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106. On the anniversary of your marriage, there is always a sobriety for you. Through the drunkenness, in front of him, I will remember you severely.

Life goes on, but the two have started to argue about some trivial things in life. Although they seem to have nothing to do with sex, neither of them has the patience they used to have, and they are still calm. At the end of 1999, Sun Qian took Sha Ying back to Wuxi During the Chinese New Year, Sun Qian's parents and relatives were very kind to Sha Ying, and she must have slept in the same room as Sun Qian. Maybe this place has nothing to do with Lan Tian, ​​and there may be too many debts. Sha Ying accepted again. When Sun thought about it the night before and the next night, Sha Ying told him that his period was coming.

Sun Qian’s parents repeatedly urged Sun Qian to consider having a child, and reminded Sun Qian to be more careful about whether Sha Ying had taken contraceptive pills. have concerns. In 1999, he had no real contact with Sha Ying for almost the whole year. Sun Qian still waited for the opportunity to hope that Sha Ying could conceive his child.

One day in August 2000, when Sun Qian returned from having dinner with friends, when he changed his clothes, he and Sha Ying saw the lipstick mark on his collar.Sun Qian thought that Sha Ying would react, but he didn't expect that Sha Ying didn't say anything, just painted it on the collar and put it in the washing machine to wash it off.

Sun Qian wanted to explain this matter, and the two sat on the sofa together.

"Aying, I drank some wine with my female colleague today, but I am very sober, maybe I got it by accident, don't mind, and don't have any doubts."

"Oh... I don't mind, I know it's inevitable sometimes."

"Do you really think so?"

"Well, no explanation needed."

"Why do I hope you have some reactions?"

"I... what kind of reaction do you want me to have?"

"For example, ask me who I am with, and whether I have something with others outside."

"I know you won't. Even if someone likes you, it's normal. It's not surprising that you are so handsome."

"But this is a matter of principle."

"Heh... Isn't it good that I don't question you? Do you have to mind?"

"You should mind, of course you should mind, you... are you just not nervous about me?"

"Then...don't do something like this next time."

"that's it?"

"I really don't mind, and I completely trust you. We don't need to discuss this matter anymore, just take it lightly."

Sun Qian looked at Sha Ying, and Sha Ying watched the dance show on TV. He felt a very strong sense of frustration in his heart. He felt that Sha Ying didn't care about him at all, let alone love him, and lived like this There really seems to be no end in sight, he must find a way to get her pregnant, the child is the last hope.

The next day, he asked for leave and spent a day in the bookstore, reading many books about conception, which he kept in mind.

He wanted to create some romance for their home. The [-]th wedding anniversary was the best day. He made a very sumptuous dinner and waited for Sha Ying to come back. There were beautiful songs playing in the living room, and the red wine was lying on the wine rack. Waiting on board, everything is ready to order.

When Sha Ying took the key to open the door and came in, the room full of flowers really surprised her for a second. Sun Qian put down her bag, she took off her mask and put on slippers, and sat at the table to look at the things Sun Qian carefully arranged for her. Everything, yes, today is the fourth anniversary of her marriage, but it is also the fourth anniversary of her hurting Lan Tian. She doesn't know how Lan Tian spent that day. She can't imagine how much that hurt. The blue sky is bound to be strong, and so is she.

So of course, the complex mood made her refuse to refuse Sun Qian's red wine. After drinking many glasses, she was already dizzy. The music was very sensational. It is even more charming that Sun Qian's heart is moved...

After dinner, Sun Qian helped Sha Ying to the living room and turned on the TV. He remembered that Sha Ying accepted him after watching a third-grade movie last time. He wanted to try again this time. Sha Ying fell into Sun Qian's arms on the sofa. , watching the adult images on TV, her body was really hot, and she didn't want to watch any more, so she stood up and walked to her room, Sun Qian picked her up again, Sha Ying was still sober even though she was drunk: "You Put me down and I can go by myself."

"I'll take you in."

Sun Qian carried Sha Ying into the room and laid her flat on the bed, but he didn't dare to mess around again.

