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The next day was still rainy.It rained vigorously and violently all night until dawn, leaving only the patter.

When Xiao An came, she was already intoxicated, and was standing in front of the mirror combing her hair.

There is no sun outside, and it is cloudy inside the house early in the morning.Xiao An pushed the door open and came in, seeing Shen Zui standing in the shadows, "Mr. Shen, why don't you turn on the light?"

"Turn on the lights during the day, it always looks nondescript." Shen Zui let down his hair and hung it by his ears, looked carefully, and still raised his hands to gather the strands of hair.

"Oh." Xiao An stopped the hand that was about to turn on the light.She carried some porridge and pickles, "Mr. Shen, it's time for breakfast."

Shen Zui hummed.He fastened his thongs, and looked sideways at the mirror for a moment, as if he wanted to talk about life with his superior mandibles.

Xiao An is someone who has seen the world, and has long been used to it.

"Mr. Shen, don't look at it, you look great from any angle." She sighed expressionlessly, "Eat porridge while it's hot."

"No, this is too delicate." Shen Zui let down his hair again.He used a comb to tidy up the messy ends of his hair, raised his eyebrows slightly, and had meaningful and deep eyes, "With the hair down, it looks a little more plain."

"........."

It is the most simple to cover yourself with a sack.

Shen Zui is a very simple person.He has always been committed to showing his all-round three-dimensional beauty in every minute of his life, and he is proud of it.

It was the first time for Xiao An to see Shen Zui trying to restrain himself.

Shen Zui picked out a plain black thin sweater and trousers, didn't wear perfume, and didn't wear earrings; he now looks bad in his illness, his lips are too light, and he doesn't wear lip gloss.

"Mr. Shen, do you really want to go alone?" Xiaoan was not at ease, "Although there are not too many people in the temple, you are alone..."

"It's okay." Shen Zui took a sip of porridge, "Just ask the driver to take me to the side gate of Hong'an Temple."

"Mr. Shen, who are you going to see?" Xiao An was a little strange.

Shen Zui drank half a bowl of porridge and lost his appetite.He put down the bowl, wiped the corner of his mouth with a tissue, "My mother."

"........."

Before going out, Shen Zui looked at the mirror again.

Axue is a beauty, and her appearance may be the most valuable thing she has intoxicated.But excessive beauty, for those who can't control it, is a crime of innocence.

Shen Zui is lucky, but Ah Xue is not so lucky.

Hong'an Temple is located on the outskirts of the city, but it is not remote.There are not too few cars in front of the temple gate, and there are also many people.

Shen Zui asked the driver to drive the car to a side gate that is not for tourists to enter and exit. There is already a little brother who looks like a staff member waiting at the gate.

"Mr. Shen." This little brother looked young, with black-rimmed eyes, and a gentle manner.

"Hello." Shen Zui put away the umbrella, turned sideways and walked into the corridor through the small door, "You can just call me Xiao Shen."

"You're too polite." The black-framed boy smiled and said, "Mr. Shen, we've all seen a few of your movies."

In front of the porch is a small courtyard. The flowers and plants seem to have not been carefully taken care of, but they are full of vitality and lush greenery is flowing around.

"There are quite a lot of people at the front door, offering incense and eating vegetarian food." The black-framed brother led Shen Zui from the porch into another courtyard, "It may not be convenient for you."

"I understand." The temple was quiet and solemn, and Shen Zui spoke a little lighter.He nodded, "I have caused you trouble."

"Where is this?" The black-framed brother smiled and waved his hands, "It's just a matter of convenience."

"To tell you the truth, I was worried that you, a big star, would be arrogant, but I didn't expect you to come here alone, and you were so polite."

Shen Zui pursed his lips lightly, smiled and didn't speak.

"There aren't many people who are as approachable as you these days." The black-framed brother is a chatterbox, and he keeps talking all the time, "There is also an alumnus in my high school class who is said to have made a fortune, and he didn't come to a class reunion But, I can't get in touch at all!"

"His alma mater wanted to invite him to celebrate the anniversary, but he refused to do so. After he became so successful, he even wanted to remove the photo that was hung on the school gate ten years ago!"

The smile on the corner of Shen Zui's mouth slowly froze.

"Your high school alma mater is...?"

"Qi City No. [-] Middle School." The black-framed brother said, "Oh, it's a pretty good high school in our local area."

"........."

The solemn and vigorous bells sounded in the ancient temple, and there were raindrops and birds singing under the eaves.

"It's here." The black-framed brother knocked on the door, "Ms. Chen."

Shen Zui subconsciously clenched his fists and grabbed the cuffs, "Go ahead and do it, I can do it myself."

"Okay." The black-framed brother was not polite, "Then I'll wait for you outside."

There were voices in the room, and after a while the door opened.

Shen Zui's slightly long hair at the temples was blown up, and she didn't recognize Chen Axue, who had short and simple hair, for a moment.

Chen Axue used to be a very beautiful person, in those years when Shen Zui didn't have time to see her.

