After the salted fish is married

128. He doesn't love me

Ji Song remembered the first time he shared the bed with Yan Xining in Wenzhang Garden. At that time, the roof of Wenzhang Garden leaked, and the brocade couch where Ji Song slept leaked rain. He had no choice but to squeeze together with Yan Xining.Unexpectedly, this huddle lasted for several months. In these few months, except for the few days when they went to disaster relief, they did not sleep together. On other days, they fell asleep together at night and sometimes got up together in the morning.

At the beginning, Ji Song was still a little uncomfortable. There was one more person beside him, and he felt that something was wrong.However, after a few months, he had already gotten used to Yan Xining's presence.

Now in order to recover as soon as possible, he has to sleep alone.Lying quietly on the big bed, Ji Song still felt uncomfortable.This discomfort does not only come from the body, but also from the spirit.After getting used to the two of them sleeping together, Ji Song always felt that his bed was extremely deserted.

There are two large ice buckets in the house, and the ice buckets provide a steady stream of coolness.After closing the doors and windows, the temperature inside the house was much lower than outside, and a cool breath greeted you as soon as you entered the room.With an ice bucket, even if the temperature outside is high, the two can sleep peacefully.

There was a soft cushion under Ji Song's body, and he turned his head to look in Yan Xining's direction.After a whole day of treatment today, it is reasonable to say that Ji Song's body should be very tired.However, at this moment, he didn't feel sleepy at all, and just wanted to talk to his princess.

Yan Xining was also lying on his side. He tried his best to suppress the panic in his heart, pretending that nothing happened.It's just that his cheeks and ears were a little red, and his heartbeat was faster than usual.

Seeing that Yan Xining's face was not looking well, Ji Song asked with concern, "What's wrong? Are you feeling unwell?"

Yan Xining bit the bullet and found a reason: "Today, Wu Zhu came to see me. I treated him to ice cream and did several arithmetic problems. Maybe I did too many arithmetic problems, and now my head is a bit confused."

Ji Song understood: "The Liaoxia Mission will leave Chuliao in a few days. If you don't want to deal with Wuzhu, you can find a way to refuse. Don't force yourself."

Yan Xining took advantage of the situation and said, "Wuzhu is quite a nice person. At first I thought he was the same person as the emperor. After getting along with him, I found that he is very sincere. Despite his young age, he has traveled a lot. He told me a lot about customs and customs outside the Great Wall, which was very interesting.”

Wu Zhu is dull by nature, he is obsessed with tricks and knows nothing about politics, it is precisely because of this that he and Yan Xining unexpectedly hit it off.After getting along today, the two chatted happily.In addition to arithmetic, he also told Yan Xining a lot about the customs and customs of countries other than Chu and Liao.Using simple language and descriptions, he unfolded a different picture in front of Yan Xining's eyes.

Looking back now, Yan Xining can still think of the scene that Uju depicted, and he couldn't help sighing: "If there is a chance in the future, I want to go and see the Sarentuya Grassland that Uju said, blow the wind of the frontier fortress, and see Watch the scene where the wind blows the grass and sees the cattle and sheep."

Tangled points aside, it was a real pleasure chatting with Uju today.He didn't expect to have the same interests as Wu Zhu, but it's a pity that Wu Zhu will go back soon. If he can live in Chuliao for a long time, he thinks he and Wu Zhu will become good friends.

Ji Song smiled and said, "Why is this so difficult? After I can stand up, I will teach you how to ride a horse. This time, you will not be allowed to ride a short-legged horse. We will ride the best horse in the stable. After the investigation of the capital city, the dust will be cleared." After the settlement, I will take you to my fief. The Chiling Army is guarding the border of the Sari Grassland. If you want to see the scenery of the frontier fortress, I will take a look with you. The sunset on the long river, the ancient road of wolf smoke... Where you want to go, I will go with you You go together."

Yan Xining's heartbeat suddenly accelerated, he opened his mouth and his mind went blank.If Ji Song kissed him before because he was too nervous and wanted to release the pressure, now he couldn't find a better reason.

He's such a slow guy who didn't discover Ji Song's affection for him until now.At this moment, he was nervous and guilty, and couldn't say a word for a while.

