wake up from dream

In the 15th year of Kangxi, Ziqing lived with Rongruo for almost two years. It is said that marriage is the grave of love, but this is not reflected in Ziqing and Rongruo, probably because Rongruo often If they want to enter the palace as errands, the two always get together more and less together. Every time they meet again, it proves the saying "a little farewell is better than a newlywed". Almost every month I go to Qier's place for two or three days, but it's just for superficial work. I feel that Luo Shi has watched Ziqing come in for almost two years, but there is no movement in his stomach. He proposed to let Rongruo take a concubine. But every time, Rong Ruo pushed him down without hesitation, and felt that Luo Shi was helpless. After all, his son was unwilling. He also saw that Rong Ruo was still in Qier's room for a few days a month, so he didn't say anything, but still Let Ziqing see a doctor and take a lot of medicine.Every time Ziqing takes medicine, she can avoid it if she can. If she can't escape, she can only drink it with her nose squeezed. Rong Ruo didn't say anything after knowing it, but Ziqing knew that he was also in a hurry, and he really wanted one. himself and his children...

"Mr. Sunyou, are you going out?" Yan Shengsun also lived in the mansion for almost a year, Ziqing and him finally stopped being so polite.

"Yes, brother and sister, a few friends came from Jiangnan a few days ago, and I want to meet them."

"Okay, sir, go slowly."

"it is good."

Sunyou went straight out the door.

"Miss, the medicine is ready." Ju Xiang brought the dark Chinese medicine in the bowl.

"Well, put it away! I'll use it later." Zi Qing was already lying on the recliner with the book in her hands.Rong Ruo has gone to work in the palace, and Zi Qing has resumed her life alone.

"Yes, Miss." Ju Xiang put down the medicine and stood aside waiting.

"Ju Xiang, go and see if there is anyone outside." Zi Qing ordered.

"Yes, Miss." Ju Xiang naturally knew what Zi Qing was planning, so she went to the gate of the courtyard to keep watch.

Ziqing was holding the medicine and wanted to pour it on the flowerbed. It wasn't that Ziqing refused to take the medicine willfully, but she knew that the child would not come now, so why bother to take this bitter decoction?When she was about to pour the medicine away, Ziqing suddenly remembered Rong Ruo's behavior before. Although Rong Ruo knew that she was pouring the medicine, she didn't say anything, but said that as long as Ziqing didn't like it, she shouldn't drink it!Such a faint sentence, at first Ziqing didn't have any special feelings, but after thinking about it, Rongruo should want to drink it herself, after all, this medicine is good for conception, so Ziqing gritted her teeth and drank her own Thinking it was bitter medicine, she shouted at Ju Xiang, "Ju Xiang, bring me candied fruit."

Ju Xiang was holding the wind, and suddenly heard Zi Qing's order, so she hurried into the room to get the candied fruit, "Miss, why did you drink the medicine today?" Ju Xiang handed the candied fruit to Zi Qing and asked.After nearly two years of getting along, the relationship between Juxiang and Ziqing has become much better than before. Juxiang sometimes talks with Ziqing, and it doesn't appear as cold as before.

"I'm thinking that I don't want to take the medicine, maybe it will hurt Rongruo..." Zi Qing explained the reason.

"So that's the case, didn't Miss say that everything is determined by God?" Ju Xiang said, with a teasing taste.

"Forget it, drink as you please, it's just a few days of suffering." If my guess is right, this child is coming soon, right?

"Miss, let me put away the bowl!" Ju Xiang put away the empty medicine bowl on the table.

When she came back, Juxiang brought good news that Rong Ruozhong was a Jinshi...

"Really? It's really great." In the past two years, Ziqing has finally truly opened up her heart, lived this ordinary life well, and no longer took the initiative to think about the fate of Lu Shi and Rong Ruo. Jumping out unconsciously, Ziqing also filtered it out unconsciously.

In the evening, Rong Ruo returned.

"Qing'er..." Rong Ruo couldn't wait to call Zi Qing at the door.

"Rong Ruo, congratulations." Zi Qing ran out of the room, took the initiative to hug Rong Ruo, and congratulated him with a smile.

"Qing'er, I'm very happy, but I know this is just the beginning." Rong Ruo dragged Ziqing into the room.

"Come on, the food is ready, let's eat first." Zi Qing asked Rong Ruo to sit down and eat.

"Well, I'm really hungry." Rong Ruo was very happy. He probably felt that he could finally show his ambitions, right?

"Come on, eat more, how can you come back today?"

"The emperor specially asked me to come back, saying that there is a beautiful wife waiting at home." Rong Ruo looked at Zi Qing and teased.

"Qing'er, I'm finally about to realize my wish of doing things for the people of the world."

"Well, I know, did the emperor say anything else?" Ziqing remembered that Rong Ruo was not appointed as a Jinshi by Kangxi this time, so Rong Ruo's mood was also affected later.

"Not yet, but it should not be far from my wish." Rong Ruo said happily, he was full of confidence in all this.

"Rong Ruo, I think your ambition will come true one day, I believe in your ability." Zi Qing looked at Rong Ruo with a smile.To hide the pain in my heart and believe in the ability of Rongruo, there will be a day!

"Well, Qing'er, I can definitely do it!"

After eating, Juxiang brought medicine, Ziqing pinched her nose and drank it, Rongruo was moved when she saw it, Ziqing was willing to drink this bitter medicine for herself, it turned out that she was still willing to suffer for herself , but suddenly felt distressed by Ziqing, the child's affairs are all natural, but she still has to wrong Qing'er to take medicine, probably because she accidentally revealed her desire for a child, and Ziqing found out ...

