I brought bad luck after awakening as a koi

The catastrophe event 30 years ago left a strong mark in human history.

That was the most difficult year for mankind except for the fog.

Just like what Cao Yutian said, nature seems to be deliberately reducing the number of human beings, even disregarding the safety of other creatures, and bringing all natural disasters together.

First, there was a global torrential rain, which caused floods, and countless artificially farmed freshwater fish bases were washed away, and then there was a tsunami. The sudden tsunami and typhoon directly hit the island countries by the sea, and then there were volcanic eruptions, earthquakes, and countless unexpected natural disasters. When the human experts couldn't sense it, they logged in all at once, and left after destroying the whole world.

According to post-disaster statistics, about one-fifth of the species in the world did not survive the catastrophe and disappeared forever on this planet.

At that time, it was not the same as it is now. The lethality of natural disasters was too great, and human beings had few ways to deal with it. I also remember that when his parents held him, who couldn't count, he was looking for shelter everywhere.

Shen Li didn't have the slightest impression of this.

He doesn't remember what happened during the cataclysm at all, and he doesn't remember the memory before the cataclysm, as if his life began when he was six years old.

At the age of six, I ate birthday cake with my father, sketched and painted with my father, and waited for him to come back outside the operating room.

Shen Li has never taken this seriously. He didn't encounter many good things when he was young, and he didn't have anyone to share with him, so he rarely recalled his childhood, and he really didn't notice any abnormalities before the age of six.

Maybe he and his father stayed in the relatively safe scientific research bureau because of his mother?That's why I have no impression of the Great Cataclysm?

Shen Li thought so, but logic told him that this was impossible. The Science Research Bureau did a good job of keeping secrets, and the disaster happened so suddenly that there was almost no room for people to react. The small city where Shen Li lived was far away from the scientific research bureau Bureau is quite far.

I can't think of a result by myself, and I still need to find a professional to do professional things.

Shen Li left the dormitory and went directly to the medical bureau. The people in the medical bureau were no strangers to him coming. After all, he often assisted Professor Zhao in dealing with patients with genetic diseases. Helping out.

He went directly to Shan Yuxuan's office.

When opening the door, Shen Li saw that Shan Yuxuan quickly hid the phone behind his back, but because the screen was not turned off, the game sound came out.

Shan Yuxuan stared at Shen Li in a daze, as if he was stunned by fright.

Shen Li walked over and patted him on the shoulder, "Hello? Are you okay?"

"No, it's okay!" Shan Yuxuan slowly took out the phone and put it on the table, "...I thought it was Teacher Song who came to investigate."

"What's wrong? What's wrong with the inspection report?"

"It's not about this, I want to ask you something." Shen Li sat opposite him, "Can a person generally remember what happened before the age of six?"

"Six years old?" Shan Yuxuan thought for a while, "Children's brains are not fully developed, so they will discard their memories when they grow up. Even adults will forget what happened a few years ago. Normally, it is not true. It’s normal to remember things, but it’s basically impossible to say that you can’t remember them at all. People can always remember a little bit of events that happened when they were young.”

Saying that, Shan Yuxuan sniffled, "...I remember when I couldn't count, I was scolded by the boss for buying two yuan snacks for two cents."

Shen Li frowned slightly and did not continue speaking.

"Come on, what happened?" Shan Yuxuan looked at Shen Li cautiously, "Your expression doesn't seem right."

"I found that I don't seem to have any memory before the age of six." Shen Li said: "But when I was five years old, it was the year when the catastrophe happened, and I didn't have much memory of it, which is a bit strange."

Shan Yuxuan blinked, and he thought for a while, "The human brain is a very complicated thing, that is... it will delete part of the memory on the basis of protecting a person."

"This benchmark cannot be judged in medicine. If you have to define it: idealism."

"You think I deleted my memory because I wanted to protect myself?"

"It's just a possibility. It's also possible that you were injured in the disaster. In many cases, brain damage can also lead to memory loss." Shan Yuxuan added in a low voice, "It's actually not that important whether you have memories before the age of six, because Most people don't remember anything stupid they did before they were six years old."

That's right, the memories before the age of six are hardly recalled by anyone, but what Shen Li cares about is not this, what he cares about is what is said in the book: psychotherapy.

Shen Li was silent for a while, and Shan Yuxuan realized that he hadn't finished speaking, so he stayed silent with him.

After 3 minutes, Shen Li spoke, "Have you studied psychology?"

"I have learned it." Shan Yuxuan nodded, "Because of the problems left after the heavy fog, the doctors in the medical bureau are required to take basic psychology, at least they can give psychological comfort to patients when their mentality is not right, although I don't think it is very useful... ..."

Shen Li nodded, he raised his head and looked at Shan Yuxuan, "Do you think I'm normal?"

"normal."

"Do you have a psychological test form here? I'll make one."

Shan Yuxuan was very at a loss, he didn't know what Shen Li meant, so he found the test form from the drawer in a daze, and handed it to Shen Li in a daze to watch him do the questions. After finishing, Shan Yuxuan regarded himself as a doctor. Swear on basic literacy: Shen Li is mentally very healthy.

Although a little overconfident, but not the slightest depression, mania, anti-social tendencies.

After the heavy fog, Shan Yuxuan rarely saw such a healthy person.

"Shen Li, are you suspecting that you have a psychological problem?" Shan Yuxuan put the form on the table.

