80s development history

In Jiang Xuanzong's mind, Xin Andong is a child who is closer to him than his cousin. From the first time he saw him, he liked him very much. He is well-behaved and sensible. Defeat him, like little Bai Yang with a straight back, calm and calm like a child, always strong enough to make his heart ache.

He likes to rub his soft and silky hair, likes to pinch the tip of his small and lovely nose, likes to watch him pout his lips and play with his temper, and listens to him softly calling Brother Zong, as if he is his only belief, his last Intimate people.

When he found out that his cousin actually liked him, his first reaction was not that he was astonished at how worldly it was for two men to be together, but that he harbored a fire in his heart, and resented that his cousin's dirty thoughts had tarnished his pure and innocent youth. , disgusted with his lack of supervision, so that he was put in such an embarrassing and wronged situation.

Later he knew that the young man was not as pure as he imagined, he had his own bad temper and small thoughts, and if he took off the disguise of innocence, he would have a bad tone because he rejected you, and his words hit the nail on the head, and made you laugh with ironic words. I was speechless.

Jiang Xuanzong felt that he should be angry, after all, his majesty had been provoked, but no, he just felt helpless, and was carefully thinking about how to remedy it if he got angry.

He is hopeless, he thinks that in the first half of his life and perhaps in the second half of his life, he may not be as kind to anyone as he was to him, and there is really nothing he can do about him.

He never thought about his feelings for the boy, because he didn't need to think about it at all before. Brotherhood, father-son relationship, or friendship, there are some, but they are not single.

His love, affection, and joy for Xin Andong, it seems that as soon as he sees him, he will unconsciously cast his eyes on him, always wanting to pay attention to him, like an eagle that can't let go, looking at his arms The young eagle is full of worries.

He even thought that it wouldn't matter if he didn't get married in the future. He liked this young man and treated him well. He was no worse than his own blood. As the saying goes, extreme joy breeds sorrow. Heihe, when the young man was lying in his arms, his eyes fluttering, Jiang Xuanzong's mind was left blank.

He was very clear-headed, and being distracted and infatuated was just an excuse. The fiery body made him more clearly understand the filth and despicability in his heart. He indulged himself and bit the red lips hard.

In a situation that no one expected, he became the kind of person he hated the most, hurting the child he loved, so unbearable, so shameless, he despised and hated himself, at a loss for the first time, hesitant, timid, he was afraid I saw hatred and disgust in the boy's eyes.

After leaving, Jiang Xuanzong would involuntarily recall everything that happened that night, and every time he recalled it, he would become more self-loathing. He couldn't control his sinful reverie, and could only sink deeper and deeper in his blush and heartbeat.

Like a reckless thief, he obtained the treasure by shameless means, and he didn't even need to make excuses to deceive himself. This is greed, and he has been coveting for a long time.

Jiang Xuanzong didn't want to face Xin Andong in an unclear manner. That was irresponsible to the two of them. He never thought of hurting him, even if he hurt himself. He promised to give him a complete explanation, and when the matter was finally dealt with thoroughly. At the end, after some deliberation and his own torture, he decided to face up to his feelings, and walked in front of the boy with anticipation and nervousness.

"You..." Jiang Xuanzong hesitated to speak, clenched and loosened his fists, looking at the young man in front of him with complicated thoughts.

Xin Andong lost weight, his already tall body became thinner, his small face was as big as a palm, and his chin was pointed, making him look smaller.That's right, he's only 19 years old, and he's still a half-sized kid with an unopened figure.Thinking of this, Jiang Xuanzong felt inexplicably uncomfortable. Compared with the boy's age, he was more than a round older than him.

Jiang Xuanzong's face was a little dark, and there was a kind of depression with nowhere to vent his anger.

Xin Andong didn't have so many thoughts, and he himself was quite embarrassed. The one-night stand was standing in front of him, with expressionless eyes and complicated eyes. Even a thick-skinned person like him was afraid that the other party would really come to "excuse the teacher".

Seeing that Jiang Xuanzong was really entangled, he could only sigh and said, "Brother Zong, have you eaten yet? I'm going to the cafeteria to eat, shall we come together?"

The world eats the most food, and Xin Andong doesn't want to starve himself.

Jiang Xuanzong was stunned for a moment, his dignified face was a little stagnant, probably because he didn't expect the conversation between the two to start in such a way today.

Meeting the eyes of the boy Baba, he nodded, and said in a calm voice, "Okay."

"Shall I take you out to eat?" He asked again, not because he disliked the food in the school cafeteria, but after all, it was not as rich as the one outside. His eyes fell on Xin Andong's thin face, and he just wanted him to eat better.

Xin Andong was a little hungry, and he just came back from school. He didn't want to eat to waste time, and he didn't want to spend more time with Jiang Xuanzong, so he immediately waved his hands and said, "No, just eat whatever you want. I ate two dishes in the morning. Baozi is not too hungry now, and the food in our school cafeteria is pretty good."

It's really good, at least it's nutritious and tastes better than the meals in the canteens of his junior high school and high school.

Jiang Xuanzong frowned, it was a pity to let go of the opportunity to supplement nutrition for the young man, but there will be opportunities in the future, the two of them have not clarified the matter today, he does not really want to offend each other.

Seeing that he had no objections, Xin Andong happily led the person to the cafeteria. On the way, he even took out an apple from the bag in his hand and asked him if he wanted to eat it. The atmosphere between the two was harmonious, without any tense feeling.

Of course, this is from Xin Andong's point of view, he is not nervous, really not nervous, what is there to be nervous about, anyway, that's it, he didn't look forward to it, so he was afraid of being disappointed, besides, Jiang Xuanzong in the end Seeing him grow up, even if there is no love between them, there is friendship and brotherhood between them.