"Qing'er, why did you drink the medicine? Didn't you stop drinking it?" Rong Ruo asked.

After Ziqing drank the medicine, Juxiang took away the empty bowl and left the room.

"I know you've always wanted a child. I'm sorry I didn't take your feelings into consideration." Zi Qing said, her eyes filled with guilt.

"Silly Qinger, I also know that you don't like to drink this kind of bitter medicine. It's okay. If you don't like it, don't force yourself. Everything will be fine." Rong Ruo embraced Ziqing.

"You hope to have a child, I think that child should be coming soon." Zi Qing pressed her face into Rong Ruo's arms.

"Really?" After hearing that, Rong Ruo was very happy.

"Well, soon." Zi Qing nodded.

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Day two.

"What did the emperor say?" Zi Qing asked Rong Ruo, who looked at the disappointed expression on her face.

"The emperor asked me to be a second-class bodyguard..." Rong Ruo felt very helpless. He thought that he could finally plead for the people, but he didn't expect to be a little-known imperial bodyguard in front of the emperor.

"Don't feel lost, everything will be fine, it will be fine, your wish will come true." Zi Qing stepped forward to hug Rong Ruo, comforting her.

"Qing'er..." Rong Ruo hugged Ziqing tightly and said nothing more. In fact, it's not like he hadn't guessed such a result before, but he just avoided facing it all the time.My Ama's power in the court is at its peak. If I have another official position with real power, it will be a big threat to the emperor. If the emperor puts himself by his side, it is possible that he really appreciates his talents. But there is also another purpose...to contain his father's power in the court.

"Rong Ruo, take a good rest when you're tired! Better things will come tomorrow, so let's look forward to a better tomorrow, shall we?" Zi Qing held Rong Ruo's face, that very tired face...

"Qing'er, I don't know if there will be a chance? In fact, why don't I understand?" Rong Ruo said this sentence helplessly.

"Rong Ruo, you can't think like this. We should all be full of hope for tomorrow, right? How can you be so discouraged? Is your wish so easily dismissed? Failure is the mother of success. Fighting after defeat, We still have a chance." Looking at Rong Ruo who looked like a deflated balloon, Zi Qing felt annoyed, why couldn't she help him?Distressed why such a talented person never gets a chance to show himself?

"Qing'er, sometimes I really want to ask you what my life is like... But if I know my life, then what's the point of living?" Rong Ruo said.

"Rong Ruo, I won't tell you all this. As you said, if you know your own life, then living is just living according to God's script. There is no more passion and no expectation in life. , even happiness will become unreal." Just as I know Rong Ruo's life, when I am happy, I can't concentrate on being happy...

"Qing'er, you already know everything, do you feel unhappy because of it?" Rong Ruo thought that Zi Qing was always in a daze by herself before, is it because of this reason?

"Rong Ruo, I won't think about the future anymore. I just want to grasp the present and the future, let's talk about it later!" Zi Qing avoided Rong Ruo's question, she didn't want to give Rong Ruo any trouble. about future burdens.

"Qing'er, I understand, I'm just a little unwilling... Forget it, I just try my best to fight for it, maybe as Qing'er said, tomorrow will be fine." Rong Ruo smiled relievedly, although there was still a bit of bitterness in the smile, but at least , my heart is not as sad as when I first heard Kangxi's will...

"Rong Ruo, don't worry, you will have a chance to realize your ambition." There is always a chance, even if you are not an official, but there is always a chance, right?

"Okay, I believe in Qing'er's words, if Qing'er says yes, she will." Perhaps because Zi Qing comes from the future, Zi Qing's words are like a fortune teller to Rong Ruo, no, they are more serious than a fortune teller believable.

"Rong Ruo, are you there?" Yan Shengsun's voice suddenly sounded outside the door.

"Sun Youshi, why are you here? What's the matter?" When Rong Ruo went out, he saw Sun You holding a few jugs of wine in his hand, and greeted himself to drink with a smile.As a friend, how could Sunyou not know the ambition in his heart?What happened today really hit my confidence...

"Mr. Sunyou hasn't rested yet?" Ziqing said to Sunyou.

"Not yet, come to see Rong Ruo for a drink, siblings won't mind?" Sun You said, then pulled Rong Ruo to sit down in the yard, not as if afraid of Zi Qing's mind.

Ziqing looked at the two people sitting on the stone bench with a smile, and said, "Mr. Sunyou, Yun'er is welcome, why would you mind? Yun'er, go get you some drinks and snacks!" Ziqing looked at Sun Friends only brought wine, but no appetizers, so they planned to get some appetizers for them.

"Then there will be brother and sister Lao." Yan Shengsun was still smiling.

"Thank you, Qing'er." Rong Ruo looked at Zi Qing gently and said.

"Rong Ruo, you can chat with Mr. Sunyou, don't drink too much wine, and drink it after the snacks come, so as not to hurt your health." Ziqing lived with Rong Ruo for nearly two years, I also have a general understanding of my illness, know what to avoid and what to eat more, of course I can't drink too much wine.

"it is good."

After Ziqing prepared the appetizers, the two drank wine in the courtyard. Yan Shengsun and Rong Ruo talked about the past and the present, and tried their best to untie Rong Ruo's knot at this time. Naturally, Rong Ruo listened attentively and knew that Yan Yansun It means that the two have a lot of topics in common, they drank a few pots of wine and they didn't talk enough, but Ziqing saw that both of them were drunk, so she ordered the servant to take Yan Shengsun back to the room.