Sha Ying got up and went to the bathroom: "Go out, I need to take a shower, my head hurts, very... Thank you for everything you arranged."

"Heh... Ah Ying, we..."

"Get out, okay? I can, it's fine."

"But……"

"I know what you're thinking, but I can't get drunk, no matter how much I drink."

"Can't you get drunk?"

"Yes. Go, you are very tired, go to bed early, if you want to go outside and play with your friends, it doesn't matter, I will go to bed after taking a shower."

"Aying..."

"One day I'm really drunk, I'll let you... But... now... There is always a soberness, this sobriety, let me see your intentions, the fact is that the more you put your heart into it, the sadder I will be, this The day is even more special, because on this day four years ago, she came to our wedding...but I turned my back on her...she must not even have the strength to walk...but the person who helped her...wasn't me ...

I can only comfort you and not allow myself to feel sorry for her, because...it was our wedding..."

"Why are you telling me this?"

Sha Ying smiled bitterly: "Heh... this day is also the fourth anniversary of my cruelty to her. From now on... don't let me live this life, don't do so much for me on this day, so far... I Still feeling sad about this day..."

"Our fourth anniversary makes you sad...why? She...she...what kind of person is she that makes you miss her so much?"

"...Okay, with such a good red wine, today, I will tell you about her...

You have seen her, she has an ordinary appearance, but she has a very warm smile, and the cocoons on her hands are from spring, summer, autumn and winter, sunny days, freezing rain, getting up at five o'clock every morning to practice swords, and returning to the dormitory after sweating. Get up, and run with us in the morning. During the morning self-study, we are all memorizing the content that the teacher will write silently that day, but she is reading something that I can't understand at all, which is almost the content of the next semester.

She has always been the monitor of the class and always got full marks in the exams. So, since I met her, she seems to be obliged to take care of me and carry me back and forth, because at that time my foot was injured and my grades were very bad. Heh... She coaxed me... lied to me... teased me... accompanied me... doing the questions one after another, and just raised my grades.

In winter, she carried me to my home on a bicycle that traveled more than 30 kilometers. When I felt so sorry for her and didn’t want her to carry it, and walked towards a boy, she anxiously said behind my back: “Believe it or not, I will take you with me.” Can also be faster than him'...

She had a dream of being a soldier, but after I got appendicitis and fell in front of her in pain, she decided to become a doctor...

When she is nervous and happy, she will somersault. When I approach her when she is taking a bath, she will be so shy that she can't speak coherently.She makes the naughtiest boys in school admire her, she never wears skirts but she wears them for me...she obviously likes me and knows I like her, but she doesn't want to blame her for fear of ruining me...high school After graduation, even if she ran after my bus, she couldn't say that she liked me and always swallowed it...

Her father passed away when she was a freshman, and I went to Shanghai to see her, and then I realized how lonely she missed me in Shanghai. I cried and begged her to love me, but she still just shed tears and said nothing.

Until the second half of the semester, I invited her to come to Beijing to watch a performance of mine... She wanted to forget me, she didn't want to come, she tortured herself in Shanghai, and played against four tennis players in the final, she risked her life to do that Impossible thing, you have heard about it, so, that day she carried me back to the dormitory from the venue, do you know how bad her foot was injured at that time?But she still found an excuse that I couldn't refuse, and sent me to Shanghai to recuperate. There is no way to describe how much pain she has endured and how much she loves me...

The foot injury was slowly recovering in Shanghai, and I never thought that she would buy two train tickets and insist on sending me from Shanghai to Beijing again. I couldn't take it anymore and I begged her to love me again...

She can't escape the fact that she is in love with me... I have been forcing her... She really gave me enough reasons to be with her...

In Shanghai, in order to lighten her mother’s burden, even though she took the most scholarships in the school every year, she still busily worked as a tutor, ate the cheapest instant noodles, and asked her sister to mend her pants when she came to Beijing. Buying a hard seat ticket...but she bought me the best backpack and the most beautiful clothes...I flew to Beijing to see me who was sick...