Under the flickering candlelight, he couldn't help but look towards the opposite side.At a glance, he caught Ji Song's eyes unexpectedly.Ji Song's eyes were full of tenderness, and he was so flustered that he just wanted to hide, but lying on the bed, where could he hide?

In a panic, Yan Xining thought of the most stupid solution, turned over and buried himself in the quilt.He is like an ostrich, as long as he hides his head in the sand, he can avoid the danger outside.

Ji Song was a little surprised, did he say something wrong?Why did Aning turn around?

Looking at Yan Xining's back, Ji Song lowered his voice: "A Ning, are you asleep? Did I say something that made you uncomfortable?"

Yan Xining said sullenly, "I, I'm a little tired. Good night."

Ji Song's eyes dimmed slightly, how could he not feel Yan Xining's perfunctory, but he really didn't know what he did wrong.But since Aning is unwilling to speak, he will not force him.So he pulled the thin blanket over his chest and said, "Good night."

Although it was good night, Ji Song couldn't fall asleep for a long time.He looked at the back of Yan Xining's head, at his soft hair flowing on the quilt.At this moment, he really wanted to hold him in his arms, really wanted to kiss the corners of his eyes and eyebrows.

But it doesn't matter, the life between him and Aning is still long, and he doesn't care about a day or two.

Yan Xining lay sideways, his eyes facing the wall.The flickering candlelight magnified his shadow and threw it on the wall. With the flickering of the candlelight, his shadow was shaking.

After an unknown amount of time, the candlelight was finally extinguished, and Yan Xining fell asleep in a daze.In the dream, his shadow twisted and climbed out from the wall. The black shadow had a pair of blood-red eyes on the head, and those eyes stared at him viciously.

Shadow scolded himself angrily: "You are shameless, you took Yan Xining's body and played with Ji Song's feelings." "You have to make it clear to Ji Song that you don't mean that to him. You are just a stand-in for Chongxi , don’t delay other people’s life!”

Yan Xining tightly covered his ears, he didn't want to hear these scolding voices, but no matter how hard he struggled, he still couldn't break free.Finally he made up his mind that it was time to take a stand.

He is willing to be a happy salted fish under Ji Song's wings for the rest of his life, but he can't play with Ji Song's feelings.In his eyes, affection is not a transaction, it is sacred.If he doesn't like it, he doesn't like it. He has to find a chance to make it clear to Ji Song.

However, after making up your mind, when to speak is a difficult problem.Ji Song had just finished the operation and was in a weak state.If you tell him the truth at this time, wouldn't it hurt his heart?When a person is in a low mood, the wound recovery will also become slower.

After thinking for a long time, Yan Xining decided to adopt the method of gradually alienating.As long as he spends less time with Ji Song, Ji Song will slowly transfer his feelings away.As Ji Song's health gets better and better, more and more people will appear around him, and one day Ji Song will successfully forget him.

It just so happened that Wu Zhu would come to Prince Rong's mansion every day to ask Yan Xining to do math problems, Yan Xining was heartbroken: No matter, he can't continue to hang around in front of Ji Song.He had to go out, away from Ji Song's sight, and Ji Song gradually stopped thinking.

Ji Song felt unspeakably aggrieved these days, his princess went out early every day, and would not come back until nightfall.According to Yan Ke and his team's report, Yan Xining has been hanging out with Wu Zhu for the past few days.

My own princess, when she was lying on the bed, not only did not take care of herself, but instead wandered out to play... This is really wrong.

Ji Song felt that something happened to his concubine, but no matter how he insinuated, Yan Xining refused to reveal a word.

This day the scorching sun shone brightly on the earth, and Yan Xining went out again despite the high temperature.Ji Song could clearly see his reluctance to leave the ice bucket when he went out, but even so, he went out resolutely.Ji Song looked sideways at the empty bed, he pursed his lips and said nothing.

Ye Linfeng twirled the silver needle lightly, he lowered his eyes and sighed, "Don't look, even if you see the flowers, Xi Ning is not there."

Ji Song was puzzled: "Uncle, I don't understand. Obviously my body is recovering, why is Aning avoiding me?" The good days are beckoning to them, and Aning likes him so much, he managed to stay until the clouds opened to see the moonlight , why are you avoiding him now?

