little beast

Shen Chengan didn't know how Shaoqing came to this conclusion, he only knew that Shaoqing liked Teacher Sheng very much.

In all fairness, he doesn't really know the difference between Shaoqing's liking and his own respect and gratitude for Sheng Shuangxu.

In short, since then, Shaoqing has often taken the initiative to come to Sheng Shuangxu's house to make up lessons. When the students in his class heard that Shaoqing was going to Sheng Shuangxu's house, they were unwilling to make up lessons together. As long as Shen Chengan stayed at Sheng Shuangxu's house, he would I can always see Shaoqing.

Going around, the three of them always stay together this summer vacation.

Sheng Shuangxu's wife, Gao Yuanyuan, only disappeared for a month, and when school was about to start, she returned home as if nothing had happened.

Shen Chengan felt nothing, Gao Yuanyuan treated him well before, but Shaoqing didn't like her, he didn't explain the reason - Shaoqing never needed a reason to hate people.

Shen Chengan didn't dislike Shaoqing at that time, nor did he like him. He used to think that Shaoqing was a lone wolf, but now in Shen Chengan's eyes, Shaoqing was just a follower who stuck behind Sheng Shuangxu.

But only Shen Chengan knew about Sheng Shuangxu's secret, no matter how much Shao Qing clings to Sheng Shuangxu, in Shen Chengan's heart, he is not as close as he is with Teacher Sheng.

He had a secret, inexpressible pride in it.

After school started, Shen Chengan gradually changed his view of Shaoqing.

The evening self-study at their school allows students to go home for self-study. Shaoqing usually only stays at school when Sheng Shuangxu is in charge of the evening self-study, and goes home to review the rest of the time.That day Shen Chengan was studying at school in the evening as usual, Sheng Shuangxu was sitting in front of the podium to prepare lessons, but Shaoqing was gone.

Sheng Shuangxu's pen brushed to the ground, and he didn't pay attention to Shaoqing's departure. Students have the right to choose the place of self-study. In Sheng Shuangxu's eyes, Shaoqing is always his student, and only his student. .

Usually at this time, Shaoqing would be in front of Sheng Shuangxu, and even in evening self-study, she would run to the podium from time to time to whisper questions.

Shen Chengan became curious about his absence.

Shen Chengan seldom becomes curious about others, he cares about few people, and he will only keep silent when he is bullied, and he doesn't know why he pays attention to Shaoqing.

He slipped out of the classroom during the short break of evening self-study, and found Shaoqing in the back playground of the teaching building.

The school checks on puppy love very strictly, there are always teachers dangling around the playground with flashlights between classes, Shaoqing sits in the gap between the equipment cabin and the school's outer wall, and lights a cigarette in a grandiose manner.

The flames of cigarette butts shine like stars in the night sky.

He hid his position very well. He smoked half a cigarette, but he was not noticed by the patrolling teacher.

But Shen Chengan found him, just like Shaoqing once stopped him in the bathroom of Sheng Shuangxu's house, Shen Chengan stood by the wall, condescendingly blocking the only exit in front of Shaoqing.

Shen Chengan glanced at the cigarette butts all over the floor, and said, "Why don't you go to evening self-study?"

Shaoqing's hands are beautiful, as slender as his own, and the fingers holding the cigarette are like two pieces of white jade.

This is not the Shaoqing he is familiar with, the Shaoqing who is holding a cigarette is completely different, Shen Chengan is strange.

Shao Qing didn't answer his question, but instead asked him: "Shen Cheng'an, you have no friends and no one to love, how did you survive till now?"

Shen Chengan: ...

Shen Chengan didn't understand what he meant.

Shaoqing likes to talk on his own, maybe he just wants to say it, and he doesn't care who he is saying to: "Life is boring, Shen Chengan, I have everything, but I can't find the joy of living, and even others hate me No reason can make my heart feel bad.”

At this moment, Shen Chengan discovered something strange about Shao Qing.

He was in a bad mood.

Shen Chengan had never heard Shao Qing say so many words.

"Teacher Sheng is the only person who can make me feel like I'm still alive," Shaoqing raised her face abruptly, the corners of her eyes flushed, "but every second I spend by his side, I have to endure it for another second." Pain I've never experienced in my life."

Shen Chengan listened to him quietly, and finally said silently: "I don't understand."

"I don't know why you're so sad."

Shen Cheng'an really didn't know what Shao Qing was thinking, he felt Shao Qing's fragility which was different from ordinary people.

Shen Chengan thought of the photo he kept in his diary, and thought, if Shao Qing, who was in such pain before his eyes, saw that photo, he didn't know how he would feel.

No - he wasn't going to show that photo to anyone.

Shaoqing said sullenly: "Of course you don't understand, because I don't understand either."

"I do not know why either."

"Forget it," Shao Qing sighed, staring at Shen Chengan, the only person in the whole school who could talk to him, he patted the seat beside him, and said, "You sit here."

Shen Chengan sat beside him.

Shao Qing poked half of the cigarette butt in his hand viciously on the plaster floor and wiped it out. As soon as Shen Chengan sat down firmly, he was caught off guard by Shao Qing's school uniform collar.

Their faces got closer and closer.

Shaoqing had a whim and said, "Has anyone ever said that your eyes are beautiful? They are like gems."

Shen Chengan was stunned.

No.Those people would only discriminate against him and bully him because of his green eyes.

Even as far back as a child, he was regarded as a green-eyed monster who was chased and called a "little beast" by his classmates.

Shaoqing said softly: "Have you ever kissed someone else?"

Looking at his dull appearance, Shao Qing didn't want to talk nonsense, so she pulled his collar and stuck it to her mouth.

Shen Chengan's head thumped, he didn't even realize that they were going to kiss, Shao Qing pushed him away again, and punched him lightly on the chest.

Shao Qing snorted and said, "...forget it, it's different from what I imagined, it's boring."

Shen Chengan froze in place, his heart was beating loudly, he had never been so nervous—no, it wasn't nervous, he could distinguish nervousness, this was a feeling he had never experienced before.

Shaoqing said: "Just pretend it never happened, don't tell it."

He stood up, patted the dirt on his butt, and crushed the soot he had dusted on the ground with his foot.

Shaoqing dumped Shen Chengan, and walked towards the teaching building without looking back.

Shen Chengan touched his neck, and there was still the feeling of the tight neckline on it.

He frantically covered his hot cheeks.

This is an experience he has never experienced.

Shen Cheng'an actually didn't know Shao Qing well, it could even be said - he didn't know anything about Shao Qing's past.

——But Shaoqing said that his eyes are beautiful, but no one has ever said that his eyes are beautiful.

The appearance of Shaoqing in his heart became clear at this moment, Shaoqing's beautiful and arrogant face, his fingers holding the cigarette, combined with Shen Chengan's imagined Shaoqing's characteristics—his fantasy seemed to be a real person .

He began to admire the flawless fantasy Shaoqing in his mind.

Most people in this world can't figure out why people are attracted to each other.

This is true for Shaoqing, and it is also true for Shen Chengan.

Shen Chengan thought for a long time. He began to recall the day when he was rescued by Sheng Shuangxu. Everything was like a destiny in the dark. From the moment he met Sheng Shuangxu, he was destined to have a relationship with Shaoqing. intersection.

In the end he stopped this meaningless thinking.

The time he spent with Shaoqing was still too short.

It was so short that Shen Chengan had no chance to express his thoughts to Shao Qing, and even had no time to say goodbye to him.

Time can smooth everything out, but it still can't make Shen Chengan feel relieved.