Go to Qingqiu together

After Shen Xubai left Xia Yun's place, he was a little absent-minded.

He kept repeating what Xia Yun said just now in his mind, he said Xu Qingjian hid.

Where can I hide?

Shen Xubai wanted to find Xu Qingjian, but he didn't know where Xu Qingjian lived, so he could only search around the Prince's Mansion with the attitude of giving it a try, and then left without finding anything.

However, he saw Xu Qingjian at the gate of the Prince's Mansion.

I saw Xu Qingjian sitting on the steps in front of the gate with his knees hugged. He lowered his head and looked listless.

"Xu Qingjian." Shen Xubai called him immediately.

Hearing Shen Xubai's voice, Xu Qingjian's back straightened all of a sudden, and then he turned his head quickly.

The moment Xu Qingjian saw Shen Xubai, without saying a word, he got up and was about to run, but Shen Xubai grabbed the back collar of his clothes.

"Why are you avoiding me?"

When he said this, Shen Xubai himself didn't realize how angry his tone was.

Xu Qingjian was taken aback by Shen Xubai, he was stunned for a moment, he didn't say a word, but his eye circles turned red quickly.

Seeing that Xu Qingjian's eye sockets were red, as if he was about to cry, Shen Xubai's expression was momentarily astonished.

Probably out of wanting to be strong, Xu Qingjian kept holding back his tears, as if he wanted to cry or not.

Shen Xubai looked around, there were still guards here, so he grabbed Xu Qingjian's wrist and pulled him to a place where no one was around.

Sure enough, as soon as no one else was present, Xu Qingjian burst into tears.

"What's the matter with you, why is a big man crying?" Shen Xubai frowned.

Xu Qingjian wiped away tears carelessly with his sleeve, and turned his head away without saying a word, not looking at Shen Xubai.

Shen Xubai opened his mouth, and was about to continue talking, when he suddenly caught a glimpse of a purple scar on the back of Xu Qingjian's neck, extending to the inside of his clothes.

"What's going on?" Shen Xubai's face changed slightly.

Xu Qingjian didn't understand what Shen Xubai was saying, and gave him a blank look.

Before he had time to say anything, Shen Xubai pulled him over, changed his direction, turned his back to him, and stretched out his hand to tear off his clothes.

Shen Xubai didn't tear it all apart, he only loosened a little and he could see it clearly. Xu Qingjian's back was covered with bruises and purple welts. It seemed that it had been half a month. Judging from the extent of the scars now, he could see clearly that Xu Qingjian's back was full of bruises. It should be bloody with every whip.

"Who hit it?" Shen Xubai's voice trembled.

Xu Qingjian uncomfortably pulled back his clothes and put them on again, then said in a muffled voice, "Of course I was caught and punished last time."

He was referring to the last time when Shen Xubai asked Xia Yun to take him back.

Shen Xubai also came to his senses, his expression turned ugly immediately, he didn't expect Xia Yun to be punished so severely, he thought Xia Yun would just lock him up for a few days at most.

"I avoided you, not because you caused me to be beaten..." Xu Qingjian looked at Shen Xubai's expression, the corners of his mouth slumped, and tears of grievance appeared in his eyes again.

Shen Xubai froze for a moment when he heard the words, then raised his eyes to look at him.

"It's because you said, you told me not to bother you." Xu Qingjian looked at Shen Xubai, sniffed, and when he blinked, two tears rolled down his eyes.

Listening to Xu Qingjian's words, Shen Xubai's breathing stagnated, and he couldn't say anything for a moment.

"Don't cry." Shen Xubai stretched out his hand clumsily to help Xu Qingjian wipe away his tears: "Don't hide from me in the future."

Xu Qingjian snorted, still looking angry.

"If you don't apologize to me, I won't forgive you." Xu Qingjian said angrily.

Shen Xubai froze for a moment, opened his mouth, wanted to apologize, but couldn't say anything.

He had never said a word of apology to anyone in his life, let alone facing Xu Qingjian, he couldn't bear to say an apology at all.

Probably seeing that Shen Xubai couldn't speak, Xu Qingjian said again: "Then... If you don't apologize, unless you buy me a candied haws, I will forgive you."

"Candied haws?" Shen Xubai was taken aback for a moment.

"En." Xu Qingjian nodded sullenly.

With the attitude of trying it out, Shen Xubai thought that if the candied haws still didn't work, he would apologize to Xu Qingjian, so he took Xu Qingjian to buy a candied haws that day.

Unexpectedly, Xu Qingjian really forgave him on the spot. Since then, Xu Qingjian has not avoided him anymore, and he still smiles every time he sees him, as if he had never had any conflicts.

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One by one, the past flooded into Shen Xubai's mind, and Shen Xubai just sat in the study for a long time in a daze.

As soon as he recalled it, he realized that even after so long, those memories were still clear, because he had recalled them countless times during the three years since Xu Qingjian left.

During the four years of acquaintance with Xu Qingjian, he didn't even know how much Xu Qingjian's feelings for him were true or false.

But he relied on these true and false memories to survive these three years.

The rustling sound of putting on clothes came from behind the screen, pulling Shen Xubai back from his thoughts.

