Take the ghost monster to catch the monster

I don't know why in the future course training, although I am known for being serious to the students in the school, I am more serious to Moore than the average person. I know that others have opinions on my approach. I don't care what they say, because I don't know why I did this from the bottom of my heart.

But Moore didn’t alienate me because I was deliberately serious to him. He smiled at me from the beginning to the end, and he took good care of me as before. I remember clearly my living habits and picky faults, even though I am now a teacher who is strict and harsh to him.

Because I am a monster, mixed in human society, I often forget the necessary food in human’s daily life, and I always forget hot food. When I live by myself, I often eat cold food.

But because I was chased and killed by the clansmen on the way to escape from Qingqiu after I called my mother, and was seriously injured. Later, I became a little flower dog. Although not fatal, it was enough to make me feel excruciating pain.

Moore remembers this little problem of mine very clearly. During the period when I was teaching at [Yuanjiang Military Region Academy], he would often bring meals, heat them up, and deliver them to my office quietly. , and warmed me a cup of tea, a kind of tea, the three of them were afraid that I would be bored with it, so they often carefully changed their ways to find me various types of tea.

In retrospect, I love tea now, probably from that time, because of Moore.

I remember saying to Moore once:

"Moore, I know you are good to me, I am very grateful to you, maybe you remember the kindness I gave you in the years when I was a child, but I don't need to repay, even if I repay you, you have already repaid me back then up.

What's more, I will send you away later, Moore, I am sorry to you, but now you are still willing to exchange my life as 'sir'.I am very satisfied, you don't have to wrong yourself, you have done so well to me. "

I was speaking kindly, but I seemed to have stimulated him by saying this.

I saw Moore crying. He was very wronged and held back his tears:

"Sir, do you despise me? Or is it something I did not do well? Mr. sent me away back then, did you also dislike me and find me annoying? If Mr. doesn't like me, you can change it. But sir, I I hope you don't hate me, I have always wanted to beg my husband to let me stay with him like this. Because a long, long time ago, I——"

Before Moore could say the last sentence, I interrupted him, and I told him that I didn't think so:

"Moore, you may have misunderstood. I didn't despise you, nor did I hate you. You are very good and treat me very well. I am very grateful to you. It's just that I think you should not keep wronging yourself and repay my upbringing back then. Grace.

Now that you have grown up, you should not keep yourself around me all the time, you should have your own life, you should have your own life, your life should not only revolve around me, you have a better future . "

After Moore heard what I said, his tears were still flowing, but I could see that he was not sad tears, he was very happy:

"Sir, do you really think so? Sir, I'm repaying you, but I didn't force myself. Everything I do to Mr. is from the love in my heart. I don't think staying with Mr. I have wronged myself, but if——Mr. doesn't like me like this, I will not do it like this."

I was afraid that Moore would misunderstand again, so I hurriedly replied:

"No, no, I don't dislike your taking care of me. Tired of you staying with me."

Moore: "So did you agree, Mr.? Did you agree to let me stay by Mr.'s side?"

I nodded: "Yes."

Is it possible? At that moment, it seemed like the two of us communicated with each other. I have never felt so happy physically and mentally. I stood up, and gently stroked Moore’s hair like when I was a child. I'm almost there, but he still clings to me and lets me stroke him like a child.

Moore laughed, and I laughed too. Moore is beautiful, and let me become beautiful with him.

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If you think that all good things will come as expected and will continue forever, delusion is delusion after all.

Whether it was the time with my mother back then, or the time I spent with my boy 300 years ago, it is the same now. All the good things I saw seemed to be written with a cursed fate. It was as if it had vanished from my hands.

Because of some special circumstances, I had to leave [Yuanjiang Military Region Academy] for a while, and Moore for a while.

I thought it was just a small farewell, but I never thought that this would be a farewell, between me and Moore.

When I returned to [Yuanjiang Military Region Academy], it was like I returned to Mountain City some time ago, it was too bad, everything was too bad.

And the most desperate - Moore is dead, yes, he is dead, and I can't even find his body.

The puddle of water in my heart seemed to have fallen into darkness again, and she was stirred up into a muddy pool.

I fell into the abyss, the bottomless abyss, I want to climb up, but I can't climb to the top, but I can't give up, I have to keep climbing, keep climbing, I have convinced myself countless times

Tu Shanchi, you are a monster who has lived for nearly thousands of years. Moore is just a child you saved out of your playfulness and good intentions. You saved her, and you raised him, although you later Send him away, but aren't you doing it for him?You sent him to a wealthy family, thinking that he lived a high-class life. Later, you didn't want to express your apology. You wanted to be his teacher yourself, imparting knowledge and kung fu to him.You have done your best, there is nothing to blame yourself, and there is nothing to be sad about.

Even if his life is not taken away now, he will still go in another seven or eighty years. To you, Tu Shanchi, decades of time are just a fleeting moment, and there is nothing to be sad about.

I comforted myself, but this is no comfort, the more I want to express my heart, but the more I cry, I can't help crying.

I chose to leave [Yuanjiang Military Region Academy], and I continued to return to my exaggerated castle that was always full of feasting and neon lights.

In this casino in the gray zone, I don't need to feel good or evil, nor do I need to feel pity. I want to stand at the highest position, and I want to look down on all living beings. I should no longer have emotions and fluctuations.

I'm just as tall as they are.

I don’t want to be sad anymore……………………