[HP]Aluet

I think this may be the most relaxing period of my life.

I don't want to worry about too many things, welcome the morning sun every day, do what I want to do, and then end the dull day when the moonlight shines on the table.

Of course, nothing changed because of my state of mind.

The newspapers continue to report the news every day. After the Ministry of Magic lifted the Unforgivable Curses restriction on the Auror professional group, in the past two years, the black wizards wantonly slaughtered half-blood wizards and Muggles from the beginning. Quite a lot, but today’s Ministry of Magic will always do some incomprehensible behaviors from time to time. Some laws and regulations drafted by the department that are beneficial to the situation are difficult to formally pass and implement. In the continuous and unstoppable war, it slowly fell to the camp of dark wizards. However, the opinions of the masses were not heard, and the hearts of the Ministry of Magic began to shake... Over time, a vicious circle was formed.

I can't help but secretly glad that I'm not sitting in this bloody position.

Through the window, I looked down at the street below.

"Walk with me, Riddle," I said.

He turned his head to look at me, lowered his eyes and hesitated for a while: "Now?"

"Yeah." I left from the window and put on a thick coat.

"Where are you going?" he asked.

"I don't know." I thought for a while, and finally walked up to him, and took his hand hanging by his side, "Come with me once."

I took him to the beach in the evening, and I stepped on the uneven stones and walked down until the tide was approaching.

I looked up and looked at the end of the horizon.

The waves heaved and slammed against the sand on the shore.

"The weather is not very good today." I said, "Unfortunately, at this time of day, you should be able to see the sunset."

Riddle looked into the distance and narrowed his eyes.

"Next time you come, you can see it." He said lightly.

The wind blew my hair a little messy, and the coolness penetrated into the skin through the clothes, but I still enjoyed the peaceful and comfortable time.

"Do you like this?" I asked.

"what?"

"I said," I turned my head and squeezed his hand tightly, "Do you like it now? I don't think this is a difficult question to answer."

He hesitated for a moment, then finally looked me in the eyes and nodded slightly.

I thought about it, and gently pinched the sides of his cheeks with my thumb and index finger, and pulled the corners of his mouth upwards. He was stunned by my sudden movement, and I watched him change in an instant. With dazed eyes, he suddenly felt a little funny.

"In fact, there are many times when I imagine that if there are not so many messy things, you may be a professor now, and I also have a normal job, and I can do a lot of things I want to do in addition to being busy day after day. ’” I said, “maybe every day of our life will be like today.”

I don't know what kind of emotions I have to say this, maybe I still long to see a trace of regret in his eyes, but I know from the bottom of my heart that this is not possible.

He just looked at me silently like this, no superfluous emotions could be seen in the depths of his deep pupils, but I could still clearly feel the warmth from his hands, that’s how I realized he was still a body of flesh and blood of mortals.

"You're driving me to a corner." Riddle said slowly.

My voice was full of surprise: "What?"

"You know there's no way I'm going to stop once I choose to go down this path." He looked at me and said, "You know how many years have passed and how many people have tried to get hold of me , wishing me to die." Riddle's tone was still very calm, "I can't stop, and I don't intend to do that. You can't make me give up everything I have, Ashley, I spent tens of dollars on this. Years of hard work, and you've been giving me problems."

"So," I said with difficulty, "did I make it hard for you?"

"Yes," he said, "always."

I turned my head and faced the sea breeze, trying to relieve my sore eyes and complicated emotions in my heart.

"I need you to understand me." He whispered, "or..."

His hands came around behind me, covering my eyes lightly.

"Or, close your eyes and everything will pass soon."

I try to close my eyes slowly in the darkness, the cold wind is still blowing on me, I can't see the wave, but I can still hear its sound.

Is it really going to be over soon?

Every day I am asking myself.

I counted the passage of time day by day, so I finally waited for the snowy December.

The snowflakes rested on my eyelashes and hair, and I wiped off the snow that fell on the envelope along the way, watching the owl disappear into the blue sky with the letter.

It's been a long time since Christmas month in the UK has been as lively as it used to be.Not many people are in the mood to prepare for a grand festival with heart.

But I bought some gingerbread, prosciutto, and a small Christmas cake for a token holiday.

I put the things on the table and looked out the window. I seemed to hear the sound of something rubbing. I lowered my head and saw Nagini suddenly appearing at my feet. The table leg climbed onto the table and spat at me.

I haven't seen it in front of me for a long time.

"Do you want to eat it too?" I smiled, and stretched out my hand to touch its head, but its head flinched and opened its mouth suddenly, as if to attack.

"Nagini."

I turned to see Riddle standing in the doorway.Nagini heard his voice and turned to look at him.

"Come back," he ordered.

"Wait a moment."

I regained my senses from the short-term shock, stretched out my hand again unwillingly, carefully placed it on Nagini's head, and stroked its hard and cold scales a few times.

Riddle was probably there, so although it was vigilant, it didn't attack me again, but lowered its head obediently, and lay its whole body on the table.

"I thought you were afraid of it." Riddle came in and stopped in front of the table.

"Yes," I responded, "but people grow, don't they? I can't escape my fear forever." I said, "Look, isn't that nice?"

He sat down next to me.

"I think..." I thought for a while, "Let Nagini stay with me for a while. You have a lot of things to do every day. Maybe I'm not so bored with a living creature."

