wake up from dream

Ziqing went back to her room and washed the small handkerchief.What a familiar object this is!It used to be the veil I prepared for Rong Ruo...

Sitting on the stone bench, Ziqing was stunned to see that small square kerchief fluttering with the wind.

"What? Are you still staring at the handkerchief he gave you?" Kangxi's voice appeared again.

"Your Majesty? Why did your Majesty come here?" Zi Qing didn't salute, and there were no other people in the courtyard.

"Can't I come?" Kangxi asked back.

"Of course not, it's just that the servants are wondering why the emperor is free tonight? Doesn't the emperor need to review the memorials?" On weekdays, when it was Ziqing's turn to be on duty, Kangxi would not be free until around twelve o'clock, and at that time, He was also going to bed, but now...Zi Qing looked at her pocket watch, it was only past eight o'clock!

"What do I want to do, do I still need to inform you?"

"Of course not." Ziqing got up and motioned for Kangxi to sit down.

Kangxi immediately sat down on the stone bench in the yard and said, "Sit down, don't stand still, here is only you and me, you don't have to pretend to be an obedient servant."

When Ziqing heard Kangxi's words, she no longer had any scruples, and immediately sat down.

"Every time I ask you something, you can ignore it. If it were someone else, you would have died countless times." Kangxi is in a good mood today, and he talks to Ziqing in a pleasant manner.

"Your Majesty, what is the purpose of coming here at this time? This is the residence of the palace maids. I'm afraid it's inappropriate for the Emperor to come here?" Zi Qing also went straight to the point, without turning a corner.

"I know where this is, but I... miss you..." After Kangxi finished speaking, he stared at Ziqing intently, waiting for Ziqing's reply.

"The emperor wants to be a servant? But in the afternoon, won't the emperor still be angry with the servant?" Zi Qing thought of Kangxi's excited appearance in the afternoon, and really couldn't understand Kangxi's intention at this moment.

"I'm mad at you, but I also thought about it. I forced you back then. I can understand you thinking like that. Now... I don't want to miss you." Kangxi's tone was gentle, as if talking to Zi Qing As if discussing.

"What does the emperor mean by this? Didn't he say he wanted to take revenge on me a few days ago? Today he said he didn't want to miss me? Pardon me, I really can't keep up with the emperor's ever-changing thoughts."

"I'm like this... If it wasn't because of you in my heart, why would I be like this?"

"Your majesty, this servant should do her job well, and I dare not expect anything else."

"Xia Ziqing, don't forget, I'm also a man, besides, as the emperor, I treat you like this, you should learn to be content, don't test me again!" Seeing Ziqing's reluctance, Kangxi felt a little Annoyed.

"Your majesty, you have already called me Ziqing, so it means that you have already admitted in your heart that I am not a princess. Why do you still do this?"

"I have you in my heart!"

"The emperor has me in his heart? So what does the emperor like about me?" Zi Qing got excited and stood up.

Kangxi suddenly fell silent...

"How? The emperor can't say what he likes me, right? So, the emperor should take back what he said just now, and Ziqing will pretend that he has never heard of it." Ziqing had no choice but to push the boat along, pretending that Kangxi had never said this.

"If I don't speak, it doesn't mean I don't know, it's just that I don't want to say it..." I don't know if Kangxi is telling the truth or just trying to quibble, Zi Qing looked at Kangxi, unable to believe what Kangxi said.

"What were you thinking when you looked at that veil just now?" Kangxi pointed to the veil.

"I didn't think about anything." Ziqing didn't think it was necessary to tell Kangxi too much about her inner thoughts, besides, she was thinking about Rong Ruo just now, if Kangxi knew about it, she didn't know what would happen.

"Thinking about Rongruo?" Kangxi seemed to be restraining his anger in his words.

"Your Majesty, what is the use of asking this?"

"I want to know!" Kangxi insisted.

