Reborn you idiot

The reason why the Asian Pop Music Festival is a grand event is that even the judging lineup is very strong, with musicians and producers from seven regions, each of which is famous, and its fairness and fairness cannot be doubted.

When Zhang Weidong stepped onto the stage, he didn't care about the four or five thousand audience present, but looked at the judges' seat immediately.

These people have given Suzuki Ishiya a high score of more than eight points, how many points will they give themselves?

Zhang Weidong didn't know what to do, not at all. It would be great if he could be given more time to prepare for the game, even if it takes one more day.But the reality is right in front of him, he has no way out, if he is not fully prepared, he can't win, how can he look better when he loses?

Fortunately, the day after tomorrow is the main event, and the total score of the two performances will be the final result of the competition.

As soon as Zhang Weidong appeared, the scene became quiet, and it was surprisingly quiet.

Just after Suzuki Shiya finished his performance, he mentioned their bet by the way, and now the whole world knows about it, which put an invisible pressure on Zhang Weidong.Who is Zhang Weidong?The audience in the audience questioned. There was no album, no concert, only one single, which was the ending song of the movie.

This is Tokyo, Japan again, not China. How many people know Zhang Weidong and will cheer him on?

Zhang Weidong walked under the spotlight, sat up straight, took a deep breath, and then let it out slowly.

When he was playing the prelude, he was still thinking about how many points he could get. The average score should be at least seven points, otherwise the difference in points would be too big, and no matter how hard he tried in the next game, he would not be able to get back the points.And at the same time, he was also worried about another thing. Suzuki Ishiya sang a passionate rock song. In comparison, this song is too monotonous, just a few chords repeating and repeating. If it is not played well, it will be even worse. ...

As soon as he opened his mouth, Zhang Weidong knew he was not in the mood, so he quickly closed his eyes and stabilized his mind.

There are too many unfavorable factors and too much pressure, he can't devote himself to acting.

So in the second half, Zhang Weidong almost sang with his eyes closed. Anyway, he finally had a chance to be on the stage.

Sing it well, think about your original wish, think about why there is this song - because he understands Ivan, he also wants to fly high like Ivan, fly to far, far away places, to find the soul pure land.There is no famine, no war, no discrimination, no money, no boundaries... where they can fly and sing freely, so he wants to fly, even if he has no wings.

Zhang Weidong raised his head high, and there is a section of this song that hums without lyrics. Instead of humming along with the song, he roared loudly: "Ah——!!!" At the same time, he swept the strings with his right hand. An unnecessary vent was perfectly processed as part of the song.

"Ivan! Ivan! Ivan!" Someone shouted from the auditorium after the music stopped.

It's just that very, very few people were shouting, Zhang Weidong smiled slightly, stood up and bowed.

Zhou Li has been waiting in the backstage. She was more nervous than Zhang Weidong, so she immediately went up to her and asked, "You did well, how do you feel?"

Zhang Weidong puffed up his cheeks and exhaled: "But don't lose."

Seeing him leave after finishing speaking, Zhou Li had no choice but to chase after him and ask, "Where are you going? The judges haven't scored yet."

Zhang Weidong said as he walked, "Go back to the hotel and sleep, I have already lost this match."

Zhou Li was stunned, and murmured, "No way..."

She looked at the back of Zhang Weidong leaving, and felt indescribable in her heart. Zhang Weidong was very likely to lose, but when the other party really lost, she found it difficult to accept.Zhou Li took off her glasses, rubbing her eyes and thinking, why?

It's not that she can't accept that Zhang Weidong will lose, but she hopes too much that he will win. From this man's entry to the present, she has been watching him grow, watching him fall, and watching him get up again. Before she knew it, she had already different feelings.

After the judges scored, Zhou Li found a quiet place to sit down, took out her mobile phone and made a long-distance call: "Boss, Zhang Weidong lost, yes... I knew it would happen, but I'm very sad now... I just saw him alone On stage, no one to accompany him, no one to help him harmonize, there is nothing but a light, he sings alone under the light, boss, I..."

