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155. Sometimes, not loving is really a kind of disappointment

Finally, it was Saturday, but Lan Tian was still busy in the hospital all day on Saturday, and didn't get off work until ten o'clock in the evening. When he got home, he saw Ye Yu was already in his room, doing his homework online.

Ye Yu walked over and hugged the person who finally came back... stroking the person's chest through the clothes...

"This week seems to be very busy. I'm afraid I'll wait here all night when you finally come back."

She covered Ye Yu's hand: "Why didn't you stay with my sister?"

"She just came back not long ago."

"Oh."

"Are you hungry? Mom is heating up the food, go and eat."

"Ah."

Ye Yu sent Lan Fang a text message telling her that Lan Tian had returned.

Lan Tian asked Ye Yu while eating: "Who are you texting?"

"Fang. She loves you so much. She still works like this on the big weekend. I went shopping with her today, and we ate dinner outside."

"Oh, huh... You must have bought a lot of things again."

"I want to tell you that it is very special for Jingang to open a store."

"What store?"

"It's mainly for beauty, and there is also a flower petal bath. Today, Fang and I went in and tried it. The flower petal bath is really good."

"Oh."

"I'll take you there tomorrow too, okay?"

"Huh? I'm not going."

"Go, it's really comfortable."

"If you want to go, ask my sister to accompany you, and I will definitely not go."

"I even made a bet with Fang. I bet you would go, and she bet you would not go. It seems that she won."

"Why are you making this bet?"

"I really won't bet with her next time, she still knows you."

"I know you like shopping, but—"

"Hey! Don't say it, I know, you won't accompany me, it's okay, I knew this many years ago. Heh... I don't want to change you, don't look at me, eat quickly."

"Oh, then... Anyway, my sister likes to go shopping, so the two of you can just be company."

"That's right, I know exactly what's in both of your closets now."

At this time, Lan Tian's mother came out of the room and put on a new dress.

"Xiaotian, how is it? Does this dress fit? Why didn't you say anything when you bought it for me? It was Xiaoyu and Xiaofang who came to remind me."

"Ah? This... oh, huh... I forgot, it fits very well, Mom, as long as you... like it."

"I like it, why don't you like it? It's just that you don't want to waste money after working soon, and don't buy such a good one in the future. Mom has something to wear, ah."

"Okay, I get it now."

After looking at Ye Yu for a long time, he lowered his head and smiled to eat.

"And these shoes, they are really comfortable to wear. By the way, did the yard reward you again? Buying so many things at once?"

"Huh? Uh...uh yes, some bonuses were given out. Anyway, I'm working now. I've never bought anything for you before. You bought everything for yourself. Then...Xiaotian...have you really grown up? , these...as long as Mom really likes them."

"Mom likes it very much, do you want to serve some more rice?"

"Auntie, sit down and let me serve her."

"It's okay, I'll serve it, you just sit down." Mom said with a smile.

"Auntie, I can't sit still. I'll serve it. You sit down." She took the bowl from Lan Tian's hand and ran into the kitchen.

"Heh... this Xiaoyu is so sensible. Xiaotian, you have to be polite when you go to someone's house."

"Mom, I see."

After taking the rice served by Ye Yu, she looked at Ye Yu again, put down her chopsticks, and covered Ye Yu's hand...

I have a very good appetite...

At 11:30 p.m., a cup of lemonade that had already been brewed was steaming and placed on the desk. Lan Tian looked at Ye Yu who seemed to be asleep on the bed. She couldn't believe that she was asleep, so she drank two-thirds of the glass of water.

"Good night." Lan Tian kissed Ye Yu's face, and fell asleep on his back.

Ye Yu flipped onto Lan Tian: "Good night?"

"Heh... aren't you asleep?"

"you!"

"I?"

"Okay! Good night!" Ye Yu rolled down and lay flat on the bed.

"Heh..." When Lan Tian put Ye Yu on his pillow and wanted to kiss her, Ye Yu turned his head away with a smile and kissed Ye Yu's face, she chased...

"Tomorrow morning, I want to eat egg noodles with vegetables, okay?"

"Why are you still laughing at me?"