"Since the emperor insists on me to speak, then I have no choice but to tell the truth. Yes, I was wondering about Rong Ruo... the emperor heard the answer, are you satisfied?"

"How can I be satisfied?"

"I miss my husband, what can the emperor be dissatisfied with?" Zi Qing was very angry.

"Who? Who is your husband? Don't forget your own identity!"

"Yes, I should always remember that I am now called Moyan..." Ziqing nodded, and after finishing speaking, she went back to her room, ignoring Kangxi's angry appearance outside the house.

In the end, Kangxi had no choice but to leave out of face, and the maids who had just been blocked outside the courtyard, after entering the courtyard, began to discuss in a low voice about Kangxi's visit to their small courtyard this time...

*****

On the second day, Ziqing put away the dried handkerchief and prepared to return it to Rongruo.

"Good luck, Your Majesty!" Ziqing greeted Kangxi when she arrived at Qianqing Palace.Kangxi didn't look at Ziqing, just said "um", and Ziqing came to wait behind Kangxi.

Kangxi went to the morning court, but Ziqing did not follow, but the head manager Liang Jiugong was always by Kangxi's side.Today, Ziqing saw that Nalan was on duty at the Qianqing Gate, so she was in a neutral position, so she rushed to the Qianqing Gate.

"Guard Nalan, thank you yesterday. I've already washed this veil." Zi Qing just quickly raised her head to glance at Rong Ruo, and then immediately looked away when Rong Ruo looked back.

"Miss Moyan. You're welcome." Rong Ruo took the handkerchief and put it in his arms.

"Then Moyan will not bother Nalan's guards on duty, and Moyan will go back." Zi Qing turned and left.

"Wait a minute, girl Moyan..." Zi Qing hadn't walked a few steps before she was stopped by Rong Ruo.

"What's wrong?" Zi Qing turned around.

"Miss Moyan, you can just call me Rong Ruo from now on. You don't have to call me Nalan's bodyguard." Rong Ruo stepped forward and said, but this time he still couldn't see the real face of the woman named Mo Yan in front of him.Or should I say, from the first time Rong Ruo saw this maid named Moyan, she felt that there was something about her that made him feel familiar, but it was always difficult to directly see her expression or eyes every time... …

"Yes, then...Rong Ruo can also call me Moyan, then Moyan will go first." Zi Qing nodded and said.

"Moyan..." Rong Ruo seemed to have something to say.

"What's the matter?" Ziqing felt that Rong Ruo was a little different today, so she became a little vigilant, for fear that Rong Ruo would see her flaws.

"I think... I'm very curious... Why do you always keep your head down, Moyan?" Rong Ruo asked in a low voice, without letting the other guards hear her question.

"Heh... I think Rong Ruo probably heard the rumors about me, I... I'm not good-looking... so..." Zi Qing thought for a while and said.

"I'm sorry, I...but I don't think you need to pay attention to other people's words at all, as long as you do your part. I think those people are also jealous of the emperor's attitude towards you." Rong Ruo suddenly felt a little I took the liberty, so I quickly apologized and said some words of comfort.

"Actually, you don't have to tell me you're sorry, I'm fine." Zi Qing still lowered her head.

"I... just hope that one day I can see you talking with your head up, don't wrong yourself like this."

"Thank you, I will try to change it." After Zi Qing said that, she immediately left the Qianqing Gate.

Back at Qianqing Palace, Kangxi had already gone to court, and Ziqing quietly walked behind Kangxi while reviewing the memorial on the case table.

"Where did you go?" Kangxi said, everyone in the room seemed to be familiar with it. The only one who would make Kangxi talk like this was the palace lady named Moyan. Because of all the special treatment, it made other palace ladies , can't help but hate this court lady named Moyan.

"The servant just returned the things." Ziqing replied truthfully, because she believed that Kangxi already knew what she had done, and there was no need to lie.