Ye Linfeng sighed: "Do you still remember what the old man told you earlier? I asked you to take Xining out for a walk as long as you have nothing to do, chat with him more, and listen to his heart. Did you do it?"

Ji Song thought for a moment: "I... went to the night market with him."

Ye Linfeng really wanted to give Ji Song a brainstorm: "Did you take him to the night market? You just walked over there and visited the night market. You are just perfunctory him!"

Ji Song looked at Ye Linfeng with complicated eyes: "Uncle, do you know something?"

Ye Linfeng gently inserted silver needles into the acupuncture points on Ji Song's legs: "Originally, uncle shouldn't talk too much about the relationship between you young couple. But uncle still wants to say: Rong Chuan, have you ever thought that Xi Ning might not do not like you?"

Ji Song's pupils shrank suddenly, his body froze, his hands involuntarily clenched the quilt.An absurd and funny emotion arose in his heart: Ah Ning doesn't like him?

How could Aning not like him?Aning is willing to protect himself with his own life. He will get angry after others say bad things about him. He will cook so many delicious food for himself. He massages his legs every day... How can such an Aning May not like myself?

Ye Linfeng patted Ji Song's leg: "Relax a bit, I still need to get an injection."

As the silver needle pierced the acupoint, Ji Song's legs were sore and numb, and the feeling was very complicated, just like his mood at the moment.

Ye Linfeng said softly: "Do you still remember the time when I wanted to eat rice cakes and asked Xining to make rice cakes for me? I chatted with him that time, and I joked that he loved you too much. Obviously you can do it But he won't let you do it. I told him to act like a baby in front of you. Guess what he told me?"

"He said that he and you are just a superficial couple, and his biggest role is to be happy. When your legs recover, you will marry a wife and have children. At that time, his mission will be completed."

"Rong Chuan, your princess may not love you as much as you imagined."

129. He doesn't love me

The bright sun has been basking in the sun for a whole day, and the stone slabs in the capital are so hot that they smoke.By the afternoon, it was muggy and hot, and it looked like a downpour was coming.

In the past few days, Yan Xining and Wu Zhu have been climbing mountains and swimming in lakes, but they are too tired and hot for a long time.But if Ji Song doesn't leave Wenzhang Garden, he won't be able to go back and lie down for a day.

Wu Zhu was leaving the capital of Chu and Liao in a few days, Yan Xining began to worry, what excuse should he use to leave the palace next?Why don't you visit shops and Zhuangzi in the name of inspection, so many shops and Zhuangzi will disappear after a month of shopping.

Just as Yan Xining was sitting on the attic looking sadly at the long street outside, Wu Zhu couldn't help but said, "Yan Xining, is there something on your mind these days? You look very unhappy."

Yan Xining quickly regained his composure, he smiled and said, "No, I'm quite happy. It's just that the weather is too hot, and it might rain heavily today."

Wu Zhu nodded slightly: "Yes, it is going to rain. But I can also see that you are not happy. I am a bit dull and not very good at communicating with people, but it does not mean that I am stupid. If you have any troubles, let us know. It's a friend, I want to see if I can help you."

Yan Xining lowered her head in shame when she heard the words: "I'm sorry, Wu Zhu." Wu Zhu is a straightforward and simple person, but he uses Wu Zhu to escape from Ji Song.Facing Uju's concerned eyes, he felt despicable.

Wu Zhu poured Yan Xining a glass of ice cream from the ice jug on one side: "You have nothing to do to me. During this time, I have been discussing arithmetic with you. I have made great progress. I am very grateful to you. Seeing that you are so distressed , I want to help you as much as I can.”

Yan Xining was a little hesitant. After struggling for a long time, he thought about it: "I have a friend who married another person for some reason. Now that person likes my friend, but my friend just wants to live a peaceful life. He doesn't like that guy."

Wu Zhu frowned slightly: "Generally speaking, when a person says he has a friend, that friend is often talking about himself. Are you talking about you and King Rong?"

The corner of Yan Xining's lips twitched violently, he had to admit that Wu Zhu's damn intuition was really accurate.