"It's dangerous," he said briefly.

"But Nagini listens to you, doesn't he?" I looked at him. "You hope it doesn't hurt me, and it doesn't."

Riddle was silent for a while.He opened his mouth, and I heard a snake-like sound coming out of his mouth.He was communicating with Nagini in Parseltongue.

He agreed to my request.

I locked my residence with a spell, and I stayed in the Riddle Mansion for the next few days.

"What do you say he's doing now, Nagini?"

I looked away from the night outside the window, drew the curtains, and extinguished the candles.

"Probably something happened again, but it's normal for him." I glanced at the time, and it was already past 11:30 in the middle of the night.

"Nagini, come."

I took Nagini downstairs and walked in a big circle in the backyard, blowing the winter evening wind and stepping on the thick snow.

I looked up at a tall tree, imagining myself flying up, sitting on a thick branch, imagining Nagini entangled with the branches, staying beside me, drenched in the moonlight at night with me.

I bent down and lowered my sore arm.

"You're so heavy, Nagini." I put it on the ground.The snow under it sank suddenly, and it crawled forward in the soft snowdrift, and it disappeared in a short while.But it's very smart, and I don't worry about it getting lost.

The burning fireplace in the house warmed my body.I walked to the dark basement, and Nagini followed me covered in snow, leaving a long line of marks on the ground.I didn't spell away the snow that was slowly melting into water stains, though.

The place has become empty, even the iron cage is gone.

There are also inconspicuous dried bloodstains on the ground, their color almost blending with the ground.

"Do you remember this place?" I turned my head and looked at Nagini lying lazily at my feet.

"Oh, I forgot. You don't remember." I sighed with some regret, "It would be nice if she was still here."

I then added: "But it doesn't matter, it's enough for me to remember."

I sat down relaxed, looked ahead, focused on a certain point, and sighed.

"Actually, I have been telling myself that this seems good. Close your eyes and ears, and what should happen will not happen. When the colors of the whole world refill your eyeballs and sounds refill your ears, it will be like a big dream. When I first woke up, everything I hoped or didn't want was over, and then I could enjoy the hard-won peace peacefully, and I didn't need to figure out where this 'difficulty' came from."

I said slowly, "But I still can't convince myself or deceive myself."

Of course Nagini doesn't care what I'm saying, he's just a boa constrictor.

"Human, it's probably so strange. I want to accept reality when I shouldn't accept reality, but I don't want to accept reality when it's time to accept reality." I smiled helplessly.

"Every minute and every second of being with him, all the pictures... no matter how long ago, will flash through my mind clearly, reminding me that I can't stop these thoughts , " I pursed my lips, "I don't want to stop."

"He and I are destined to be very far away. All this is a mistake." But I quickly corrected, "Maybe it wasn't a mistake. After all, all these made me who I am today."

I put my numb hands behind my back on my knees.

"Life without being able to decide for myself is too bad, and I finally understand this. What doesn't belong to me should never be mine, such as the life that is tied to others and given to me by others, and I don't want to. To these. The meaning of life is not eternity."

"I said he would repent, and I've already said that." I lowered my head, feeling a little annoyed, "If you can't... then try to make a good start."

I gently stroked Nagini's head, it was very good, since Riddle said it, it never thought of attacking me again.

But in fact, I have always overlooked one thing - the souls of animals are much easier to manipulate than humans.So I can actually solve this problem myself without Riddle.

"Tomorrow is his birthday, the last day of December. I originally wrote a letter to him, but I burned the letter." I said slowly, "I decided not to leave him anything."

I looked into Nagini's eyes.

I am sure I saw her appearance from that lifeless body—her appearance as a human girl, behind the emptiness and haze is a clear ocean, in a trance, the familiar Nagini seems to wake up in the ice , I showed a gentle and sincere smile.

"But I will leave him with his soul."

I let out a long sigh, closed my eyes, and tried to open my arms to hug Nagini's cold body.

I used my abilities to the fullest one last time.

The hard scales were attached to my neck, and I hummed softly the song that I hadn't sung for a long time. The long dark night was far away from me. In the soft white light, in the tranquility and peace, I seemed to return to the warm swaddle, My mother smiled and said that the angel's singing would help me sleep peacefully, but usually only a few sparrows perched on the branches, without the holy white feathers in her mouth, only she was by my side, humming songs and kissing my lips. forehead.

Take me away, Nagini.

I whisper to her soul.

The sharp fangs pierced my skin and penetrated deeply into my flesh and blood.The venom quickly spread all over my body, the hot blood was cooling and solidifying, and I could no longer feel my body.

My consciousness floated up and down vaguely, and my soul fell back into reality after endless wandering.

My eyelashes fluttered, and I opened my eyes, standing in nothingness with the bright white looming ring in front of me.

The turbulent memories engulfed me little by little, and they began to recover and wake up from the numbness.

Breathing the fresh air, I don't feel the loss and sorrow, I only feel the ease and freedom.

I finally opened my legs and walked towards the circle step by step. Along the way, I heard various voices, which lingered and whispered in my ears like smoke, as if they came from another world. , Every sound is so indifferent, solemn, ethereal, and trance-like.

It finally dawned on me—what I thought was the last stretch of the road actually ran through my entire life from beginning to end.

"You're back, Ashley Field."

"Congratulations, you have passed the eighth level of hell—the human world."