Curse of the Eye of the Dead

Black-haired and kite-eyed, 14-year-old Osamu Dazai was born in the Tsugaru area of ​​Aomori, and his original surname was Tsushima.

Although the Tsushima family is far inferior to the well-known chaebol family like the Atobe, it can still be regarded as a wealthy and prestigious family in the local area, at least the middle class.The family property is considerable, and the industry is booming, even now it is still developing very well.

Two years ago, Tsushima's eldest son's heir and Dazai's elder brother by blood said that he planned to become a politician, and then lead the family to formally enter the world of politics.Their ambitious father, who had long wanted to further develop the Tsushima family, agreed, and from then on, the family focused all their attention on the heir.

Of course, Osamu Dazai doesn't care whether the heir can get on the political train in the end.

He didn't know either.

After all, not long after that, Dazai chose to run away from home and changed his name and surname, completely away from that boring and lifeless home full of hypocrisy.

It was exhausting being there.

Every minute and every second is beating the fragile soul, and the heart of the sensitive and intelligent child is gradually quieted down.

Therefore, out of the mentality of escaping from the cage and saving himself, the young Osamu Dazai brought the cash he found from home and two sets of clothes for washing, and started his wandering career aimlessly with empty hands.

It is worth mentioning that the "declaration letter" left by Osamu Dazai who ran away from home was not discovered until three days later, and it was not passed to the parents who Dazai had hardly gotten along with until a week later.

Every sentence stepped on the point of exasperation from the egotistical father.

Osamu Dazai was not interested in the reaction of his parents, even if he used his toes to think about it, he knew how the other party would behave.

The Tsushima family will not look for him.

In the strict heir succession system of traditional aristocratic families, the youngest sons who are not even in the top three are never valued.

Eighty percent of them planned to make the phone call to apologize and ask for help when the "knowing what to do" child couldn't survive.

This is exactly what Osamu Dazai wanted.

When he ran away from home, Osamu Dazai had just turned 12 years old.

He is very smart, has a certain scheming, and is good at playing language games, so smart to an astonishing degree.

In addition, this child is also very good at observing and disguising, so even if he is wandering outside, he can still get money to support himself smoothly.Although from time to time he will become a little embarrassed when he encounters a little trouble due to his age disadvantage, but he will soon find a way to break the situation.

This wandering lasted for two years.

Until Dazai was 14 years old, he went around and came to Yokohama.

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Kakuo officially started publishing articles in 09.

And Osamu Dazai, who was nine years old at the time, happened to be one of the first group of people who read Kakuo's article.

At that time, "Traveler's 21 Years of Experience Notes" had not yet been published, and only a chapter of a new serialized novel was published in the monthly magazine "Evening Tide".And that "Evening Tide" was not specially bought for Dazai, it seemed to be a magazine attached to the gift that his father bought for the children at home, but it was accidentally sent to the wrong place by the servant, so it got into his hands by accident superior.

Then, this novel became a rare pastime for Osamu Dazai.

Why are you interested?

Probably—Osamu Dazai became interested in the evils of human nature described in "Traveler's 21 Years of Experience Notes".

Hypocritical, pretentious, full of lies, hypocritical...

Can't these people find similar faces in Tsushima's house?

He was attracted by the thick but elegant text like history.

He couldn't explain what kind of impulse it was, maybe it was just that he was touched somewhere deep in his heart that he didn't even know himself, so he chose to keep paying attention on a whim.

He was nine years old in 09 and has been paying attention until he was 12 years old in 12.

From the age of 12 to 14 after running away from home, he never gave up and continued to read the author's books.

Then, during the two years of wandering, Osamu Dazai was disappointed with Kakuo.

"You said that people have to save themselves, even if there is no one to help them, they have to get out of the mud and walk under the sun."

The black-haired, kite-eyed boy was sitting on the side of the road with his face propped up, and he said to himself calmly: "But I've been walking for a long time, but I still can't find the sun."

"How long do I have to walk to get out of the mud?"

Kakuo-sensei, why do people have to live?

Taking the postcard he picked up, Osamu Dazai bought a postage stamp on a whim, wrote his question on it, and sent it to Akizuki.

He didn't know if Horntail could see it, but he was sure he wouldn't receive a reply.

Because he has no fixed residence.

But Osamu Dazai didn't expect it.

A month later, when he was prowling the latest issue of the magazine in a bookstore, he saw a new short story submitted by Mr. Jiaowei.

That's the story of a suicide loser.

The protagonist is a wandering person who is desperate for life, so he wants to end his own life.

However, every time he went to die, he encountered unexpected obstacles.

The hanging rope was broken, a child happened to pass by asking for help when he was about to enter the water, he was planning to commit suicide by gas, but was met with a neighbor’s visit, and was served delicious food, and he wanted to take sleeping pills, but was entangled by a cat on the way back from buying the medicine... …

As if the whole world is against him, the protagonist can't die no matter what.

But all kinds of obstacles made him gradually intertwined with others.

The child he asked for help thanked him with a bright smile.

Once again the neighbor made delicious food and delivered it - it was really delicious.

The cat that followed him home kept meowing at the door of his house every day, rubbing his head against his ankle begging to be fed.

Why live...?

