little beast

After Sheng Shuangxu yelled at Shen Chengan, he realized that his tone was a little heavy. His attitude towards Shen Chengan was always too sensitive. Even though Shen Chengan has lost his memory now, his unintentional actions can always arouse Sheng Shuangxu's unpleasant memories of the past Come.

At this moment, Shen Chengan didn't dare to make a sound at all, his lips were tightened into a straight line, and he looked pitifully in the direction of the kitchen.

Serve the dishes in the order of frosting, and the leftover rice is quickly heated in the microwave and served on the table.

Sheng Shuangxu knocked on the wall of the bowl with his chopsticks casually, and he could only pretend that what happened just now hadn't happened, and said, "...Come and eat."

When he was eight or nine years old, Chang and Sheng Yuwei sneaked out of the Sheng family's villa, crossed the road in front of the house, and found an abandoned park. Weeds grew as high as Sheng Frost's calf along the broken cement cracks. , children rarely visit here, but this is his and Sheng Yuwei's childhood paradise.

In this kind of place, he and his sister met a stray dog ​​that was always wandering nearby. It was always hiding in the grass, it was very big, but it was quite docile. They often stole ham and meat from home to feed it. Whenever they wanted to When you call it out to eat, you will knock on its dirty bowl with a corner missing with a thin wooden stick.

Once the big dog heard the sound, it would run towards them at full speed.

Shen Chengan walked quickly, he had already figured out the structure of Sheng Shuangxu's small rental house, he touched the corner of the dining table in a short while, and skillfully pulled the back of the chair and sat down, his movements kept pulling The thin chain made a rustling sound.

Sheng Shuangxu hurriedly put the chopsticks away, but he didn't understand why he suddenly had to hit the bowl with the chopsticks.

Shen Chengan grabbed his bowl and chopsticks, and started to devour the leftovers at hand.

He looked genuinely hungry.

Sheng Shuangxu took out a tissue and wiped his hands before going back to the living room.

Shen Chengan heard Sheng Shuangxu's footsteps, put down his chopsticks abruptly, and asked cautiously, "Teacher, where are you going?"

Sheng Shuangxu said perfunctorily, "You eat yours."

Sheng Shuangxu turned on the TV, and randomly clicked on a TV station that was broadcasting news.

Shen Chengan heard the sound of the TV in the living room, knew that Sheng Shuangxu hadn't gone far, and was immediately relieved.

Even at the risk of being scolded, Shen Chengan still wanted to say a few more words to Sheng Shuangxu and asked, "Teacher, did you come back so late today because of hard work?"

Sheng Shuangxu didn't pay attention to him, so he casually said what was on his mind: "Oh, I'm going to accompany my daughter."

Shen Chengan swallowed, and the upper and lower rows of teeth collided tightly together, suppressing what he wanted to say next.

Shen Chengan forcefully stuffed a finger into his mouth, and couldn't help biting the flesh at the knuckles

In his memory, his teacher Sheng did have a daughter.

Shen Chengan suddenly realized that besides work, his teacher also spent a lot of time playing with that girl.

After a while, Shen Chengan asked: "Teacher, what have you been doing with her?"

How did his teacher accompany his daughter?Would Sheng Shuangxu cook for her daughter with her own hands, and then feed her bite by bite?

The empty heart was occupied by darkness, Shen Chengan despicably and shamefully began to envy that little girl who was only four or five years old.

—His teacher never feeds him.

Sheng Shuangxu was a little impatient with Shen Chengan's question, he turned his head and found that Shen Chengan hadn't moved his chopsticks for a long time, so he asked, "Have you finished eating?"

Shen Chengan pulled out his fingers violently, he rubbed the knuckles that he had been biting for a long time, the wounds touched the air, causing him a burning pain.

Broken.

He hid his hands behind his back, not wanting to be seen by Sheng Shuangxu, so he pretended to be nonchalant and said obediently: "Teacher, I'm done eating."

No, he must be obedient, Shen Chengan thought, don't make Teacher Sheng angry, so that he can stay by his side forever.

Shen Chengan still slept on the floor at night, but he tossed and turned unable to fall asleep.

Before that, he had always thought that Sheng Shuangxu's going out was just for work - he told himself that his teacher had to work, and only by working could he earn money and support him.

Shen Chengan was discouraged for almost the whole night, and realized that once his teacher went out, he would have to meet a large number of strangers of all kinds that he didn't know well.

Shen Chengan, who had been locked at home for a long time, had a sense of fear and insecurity that could not be suppressed or offset. Coupled with Sheng Shuangxu's always deliberate alienation attitude, Shen Chengan became even more concerned about gains and losses.

In Shen Chengan's memory, the teacher who rescued him from the correctional center was very kind and gentle, which fascinated him, but now he has become so indifferent.

Shen Chengan couldn't restrain himself from wanting to get closer to his teacher, no matter whether he lost his memory or not, this morbid obsession and love was almost engraved into his instinct.

Shen Chengan lifted off the thin blanket on his body, and got up from the ground.

He whispered, "Teacher, are you asleep?"

no respond.

Sheng Shuangxu's breathing was very soft, and in this silent night, his breathing steadily stirred Shen Chengan's heart, causing it to beat faster and faster.

Shen Chengan moved close to the edge of the bed, lifted the folded quilt on the edge of the bed with his palm, and poked in along the gap. He didn't dare to make a sound, so he moved very slowly, and soon touched Sheng Shuangxu's warm back.

Sheng Shuangxu was facing Shen Chengan with his back, he was too thin, his spine was slightly protruding, and he pressed Shen Chengan's fingertips tightly through his flesh.

When his fingers moved further down, Shen Chengan held his breath, he could no longer control his actions, in the blink of an eye, his fingertips had already opened the loose waistband of Sheng Shuangxu's waist.

His teacher is so soft.

Shen Chengan's head got into Sheng Shuangxu's quilt.

Sheng Shuangxu was in a drowsy sleep, and when he moved his thigh, his buttocks were tingling and itchy. He touched it casually, and only touched the fabric of the pajama pants.

Maybe a mosquito bit him, Sheng Shuangxu, who was extremely sleepy, didn't think much about it.

The chains under the bed rattled.

Sheng Shuangxu didn't want to pay attention to him at first, but the rustling noise didn't stop.

Sheng Shuangxu just turned over and opened his eyes with difficulty, only to see Shen Chengan leaning his head against the edge of the bed, his hair scattered in the crevices of the mattress folds, the ends trembling.

Sheng Shuangxu asked: "What time is it... What are you doing when you're not sleeping?"

After Shen Chengan heard his voice, he turned around in a hurry, his cheek pressed against the mattress, and fine sweat protruded from his forehead.

"I'm uncomfortable, teacher," Shen Chengan rubbed the tip of his tall nose against the bed sheet, on which the breath of Sheng Shuangxu still remained, "I'm really uncomfortable."

Sheng Shuangxu thought he was sick, and subconsciously raised his hand to touch his forehead. Sheng Shuangxu only touched the sweat on his palm, while Shen Chengan's body temperature was quite normal.

However, Shen Chengan grabbed Sheng Shuangxu's wrist, his breathing was heavy, and when Sheng Shuangxu stroked down from his chest according to Sheng Shuangxu's chest, Sheng Shuangxu's fingers felt numb in his chest.

"Teacher, come and teach me, why am I so hard here?"

The author says:

I won't say who is childish and jealous of children.