She is like a flower that rots early after its full bloom—this process lasted for a long time, during which she still maintained the graceful color and figure on the surface;

Now she seems to be completely withered, no longer charming and charming, but it is also natural and appropriate.

"I didn't expect that you would come to see me." Chen Axue looked at Shen Zui, her eyes gradually turned red.She quickly lowered her head, turned around and returned to the house, and poured the tea that had been brewed, "Come in and sit down."

Shen Zui walked into the small room, sat down on the wooden bench, looked up with a cup of tea, "You live here now?"

Chen Axue nodded.She spoke very slowly, "Help some work in the temple, and I just want to stay here too."

Shen Zui took a sip of the tea, it was a little hot.Seeing Chen Axue was an idea he had always had in his mind, a decision he made after filming "Zuo Liu", but he didn't think about what to say.

"Why do you keep your hair so long." A Xue asked softly, "It's a bit like a girl."

"It's necessary for filming." Shen Zui said.

A Xue nodded slowly, "I thought you liked it."

Shen Zui put down his teacup, lowered his head and licked his lower lip.

"I just finished filming a movie." Shen Zui paused, "It reminds me of you."

Ash looked up.Her eyes moved slightly, and only when the eyes flashed could she vaguely discern her former beauty from the facial features.

"I'm here to tell you, I don't blame you anymore." Shen Zui looked up at A Xue and said seriously, "Really."

"Hating someone will consume your life; I understand you, and I don't want to hate you anymore."

"And, I hope you will have a better life in the future, and stop torturing yourself."

Ashe was stunned.Her dark purple lips were cracked and white, and two lines of tears fell down her dry face.

She wiped it off with her hand, sniffed her nose calmly, and tried to keep her voice as usual, "I'm fine now. You're fine, that's fine."

"Although I don't know much about Buddhism," Shen Zui didn't answer the questions related to himself, but said, "but escaping into Buddhism should be to explore a broader and happier world, not to retreat from the world with a dry heart."

"I didn't become a monk," Ah Xue's thin lips pursed into a shallow V, "I just live here."

"I like the quietness, cleanliness and simple life here."

Shen Zui heard the words and hummed.

He finished the cup of tea and got up to leave.

"If life is really difficult," before leaving, Shen Zui turned around and said, "You can still come to me."

Ah Xue also supported the cabinet and stood up, staring straight at Shen Zui.

"How old are you?" After a while, she suddenly said in a daze, "Sometimes I can't even remember when you were born."

Shen Zui's lips moved almost invisibly.He felt tight in his chest, perhaps from a cold.

Shen Zui did not answer this question.He stepped across the dilapidated wooden threshold, turned a corner and disappeared at the end of the corridor.

The world behind him was fleeing quickly, Shen Zui walked so fast that he didn't even notice the rain falling from the eaves.

The rain is getting heavier, you can hear it from the sound.

Shen Zui walked out along the way he came here.His face was pale and expressionless, and his whole figure was like a piece of clear and refined wood.

He no longer hated Ah Xue, which also meant that he had lost the last ties to his biological mother.

He no longer has a relative in this world.

The bell of the ancient temple rang again, Shen Zui seemed to hear someone calling him from behind.He was a little heavy, but his steps were as fast as if he was going to float, his head was awake and confused, and his face was hot.

When he was about to reach the side door, Shen Zui remembered that he told the driver to go back first, and called him when it was over.

Drunken and dazed, his steps slowed down after a lag.He lifted the branches and got out through the small side door, forgetting to hold an umbrella.

The plentiful summer rain in the south instantly poured over Shen Zui's body as if it didn't cost money.He felt cold all over and woke up completely.

Shen Zui looked up to the sky, his lips parted slightly, and the branches of the trees in the temple swayed above his head.

He finally left the world with relatives completely.

"Little Tu!"

After a while, an umbrella propped above Shen Zui's head cut off his view of the scenery.

Yan Mingyang seemed to have welded the suit to himself.He was wearing a dark gray suit today with a rose gold clip in his pocket.

Shen Zui was in a mess, looking at the decent Yan Mingyang holding an umbrella for him.The corner of his mouth curled down involuntarily, but he didn't ask Yan Mingyang why he was here.

"You..." Yan Mingyang looked worried, and touched Shenzui's wet hair, "You have a cold, how can you..."

Shen Zui drooped the corner of his mouth, looked helplessly at Yan Mingyang, and suddenly shed a tear without warning.

Yan Mingyang stopped immediately before he finished speaking.His fingertips were trembling, and it took him a while to tentatively touch the intoxicated cheek, wiping away the tear for him.

"Okay, it's all my fault," Yan Mingyang put his arms around Shen Zui to protect him from the rain, "It's all my fault for going on a business trip, you shouldn't be here alone."

Shen Zui pouted, and voluntarily leaned into Yan Mingyang's arms.He should have woken up, and immediately raised his hand after standing still, and slammed the extra umbrella at Yan Mingyang.