"Hehehe...I hold back and don't laugh. Hehehe...I just can't help it, I just laugh, I still want to eat, make more, I called Fang and Atu, I guess they also want to eat. "

"Hey, how come this has become your laughing stock?"

"Hehehe..."

"Really want to eat?"

"Hehehe..."

"Definitely don't do it."

"Hehehe... I really don't laugh anymore, I really don't laugh! Make it for me tomorrow, I must do it."

"Then... I will do it."

Ye Yu looked at the person on her body...she couldn't describe it...

Early the next morning, after Lan Tian finished his sword practice, he really started to make vegetable and egg noodles. Ye Yu went downstairs and called Lan Tu, Lan Fang and Lan Fang's mother up.The two mothers don't know why everyone got up before eight o'clock this morning, and they are so happy. Is it so happy to eat noodles?But it was indeed the first time for Lan Tian to cook breakfast at home.

On Monday morning, Lan Tian and Lan Fang were discussing a case in the office. When Lan Tian looked up to watch the film, Lan Fang saw a faint red mark on Lan Tian's neck.

The mood suddenly sank, a little uneasy, a little chaotic.She couldn't listen to a word of what Lan Tian said later, her mind was full of images that shouldn't be there.

"Sister? What's wrong with you? Sister? Doctor Lan?"

"Oh, oh, I'm fine, I suddenly feel uncomfortable and my head hurts."

"Why did this happen all of a sudden? Didn't you have breakfast?"

"It's really okay."

"Then... how about you take a break and I'll pour you a glass of water."

"Xiao Tian?" Lan Fang looked into Lan Tian's eyes and held onto Lan Tian.

"Ok?"

"You and Xiaoyu?"

"Me and Xiaoyu?"

"Are you... in love with Xiaoyu?"

"……I……"

Lan Fang reached out to touch the red seal.

Knowing what her sister meant, Lan Tian lowered her head and took her hand off.

"You...she is serious."

"I know."

"She can't turn back to you."

"...I will treat her well."

"You can't forget Rusha, you can't love Xiaoyu, but you accept Xiaoyu?"

Lan Tian pondered for a while: "...it's a lifetime, I can't let down a person who treats me so well."

"What is this? You don't love her at all until now? How can I believe that this is something you can do?"

"elder sister?"

"Sometimes not loving is also a disappointment!"

She avoided Lan Fang's questioning eyes, which hurt her, and her sister might be right.

"My sister can't stop her feelings for you, and I really can't bear to stop you... Xiaotian, you have to think carefully, I'm going back, and I'll come back to discuss this patient with you in the afternoon."

Seeing my sister go out sadly, Lan Tian sat on a chair with her forehead propped up, this moment was very uncomfortable, and she couldn't help opening the drawer to look at Sha Ying's photos...

What kind of words and voices reverberate in that time that can never be returned... It is still so clear when I think about it, and it sounds just beside the earlobe... In the palm of my hand, is it the present...or the past...the one I am attached to... ...What kind of love is it...

once……

On a disturbed morning, what a pleasant voice came from behind...

"I'll wipe it for you."

Those eyes... those eyes... those hands against Lan Tian's shoulder blades...

How many times have we walked together on the road by the river...

"I'll walk with you for a while longer."

"Then go as far as the pile of reed leaves, okay?" Lan Tian looked 30 meters ahead.

"Go to the tractor over there." Sha Ying looked about 200 meters ahead.

In the simple dormitory, there are many spiders on the rough wooden beams...

"... Homework is important, or am I? Don't be too nice to me..."

The late-night confession is hidden in tomorrow's painting of stepping on the snow...

"Okay...then tomorrow...let them face to face...closer...so close that you can reach out...so close that you can bump into each other as soon as you push...so close that they seem to be together forever...okay..."

The obsolete conference room, the obsolete tape recorder, and the face of parting are all affectionate dirges: "The Lost Promise"...

"Where are you going? Can you tell me?"

"Xiao Tian hasn't figured it out yet."

"I want to follow..."

The handkerchief touched the corner of Sha Ying's mouth...

Let go of the ideal, the heart is seen through... In the dormitory where we stayed together for three years, the true feelings were released...

