Sunday without Qi

People are always greedy for warmth subconsciously, hoping to quickly skip those days of misery, and hope to stay in a good time of comfort and leisure forever.

Few people are willing to be entangled by misfortune, so they are always struggling desperately.

Suzaku Suzaku stared in a daze at the back of Kamado Tanjiro who turned Reita Shimasusu away.

He couldn't help but wonder how Tanjiro spent the time when he lost his loved one, did he ever break down and cry?Have a heartache to insomnia?After all, even after a long time, those figures that were once familiar and then disappeared will always be kept on the most important page of life.

"...If he had the chance to live with his family again, how would he choose?"

The fresh green leaves in Lelouch's hand twirled at his fingertips, "Since I have lost the important person forever, I am destined to never return to the past. What's the point of living in a dream."

Zhumu Suzaku turned around suddenly: "Does Lelouch think this is a dream?"

He was a little excited, but his childhood sweetheart just frowned and asked him calmly: "Then Suzaku, do you belong to this world?"

The world was empty, and the wind picked up, chasing the broken hair on Suzaku's forehead.

"... When did you know?"

"It's strange if you don't know." Lelouch said with a smile, "So, do you think you can stay here with peace of mind if you don't tell me? Now that I know, you can go back."

He seemed to be an elderly guardian, watching the various emotions and bewildered reactions flashing across the faces of his children in an instant.

Eventually, Suzaku no longer hides.

"No." A buzzing voice came out of his trembling lips, and Suzaku staggered back.He has always given people the impression of being neurotic, usually gentle and easy-going, but fierce and irritable when angry, the only thing that remains the same is the sense of sight of a big dog with milky milk when he is really wronged, so he is easy to lose tears.

Right now, his eyes were red, and after a while, he shed a lot of tears, "I don't want to go back."

I don't want to leave you either.But he held back.

Lelouch looked at the large plush dog in front of him that was trembling all over, with drooping ears and tail, and then looked at his glass-like eyeballs filled with tears, and sighed.

again.

This is really a little bit of the prestige of killing people on the battlefield.

Do your best to make a child lose his temper.

He had tried to guide countless times, and was forced to stop every time Suzaku Suzaku fell into a reflective silence—Suzaku Suzaku always seemed to be able to rebuild his defenses or change the subject in an instant.But this time, facing a completely different reaction, Lelouch thought it would work.

"Is it your choice to stay here for the rest of your life?" Lelouch tried to speak to this furious and aggrieved dog in a negotiating tone, "I give you geass in the hope that you will go to the future."

Suzaku shook his head, he was in a panic trying to find a way to escape.

However, every time he took a step back, Lelouch would take a step forward, always keeping a distance of ten centimeters.

Suzaku's tense and stubborn appearance made Lelouch extremely helpless.

"Okay," Lelouch squeezed out two words from his throat, and compromised, "Okay."

It seems that this is the end, even Lelouch probably can't do anything with that stone, I watched half of the play with clairvoyance and realized that the stage had collapsed.

Just thinking about how to develop next, Yato suddenly raised his head and looked at the fifth floor of the teaching building next door.

His eyes locked on one of the windows.

But there is nothing there.

【What's wrong? 】

I saw Yato's frowning brows slowly relax, "I saw something flashing past... Forget it, it should be nothing." But the words fell, and the bell of Yato's work machine suddenly rang.

Worthy of being a professional god, he can switch between moods in an instant.

"Moshi Moxi, here is the cheap and easy-to-use strongest delivery god, Ye Fighting God, what is your commission...?"

After greeting the guest with energy as usual and leaving a perfect and warm first impression on the guest, Yato did not immediately rush to the customer's place as usual.

His voice also fell silent for an instant.

【Lelouch...?I see. 】

"This is really incredible. Although his words remind me of some unpleasant past events, probably, it is indeed a good time." Yatou closed the phone and tried to stuff it into his trouser pocket, but because His hands were shaking, and he couldn't find the position of his pocket for a long time.

He turned his head, looked through the empty courtyard, and fell on the black-haired young man who slowly put down his phone.

——I hereby make a wish to God Yato, please kill me.

"Come on, empty device!"

Suzaku Suzaku stared blankly at Lelouch, and there was not a single joint in his body that was not stiff.

"What do you mean?"

The latter chuckled, and took the initiative to back away. The sudden distance made Suzaku Suzaku's inner unrest start to move again.

—Let Yato kill him?What's the meaning?

"Lelouch!"

He lunged forward and grabbed it with his hand, but Lelouch dodged it.Suzaku Suzaku seems to be chasing the sun, and now the sun is setting, if you don't hurry up, if you don't hurry up...

"Are you going to abandon me again? Lelouch!" Strong emotions were rampaging through his body, Suzaku Suzaku roared loudly, trying to grab that person, he gathered all his strength, as if trying to integrate him into him As strong as his own flesh and blood.

"Me! Whether it's me in the past or me now, I don't want to lose you, don't send me away, I don't want to go to a future without you..."

Heart-piercing, blurred vision.

"Please, don't let go!"

But the other party was very calm.