Probably because I still have expectations for tomorrow in my heart, and there are still things that I can't let go of.

Like meeting and talking with friends, like a sense of accomplishment at work, like delicious food, like today's beautiful weather, like a piece of good news in the news.

There is never an exact answer to the meaning of life.

It can be different for every age group, every time point, or even every day.

Live to achieve success in your career.

I want to live for my family and my lover.

Want to live for cute pets.

Just simply want to enjoy life and live.

There has never been a standard for this question.

But if you really can't feel anything——

At least, keep going while you still have the strength.

Get in touch with all kinds of things, try all kinds of things, and then find what you care about.

If you give up when you still have strength, you may just fall on the edge of the sun.

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Is this a story written just for me?Or is it a coincidence?

The 14-year-old Osamu Dazai stared at the latest issue of the magazine, the faint stars in his iris-colored gloomy eyes became brighter and brighter, and then he thought firmly:

No, this is the story written for me.

The young man who kept saying that he was "disappointed" with Teacher Jiaowei bought the book briskly and hid it in his temporary residence.

Afterwards, he did come into contact with all kinds of things, to try all kinds of things.

The homeless man who learned "Treasures from the Gods" helped passers-by casually, and also followed the protagonist who committed suicide to go into the water-probably Mr. Kakuo would never have thought of this.

[People who have nothing and are in the mud themselves will not be redeemed in the mud. ]

[Keep going while you still have strength. ]

The boy who had read all the articles of Mr. Kakuo turned his eyes away from the Yokohama specialty gangster organization, and lay down on the grass with his eyes closed to rest.

...Well, let's say he still has strength.

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someday.

Osamu Dazai took the newly bought weekly magazines and picked a store at random to fill his stomach.

"Uncle, please bring me a bowl of curry with amazing taste~"

The black-haired, kite-eyed boy spoke briskly. He put the weekly magazine on the table, and sat down on the wooden chair with a childish sound.

"We don't have [Surprising Curry] here, the menu is here, you can see for yourself." The owner of the curry shop glanced at him and raised his eyebrows.

"There are so many, it's hard to choose. Is there nothing that can make people feel heavenly and happy?" The 14-year-old boy raised his hand and gestured, but when he didn't get an answer from the boss, he snorted in disappointment, Then he turned to look at the guest next door.

"How does your curry taste?"

Beside Osamu Dazai.

19 years old this year, Oda Sakunosuke, who works in an armed detective agency, turned his head to look at it blankly, and then nodded seriously, "It's very delicious."

One of the two most important friends in Osamu Dazai's life finally met him when he was working hard to explore the path of sunshine.

Meet in the right place, in the right capacity.

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May 2014.

Yokohama, which was originally restless and began to smell bloody, has recently experienced shocking and frightening events.

The leader of the "Port Mafia", the largest mafia organization in Yokohama, has become increasingly moody as he gets older. His style of acting is no longer as sharp, decisive and calm as a young man, but has become completely fatuous and brutal.

He set off a bloody reign in the mafia, and even began to wanton disregard for life.

"It seems that because my life is approaching, I want to drag the whole mafia built by him, and the whole Yokohama to be buried with him." - A member of the port mafia said in such a low voice.

however.

No matter how moody the old leader was in the past, he was still limited to the genocide—this is not counting the affected civilians.

But it's different now.

The old leader ordered his subordinates to catch him and kill him because his car was scratched by a red-haired child.

After the killing, he still didn't calm down, and even used ridiculous reasons to order his subordinates to capture all the red-haired children in Yokohama and kill them.

...The other party started targeting civilians, but no one could stop the old leader.

As a result, a tragedy that caused countless families to mourn happened.

Even Kanagawa, which has always been peaceful, has not escaped.

Pray, flee, struggle, despair—

This incident instantly reduced the reputation of the Yokohama government and the port mafia itself to a minimum.

During that time, however, a large proportion of the red-haired children disappeared inexplicably.

Parents thought their child had died in a corner, and wept endlessly, until a week later, the mafia's actions finally subsided——

The missing red-haired children quietly returned home.

The parents were both surprised and happy, but they dared not speak up at all, for fear that the mafia would find out that their children were still alive.

The children didn't know what happened.

Some children don't remember anything.

Some children said they flew up out of thin air and then passed out.

And some children who did not escape outside and were almost killed said——

"It was the god with white hair and long horns who saved me."

later.

This incident is called "Seven Days of the Hidden God" by Yokohama locals.

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The author has something to say:

Don’t need to worry too much about the power of Hong Kong gangsters. According to the content written in the 16-year-old special code, adding people who would have died, there are at least 30 people with different abilities on the side of the mafia, and the novel has already been written. In terms of abilities and effects, they are really strong, and they can even beat Verlaine when combined. At most, Mr. Mori will be bald and more cautious without Chuya and Dazai.

As for Dazai, this guy is too difficult to write. Many people have different opinions on him. Gu Gu has a Dazai who comprehensively considers the three-dimensional dimension, but he also knows that he cannot fully refer to the three-dimensional dimension. The final result after the combination of the two is just like the text. This is a development that Gu Gu Gu himself can accept after being stuck for a long time. He wants to make it better.

Note: Dazai's life experience refers to the three-dimensional comprehensive private design.