The person on the other end of the phone didn't know what to say, Zhou Li took back her glasses, smiled and said: "Yeah, I don't know what's wrong with me, I suddenly became emotional, I'm sorry, I made you laugh... ..."

Zhang Weidong returned to the hotel, hung up the sign of Do Not Disturb, and fell asleep with his head covered.

He doesn't want to know how many points he's scored, not at all, and well, he admits he's a little scared.

So his battery is dead, let's talk when he wakes up.

It's a pity that Zhang Weidong didn't sleep until he woke up naturally as he wished, and the phone kept ringing, which woke him up.

When he pressed the answer button, Duhu's rough voice yelled: "What the hell are you flying? Aren't you the music director? How did you get on stage? I'm so anxious, what's going on, tell me Make it clear!"

Zhang Weidong got out of bed, went to the window and opened the curtains: "It's a long story, don't ask, I'll explain it to you when I return home."

"I'll go, are you sure you can come back? It's already on TV, why did you get into a fight with that little Japan and lose to him?"

Looking down at the night view of Tokyo, Zhang Weidong smiled wryly: "How many points did I lose?"

"What? You asked me?" Dahu was already furious over there: "You kid lost by a full fifteen points, ranking eighth, just behind Li Sisi! How could I know such a fool as you, even a woman Nothing compares!"

Zhang Weidong was speechless, ranked eighth out of [-] singers in seven regions, and couldn't even reach the passing mark.

He asked Dahu: "Suzuki Ishiya, where is that guy ranked?"

"I don't even know this, are you sure you participated in the competition? Or are you sleepwalking? Number one! The high score left No.2!"

Zhang Weidong snorted: "I won't tell you anymore, I want to take a bath."

Du Hu was so anxious that he didn't even have time to say cheers, so he hung up the phone.He was going to make another call, but he held back after thinking about it, and he was confused when he was concerned. He regretted that he didn't have a good word just now, and hoped that Zhang Weidong would not be discouraged.

Zhang Weidong wasn't depressed, but he couldn't cheer up either. He lay lazily in the bathtub and yawned.

If he loses, he loses, there is nothing to worry about, but the thought of facing his colleagues in the company makes his ass hurt.

The doorbell rang suddenly, Zhang Weidong stood up from the water, slowly picked up a towel to wipe his body, and put on a bathrobe. He even hung up the sign of Do Not Disturb. Whoever has no eyes deserves to wait.

Zhang Weidong hung the towel around his neck, walked slowly to open the door, and was stunned when he saw the guy with no eyes.

There are two guys without eyes, one big and one small, one tall and one short.

The younger one jumped up and hugged Zhang Weidong's thigh, and called out to the teacher.The older one smiled brightly and said good evening.

It took Zhang Weidong a long time to come back to his senses: "You, why did you come to Tokyo?"

The younger one answered first: "Because I miss the teacher, so I pestered my father to bring me here." He hugged Weidong's thigh tightly, turned his head, raised his face and looked at the older one timidly and asked, "Dad... Are you right?"

The older one was taken aback, and his smile became a bit forced.

Zhang Weidong was angry and funny, he lowered his head and asked the little guy, "What else did your father tell you?"

The little guy answered seriously like in class: "You must hug the teacher and never let go, so that you won't be driven away."

The older guy couldn't stop laughing, so he faked a cough: "I'm here because I'm worried about you."

Zhang Weidong couldn't help laughing at the father and son, he had nothing to say, so he had to put them into the room.

When he went to the bathroom to change clothes, Xiao Wu had already fallen asleep in Xiao Jungu's arms. This kid was too excited to fly for the first time, so he had no energy when he got off the plane, and he couldn't hold on until the hotel .

Looking at Xiao Jungu, Zhang Weidong bent down, gently put the child on the bed, covered the quilt again, and treated his father like a decent one.

