God said I would meet you

They just drank four or five taels each, Zhang Xinli looked normal, Lin Jinyu was fine, she was young and strong in her 20s, and it was the time when her liver and kidney functions were at their best, so it was fine to drink so much.He mainly felt that something was wrong. You said that three people at a table were eating and drinking, how could you go back in a while, and you were driving a car.

"You're stupid, find a replacement driver!" Xu Zhao's memory of throwing up in front of all the members of the basketball team and the girl he had a crush on in middle school has been circling in Xu Zhao's mind for many years. Today, he made all the preparations and swore As soon as she was ashamed, she didn't intend to let the two of them walk out of the door by themselves after drinking: "It's rare to relax for a while, why mother-in-law and mother-in-law are on it, unlike you, you used to be more active than anyone else when it comes to drinking."

"What kind of mother-in-law and mother-in-law? I'm still father-in-law." Lin Jinyu was speechless: "You are the one who is more active than anyone else."

Xu Zhao has completely inherited his father's demeanor of scolding Fang Qiu in the commercial wine bureau, but Lin Jinyu has not been interested in his father's career since he was a child. He would rather his father has been teaching in school, so that the daily life is always relatively difficult. Simple students, from nine to five, go home to read books, write things, and tell stories to him. They will not be so busy, and they will not be subtly soaked and influenced by the ups and downs of the business field.

Lin Jinyu didn't like the businessman's father very much.

"Okay, okay, I'm positive," Xu Zhao said to the three of them again: "Anyway, this meal should be celebrated as a birthday. You said that it happened to be Friday again, so just sleep all day drunk. You can never disappoint."

'Disappointment' is really a panacea charge, and I feel sorry for it.Lin Jinyu looked at Zhang Xinli and felt that he probably wouldn't respond positively either, but Zhang Xinli said, "Whatever you want, I don't care, just have a drink."

He has always been cryptic in his speech, and "you can have a drink" probably means that he wants to drink.

Xu Zhao immediately said: "Look, the birthday star himself spoke, so don't disappoint."

Most of the people in Liangshan’s Yi-inhabited area love to drink so much that it’s okay not to eat but not to drink...the two of them used to have a lot of pressure on their shoulders, and they hardly relax. Now it’s hard to see It's dawning, those who go to school have entered a higher education, and those who don't have a job, it is indeed time to relax.

Thinking of this, Lin Jinyu said, "Okay, don't worry about anything today, just eat and drink happily."

"That's right." Xu Zhao simply pulled out his chair, came down and clinked glasses with them one by one: "Come on, do it, I'm serving good wine and food, and it should satisfy your picky appetite."

This sentence was said to Lin Jinyu, and the three of them drank another glass. Lin Jinyu said, "I feel delicious even if I eat frozen whole wheat Dalieba."

Frozen whole wheat Daliba, people don't know if they can eat it or not, anyway, it can smash people to death with a piece of bread.

"Impossible," Xu Zhao clicked his tongue: "Aren't you two stable? What kind of life are you living?"

It is indeed stable, and the life is probably the ordinary life of drifting in Shanghai, living frugally, getting up early and working late, working during holidays, and traveling without money after graduation.Lin Jinyu smiled and said, "No, you're saving up to buy a house, and you're already driving a car, so what can we do if we don't work hard."

Zhang Xinli thought: He just said 'we'.

Xu Zhao said, "Where are you going to buy it, and how much is the down payment?"

I don't know the exact amount of the down payment, but it should be several million. Lin Jinyu said, "It's not confirmed yet, maybe Minhang Jiading, the central area is too expensive."

This is what Lin Jinyu imagined when he told Zhang Xinli about his future plans last New Year. Zhang Xinli thought he was joking, but he didn't expect it to be serious.

"How far away is that?" Xu Zhao pondered that that corner is the ecological construction area of ​​Shanghai, so it's too far away for commuting across districts.

"Is there any way?" Lin Jinyu still just smiled: "I have no father or mother, and I don't have the fate to get rich, so I don't want to aim too high."

It is still unknown how much salary he will get after graduating with a master’s degree. Let’s take a conservative calculation of seven to eight thousand. Zhang Xinli may be four to five thousand, five to six thousand, and the two add up to more than 1. The housing prices in some places in the central area have already approached 10. One square meter, so if you don’t eat or drink, you can afford a two-bedroom and one living room of 500 square meters in 50 years.