Lelouch looked at him calmly, with a tinge of brown in his purple pupils, and the ends of his eyes were as sharp as a knife: "Don't you already know?"

He doesn't know what to know.

"I know what I don't know! All I know is that you somehow asked Yato to kill you. All I know is that you want to push me away. Now I can finally live with you and study in Ashfrey , I finally managed to stand in front of you like this!"

Lelouch didn't speak.

"Lelouch,... I finally got to this point, don't let me go, I don't want to leave!"

His voice softened, with a pleading tone.

In the past 17 years, Suzaku Suzaku thought about death and almost died, but the number of times he begged for mercy sincerely and willingly was almost none.

Ambition and arrogance are engraved in his bones, even Lelouch, he never asked him anything.

But this time, he was really humbled to the extreme, and he wished to beg with his life, begging the person in front of him not to let him be alone again.

However, just like the lives of the two of them where the differences were the majority, this time, Lelouch also rejected him.

"Idiot." Lelouch cursed.

His voice was gentle, unwinding in the air, and finally fell lightly into Suzaku's ears, like a butterfly on a flower core.

The world in front of me suddenly turned into a disrupted grid of colors.

"Didn't you already know?"

"I'm already, dead."

It was like waking up from a dream.

Zhumu Suzaku used to think that he was very clever. He used a thick and strong net to block the past self and the present self, and turned a blind eye to those vivid memories.

Lelouch had come back to life as he wished—and he was ecstatic about it.

But one day, he was finally pulled out of the self-comforting world like a cocoon, and the person concerned slapped him hard twice—the facts that he dared not accept and dare not look at, swarmed to.

A puppet he imagined would only be a vassal around his life, it couldn't be Lelouch.

From the beginning to the end, the Lelouch he liked never existed in this world at all, and the Lelouch in front of him was just his inner voice that was forcibly shut down.

The figure that was originally Lelouch looked like a rapidly disrupted grid of colors, and soon reconstituted a new figure with Suzaku Suzaku.

"Shuzaku" stretched out his hand to him.

——His heart is calling for his return.

"Shuque Suzaku, I, Ye Fighting God, have heard your wish."

"Weiyuan China, the evil spirits that make noise and confuse it, I would like to obey my Yetou's order, and order the empty weapons that serve my order to be handed over quickly."

"cut--"

The moment the thread broke, the two identical faces gradually overlapped, and finally became the same person—Shuque fell to the ground and curled up, crying silently.

Those tears were no longer tears of sadness, but I think they were the joy of finally being able to return to reality.

His body slowly became transparent.

"Come back, Koki!" Yato released me.

[Go to the future. 】

【This time, Lelouch is really waiting for you in the future. 】

At the last moment of disappearing, he raised his head blankly.

I don't know if he heard me or didn't realize what I was saying, it's just a bad joke - I never thought spoilers would give people happiness and hope (not to mention this show Tou is still the theatrical version, the ghost knows how much I have been wronged in the movie theater for not catching up with the premiere), but I hope I have comforted him.

No wonder Lelouch and Suzaku are always inseparable, because that Lelouch is basically the projection of the image of Lelouch in his heart, just a character he imagined based on his memory, not even a living body.

Rooted in Suzaku's obsession, "this world" has created a Lelouch who can interact with him and talk to him.

"Lelouch" is him, and "Suzaku Suzaku" is also him.

All the guidance and statements of "Lelouch" are actually signs of Suzaku's inner struggle, and also a process of his self-awakening efforts.

Originally, I was still thinking about who sent Linghuan Xinlong and Kageyama Shigeo to the Shumu mansion to find the evil spirits. Now it seems that the client should be "Lelouch", which belongs to the Suzaku Suzaku from the heart A planned self-rescue—the entrustment received by Linghuan Xinlong may be to find the face demon.

No wonder "Lelouch" is always so close to us.

But due to Suzaku Suzaku's disgust, he was unable to act. On the night when we accidentally teleported to the mansion of Sumu, he finally waited for the opportunity and left us a clue by blackmailing Yato for free services.

This is a well-planned campaign.

Well done, Suzaku Suzaku.

People who are very much the same, the gesture of being entangled by misfortune and desperately struggling is really embarrassing, but it is also so enthusiastic.

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The author has something to say:

A simple explanation is that the Suzaku Suzaku that appeared in this small chapter was in the Sparrow period, and Lelouch did not exist at all. (because already dead)

The Lelouch in the article is imagined by Suzaku Suzaku, and does not possess the real Lelouch's thoughts. On the contrary, every action is exactly what Suzaku Suzaku subconsciously expects. Pivotal Suzaku.

And because it is a puppet created by Zhumu Suzaku's subconscious, this "Lelouch" happens to represent the true inner thoughts of Zhumu Suzaku, which is equivalent to the "Zhumu Suzaku" that Qi Shen met in his inner world.

In the whole scene, Lelouch did not accompany Suzaku Suzaku, but Suzaku Suzaku accompanied him and saved himself.

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Huh, it's a bit convoluted, but it's such a story.

This part is finally finished, and there are still a few chapters to wrap up the full text, and my father is finally going to appear on the stage.