Zhang Xinli was still the same, always calm, the expression on his face was not serious, but he didn't smile too much.

After get off work, when there were a lot of people, Lin Jinyu saw him, but instead of waving hello through the glass window, he walked in after a few customers who entered the store.

"welcome……"

???

The employees have strict rules, and when they see customers entering the door, they must yell loudly, and they have to keep going one after another. Zhang Xinli saw a figure from the corner of his eye, and just halfway through the welcome speech, it was as if he had been slashed in the middle, and fell silent.

Lin Jinyu blinked, and said, "Where's Cier? After finishing speaking, I'm not welcome?"

"...Please choose whatever you want." Zhang Xinli held several clothes that were messed up and needed to be returned. He finished the second half of the prescribed line in a low voice, holding the clothes and casting a questioning look at him.

Gossiping during working hours would be very bad, so Lin Jinyu started to cosplay an ordinary customer, picking and choosing from rows of clothes.

Zhang Xinli hesitated for a few seconds before starting to fold the clothes beside him.

There are quite a lot of Uniqlo clothes in Lin Jinyu's closet. This brand is more versatile, and the co-branded T-shirts are also good-looking. He is like a customer who really comes to buy clothes. He glances here and there, and asks Zhang Xinli for a certain size from time to time.

In the eyes of the store manager and other employees, they are just ordinary shop assistants and customers.

Lin Jinyu walked, deliberately walked to a place with fewer people behind, Zhang Xinli hung up the hanger, and said, "Why are you here?" He said, "Have you finished talking with... him?"

"The talk is over," Lin Jinyu looked at the rows of pleasing white T-shirts, and said, "The talk is very finished."

Zhang Xinli thought it meant "very smooth", he was silent for a second, and said, "...Congratulations."

"It should be congratulations," Lin Jinyu lazily picked up his clothes, and said, "Congratulations to us."

"What does this have to do with me?" Zhang Xinli said with deep gloom on his face, "Congratulations, there are always people willing to help you."

Lin Jinyu looked at him, almost amused by his little expression, and suddenly wanted to tease him: "It's not a help," of course the unspoken rules are not a help, he said: "But he gave me a pair of earrings, saying it was a New Year's gift. "

Zhang Xinli was silent for three seconds, then said, "Oh."

He bent down to fold the clothes and asked, "Do you like it very much?"

"It's really pretty," Lin Jinyu said, "Actually, I've seen it on the official website. It costs seven or eight thousand. I want to buy it, but I don't have the money."

Zhang Xinli didn't look at him, and said sullenly: "...It's good, someone will see you off now."

Lin Jinyu looked at him, suppressed a smile, and said, "I confiscated it."

Zhang Xinli raised his head, and Lin Jinyu said: "The on-the-spot education was pushed back, and that job... I quit."

Zhang Xinli turned his head and said, "What?"

Lin Jinyu repeated: "I quit the job that Ning Shengkai gave me."

This is really...unexpected, Zhang Xinli couldn't believe it: "Why? You are not quite..."

I like getting along with him very much, and he treats you very well.

"You're right," Lin Jinyu said, "Ning Chengkai actually..."

He didn't know how to express half of it. In fact, what... what did he think of him?It seems not so frivolous, love him?And 100% not.

Zhang Xinli said: "I like you, right? How do you know? What did he do to you?"

Lin Jinyu hurriedly said: "No, it was just a gift for me," he said, "At first I thought...but it's not the kind of liking I thought, he is just like the two of us."

After hearing the negative answer, Zhang Xinli seemed calmer. Regarding the news that Ning Shengkai was also gay, there was no surprise on his face: "So, you refused?"

"Yes, he said that he could return to the previous relationship, be an ordinary friend and go to work as usual, but I also refused," Lin Jinyu said, "You don't seem surprised at all, why didn't you tell me before."

"I expressed it at the beginning." Zhang Xinli turned around to put the folded clothes, and after a few seconds, he turned his back to Lin Jinyu and said in a low voice, "I don't want to quarrel with you."

Those ambiguous displeasures... Lin Jinyu said, "Well, I didn't think about that."

Such a minority group of sexual minorities... Who would have thought that since they got together and came out, the gay content around them increased linearly. Probably this is the old saying that like attracts like, and people are divided into groups. When they no longer deliberately cover up social Identity, the same people naturally entered the same social circle.

After Zhang Xinli finished folding his clothes, he turned back to look at Lin Jinyu, hesitated for a few seconds, and finally confirmed, "So...you have nothing to do with him now?"

Lin Jinyu replied: "I don't have any relationship anymore, but correspondingly, I am unemployed again."

Zhang Xinli didn't respond to the second half of the sentence, his eyes were full of disbelief, as if he was suddenly fooled by the long-awaited news.

After a while, he said: "In fact, he is indeed very good. He started his own business, is rich, and has social status...Since he said to be ordinary friends, if you like that job, you don't have to do it because of me..."

Lin Jinyu exposed him and said, "Come on, you don't think so at all."

"..." Zhang Xinli said, "Yes."

There were people coming and going in the store, Lin Jinyu said, "When did you learn to be hypocritical, huh?"

Zhang Xinli looked away and said, "I'm afraid you will regret it."

"I'm convinced," Lin Jinyu dragged him to a corner, avoiding Zhang Xinli's boss' inspection: "Why? Because you think he's better than you?"

Zhang Xinli said, "Maybe."

"Fuck you maybe," Lin Jinyu said: "There are too many excellent people. There are countless excellent people in this world, but falling in love is not about buying vegetables. You choose to be with me because I am 'excellent' Is it? Excellent, valuable to you?"

Zhang Xinli said, "No, but you are excellent."

"Not necessarily," Lin Jinyu said: "Put me on the balance, and you will find that I am not 'excellent'." Lin Jinyu said: "As a lover, I will never be able to give you everything. You fall in love with a woman, Get married, go to bed, they can have children with you, they can satisfy your parents, and they can keep you from being judged, those are things I can't give you, but didn't you still choose me?"

Lin Jinyu said coldly: "You didn't choose me because I can give you everything, I can only give you a part. You chose me because of that part, and it's the same in exchange."

Zhang Xinli may not know what the most important thing he gave to Lin Jinyu is not the care in daily life, nor the accommodation in small things, nor money and wealth, but youth, the initial heartbeat of the student days, companionship, Care and love, those things no one can give Lin Jinyu anymore, because life is just a moment, time cannot be turned back, and when 17 years old has passed, it will never come back.

Those things are also no one can give to himself.