"..."

When it comes to parents, the atmosphere is heavy.Xu Zhao grew up with him since he was a child, and he basically knew the big conflicts Lin Jinyu had with his father since adolescence. At that time, Lin Jinyu was willful and sad. Yu ran away from home because he knew that his father would definitely find him back.

Unlike Zhang Xinli, Lin Jinyu's connection with his family has always been very close. Xu Zhao couldn't even imagine that one day, he would live a life where he had no contact with his family for several years.

He never received a birthday greeting that he never missed, never had a reunion dinner, or even a phone call, his parents never called.

"...How do you say that? If you are sincere, gold and stone are the same. I don't think your father is the kind of person who is really ruthless enough to sever the relationship between father and son just because his son likes a boy," Xu Zhao didn't know why. To comfort him, I can only say what I think in my heart: "My dad told me that during the half year when you were not in school for internship, he asked many people to find out where you were."

So much so that I found out where Xu Zhao's father had gone. His father asked Xu Zhao, and Xu Zhao said that he didn't know when he was abroad.

"Really," Lin Jinyu didn't seem to be surprised or moved: "Maybe I'm still obsessed with being with men, or where I am so I can be taken back, or am I dead?"

Anyway, it's not to inquire about whether his life is hard or not.

Xu Zhao said, "No, why do you say that?"

"I suppose that's it."

Lin Jinyu was holding the wine glass, she was really at a loss, who would ask where he is?His father?How can it be.Wang Xiu's experience of coming out of the closet left a deep impression on him. His father should be the same as Wang Xiu's parents, and he even wished for him to die.

Without his son, they could have a new one... Lin Jinyu thought of Zhang Xinli's parents. Although they were older, it was not impossible.It does not violate the family planning policy for families who lost their only child to have another child. After some recuperation, they may have a non-gay, expected son or lovely daughter again.

Lin Jinyu took the wine bottle and filled it up for herself, and drank the spicy liquid in one gulp.

In fact, he knew that his father would not be able to do it, and even if his father could do it, his mother would not be able to, but he just unconsciously thought about it.Like in adolescence, he understood that his dad wasn't really ignoring him, but he was still being ignored.

"Jinyu." Zhang Xinli looked at his expression very familiarly and sadly, called his name at the right time, and said, "Can you pour me a glass of wine?"

The wine bottle was just passed by Lin Jinyu. The table was too big and the seats were too sparse for him to reach.Emotions would be conveyed through voice. Zhang Xinli's voice was calm and calm. At first glance, this small request, which seemed very trivial at first glance, interrupted Lin Jinyu's thoughts of going negative, diluting the suddenly heavy atmosphere on the table.

Lin Jinyu regained her senses, answered "Okay", took the wine glass he transferred to her, filled it up, put it on the table and turned it back.

Zhang Xinli shook his head nonchalantly, signaling Xu Zhao not to talk about this topic.It has been a year since Lin Jinyu's last attack. During this year, no one mentioned his family in front of him, and the family never came to disturb his life. Lin Jinyu has always been optimistic and normal. He doesn't want to show it to his parents. Let Lin Jinyu get in touch with this information before accepting their ideas.

"Pour me a glass too," Xu Zhao understood, followed closely behind and pushed the wine glass to Lin Jinyu, stood up and said loudly, "Come on, come on, do it. It's a great joy...a great day , we are here to have fun, not to discuss the fucked up life, the past is nothing but the present, what matters is the present. Now, we are only for ourselves."

In just a second, he seemed to be the carefree and thoughtless Xu Dazhao from the attached middle school again. With the wine in his hand, Lin Jinyu also stood up and responded, "Yes, it's only for myself now."

Zhang Xinli also stood up, and the transparent wine glass collided with the clear glass sound in the air. Life seemed to be like the liquid in this glass, colorless and transparent, like white water, only those who tasted it would know the bitterness and bitterness in it.

……

After eating a few catties of yellow soup...

"Full up...full up...and then full up..."

Lin Jinyu supported Xu Zhao, and while calling Zhang Xinli to get up and go back, he yelled, "Okay, full, I'll give you an empty glass, and drink it yourself."

Xu Zhao actually drank a lot, and started talking nonsense. He toasted with an empty glass and worked hard by himself. Lin Jinyu deliberately kept his strength and didn't drink as much as him, but the alcohol was high, and he was a little dizzy at this time.