There were two adults left, and the atmosphere was a bit awkward. Zhang Weidong had nothing to say: "You don't need to come here specially, I have nothing to worry about."

Xiao Jun sat on the edge of the bed with his legs crossed, and touched the child's hair for a while: "It's not special, my company is also going to participate in the exchange meeting, so let's take it as a side inspection, and isn't it Xiao Wu's birthday? I promised to take him on a trip, and it happened to be in time."

"It was Zhou Li who told you the room number?"

"No, just ask anyone in your company to find out,"

Zhang Weidong stopped talking.

Xiao Jun thought he was unhappy, so he said: "If I bother you, we will leave immediately."

Seeing that he was going to hug Xiao Wu, Zhang Weidong shook his head to stop him: "It's okay, just let the child sleep here, he looks exhausted."

Xiao Jun retracted his hand and said, "Then please help me take care of the child, and I will open another room."

Zhang Weidong agreed, he watched Xiao Jungu leave the room, he couldn't help sighing.He knew that Xiao Jun's old company also participated in the exchange meeting. Compared with their company, the other party was stronger and stronger, and collectively stayed in another four-star hotel.It stands to reason that Xiao Jungu should also live in that hotel, instead of getting together with their company, so the biggest reason why this guy came to Tokyo is himself.

He checked the time on his mobile phone, it was already midnight, and it would be dawn soon.

After Xiao Jungu came back, he went to the bed and picked up Xiao Wu: "I will take him back to the room to sleep, and I won't disturb your rest."

Zhang Weidong was shaving, looked at him, and said nothing.

Xiao Jungu said what was in his heart: "I have no other thoughts, I just came to see you, just take a look at you, and feel relieved when you see it. I know that I am too worrying, this habit is not good, and I will slowly Change it."

Zhang Weidong still didn't speak, and sent Xiao Jungu out of the door, and then gently closed the door.

He really has nothing to say, he can do whatever Xiao Jungu likes, as long as it doesn't interfere with his life.

At breakfast time, Zhang Weidong had just appeared in the restaurant, and his colleagues at the table were all sitting upright, and at the same time stopped eating to pay attention.

Zhang Weidong scratched his head and said hello: "Good morning."

"Director Zhang, good morning!" They replied in unison.

Zhang Weidong knew this would happen, and couldn't stand it, he said, "Are you trying to keep me from eating?"

Zhou Li pushed the assistant next door, signaled him to move out of his seat, and said to Zhang Weidong, "Come and sit, and ignore them."

After Zhang Weidong sat down, he was still a little uncomfortable. Everyone focused on him, and his every move was watched.He gulped down a large glass of milk, put down the glass, and asked angrily, "Have you seen enough?"

Everyone laughed awkwardly, and someone said, "Director Zhang, we were just too surprised."

Zhang Weidong was puzzled, and he hadn't done anything out of the ordinary.

"How should I put it..." One of the colleagues frowned, unable to find the right words.

So Zhou Li kindly helped him with the words: "Your performance on stage is too different from usual. You look like a professional singer. The typhoon is very stable, so they were surprised and couldn't accept this change for a while."

It turned out so, Zhang Weidong smiled helplessly: "You can only see the superficial things. As for how well you sing, you can tell by the points given by the judges. In the end, you still lost in a mess."

"As expected, we know you have tried your best. After all, the opponents are very strong." Zhou Li asked again: "What are your thoughts and plans for the next match?"

"I have no plan or idea." Zhang Weidong said.

When the other colleagues heard this, they were all worried about him, but Zhou Li was more calm: "Then think about it slowly, anyway, the repertoire will be handed in tomorrow afternoon, then the rehearsal, and the official competition will be in the evening, and there is still one day left."

Zhang Weidong nodded, everyone knew about his bet with Suzuki Ishiya.He can't afford to lose, but it seems a bit whimsical to win, he can only hate himself for talking too fast, and shouldn't agree to kneel on the stage.

The second competition is for original songs. The rule is that new songs created by the singer himself cannot be released to the public for more than three months.

