Running away with a bamboo horse's ball

Qi Ling's appearance is very similar to his mother, so he looked like a beautiful doll when he was a child, and the child is not divided into genders. His hair color is shallow and his pupils are light, and his eyes are big and bright.

Grandma almost cried when she saw him for the first time.

He heard some words later that he was really too much like his mother.

Qi Ling didn't talk to his grandpa and grandma after his mother died in a car accident. He didn't have any independent decision-making power at that time, so he thought that if seeing him would make grandma cry, then he should stop following him.

In the end, he awarded the award to the Qi family.

Qi Ling remembered that at that time, grandma's face didn't seem to be thankful that she didn't have to see his face.

He couldn't figure it out, but they didn't have much time to communicate later.

Meeting under such inopportune circumstances, the conversation that followed was blunt.

Grandma: "Are you coming to see your mother?"

Qi Ling: "Yes."

"finish watching?"

"I can go in again." Qi Ling said, but within 10 minutes, she came back again.

They all saw the flowers he sent, Qi Ling didn't know where to put his eyes, so he still looked at the flowers.

This time I saw a small part of the missing part that was blown away by the wind. It was not obvious, but it made Qi Ling want to buy a new bunch.

Because Qi Ling came in advance, it happened to be raining today, and without cleaning work, it seemed faster.

That aunt is a friend of my grandmother, and it is said that she also watched her mother grow up.

When Qi Ling was about to say goodbye to them, Grandpa suddenly said, "Go and sit at home."

Qi Ling nodded and canceled the taxi she just got.

They sent the aunt who borrowed the umbrella home first, and then drove back. Qi Ling passed the lake this time.

"Eat here before leaving."

It was morning when Qi Ling came, but now it was lunch, grandpa went out under an umbrella to buy cooked food for extra meals, and grandma was busy in the kitchen.

He looks like an outsider but doesn't look like an outsider. In an unfamiliar environment, his grandparents don't treat him like an outsider.

Grandma saw him standing alone in the porch, and pointed him to a room, "Your mother's previous room, you haven't seen it, you can go in and have a look."

Qi Ling had never been there before. He did well in the college entrance examination, and his father dragged him back. Now I think it's not to announce the good news, but to show off.

To prove it, the Qi family educated him very well. This kind of display was too much like a commodity. Qi Ling didn't realize it at the time. Anyway, he didn't stay for more than 10 minutes before he was kicked out.

His "father" told him that they didn't welcome him back, there were reasons and evidence, and Qi Ling believed it.

Now it seems that he is simply not welcome.

Qi Ling pushed the door open and entered her mother's room for the first time. It was a very ordinary room with white walls, bright yellow curtains, wardrobe, desk and bed.

Leaving the bedroom door open, Qi Ling pulled out the chair from the desk and sat down.

His mother was an only daughter, Qi Ling looked back and saw a diary on the table.

He hesitated, but didn't move.

Although his grandparents let him in, he still didn't want to touch these private things.

After sitting for a while, he heard the TV outside being turned on, and the room became lively instantly.

Qi Ling walked out and closed the door.

During the meal, his grandmother asked him, "Have you read the diary on the table?"

Qi Ling wondered if it was really a test?He shook his head.

Unexpectedly, grandma said in the next sentence: "Look."

"Now?" Qi Ling put down her chopsticks.

Grandma glanced at him, "Dinning now, aren't your college entrance examination scores pretty good?"

Qi Ling thinks that he might be very nervous, but grandma is quite good at joking, did she just call him stupid?

After being told, Qi Ling found that she was not angry.

After a meal, the rain outside also stopped.

"Do you have anything to do this afternoon?"

Qi Ling wondered if they wanted to keep him overnight, so she said, "No."

"That's just right to go back. You can take the diary back and read it."

Qi Ling: It's a little different from what he thought.

But he just looked at it, and it seems that there is no room for him in the house. He feels that he is so old, and it is not easy to live in his mother's previous room. According to his grandmother, he took the notebook and left.

In fact, the plane he booked was also in the afternoon.

Originally, he didn't plan to stay longer in City C, but now because of a meal, he dawdled on his own, and had already changed his flight to a delayed flight.

On the plane, Qi Ling opened the diary that his grandmother insisted on letting him carry.

It was said that it was a diary, and Qi Ling knew it after reading it. It is more accurate to say that it is a pregnancy diary, which records important events during pregnancy and needs to be provided to the doctor to observe the health status of the mother and fetus.

Qi Ling turned it over when she was sitting on the plane. Zhao Qingyu's health was not good, and she took care of herself at first after she became pregnant, but she couldn't hold on anymore and found a nurse.

Qi Ling looked at these physical changes caused by pregnancy all the way, and felt the long and difficult process.

So hard, why give birth.

He thought about it without any ups and downs, looked at this, and then thought about his situation in the Qi family. Even if Zhao Qingyu was pregnant with him, he thought it would be a wiser choice to get rid of him.

Without him, she still has the possibility to start her life again. After he was born, she would have no time for herself.

Unknowingly, Qi Ling turned to the end. The pregnancy diary prepared by Zhao Qingyu was very thick. Even though she basically wrote down her situation every day, there were still many blank pages in the back.