Shen Xubai turned his head to look, and saw Xu Qingjian had already put on his clothes and walked out.

He supported his waist with his hands, and his walking posture was a bit weird, so he walked over step by step.

When he came to Shen Xubai's side, he stopped, blinked his black eyes and looked at Shen Xubai, and asked in a low voice after a while: "Can I sit here?"

Shen Xubai hummed, then looked away indifferently.

With Shen Xubai's consent, Xu Qingjian sat down beside him in peace.

There are still some affairs in the mansion that have not been dealt with, so Shen Xubai picked up the pen and continued to deal with it, while Xu Qingjian sat on the side and hugged his knees to watch him write. He didn't know how long it had been since he watched Shen Xubai seriously It's like doing things.

But after watching for a while, Xu Qingjian became a little tired, and he couldn't help closing his eyes and taking a nap.

The pen in Shen Xubai's hand stopped, and after a while, he turned his head to look at Xu Qingjian who was at the side.

I saw Xu Qingjian lying on his knees and sleeping with his eyes closed. His eyes were black and blue, his lips were bloodless, and he didn't know if he was cold. In short, he looked haggard.

And he really lost a lot of weight. When he held Xu Qingjian just now, he was much lighter than he imagined.

I don't know how Xu Qingjian has lived these three years, how can he toss himself into this appearance.

Shen Xubai glanced down at his robe, and was about to untie it and put it on for Xu Qingjian, when someone knocked on the door of the study.

"My lord." Butler Liu's voice sounded outside the door: "The young master said he wanted to find you, so I brought him here."

Butler Liu's voice was not low, and Xu Qingjian was not asleep at all, so he woke up quickly: "Nian Nian..."

Seeing that Xu Qingjian woke up, Shen Xubai paused for a moment with his hand holding the belt, and then let it go calmly.

"Come in." Shen Xubai said to the outside.

As Shen Xubai's voice fell, the door of the study was pushed open, and Steward Liu led Shen Nian in.

"Nian Nian!" Xu Qingjian immediately stood up and wanted to walk towards Shen Nian.

His movements were very large, and he completely forgot what he had experienced just now. At that time, his face changed due to the pain, and his lips became even paler.

Seeing Xu Qingjian's movements, Shen Xubai couldn't help frowning.

"Daddy." Shen Nian didn't notice anything, and ran to Xu Qingjian's side with small steps.

"Hey, be good." Xu Qingjian adjusted, and quickly hugged Shen Nian with a smile, and hugged her.

Shen Nian looked at Shen Xubai at the side again, hesitated for a while, as if she wanted to call him but dared not.

"What should I call him, Nian Nian?" Xu Qingjian reminded immediately.

"Father, father..." Shen Nian said obediently.

Shen Xubai looked at him, nodded, and replied: "En."

"Nian Nian is so good." Xu Qingjian immediately kissed Shen Nian's cheek approvingly.

Shen Nian hugged Xu Qingjian's neck tightly, with a happy expression on his face after being praised.

Having already brought people here, Steward Liu was about to leave, but was stopped by Shen Xubai.

"Does the lord have any orders?" Liu Butler asked immediately.

Shen Xubai glanced at Xu Qingjian calmly, and then said to Housekeeper Liu: "Go get someone to bring some stoves in."

"Yes." Butler Liu replied without a moment's hesitation.

Of course he knew that this stove was not for Shen Xubai's use, Shen Xubai never lit a stove even in the cold winter months, but this happened in the last three years, before this palace often used stoves.

Because Xu Qingjian has always been afraid of the cold.

Seeing that Shen Xubai actually ordered Steward Liu to prepare the stove, Xu Qingjian couldn't help but look at him in surprise.

"I'm just afraid of the cold to the point of thinking about it." Shen Xubai said to him indifferently.

Xu Qingjian blinked his eyes, and then responded with some disappointment: "Oh..."

It seems that he is being self-indulgent, but it is good to be able to get the light of Nian Nian.

Butler Liu's work efficiency was very high. After a while, several stoves were lit in the study room, and the study room was quickly warmed up. Xu Qingjian felt much better.

Shen Xubai glanced at Xu Qingjian several times from the corner of his eye when he was dealing with official business, the other party's lips were no longer as pale as before, and he looked much better.

After thinking about it, he asked Steward Liu to bring over a plate of dim sum for Shen Nian.

"Say thank you to father." Xu Qingjian reminded Shen Nian.

"Thank you...Father." Shen Nian thanked Shen Xubai obediently.

It's just that he is still not used to the word father.

"You don't need to thank me." Shen Xubai replied.

As he spoke, he glanced at Xu Qingjian with some displeasure.

Shen Nian is his own son, it's just a plate of dim sum, Xu Qingjian also wants to teach him to say thank you, he really doesn't know if Xu Qingjian did it on purpose.

Xu Qingjian could see that Shen Xubai was unhappy, and also realized that Nian Nian was very attached to Shen Xubai when he said this, so he lowered his head guiltily.

But Shen Nian was still young, he didn't understand what Shen Xubai meant by this, he thought he had made Shen Xubai angry, so he looked at Xu Qingjian with some fear.