Zhang Weidong has not yet decided which song to use for the competition. Although he writes songs intermittently, most of them are written out of feelings, not true love. There is no song that he feels compelled to sing.He silently wrote down the old songs, and put the staves on the bed one by one, picking left and right, hesitating.

Half a day passed without knowing it, and Zhang Weidong was still at a loss, unable to make up his mind.

At this time, Xiao Jun came to knock on the door, raised the black helmet in his hand: "Do you want to go for a ride together?"

Zhang Weidong was stunned, looking at the opponent's attire, he looked like a professional driver.

"Let's go, don't always keep yourself bored in the room." Xiao Junso tugged at him involuntarily.

Zhang Weidong couldn't shake off his hand, and was about to refuse, Xiao Junso said again: "There is a place I want to take you to, and it won't take too long."

Zhang Weidong was still not very happy at first, but when he came to the parking lot of the hotel and saw that mighty heavy locomotive, his eyes lit up.This locomotive is really cool, with a translucent black body and exhaust pipes on both sides, like a beast ready to go.

Xiao Jun stepped on the car, threw the helmet over, put on his gloves and moved his fingers: "Come up."

Zhang Weidong couldn't refuse, it should be said that any man who likes cars couldn't refuse.

After confirming that he was sitting firmly, Xiao Jungu twisted the accelerator, and the locomotive let out a rumbling roar, and rushed out quickly.They shuttled through the traffic-filled road, with the cold wind blowing fiercely on their faces, feeling like they were galloping recklessly.

Zhang Weidong couldn't help asking: "Where did you get the car?"

"Borrowed." Jun Xiao smiled, increased the speed of the car and said, "I'll drive it for you when I get back."

"Aren't you afraid that I will drive like a rocket?"

"I used to be afraid, and I couldn't let you start the car no matter what, but now I'm not afraid anymore."

"why?"

"Because you have grown up and become sensible..."

Zhang Weidong couldn't laugh or cry, but he smiled, and suddenly his face fell down again.He realized one thing, in his more than 30 years of life, Xiao Jungu was not only a special existence, but also controlled him and influenced his life trajectory.

He was silent, and Xiao Jungu did not speak again. The two rode on a super-powered motorcycle and swaggered through the city all the way.

Xiao Jungu drove the car to Haneda Airport, then stopped, took off his helmet: "Here we are."

Zhang Weidong looked around and saw that the surrounding area was very spacious. In front was a barbed wire fence five or six meters high, and beyond that was the airport runway.He stepped off the motorcycle and asked after his feet landed, "What did you bring me here for?"

"Don't do anything." Xiao Jun sat down on the concrete floor, facing the airport runway, and took out a cigarette case: "I stayed in Tokyo for a while, and I was an exchange student at that time, and the locomotive also met me at that time. Borrowed by classmates."

Zhang Weidong said dryly: "I don't even know these things."

"Of course you don't know. In the past, even if I wanted to talk, you were not interested in listening." Xiao Jun knew that he had nothing to say, so he continued: "At that time, I would often come here and watch the planes. Occasionally, I would foolishly guess which one would land in Guangzhou. In fact, it only took five or six hours to go back by plane. At that time, I felt that China was very far away, as if it was far away in my life. Can not go back."

Zhang Weidong was still speechless, so he also sat down and snatched a cigarette from him unceremoniously.

Xiao Jungu lit the lighter and passed the torch: "Didn't you quit?"

Zhang Weidong took a deep breath: "You know all this?"

"Because I didn't see you smoking, and I couldn't smell the smoke... Well, I admit, I am a pervert, as long as you appear, I observe you like a voyeur, and I can't help but want to know you everything of."

Zhang Weidong took a deep puff of cigarette: "I hate you."

Xiao Junso closed his eyes: "I know."

"No matter what you do, I hate you. I have always wanted to go to college and change my destiny with knowledge. It's all because of you. You ruined my life and dreams. I really hate you."

"I know."

