little beast

Shen Chengan surprisingly didn't want to vomit.

He spread all the pain and told his teacher to bear it, and his anger subsided.

Sheng Shuangxu's body was so soft that he unreasonably thought of the hand that led him out of the alley that day, and it was such a hand that was tightly attached to his body.

Shen Chengan's fingers inadvertently landed on Sheng Shuangxu's waist, and when he realized it, he bounced off abruptly.

Shen Chengan turned his face away, but he didn't push Sheng Shuangxu away.

"Let you listen to me, these are the contents of the contract, you don't need to say it again." Shen Chengan said a little awkwardly, "Go to sleep, teacher."

Sheng Shuangxu was ill and exhausted his energy. After Shen Chengan went to the bathroom to clean up the towels, Sheng Shuangxu had already curled up in the corner of the bed and fell asleep. He always slept on the floor, and he was careful when lying on the bed, for fear of taking up too much Space.

Shen Chengan lay quietly beside Sheng Shuangxu.

Shen Chengan's heart was still beating violently due to excitement, while Sheng Shuangxu was very quiet, with the familiar aroma of saponins exuding from his body.

Shen Chengan took a deep breath, and soon fell asleep.

He had a dream.

He returned to the roof of the school, Shaoqing was sitting on the fence of the roof, her slender legs were dangling in mid-air, and the wide cuffs of her school uniform were tied around her waist, floating in the air with the wind.

Shen Cheng'an is no longer a student. In his dream, he is also wearing a suit and leather shoes. He doesn't know that he is in a dream, and he doesn't know why he can see the Shao Qing from before. Eight years later, he sees the Shao Qing from eight years ago. , mixed feelings in my heart.

Eight years can smooth everything out. At this time, Shen Chengan could hardly understand the initial pure love for Shaoqing. He was occupied by too much resentment and pain, and he had long since lost the ability to love.

Under the afterglow of the setting sun, Shaoqing's hair was glowing with a dull yellow, he suddenly turned his head to look at Shen Chengan, tears slipped from the corners of his eyes, leaving a bright tear trail on his fair face.

Shen Chengan didn't understand Shaoqing from the beginning to the end, he didn't understand Shaoqing's paranoia that he would rather die, he could only attribute all this to Sheng Shuangxu, mixed with his jealousy and helplessness, as well as the pain of being betrayed .

Shen Chengan still wanted to save Shaoqing, wanted to say "no", but his throat felt like cotton was stuffed, and he couldn't say anything - he couldn't speak, he could only watch Shaoqing loosen his grip railing hands.

Shen Chengan rushed over and tried to grab his hand. At the moment of touching, Shao Qing's fingers scattered like particles. At first it was his fingers, and the disappearance of the body spread to the palm and arm. Shen Chengan Still unable to make a sound, he fell headlong with inertia, and his body fell from the height with Shaoqing.

Shaoqing's body turned into countless particles, lingering in mid-air, Shen Chengan passed through his broken body as he fell, Shaoqing disappeared completely in an instant, and a cold voice lingered in Shen Chengan's ears: "You can't catch me! of."

Shen Chengan's blocked throat was finally released at this moment. With a loud roar, the whole world collapsed in an instant, the teaching building and the setting sun peeled off like pieces, and Shen Chengan fell into endless darkness.

He hit the bottom at this moment.

A beam of light shone from above his head, and his suit disappeared, replaced by a dirty hospital gown, with blue and white stripes piercing his eyes.

Shen Chengan was too familiar with such a scene.

He finally realized that he had fallen into a nightmare, and he covered his face in collapse, trying to break free from the memory he deliberately dusted, but his feet were tightly bound to the ground, unable to move.

The transparent needle tube that no one was holding was automatically inserted into his veins. Meng didn't feel it, but he could experience the sticky and cold touch flowing along the blood vessels.

After he was locked up in a treatment center, he was forced to receive hormone injections for a long time. Maria also needed him to marry and have children, so the dose of injections was not large, but it was enough to make him lose any desire at the most restless age of boys.

Shen Chengan couldn't remember exactly how long he had been taking the medicine, and after stopping the medicine, he gradually returned to normal, but he seemed to be permanently imprisoned in the basement of that dark and damp treatment center like a prison.

He was chained to the railing of the hospital bed like a dog, with only a pair of scissors in his hand.

In the silent darkness, heavy and slow footsteps sounded.

That was the countdown to Shen Chengan's nightmare.

"Help..." He knew that he couldn't escape the dream, but his fear still caused him to call out for help in the dream weakly and desperately, "Is there anyone? Help me, who can save me—!"

— By the way, Shen Chengan has an extra pair of scissors in his hands.

But he doesn't want the scissors.

The scissors occupy his memory all the time, it is very clean now, but Shen Chengan's hands are full of bloody, sticky touch.

He threw the scissors far away reflexively, and the scissors sank into the darkness without echoing, and more scissors fell into his hands, following them like a shadow.

The master who made the sound of footsteps walked up to him.

The man is tall and muscular. He wears a hood with Shaoqing's photo printed on his head, and there is endless darkness behind him.

Shen Chengan had nowhere to escape.

No—he doesn't want to recall—he doesn't want to think about the past—

The man got closer and closer to him, and his voice gradually changed: "Why can't you be a normal person?"

"Why would you rebel against the love of your Heavenly Father?"

No - he wants to wake up - he wants to get back to reality!

"Shen Chengan," the man finally changed into Shao Qing's voice, "Your eyes are so beautiful."

Shen Chengan inserted the pair of scissors into his eyes without hesitation.

He woke up from the nightmare, he saw Sheng Shuangxu was being forced to curl up in his arms, Sheng Shuangxu was awakened by his movement, and was looking at him worriedly.

In his dream, Shen Chengan unconsciously hugged Sheng Shuangxu tightly, almost wanting to rub him into his chest.

Shen Chengan's shattered hair was sticky to his forehead with sweat, and the beating of his heart almost shattered Sheng Shuangxu. Shen Chengan didn't let go, and said tremblingly: "...Teacher, I'm so scared."

Sheng Shuangxu saw that he was having a nightmare, and was taken aback by his appearance. He stroked his trembling back with weak fingers, and said, "It's okay, it's all a dream, don't be afraid."

Shen Chengan hugged his teacher and cried softly: "Teacher, help me, my eyes, my eyes are gone."

Sheng Shuangxu didn't know what he dreamed about, so he could only comfort him in vain: "Shen Chengan, look at me, look at me, the teacher is still there, and your eyes are also there."

Those confused and desperate eyes finally focused on Sheng Shuangxu, and Shen Chengan finally stopped crying, staring at Sheng Shuangxu in a daze.

Sheng Shuangxu went to touch his eyes lightly. Under the dim moonlight, maybe it was a problem with the light. His left eye was slightly different from the beautiful emerald green of his right eye, with a dull bluish-yellow glow.

Shen Chengan's eyes were red and filled with tears, Sheng Shuangxu went to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes.

Shen Chengan blinked his eyes, his right eye was hidden in the darkness, but the moonlight could not fall into his left eye.

——Looking at it for a long time, why is his left eye so dark?

Sheng Shuangxu noticed something was wrong for the first time, and subconsciously said, "Ah, your eyes..."

Shen Chengan violently pushed him away, he sat up in a panic, and ran to the bathroom as if fleeing.

Shen Chengan's hot body temperature still remained on Sheng Shuangxu's body. He heard the intermittent sound of water flowing, but he hadn't realized what happened yet, and was at a loss.