[Naruto with spots] I

Ah Fei asked about Madara's past, but Madara didn't say anything, not even his last name.Ah Fei thought that Madara had a sad past and didn't want to mention it, because he was sad and had no relatives, so he lived alone now. With a rich imagination, he suddenly thought of a tragic life experience in which those who heard it cried and those who saw it were sad, and he was so moved. Cried.He felt that except for the place where he lived, all the houses were too cold and lifeless, and Madara was too cold to be real, with little expression on his face, and he had never seen Madara have a strong emotional change.

It's not that Madara has no emotions, but that everything to him is like a stone thrown into the sea, disappearing without a trace with only a little waves.Ah Fei couldn't describe it. He knew that Madara was different from those indifferent or numb people. What he insisted on saying was a bit like one of the most prestigious shrine maidens he had ever seen. The shrine maiden was standing on the steps next to the shrine, but it made people feel It seems that he is not in the world, his eyes seem to be able to see everything but not sharp, and he smiles calmly and calmly.Of course they are different, the miko's breath is white and warm, while Madara is deep and cold, but can't feel the evil spirit.If A Fei has more experience, he will know that this is a kind of thickness and wisdom after insight into the world. At a certain level, there is not much difference between gods and demons, because they are both the world itself.

A Fei is only 15 years old, how can he understand this.When the young man was full of enthusiasm, he was also kind-hearted. He took pleasure in helping others since he was a child. Seeing that Madara was not popular, he tried to talk to Madara more often in different ways, trying to make this place lively.He told Madara that he wanted to take more cultural lessons, half of which was to talk to Madara, and the other half was to catch up with his teammates in knowledge.In addition to basic Chinese studies and common sense, Madara mainly tells him about history and politics. He usually only talks about characters and events without commenting, but A Fei's active questions can be answered.A Fei can hear profound and unique insights every time, and unconsciously broadens his horizons.At first he would jump up and denounce some conspiracies and tricks, but later he could calm down and think about countermeasures.He gradually agrees that there are good people and bad people in this world, and the same person also has many faces, impulsive and reckless are the easiest to do bad things.He asked Madara one day: "I don't understand, why do people fight and plot against each other, isn't it good for everyone to live happily together? Why do so many bad things always happen? Why is there always an unresolved hatred?"

Madara is making tea. A Fei has never seen him cook with a fire, but he is a good at making tea. A set of movements is smooth and smooth. Although A Fei does not know the tea ceremony, he still finds it pleasing to the eye, elegant and peaceful.Madara poured him a cup and said: "In this world, there is light and there are shadows. Good and evil, light and darkness complement each other. Only acknowledging good and denying evil is as incomplete as only seeing evil and denying good. Blindly pursuing happiness and peace is not enough. It cannot bring happiness. There is an evil side in human nature, you don’t need to deny it, and you don’t need to be afraid of it, just accept it. The extreme pursuit of light is as terrible as the extreme pursuit of darkness, and you will eventually fall into self-paranoia. Deny things that exist , Blindfolding one's own eyes also blindfolds one's heart. Just like Yin and Yang, losing either one will lead to an imbalance." This is what he realized after going through ups and downs and paying a painful price.

Ah Fei seemed to understand, and asked: "Then it is impossible for everyone to be reunited, and everyone has a perfect life?"

Madara said: "Your ideas are too extreme. There is no perfect thing. You have to face up to your shortcomings and your own dark side."

Ah Fei was about to refute that he had always been kind and sunny, and Madara said again: "You are full of love for this world, so you hope everyone is like you. But is this what you really think? You are an orphan, you are bullied and Have you ever hated when you were looked down upon or neglected? Have you ever complained? Have you ever been unwilling? You deny your negative emotions, hypnotize yourself with love, and once you suffer a change, you will go to the other extreme. Love will not be born from hatred , but there are too many examples of love giving birth to hatred, you have to accept your hidden evil, otherwise it is very likely to go to extremes."

A Fei was shocked by these words for a long time. He was speechless for a long time. He never doubted that he had analyzed himself. The world collapsed faintly, but a small part of reason told him that the new world after being overthrown and rebuilt would be more complete and mature.

Knowing that A Fei was reflecting, Madara took the opportunity to add another flame: "You told me that you have very few friends, and it is dangerous to base your faith on a person like you. If this person dies or changes, your Faith also collapses. What does a person whose faith is shattered do? You are easily exploited."

A Fei's heart was shattered, he was immersed in his own thoughts, and only heard the sentence "you build your faith on one person" in this series of words.He raised his head in a daze, and retorted subconsciously: "No, it's not. Except for Xiao Lin..." His voice was not loud, and he said slowly and firmly, "And you." Madara's spiritual guidance to him was unprecedented. , No one has ever talked to him about this, and there has never been such a wise elder who guided and cared for him.Madara is not like his friends, neither can be replaced.