"Later, because of what happened to Andy, I wish I had never known you, and could never forgive you."

"I know."

"The thing I think about the most these years is why don't you die? It's fine if you die, and I won't be in so much pain."

Xiao Jungu's voice was a little hoarse: "I know..."

Zhang Weidong smiled hehe, and said: "These are all things in the past, now you are just an irrelevant person, I will send you a wreath when you are dead, and I will say a few words to you when you are alive, see you Say hello face to face, that's all, nothing more."

"I know, I know, that's enough."

After completely speaking, Zhang Weidong heaved a sigh of relief, and seemed to feel a little more relaxed.

He lay back, pillowed his arms, and looked at the burning clouds in the sky.

It was already evening at this time, and the lights of the control tower in the distance turned on, and planes took off from the front of the eyes, getting higher and smaller, passing through the clouds, and flying to their unknown distance.

Xiao Jungu suddenly asked: "What are you thinking? Tell me and listen."

"It's okay to tell you." Zhang Weidong flicked the cigarette butt high: "I'm thinking about the documentary I watched before..."

The protagonist of the documentary is a bird named Saker.

Falcons are large raptors among the hawks. When they spread their wings, they are up to two meters long. They build nests on cliffs that are rarely visited by humans.They are not gentle parents, they will take their young ones out of the nest, and then throw them from the height of the cliff, so that the young children learn to fly in such a cruel way.

Xiao Jun thought for a while: "Do you feel like those children?"

Zhang Weidong nodded—isn't that right? He had already taken a wrong step, the soles of his feet were in the air, or he was thrown to death, or he spread his wings.

Xiao Jun said, "Dongzi, fly, look at those planes, you can definitely fly higher than them."

Zhang Weidong smiled wryly: "Otherwise? Do I still have a way out?"

Yes, if you can't fly, I will follow you at the bottom of the cliff.Xiao Jungu didn't say it out, but just thought to himself that when he decided to give up music, study finance and management and enter the business world, it was because he chose the role of guardian. It's a pity that he did what he did, but he couldn't think through it thoroughly.Later, because of too much selfish desire, one wrong step, one wrong step, almost ruined both of them.

So it was a blessing in misfortune that they were all still alive, breathing and talking.

"I've decided." Zhang Weidong slapped his thigh and sat up.

"Huh?" Xiao Junso looked at him.

"Even if you can't fly, you have to fall gracefully. I promised them that you will lose beautifully."

"Don't forget, who said you want to be the best rock singer in the world?"

"Haha, I almost forgot, I was really shameless back then."

"I will take Xiao Wu to watch your performance, come on!"

"it is good!"

It was already dark when we got back from Haneda Airport.

Zhang Weidong didn't even eat dinner, he went back to his room and swept away all the music scores on the bed.

He sat on the bed with his guitar in his arms, humming while playing, and took notes from time to time.He stayed up all night and decided to write a song. Putting aside distracting thoughts, he wrote a song for Zhang Weidong and a song for himself wholeheartedly.

If it belongs to him.

The former sings about breaking free from shackles and pursuing spiritual freedom, while the latter faces reality squarely and faces the truest self.

Although the reality is cruel, there are many tribulations, and countless pains and troubles, the road of life is always ups and downs, and no one is destined to be spared.I have been in this world, I have seen it, I have felt it, and I still exist today, continuing to walk my own way.

I am not strong, brave or even complete, I am who I am, and no one can replace me.

Gradually, it was dawn.

The author has something to say: [deep bow]

It is estimated that the 30 words of this article cannot be completed. There are too many things to write.

I'm not procrastinating on purpose, I believe everyone can tell whether it is written with heart or water, between the lines.I don't know why, but I always feel that there are a lot of things that must be written. Dongzi seems to live in my heart, prompting me to record his experiences and stories in detail, instead of just passing them along.

I don't know if you like to read it or not, but I have to write it, and there will be great sorrow and great joy later.

Thank you very much for your company all the way, thank you, if you can still watch, please accompany me to the end.

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