SHEEP

This thought flashed through Yi Heye's mind, and he didn't dare to think about it.

He vaguely felt that if he dug further into this topic, he would come to some bad conclusions, so he quickly diverted his attention and went to find Chen Sang.

The girl had largely returned to normal, with no signs of mania or hyperactivity, but she was obviously exhausted physically and mentally, and her head was still dizzy.

She unsteadily took two steps forward, panting for breath, and sat down on the ground wearily.

Yi Heye thought for a while, put the cigarette back in his mouth, and sat cross-legged beside her.

There is no abnormal drug smell on her body, at least most of the heavy-smelling inhaled drugs can be ruled out.

Yi Heye glanced at her quietly under the moonlight, then pretended to pat the ashes on her shoulders, and unknowingly took a strand of hair and put it away.

Chen Sang was careless in the first place, and he was so dazed with drugs that he didn't notice his movements at all.

Yi Heye glanced at her, then pretended to raise his hand casually, and waved it almost close to her face.

Chen Sang still didn't react, just lowered his head and scratched his hair indiscriminately, fanning himself in the cool weather.Yi Heye doesn't care about people, and it's not convenient to do some things, so he can only sit beside her and accompany her.

After a long time, Chen Sang said lazily, "Xiaoye, let's break up with him."

Yi Heye, who was quite apprehensive about this topic, almost bit his tongue when he heard this, and he hesitated for a long time before saying: "...Huh?"

"People who have touched this stuff can't touch it." Chen Sang sighed, as if talking about Jian Yunxian, and more like talking about herself.

Yi Heye didn't dare to say anything, and didn't know how to say it, so he only sighed and listened to her.

"You are really confused, how can you get together with this kind of person." Chen Sang murmured, "Look at me like this... hey..."

Just as Yi Heye was about to say something, he was interrupted.

"Damn, I remembered, that guy said you two get along very well in bed." Chen Sang suddenly realized, "You don't think he is particularly energetic after taking drugs? Damn, it's all temporary, I tell you You, after taking the medicine, you don’t even know who you have messed with... If you get too involved with this thing, sooner or later you will become swollen, and then you will not be able to in..."

Yi Heye choked hard, and suddenly felt guilty towards Jian Yunxian.

So he quickly sent a message to the other party, informing him of the latest avatar: "I told Chen Sang that you smoke du."

It is quite understandable over there: "OK."

After much deliberation, he still issued another sentence: "She said you are impotent, should I explain it to you?"

First an ellipsis was sent over there, and then another sentence: "No need, as long as you know I'm not masculine."

Yi Heye thought of the long battery life with him back to back, his heart skipped a beat, and he hurriedly put the phone back into his pocket.

Feeling confused for no reason, he decided not to talk to Jian Yunxian until tonight.

Looking up, he looked at Chen Sang who was in a daze, and asked, "What about you? Didn't talk about a boyfriend?"

Chen Sang blinked, expressionless: "After a few conversations, the ones who were with me at the beginning were already dead. Later, I found some people who didn't fight with me, but they couldn't stand me, so I got all points."

Under the moonlight, her expression was twitching, and it took her a long time to show an ugly smile.

"But I've slept with a lot of people, some people I know, some people I don't know, all kinds of people." She said in a forced and relaxed tone, "I've had multiple fucking abortions, and I probably won't be able to conceive now. I don't dare to go to the hospital for an examination, I guess I have a bunch of dirty diseases on my body."

Chen Sang glanced at Yi Heye, and then consciously distanced himself from him: "I know I'm very dirty and shouldn't touch people, but I can't control it every time I finish knocking... on the street, in hotels, There are everywhere in the park. When the men passing by see me like this, few can hold back..."

"Except for you, my dear crooked boy." But she quickly changed the topic, "It's not that I haven't messed with crooked people before, it's also the first time I've met someone who is so pure and crooked like you..."

Yi Heye had already buried his head in his knees—well, he knew he was bent, could he stop poking himself again and again.

Chen Sangdong said something, and then got off topic.

"Ono, my mother really likes to sing." Chen Sang said helplessly, "When I was young, I liked to pull you to listen to me sing, do you remember?"

Yi Heye nodded: "Yes, I remember."

When Chen Sang was a child, he was cheerful and outgoing, beautiful and talented in singing. He has always been the king of children in the slums.

Yi Heye remembered that she often gathered her companions together and forced them to give everyone a personal concert. Unfortunately, he was captured alive a few times as an audience member, and he still remembers it vividly.

"I've always wanted to be on stage, Xiao Ye." Chen Sang said, "I always feel that as long as I stand on the stage, I can be seen by others."

"I just want to stand on the stage and sing a song." Chen Sang said, his voice was tinged with tears, "I was deceived because of this, Mu Mu is right, I am a fucking idiot, my brain I don’t pretend to be anything but singing…”

Yi Heye asked: "How did you cheat?"