"I don't believe it, I don't believe it!!" She grabbed Lan Tian and shook her arms heavily... such a beautiful face was crumpled by sadness... "I don't believe you can forget me..."

At the railway station in Jingang, she still came to see her off...

"I want to give you Shasha..." Sha Ying frowned at this moment... Tears went wild...

She whispered...the voice is so nice...she wants to go with someone...

"sky……"

Two train tickets...

"So, if there is never another pair of hands, will you walk with me forever?"

She has embraced the tenderness in the world, tasted all the love and sorrow in the world, she is hurt by love, infatuated by love, and a person who always gets full marks...

"Cherish your trophy...have your trophy...okay...okay...just hold me like this forever...okay? God...answer me...answer me definitely..."

Jiang Feng is fanning the pink floral curtains...

"You! Do you not want to or don't understand?"

The train platform in Beijing...

"God... hug me again, hug me again..."

The song "Love is like the tide"...

"I wanted to show it to you when you came to Beijing, but now I bring it here directly. It just happens to be today, so it seems more appropriate, heh..."

That wild mandarin fish...

"God... take it, take it quickly. If you don't take it, don't leave..."

Her true feelings, her ideals, the future she wants...

"I... only care about you, I just want to live peacefully with you, don't let anyone disturb you, don't let outsiders dictate where I should go and what I should do, in this world, I only listen to your arrangements...

That storm is coming...

"To...or not to?? Answer me quickly!"

"let's breakup……"

"Don't come here! Go abroad for me... Shasha hopes you go abroad, Shasha would rather wait for Xiaotian for another four years, even 40 years! Wait until I grow old and wait until I die... The person I'm waiting for is you and I don't complain..."

"Four years...I'll make up a lot of dances...and show you when you come back...you'll see me when you come back...I'm sitting on the back of your bike...with my hands in your belts to keep warm ..."

"God...god...god...when you leave...leave me a sword...will you?"

However, in that hotel, the promised eternity began to be questioned quietly...

"Tell me, tell me everything, about this sword technique, about your martial arts, can you not have it at the same time as your rustling?"

The hug at the door of the dance troupe, the century generally just waits to be weathered...

"I listen to you...I listen to you...I don't want to think so much...I want to be with you...It's not important...It's not important...I can't live without you..."

The limit of love... She repays by letting go...

"...Okay...all according to your heart..."

Her calm words, the heart goes with her in the summer of 89... a girl named "Shasha" never walked out of the dormitory building built in 78, the Yangtze River, the dance academy, the train platform...

"...God...my dear...my dear you...you and me, there is always someone who has to...compromise..."

From then on, her life was different, she was pregnant with someone else's child... She beat the quilt on the hospital bed...

"why why why???!"

"God...I hate...Sun Qian...he changed my medicine...I'm sorry...I'm pregnant with someone else's child...Do you know how much I want to conceive your child...that's me The dream of this life..."

She is still grateful for the life she can't turn back, the fate she can't get...

"God...Thank you for calling my name wrong...Thank you for letting me...do so many questions in my life...I am grateful..."

"Sandsha is leaving..."

"Help me make her happy..."

She touched the cocoon at last... Misty Rain of the whole life became attached to her...

"Don't stay where you are...God...with Sasha...continue to do that last question...Take care..."

The body leaning against the wall...Looking at the disappearing figure at the corner...

"Shasha... Shasha..."

……

"Shusha... shasha... shasha... shasha... sha... sha... sha... sha... sha... sha..."

Qinqin knocked on the door and came in...

Endless tears with nowhere to hide... The picture is about to crump...

"Doctor Lan?... SKY?"

"1 minute...Give me 1 minute..." She lowered her head on the chair and cried bitterly...Picking up her index finger, she begged Qinqin to give her 1 minute...Put the photo in the drawer quickly with one hand...

Why does it always hurt like this when I think about it? ?Is it really so hard to pass, really so... so unforgettable? ? ?Work... gotta work... surgery to do... gotta... cheer up... gotta stop this feeling... don't think about it stop thinking about it! ! !Don't even think about it! ! !

Holding back his breath, he covered his face with the palms of both hands, but still couldn't cover the face deformed by pain, Qinqin was stunned by the frenzied tears...

"SKY?"