From Xin Andong's point of view, he doesn't have to worry about Jiang Xuanzong getting angry and destroying him, it's impossible.

At most, in order to avoid embarrassment and never get in touch with each other, and expected the worst ending, it seems that there is nothing to worry about. Since Xin Andong's life creed cannot be changed, let it be.

Compared with his relaxed and calm, Jiang Xuanzong is much more uneasy, he is like any boy who faces his sweetheart, he has no place to rest his heart with a happy heart.

Perhaps because of a change in thinking, Xin Andong, who had a close relationship with him, is no longer the boy he simply liked before in Jiang Xuanzong's eyes.

The boy's body seemed to be covered with a soft light that he couldn't put it down, which made him unable to bear to look away from him. The palm resting beside him was about to move, and he couldn't help but want to touch him, touch him, and finally Good to be close to him.

When Jiang Xuanzong realized his thoughts, his whole body froze slightly.

For the first time, he felt that he might be a pervert.

While he was torn in his heart, he was also afraid of being discovered by Xin Andong. He hadn't forgotten how disgusted and repulsive the boy was when Tong Zhenghao confessed his love.

Thinking of this, he was terrified, and unexpectedly discovered this problem. In an instant, Jiang Xuanzong's fiery heart cooled down.

"What's wrong?" Xin Andong turned his head to the side and asked in doubt.

It turned out that at some point Jiang Xuanzong's footsteps stopped in place, his eyes were dazed, and his frown showed that he seemed to be troubled by some difficult problem.

Jiang Xuanzong raised his head abruptly, looked straight at Xin Andong, with a ball of cotton stuffed in his throat, and said, "I heard from my uncle that there are many couples in foreign countries who are married to each other. Some people also form a family life. I heard it was incredible at first, but now that I think about it, it doesn’t matter whether it’s a man or a man. Like a person who drinks water, he knows how warm he is. As long as he lives together sincerely, it doesn’t matter to others. "

What he said was not cryptic, it almost explained his views on homosexuality.

Jiang Xuanzong has never been a person who is eager and ignorant of propriety, but at this time in this deserted place, he lost his usual composure, and couldn't help but say a specious sentence as a temptation.

He fixed his eyes on Xin Andong, hoping to see something from his face, his heart was beating fast, and he had the illusion that he was holding on to a straw before dying and was about to drown.

But he didn't know that although Xin Andong heard his overtones, he got the meaning wrong by accident.

Jiang Xuanzong may have forgotten what he said about himself when Lan Mingqu concealed his confession and asked him about his views on homosexuality. He said 'it's not disgusting, and I don't like it', and Tong Zhenghao's indifference when dealing with the problem that time, he ignored these , but Xin Andong, who was full of hope in the past, firmly remembered these 'details'.

Therefore, in Xin Andong's eyes, there is no straight man in the world who is more straight than Jiang Xuanzong, even if he has sex with him.

So Jiang Xuanzong's probing words were heard by Xin Andong at this moment, especially when the two of them had just had such an embarrassing incident, Xin Andong's first reaction was that Jiang Xuanzong was secretly testing whether he had any improper feelings towards the other party. idea.

In other words, to put it bluntly, he doubted whether Xin Andong had any unreasonable thoughts about Jiang Xuanzong!

No?

Inexplicably told him that although homosexuality is not allowed in the domestic environment, it is a normal phenomenon abroad, and he also showed that he has no objection to homosexuality and is not so repulsive. In this way, if Xin Andong really has that kind of meaning for Jiang Xuanzong, he can't Express your heart immediately.

After all, Jiang Xuanzong was not stupid that night. He obeyed without resisting. A normal man would not have such a reaction. Unless he is gay, what other explanations are there?

Thinking about it this way, Xin Andong figured it out.

He sneered in his heart, Jiang Xuanzong actually played tricks on him, should it be said that he saved enough face for him by not directly pointing it out?Is it possible that he should be grateful to Dade?

Xin Andong clenched his fists, and turned to Jiang Xuanzong with a cold face. He felt very uncomfortable being humiliated. For the first time, he felt that this person was so hideous. He was so blind that he liked him back then.

"What are you talking about, Brother Zong? Don't say such misleading things in the future. Let me just say it. We didn't expect what happened that night. I felt a little uncomfortable that day, and I realized that you were hit again. Zhao, I wanted to help you, so I didn’t push it away for a while.” Speaking of this, the corners of his mouth showed a slight mockery, and his voice was light and light, “My sexuality is normal, and I think Brother Zong is too. It’s fine if Zhenghao misunderstood. Same as him."

It's simple and straightforward enough, can you understand? !

Jiang Xuanzong's face suddenly became ugly, and he opened his mouth.

Ignoring his gray complexion, Xin Andong continued, looking around him, a little confused, "Besides, Brother Zong, you are already very old, it's too..."

He hesitated to speak, but his meaning was clearly expressed.

But just because the expression was too clear, and every sentence slammed into the center, Jiang Xuanzong felt ashamed at this time, his face turned green and pale, and his heart felt embarrassed and painful.

What Xin Andong said was too straightforward, he almost pointed his nose at Jiang Xuanzong and scolded Jiang Xuanzong for being an old hooligan.

That's right, his cousin Zhenghao is as old as him, and he has the same family background, looks and personality, so he scoffs at him too, so why would he treat an 'old man' like him differently because of a mistake, he is too self-righteous.

Quietly looking at Jiang Xuanzong's hurriedly leaving figure, Xin Andong's eyes were very astringent.

Those who dare to humiliate him must be prepared to be retaliated!

He hates people talking about his sexuality the most in his life, gay eating your rice?He didn't intend to hide it, but this era is too harsh on people like him, so he has to be cautious. Jiang Xuanzong's behavior made him hate, and once again hated himself who was blind at the beginning.