"As for the manager I was talking about...he lied to me that he could lead me to debut. I prepared a lot of songs with my mother's hard work, and practiced every day, from morning to night, but I didn't even see the stage... "Chen Sang said sadly, "I'm asking for this now..."

Yi Heye: "Agent? Is it the one you mentioned just now who tricked you into taking drugs?"

Chen Sang frowned when he heard the words: "Don't ask, Xiao Ye, you can't say this, unless you want my life..."

Yi Heye didn't know if there was any exaggeration in her words, but he just knew that she really couldn't ask anything.

Seeing that he was silent, Chen Sang changed the topic again: "Xiaoye, to be honest, break up with him."

When the guilty Yi Heye heard this topic, he could only hold his breath and dare not say anything.

"Why do you think he can't think about it so much?" Chen Sang sighed fiercely, "He is handsome and rich, he can take care of others and correct mistakes for you, if it wasn't for prostitution and drugs, you would fucking I have to break your leg and stuff it back..."

Yi Heye broke out in a cold sweat, he didn't dare to say that the advantages listed above are all true, but the two "dead spots" behind are false.

He didn't dare to say it, he was afraid that Chen Sang would really break his leg and stuff him into Jian Yunxian's bed.

Waiting until dawn, Chen Sang finally managed to regain consciousness, Yi Heye followed her back to the underground rehearsal room, picked a random position, intending to catch up on some sleep and adjust.

The spirit that had been tense all day was relaxed the moment he closed his eyes, and some questions that he tried to block came rushing back to his mind.

Then a voice became louder and louder in his mind - Yi Heye, admit it, you are gay.

Yi Heye who had just closed his eyes was woken up by fright, and couldn't fall asleep completely after being so frightened.

He turned over on the cold hard floor, looking at the dark room in front of him, with the snoring of drunkards around his pillow, first slowly calming down his panic.

Then he calmed down, trying to find some examples to refute, so he began to review his mental journey over the years bit by bit.

When he was a child, around the age of elementary school, he had a withdrawn and weird personality and had few friends, but because of his good looks, he had many admirers.

There were boys and girls chasing him, but they all ended up with him being scared to cry, or the other party crying in despair. In short, they didn't leave any good impression on him.

At that time, I should have been really clueless, and I didn't like men and women, and I might even be a little bit annoying.

Then when I went to middle school, my grades were a mess, my temper was bad, and I was prone to trouble, and I was almost notorious in school.

At that time, those who liked me were immature boys and girls who were as immature as him and would be deceived by his label of "rebellious boy", or big sisters in society, and hooligan gay men who liked hands and feet.

At that time, although he was a jerk, he looked down on the fool who had such a poor vision that he fell in love with him, so he never had a heart-pounding experience.

Afterwards, no matter how late Yi Heye was, he finally entered the restless period of adolescence.

In the face of rapid physical development, he also learned some self-relieving methods without a teacher.

But looking back, Yi Heye found that he seemed to have been on a wrong path since then-at that time, he had just lost his left arm, and the huge and strong stimulation came almost at the same time as the puberty of all things growing, so he hadn't had time to enjoy the normal youth People's happiness is pulled into a more intense layer.

While the students around him rely on movies or novels to spend the long night, he has begun to rely on painful stimulation.No one understood him at all, and he knew he was not normal, so he never shared it with anyone.

So at that time, I had no fantasy objects at all.He didn't need to think about anyone's face or body at all, or didn't have time to think about it.

Under that kind of strong stimulation, the mind is completely blank, who can care whether he likes men or women?

Later, I entered the society early and began to work for the organization. I was so busy every day that I suppressed the urge to have nowhere to rest.

After a long period of time, he went home and fell asleep. Occasionally, it was rainy and wet, and the severe pain in the severed limbs of his arms would cause him to be dominated by the pain to release his male biological instinct, but it was also the same, who I don't want to, no one can think about it.

So I should not be liked by men and women, he only likes "pain" - such a Yi Heye, saying that he has a relationship with Pain, is more reasonable than being with any living individual.

At least not so long ago.

Yi Heye forced himself to continue thinking calmly - since when did he start to have feelings for men?

Jian Yunxian's words immediately flashed through his mind: "Whose face will Mr. Yi think of when he is zw?"

The moment the voice lingered in his mind, a layer of cold sweat broke out on Yi Heye's back.

Then, he uncontrollably replayed it again—kissing that guy, watching him do push-ups under the quilt, being pressed by that guy until his hands hurt, back to back with that guy...

It's over.Yi Heye seemed to understand something, and the problem seemed to be serious.

He squeezed his fist weakly, and began to blame someone for his daily routine——

The hateful Jian Yunxian, what kind of psychological magic did he use to turn himself into this? !

The author has something to say:

It's love magic called "baa sex" (sure)