Madara's eyes were wide open, his expression was dim and hard to distinguish, he wanted to say something, but he couldn't think of a word.Finally he got up and left with a sigh, leaving Ah Fei alone in a daze.He walked a long way before he said to himself: "With me, it will be even worse." He spoke very softly, and the ending sound was scattered in the mountains with the wind, and he didn't know who he was speaking to.

Ah Fei didn't notice when Madara left, he thought about it all night, and all the facts that he usually ignored on purpose came to mind.His loneliness and helplessness when he was coldly looked at, his dissatisfaction and resentment when he was made fun of by his classmates, and his panic and unwillingness when he was ignored by everyone.He is too cold and lonely, so he will hold on to a little bit of warmth, warm himself as sunshine, and hypnotize himself not to care.He is optimistic, he is cheerful - he is already so cold, how can he live if he is not optimistic.He was afraid of being ignored, so he tried his best to make noise to attract everyone's attention, even if he was considered a loud fool.He has nothing else to do but use this low-level method to attract everyone's attention. He doesn't want his life to be insignificant, and he doesn't want to leave no trace in this world.

Maybe he has hinted at himself for a long time, so long that Ah Fei himself has forgotten these original intentions, so long that he believes that his heart is only bright.Ah Fei sighed like an adult for the first time, his face was even a little dignified to gloomy.What should Madara do to make him face up to his own evil and accept it?The process of his thinking was very painful, but after turning out these negative emotions nakedly, he felt relaxed and refreshed.Only then did he notice that it was already daylight outside, and he was no longer sleepy, so he simply went out for morning exercises.

A Fei ran to the rocks to practice chakra, his physical skills were getting better and better, and he could jump to the opposite side only by borrowing his strength once or twice from the vines.After practicing a few tricks, he looked into the distance and found Madara standing on the side of the waterfall. From his angle, he could only see Madara's side face and the dense water vapor on his body.The scene seemed familiar to him, but he was sure he hadn't seen Madara standing there before.But it seemed a bit awkward, and it would be right to have another person opposite Madara.Ah Fei was very surprised, where did this inexplicable feeling come from.He didn't delve into it, and continued to practice. He has been here for almost two years, hoping to get Madara's approval as soon as possible.He likes this place very much and has regarded it as his second home. He is reluctant to leave, but he misses his friends, which is very contradictory.He wants to go back, wants to go back and live for a while before coming back, he has endless things to learn from Madara, and Madara looks so lonely, how can he ignore him ungratefully.

Ah Fei couldn't hide what was on his mind. Madara caught him distracted during a practice session. Madara asked him what he was thinking.Madara saw what he was thinking, nodded and said, "Hurry up, you can go when you can protect yourself."

Ah Fei has no other people to refer to in his daily practice, and only has Madara as his opponent. Every time he is completely crushed by Madara, he has no idea of ​​his own objective strength at all.He thought Madara was worried and disappointed that he was too weak, and said shamefully, "It's all because I'm too stupid to learn."

Madara didn't criticize him this time: "No, you can beat most people now."

Ah Fei couldn't believe it and shouted: "Impossible! How could I be so powerful? You don't need to comfort me, I know I'm still weak, why can't I protect myself?"

Madara said meaningfully: "If you haven't seen me, then you don't have to be afraid of any enemies now. But you walked from me, so it's hard to say."

There is something in Madara's words, Ah Fei can't think of any difference between Madara, is it because he is too powerful that he offended others?Ah Fei suddenly realized: "Oh, you have many enemies, right? So you live in such a hidden place?"

Madara didn't answer, and A Fei continued to ask: "By the way, how to get out from here? I didn't see a way."

Madara said, "I'll take you back when the time comes."

Ah Fei hurriedly asked: "But I don't know the way, how can I come back to find you in the future?"

Madara raised her eyebrows, glanced at him with great interest and asked, "What are you doing back here?"

Ah Fei was startled, Madara meant to drive him away and not let him come back?He never thought that Madara would not let him come back, and his eyes were red with anxiety: "You, you don't want me anymore? Why, did I make you angry? I will change, I will definitely change..." The more he said, the more Wronged, he has long recognized Madara as a teacher in his heart, and the elders in the family don't want him, so can he not be sad?His tears were about to come down, thinking of how a man could cry so easily, he quickly sniffed his nose to hold back the tears, but couldn't help but sneezed, the tears flowed so embarrassingly.

Madara showed no expression, threw a towel to Ah Fei to wipe his face and said, "I don't care, as long as you want to come back after you go back."

Ah Fei was sobbing, and while wiping his face, he shouted angrily: "Of course I want to come back!"

Madara knew that A Fei was stubborn, so he stopped arguing. Anyway, after A Fei left, he would know what kind of existence he was, and would not come again.

The author has something to say: Madara’s philosophy class is all my nonsense, don’t take it seriously