Shen Li frowned slightly, "...Before the age of six, did you have psychological problems?"

"This is impossible. Let's not talk about whether children with underdeveloped brains before the age of six have psychological problems. Even if they do, psychological problems are almost lifelong. This is not a temporary depression, but a real one. A disease that requires medicine, your state is so normal that it can no longer be normal, and there is no disease."

So Shen Li thought again, and he asked: "Then tell me, what did a five-year-old child do to make his parents think he has psychological problems?"

Shan Yuxuan thought for a while, and he said: People are too complicated, I don't know.

He is just a half-hearted social fear, and he doesn't understand human psychology at all.

Shen Li still didn't continue to embarrass Shan Yuxuan. Some people think that social fear is also some kind of psychological problem. Xiaoshe may not dare to discuss this with others casually. If Teacher Song hears about it, he will be punished for copying.

Coming out of Shan Yuxuan's office, Shen Li breathed a little.

In any case, he got the conclusion from the doctor that he was fine, and he did not have any psychological problems.

So that is to say: his mother thought he had a problem at the time, and tried to take him to a mental hospital for treatment. After being stopped by his father, he had a big fight, and finally the two separated, although Shen Li couldn't remember what happened before. what.

If you want to know what happened, you still have to go to Professor Ban.

As the person involved, she should know best.

Shen Li has never been afraid of the truth. He is a person who hates lies. He can bear the truth no matter how cruel it is. He is also a firm enough person. Since he decided to ask Professor Ban, he will go to someone directly. It's a little embarrassing.

An application is required to enter the director's office, but Shen Li is a special case. He is not only the parent and child of Professor Ban, but also has a great say in the biological research area, so he can enter casually.

When she opened the door, Shen Li happened to see Professor Ban taking off her glasses and rubbing her eyes. She looked very tired, with thick dark circles under her eyes.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Ban Jiayang looked up, and then put on her glasses unexpectedly.

"Shen Li? Why are you here at this hour? Come and sit down."

Shen Li didn't go over, he stood not far from the door, "I'm here this time to ask you something."

"Things? Is there any important issue to report?" Ban Jiayang pressed his temple, "Speak, I'll listen."

"I turned to my father's diary and saw some strange words in it." Shen Li didn't hesitate, let alone entangled, but just threw out his doubts, "At that time, you suspected that I had a psychological problem? Why?"

Professor Ban was stunned instead. She kept that posture for ten seconds before she could react.

After a while, she frowned slightly, "...you forgot?"

"Actually, I have never understood why you chose this major. I even thought that you came here to revenge me, but I didn't expect you to forget."

"This kind of thing can be forgotten so easily. That's right. You were still very young at that time, and people will always grow up."

After finishing speaking, Ban Jiayang looked at Shen Li, and she asked, "Do you like creatures?"

"like."

"The answer without hesitation sometimes made me feel that what happened at that time was just a dream of mine." Ban Jiayang murmured, "Although you have forgotten, I still have to ask, do you still remember Shancha?" Is it? It’s a stray cat we adopted after you were born and grew up with you.”

Shen Li tried hard to recall, but couldn't think of anything, so he shook his head.

"During the catastrophe, I happened to be with you at the end of work. The disaster was caught off guard, and our house was about to be flooded. We were all fleeing to the rooftop, but suddenly found that you and Shancha could not be found. I went with your father. Looking for you, and finally found you on the third floor that has been flooded."

"You pinched the camellia and pressed it into the water. You pinched it so hard that the camellia stopped moving, but you didn't let go, and you kept laughing."

That has always been a nightmare for Ban Jiayang.

A five-year-old child is so small, but he can hold a cat by its fragile neck and hold it in the water until it chokes to death, just like a child performing an ordinary Ultraman beating a little monster. Ban Jiayang is a biologist, and she has a natural liking for other creatures, so she accepted it with perseverance.

She thought it was just that Shen Li was ignorant and was just stimulated by the sudden disaster.

But in the following year, Shen Li intensified. He started catching sparrows, pouring hot water into the ant nests, breaking branches on purpose to crush the seeds, and no matter how many times he was taught, he would continue to do so.

This has gone beyond the maliciousness of ordinary children.

"I proposed to take you to a professional hospital for examination and treatment. Your condition is very unstable. A week after you drowned Shancha, you suddenly asked me where Shancha went, but your father objected. He thought it was because of your lack of care." Ban Jiayang said calmly, "I'm not a good mother, but it's reasonable to see a doctor and take medicine when I'm sick, and it has nothing to do with caring."

After listening to these words, Shen Li opened his mouth after a while, "So you have always disliked me because of this?"

"It was like this at the beginning, but it doesn't matter if it was later on. It's been a long time since I can't go back to the past."

Shen Li was silent for three seconds, then nodded after a while, "I think so too."

He turned and left, and this time Ban Jiayang didn't say anything about being safe.

It was night now, and there was no one around, so he couldn't help stretching out his hand to look at his palm in the corridor.

Shen Li is very thin, and staying in the laboratory all year round also made him very pale. His slender and thin fingers seemed to be broken when they were folded. The incandescent lamps in the corridor were very bright. Under the light, his fingers seemed to be so white that they were transparent. Li used his other hand to break it, and after breaking it twice, he put down his hand.

... So, did he really use these hands to drown the cat named Camellia on the day of the catastrophe?