Seeing Yan Xining's expression, Wu Zhu scratched his cheek: "I'm not yet married, and I don't have a wife at home. So I don't quite understand your current mood. But I think that a person's life is very long, so don't wrong yourself. If You really don't like King Rong, so make it clear to him. Chu Liao Ji Rong Chuan is not a narrow-minded person, I believe he can understand you."

Yan Xining breathed a long sigh of relief, his heart felt empty: "I understand the truth, it's just..."

He is very bad at rejecting people, especially when facing people who have a crush on him, no matter what he says, it will be a kind of harm to Ji Song.

Wu Zhu tidied up the calculation books on the table, and he looked directly into Yan Xining's eyes: "Yan Xining, I don't know the cause and effect of your affair with King Rong, so I dare not make rash comments. But if you are unhappy, it proves the relationship between the two of you." There is a problem. Let's stop here for today."

Yan Xining opened his mouth: "Should we go back and explain clearly to him now?" He had such a headache, he still didn't know how to speak.

Wu Zhu pointed to the sky: "No, it's windy outside, and it may rain heavily soon. I have to go back and pack up the math books that are drying in the courtyard."

Yan Xining didn't know whether to laugh or cry, the reason was very stupid.

After Wu Zhu said this, he left, while Yan Xining sat in the pastry shop and patiently finished the last bowl of ice cream.When he left the shop, it was already windy outside.Accompanied by the strong wind came menacing dark clouds, and after a while, thick clouds rolled in the southeast sky and pressed towards the capital.

Fortunately, the shop is very close to Prince Rong's Mansion, and it only takes a few steps to reach the Palace.When he stepped into the gate of the palace, his steps became heavy.Although he has done a good job of psychological construction, it is still very difficult for him to speak up on his own initiative.

He dawdled all the way, and when he arrived at Wenzhang Garden, dark clouds had already covered the sky above his head.The rapidly overcast sky made the room a bit dark, Yan Xining tiptoed to the door of the room, he quietly opened the door and took a look.

He hadn't spoken to Ji Song for several days, and he didn't know how he was doing now.

But looking around, Ji Song was not on the bed.Yan Xining was stunned: "Bai Tao, where is the prince?"

At this moment, Ji Song's voice came from behind the desk: "I'm here."

While talking, the candle on the desk was lit, and Ji Song quietly sat in the wheelchair, his eyes complicated: "A Ning, I have something very important to ask you, and you need to answer it truthfully."

When Ji Song was not smiling, the oppressive feeling was very strong, Yan Xining couldn't help but stand upright, his heart was beating wildly: "Yes."

Ji Song opened his mouth, his voice dry: "Do you really love me or not?"

Ji Song's eyes were full of sincerity, his body was straightened, and his hands were tightly grasping the armrest of the wheelchair.After hearing what Ye Linfeng said about Yan Xining today, Ji Song was too shocked to speak.Although Ye Linfeng is his uncle, as long as Aning doesn't admit it, he won't believe a word of it.

The waiting time for Yan Xining's return was long, and the longer the waiting time, the more Ji Song thought.He hoped that Aning would come back sooner, and was afraid that he would come back too soon.

Ji Song looked directly into Yan Xining's eyes, there was tension and worry in his eyes, at this moment he was like a prisoner waiting for the sentence, just waiting for Yan Xining to give him a good time.

After listening to Ji Song's questioning, Yan Xining's heart twitched suddenly, his ears buzzed, Tianling Gai seemed to be hit by someone, and his soul seemed to float out of his body.Unexpectedly, Ji Song asked this question before him, Yan Xining opened his mouth subconsciously to escape.

At this moment, a thunderstorm sounded in the sky. A loud bang of "Boom—" resounded through the capital, shaking the ground under his feet to tremble.Along with the thunder explosion, there was also a bright electric light, which illuminated the sky under the dark clouds, and also illuminated the entire Wenzhang Garden.

The bright electric light illuminated the main room, and Yan Xining saw her own shadow distorted in the electric light.

At the moment when the thunder stopped, he became firm, took a deep breath, and opened his mouth: "Rong Chuan, I can't lie to you. I don't love you." Ji Song can be his leader, his mother and father, It's his friend, but not his lover.