I don't know if it has much stamina.

"I'll get him," Zhang Xinli walked over, supported Xu Zhao from the other side, and tried to take over: "Your name is the driver."

Lin Jinyu said yes, and just about to let go, Xu Zhao suddenly grasped his hand with the strength of a father finally seeing his long-lost son.

Lin Jinyu: "?"

Zhang Xinli wanted to put his hand on his shoulder, but halfway through it, he also grabbed his hand like a son.

His posture is the kind that drunk people are used to grabbing people to death, as affectionate as they want, as if the two are confidants who have been cultivated for 8000 years.

"Don't go...don't go," Xu Zhao held them both together, "Happy birthday to you, I haven't told you yet, they are all brothers... a gift...you still need it..."

He spoke very forcefully but intermittently. Lin Jinyu was clenched by his hand, unable to twitch. He comforted: "Yes, yes, yes, we are all brothers. Be good, let go, we are going out and going home."

"No...don't go home, you two have to listen to me." I don't know if the drunks have become particularly talkative, Xu Zhao dragged them both desperately, asking them to listen to him: "I'm so sad...you really It's not easy, it's not easy... woo woo woo..."

"It's not easy, you get up first," Lin Jinyu thought he was talking nonsense: "The ground is dirty, let's get up, get up, okay, good boy, Xu Dazhao."

Zhang Xinli was also dragged by Xu Zhao. This fellow was not weak after being drunk, and he kept sliding down. He was dragged to the ground by the two of them, and he kept saying that it was not easy for them.

Xu Zhao didn't listen anyway, Lin Jinyu was annoyed and wanted to laugh, he felt helpless: "Why is he nagging when he's drunk, he's like a child when he's so grown up."

"It's not all the same," Zhang Xinli actually defended Xu Zhao, "It's the same when you're drunk."

Lin Jinyu used to be very cute when he was drunk, running around the streets, stepping on other people's green belts, and letting Zhang Xinli carry him... Zhang Xinli remembered those past events for many years.

In Lin Jinyu's memory, the first time the two of them crossed the boundary was at the basketball team's dinner party. In Zhang Xinli's memory, the first time they crossed the boundary was earlier, and much earlier.

"Do I have it? No way," Lin Jinyu completely forgot: "I've never been drunk in front of you, don't turn your elbows out."

Even he himself didn't realize that he had acquiesced to the fact that Zhang Xinli and he had turned back into "us".

"It's really not easy..." Underground Xu Zhaolai leaned on Lin Jinyu, still muttering to himself: "How nice you were before, how carefree and worry-free...you have been going around for so many years...it's not easy, it's too hard , it's really too bitter..."

During the period when Lin Jinyu relapsed, and the period when Zhang Xinli was injured and hospitalized, Xu Zhao took Lin Jinyu's place, and Xu Zhao felt that he would not be able to last for a month.

He pressed Lin Jinyu's and Zhang Xinli's hands together desperately, and said, "You two have to be safe, and don't separate again."

The night outside the window was getting darker, and the wind blowing from the air conditioner dispelled the heat of the summer night. They actually ate this meal for more than two hours.

Xu Zhao, this once made a lot of comments, saying, "I heard that so-and-so in the next class actually likes men, it's disgusting." He once said in the braised chicken restaurant next to the school, "How crazy is it to like to penetrate men? Normal people vomit, but instead Why aren’t the playthings of human beings extinct?” Lin Jinyu, who had grown up together since she was a child, held the hands of the two of them tightly at this moment, crying loudly while saying, “Don’t separate again.”

So much pain has been swallowed, don't separate again.

Lin Jinyu showed a little helplessness on his face, Zhang Xinli looked at him, neither of them pulled their hands back.

"By the way... and... and presents," Xu Zhao got up as if he had remembered something, and fumbled into the inside of the very elegant coat for a while, and took out a shiny little toy.

The crystal chandelier imported from Italy shines brightly above the head, and the dazzling light shines on the silver bead chain. The six-year-old necklace is still as bright and bright as before.

Zhang Xinli's eyes showed surprise, and the surprise was full of joy.The surprise was lost and found, the treasure that was thought to be lost forever returned to his hands again.

Xu Zhao slapped the thing on his chest, and Zhang Xinli fell back a bit with such force, he said drunkenly, "It's not every time someone finds it for you, so don't...lose it again." .”