"En." Kangxi was not surprised when he heard this answer, and went on to review the memorial. Seeing that Kangxi did not speak for a long time, Zi Qing retreated behind Kangxi and waited for orders.

*****

Ziqing has begun to adapt to the life of a maid in the palace, but because she still advocates freedom, whenever she is not on duty at night, Ziqing will take a walk in the imperial garden.Of course, when taking a walk, Ziqing will also pay attention to the surrounding environment and try to avoid those concubines in the palace. A jealous concubine, Zi Qing should not be able to bear it and walk away...

"Moyan, what a coincidence?" Rong Ruo called out from behind Ziqing, with some surprise in her tone.

Zi Qing turned around, "Rong Ruo, are you here too?" Zi Qing didn't look at Rong Ruo, because of the reason why she always lowered her head when talking about it today, Zi Qing can lower her head in an even more majestic manner.

"Yes, Moyan doesn't need to be on duty tonight?" Rong Ruo asked.

"Yes, that's why I came out for a walk." Zi Qing said.

"It just so happens that I'm also out for a walk, so let's go together!"

Rong Ruo sent an invitation, Zi Qing couldn't refuse, but since seeing Rong Ruo in the morning, Zi Qing began to feel that Rong Ruo was interested in her current identity as Shang Moyan, why?

"Well, good." So the two walked forward.

"Moyan still can't change the habit of bowing her head?" Rong Ruo said.

"This...even if it's a habit, how can it be changed overnight?"

"Well, that's true, but I still hope you can change." Rong Ruo said with a smile, "A woman's beauty should come from the inside out... This is what my Fujin said."

"Rong Ruo's Fujin?" When Zi Qing heard Rong Ruo mentioning herself, her nose was a little sour, and she almost shed tears.

"Yes, she said that the beauty of a woman is not based on her appearance, but on her heart. If a woman is a femme fatale, no matter how good-looking she is, which man would dare to marry her home? If it is a virtuous woman, Even if it's not that good looking, so what?"

"Rong Ruo's Fujin..."

"Yes, she has left me, but, I think, her soul must still be with me... Sometimes, I can..." I can feel it.Rong Ruo was afraid that if he said this, he would scare Mo Yan in front of him, so he stopped in time.

"Rong Ruo's wife should be a very happy woman."

"No, I didn't do well enough, otherwise, she wouldn't just leave like this..." Rong Ruo was very confused by Ziqing's inexplicable departure. At that time, he went to Ning Runyi to ask about the situation, but Ning Runyi But he kept his mouth shut...

"That's it..." Zi Qing couldn't help jumping in her heart when she heard this sentence, could it be that Rong Ruo knew something?

"Yes. If I could have been with her at that time, I think maybe that would not have happened." Rong Ruo's expression was very remorseful.

When Ziqing heard Rong Ruo's words, she decided in her heart that Rong Ruo must know something, but what exactly did Rong Ruo know?Do you know that you have taken medicine?Or did you find any clues from that corpse?

"I heard... that day was your child's full moon feast... so, how is your child doing now?" Zi Qing thought of Hai Liang, and was very concerned, so she could take this opportunity to ask Rong Ruo.

"Child? I really... from her departure to today... I dare not go to see our child. I'm afraid that if I see the child, I will miss her even more..." Rong Ruo choked up.

"It's hard for you... But, I think, if your Fujin is still there, she definitely doesn't want you to put your child aside like this, she definitely hopes that you can spend a good time with your child. "Zi Qing was heartbroken to hear that Rong Ruo didn't see Hai Liang because she was afraid of thinking of herself. In this way, Rong Ruo was only sad. When Hai Liang grew up, he might mistakenly think that his father didn't love him.

"Maybe it is...but sometimes I still think she is by my side..." Rong Ruo recalled that after Ziqing left, she read books by herself several times, and when she had some special insights, she always involuntarily He said it, but he didn't come back to his senses after he said it. He didn't remember the fact that Ziqing had left until he waited for a long time before he answered.