The light in Ji Song's eyes suddenly went out, and his body leaned back slumped. At this moment, the strength in his whole body seemed to be sucked away.His ears roared, and Yan Xining's voice became a little erratic.

Ji Song's fingers were trembling slightly, he had suffered a major blow.

It turned out that Aning really didn't love him.He followed himself just to seek refuge.It was he who asked Aning to play a qualified Concubine Rong, and Aning did it, but he was greedy.

How can a person who has trampled on other people's wishes expect others' sincerity?Ji Song twitched the corners of his mouth, he wanted to laugh, but he couldn't.

The pouring rain finally fell, and the tiles on the roof were smashed and rattled.The rain brought coolness and drove away the heat of the past few days.Ji Song felt a coolness rising from his heart, and the coolness spread from his heart to his limbs. For a while, he felt that the air he inhaled was so cold that it hurt his heart.

Bai Tao poked his head around the door, he felt that the atmosphere inside the room was very scary.Did the young master and the prince quarrel?Is it because the young master keeps sneaking out of the house recently, is the prince angry?

Just when Bai Tao wanted to take a peek, someone tapped his head lightly.He raised his head wonderingly, only to see Yan Ke standing behind him with a stern expression: "Don't look, go back."

When the princess said that he didn't love the prince, Yan Ke's heart almost stopped beating.How could the princess not love the prince?He is obviously taking care of the prince with so much heart, and the two of them eat and live together with such a tacit understanding, how could it be possible not to love him?

Ji Song's voice was hoarse: "Why?"

Yan Xining was stunned, he lowered his head.The rain outside the house was like a waterfall, and it sounded like the sky was falling.

Ji Song's hands trembled, he took a deep breath and said with restraint, "Why don't you love me?"

Yan Xining wanted to laugh when he heard the words, but after grinning the corners of his lips, his smile was uglier than crying: "The day I first arrived at the mansion, I hanged myself. From that day on, I can grow up and love you brightly." Xi Ning is dead."

Instead, there is a ray of wandering soul from modern times. He has secrets that cannot be told to others, and thoughts that are different from those of this era.

Hearing this, Ji Song and Yan Ke were taken aback, and Bai Tao covered his mouth with tears rolling down his eyes.Everyone remembered the deep bruise on Yan Xining's neck, which caused Yan Xining to wear a scarf for a long time.

Ji Song knew that Yan Xining couldn't think through when he first arrived in Wenzhangyuan, but after that time, Yan Xining was optimistic and actively avoided talking about the suicide, he thought it was over.Unexpectedly, Aning mentioned this matter now, Ji Song's heart seemed to be pierced by an invisible sharp knife.

Ji Song's heart hurts so badly that he can't breathe, did he hurt Ah Ning to the core at that time?

After Yan Xining said this, he suddenly felt a great grievance, and at this moment he wanted to cry.But he didn't want to cry in front of Ji Song, so he said hoarsely and forcefully, "Can you leave? I want to be alone for a while."

Looking at Yan Xining's red eyes, the sharp pain in Ji Song's chest turned into a sharp pain.He didn't dare to raise his head to face Yan Xining, let alone rely on his own identity to do things against Aning's will.So Ji Song said in a low voice: "Yan Ke, go and listen to Songlou."

Yan Ke was full of guilt, just as he was pushing Ji Song to go out, Yan Xining suddenly called them: "Wait a minute."

The two of them stopped, only to hear Yan Xining say: "It's raining so heavily outside, the prince's wound can't be exposed to the rain. You don't want to go out, I'll go out."

Speaking of which, Yan Xining walked quickly from the main room to the eaves, and he casually took down the oil-paper umbrella hanging under the eaves.The torrential rain washed the ground violently, and Yan Xining broke into the rain without hesitation.

Ji Song's breathing became short of breath, just now when Aning brushed past him, he clearly saw tears on Aning's face.It was his fault, he hurt Aning too deeply, and even tried to lightly expose everyone's happiness.

Ji Song had never felt so tired before. Looking at the gradually blurred figure in the rain, he whispered: "Yan Ke, protect the princess. Protect him...please."