Once, my wallet was stolen, and she... hugged me distressedly and said... In the future, I must not fight this kind of thing by myself, tell her, let her bear it alone, and ask me to treat her as a A mountain, a piece of sea, a piece of sky and my favorite doraemon, I just need to love her ruthlessly, and then, take out her own living expenses, and give it all to me, and don’t let me ask my parents for it. ...

During the summer vacation of my sophomore year, she revived my grandma whose heartbeat stopped at two o'clock at night. In the hospital, she coaxed grandma to eat, cut her nails... taught my father to use a blood pressure monitor...

During the summer vacation of my junior year, she accompanied me to pull out my wisdom teeth. She asked me to give them to her. She named the wisdom teeth Lansha...

She said that she will work hard... work harder, finish her six years of majoring, and then live a good life with me, but she is too good, the result of her hard work, is to get a chance to go abroad at public expense, and she hides this from everyone I found her sister until the professor couldn't persuade her, but her sister didn't think she couldn't persuade her at all. I learned about it from her roommate. I went to Shanghai to look for her twice, and I forced her to do it. Go, but she said, she can no longer be separated from me in Beijing and Shanghai, she can't see me sending her off again and again, so she can't allow me to be farther away from her, she can't know my situation at the first time, she can't rest assured , so she doesn't even want the opportunity to go abroad at public expense. She hides many things from me... many very important things...

In the three years of high school, the separation between Beijing and Shanghai, I am full of memories... I don’t deny that I used our wedding to force her abroad, and I can’t forget her. Maybe it’s a fact, even if the years go back, I I think I will still fall in love with her... Even if it ends like this...I shed all my tears and I don't regret it...

Sun Qian...you can call me stubborn...or say I'm not real...sorry...a woman's emotions...it turns out it's hard to make a sharp turn...at least I am...

......"

She had never talked about Lan Tian with Sun Qian in such a positive way about the mantra after drinking, but today, she said that Sun Qian couldn't keep up with the words, so it must be all the truth.

"Then, you can ask me to only play a scene with you, even if it's a fake wedding, at least you don't have to give me so many illusions?"

"How should I ask you to play a scene with me? How should I act in this scene? It's easy for her to see the flaws. The day before we got married, I reminded you that I don't love you. I might need Time, I never pretended I told you this wedding I used to end that relationship, you said it doesn't matter, you can wait, I think you really love me, and I don't have her, who's next It doesn't matter who I fall in love with, I will throw myself into this marriage too.

Sun Qian... Can you not just look at my appearance... Can you... When you keep asking... I will have to betray my heart to fulfill you... I betrayed her, it was me... I cut it off with one hand Break her happiness... If you can turn around immediately to please you... Why did you have to be with her... You... don't understand me... You said that I was crying since the first day you met me, Let me tell you that the tears that day were already shed for her...she insisted on leaving me to a man...although she was not at ease in anyone's hands...she insisted that I forget her... She once rejected me heartbroken again and again...how can she endure today...I will pay her back for such an ending..."

"Aying..."

She cried silently on her back... swallowing the endless past with all her strength...

"... I may have said too much, how can I talk about her with you, I'm going to take a shower, you go, if you lose your temper because I said so much today, anyway, I may be insane now, I may not take the cruel words seriously."

"I'm not losing my temper, you go take a shower."

Sun Qian exited the room, and the TV in the living room was still playing a third-grade movie. The scene began to make Sun Qian feel uncomfortable. He was immersed in the sincere-sounding relationship between Sha Ying and Lan Tian. The movie in front of him, It can only make Sun Qian feel bored and feel that what a meaningless thing he has done.He has seen Lan Tian more than once, she is only a little shorter than him, she has agility, a sunny smile, a very sincere expression, a pair of very simple eyes, very delicate facial features, he thinks of the dance troupe many years ago Everything that happened at the door... She is really sincere to Sha Ying...

He sat on the sofa and lit a cigarette, what was wrong?How to correct it?He didn't care to remember how much Sha Ying had invested in that relationship, and he was thinking about his marriage even more. He might not be able to make Sha Ying fall in love with him for a while, and he couldn't really force her. Think about it Go, to change the relationship between him and Sha Ying, the only possibility is to have a child.

And to have a child with Sha Ying as soon as possible.