Qi Ling closed the book, and inadvertently saw that the color at the end of the paper seemed to be old, with traces of being turned over.

He turned the book he had just closed to the end.

To be honest, Qi Ling didn't have many memories of Zhao Qingyu, he was still too young when she left, only four years old.

It is difficult for a four-year-old child to remember things. Qi Ling does not have the ability to understand a person's personality through photos. He does not understand her. If someone asks Qi Ling if he has ever felt maternal love, he will not be able to answer.

The book was written on with a pencil in the end, and was even erased by the owner.

Qi Ling didn't intend to spy on it. Since its owner didn't want others to see it, he didn't intend to follow the traces to identify the handwriting.

He thought it was over like this, but he still didn't understand why grandma wanted to show him. Could it be that she wanted to tell him how hard it was for Zhao Qingyu to give birth to him.

After seeing this pregnancy diary, Qi Ling did have a deeper impression... He went back to the cemetery to give himself time to calm down and seek an answer that he would not regret.

Now it seems that they are also helping him find the answer, so let's start taking that medicine after going back.

Qi Ling made a decision, and the part with folded marks at the end was also at the end. When Qi Ling was about to put it away for the second time, she accidentally caught a glimpse of the traces of the black pen.

This one has not been erased.

He stared at it.

"I don't regret it, I love him very much."

The characters are not big, they only occupy a small line, and Qi Ling will probably ignore them if she is not paying attention.

After all, the erased pencil marks in the front will make people feel that there should be nothing behind. Unexpectedly, in this ordinary position that is neither the front nor the last, Qi Ling saw this sentence and wrote it with a black pen. A line erased.

Qi Ling looked at it for a while, then raised her finger to touch each outline, the uneven texture, his mother's handwriting is very beautiful, the very beautiful regular script looks like it was printed, especially this line, which is extraordinarily neat.

It seems that I really want people to see this line of expression, so there is no sloppy strokes.

Qi Ling lowered his eyes, he might change his mind.

He wanted to know the reason why his mother didn't regret it. Now that he has the same opportunity, if he is born, he will feel the same as his mother.

Not necessarily, maybe he will fall into boundless regret and pain.

Qi Ling knows very well that her moral bottom line is not high, and he tries not to be responsible for anything. Problems that can be solved with money are not considered problems in his opinion, and he does do so. Others can owe him favors, but he would never owe others unless necessary.

In his view, living things are the most difficult problem to solve. If you don't have enough money, you must invest in your emotions.

Qi Ling didn't close the book, he glanced at the jargon again.

Make a decision later.

After Qi Ling returned home, the tied black plastic bag was still placed at the entrance. The doctor said that there was a process to take, and prescribed two different medicines to be taken together.

He looked at it for a while and still didn't touch it. It was too late to come back today. Dr. Xu Bo said that he had to eat it twice a day, so he could start tomorrow.

Holding the pregnancy book, Qi Ling couldn't say what she felt.

He went to the study and found a new book, opened it carefully, and wrote on the blank title page.

5-3;

Nausea improved.

Just when Qi Ling was thinking about the month and date when he first had symptoms, the phone rang and it was an unfamiliar number, so he picked it up.

Qi Xi: "Brother, are you asleep?"

Qi Ling thought she had answered the wrong number, but Qi Xi would call him and call him brother, Qi Ling felt ridiculous.

"Sleeping, you woke me up." Qi Ling didn't hang up the phone, he was waiting for Qi Xi's next words.

There was no movement over there, it seemed that he was just taking a deep breath, Qi Ling wondered if he would hang up on him first, and was feeling bored when he heard it suddenly.

"It's like this brother, although you and I were not born by the same mother, I also know that I have done a lot of excessive behaviors before. You see, we are all grown up now, and the company will still rely on our brothers to support each other in the future. Don't be with me. I apologize to you for making such a mess at home."

Qi Xi was looking forward to getting Qi Ling's answer. He always felt that Qi Ling seemed to be quite talkative. He used to look down on him. Now that he is submissive, Qi Ling will definitely accept it immediately.After all, the Qi family is his home. Does he want to wander around by himself for the rest of his life without relying on him?

He didn't think anyone could endure this kind of life. If Yu Ke hadn't asked him to apologize to Qi Ling today, and asked him to record all the calls Qi Ling received to let him know, he wouldn't have done so.

"Did you take the wrong medicine?" Qi Ling asked this sentence, almost knocking Qi Xi down in anger.

But he has already opened his mouth, so naturally he will not refute, he can only laugh, "I am very sincere."

Qi Ling pursed her lips, "I am also very sincere, you and Yu Ke go to Zhizhi together."

He had already guessed, Qi Xi probably didn't have a sudden convulsion, but Yu Ke asked him to do it.

Qi Ling didn't bother to ask Yu Ke why he did this, he didn't really care.

No matter whether he raises this child or not, it's not Yu Ke's turn to tell him what to do, let alone play the emotional card with his unemotional family members.

After hanging up the phone, Qi Ling thought about throwing away the medicine tomorrow. Shouldn't there be a special recycling place for medicine?

In the evening, Xu Bo's work WeChat received a message.

"Doctor Xu, I've made up my mind, and I still won't have an abortion."