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After the meeting, Zuo Zhengyi went back to his room to rest, and Ji Jue followed.

Just now when Zuo Zhengyi said that in front of everyone, Ji Jue kept frowning and staring at him. Zuo Zhengyi noticed it, and deliberately avoided Ji Jue's gaze, not even giving him a look of consultation.

Zuo Zhengyi knew what Ji Jue wanted to say now, so he spoke first: "You should support me."

Ji Jue wanted to refute, but he immediately said: "Don't say things that are for my own good but embarrassing me, please."

"..."

Ji Jue pressed his hand on the light switch, and he didn't take it back for a long time as if it was stuck.

After a while, he closed the door tightly, walked to Zuo Zhengyi, and said in a slightly lower voice when he spoke, "Okay, I won't say anything."

Some emotions can be expressed through breath even if they don't speak. Their mood wrapped each other in silence. Zuo Zhengyi seemed to be too tired, and he lay down on the bed in just a moment, breathing a little heavier than usual.

With his appearance, what else can Ji Jue say?I can't bear to say it.

Ji Jue also went to bed and hugged him.Zuo Zhengyi took advantage of the situation and rolled himself into Ji Jue's arms, found a comfortable position, and hugged each other tightly.

"Sorry." Zuo Zhengyi said softly, "Is it troublesome to fall in love with someone like me?"

"will not."

"Really?"

"Well, I'm very happy to be in love with you." Ji Jue said, "How can you ask such a question? You didn't say such things before."

Zuo Zhengyi was puzzled: "What should I say before?"

Ji Jue said: "'People who don't like me will be dragged out and beheaded'."

Zuo Zhengyi: "..."

Zuo Zhengyi laughed.Now his smile is a rare thing, Ji Jue grabbed the corner of his curved lips and kissed him quickly, it seemed that as long as he kissed hard, he could freeze the arc, Zuo Zhengyi kept smiling and never felt sad again.

But the corners of his soft lips fell down quickly, even if he responded to Ji Jue's kiss, the kiss was bitter, the closer he was, the less sweet he could taste.

They kissed until they were out of breath, and when they parted, Zuo Zhengyi's lips were slightly red, with a few gleams of water on them.Ji Jue came closer to lick him again, and the second deep kiss began. He hugged Ji Jue's neck tightly, and was pressed under him unknowingly, and his arms slid along Ji Jue's shoulders to his back, searching and hugging him unconsciously. .

Ji Jue's back is extremely broad, with a sense of calm strength.Zuo Zhengyi groped for it with his fingers, wrinkled his clothes, opened them, and hugged him tightly again.

Close to each other, so close that there is no distance.

Finally, Ji Jue couldn't help but said, "It would be great if I could be stronger."

Zuo Zhengyi interrupted him: "It's not your fault. I've figured it out recently. I really can't play team-type mages. If we put the pressure on you and we go to play wild cores, I can't provide you. Help. Do you understand? Ji Jue, I’m not an all-around mid laner. In fact, I had a faint feeling when I was practicing French stabbing. The type mage is even more weak, and I directly became a second-rate mid laner."

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi calmly narrated his shortcomings, his tone was almost cruel: "I don't know when I became like this, I am too C, I have to train myself to be useless. Maybe I was as early as WSND. I should listen to Zhou Jiankang, let go of my attachment to personal ability, and learn team thinking. But I didn’t go to learn it, and I wasn’t given a chance to learn it slowly, so WSND just..."

Zuo Zhengyi's voice choked up: "I don't know if my fate is too good or bad. It may be that my character determines my fate. I always make the choices I think are right, but in the end I can't walk on the right path But I feel that if I had a chance to choose again, I would still be where I am today. I already have a psychological barrier."

"...What obstacle?"

"I don't trust my teammates, and I don't trust myself." Zuo Zhengyi said, "When I was playing textile girl, I couldn't even command well. For example, if some opportunities arise, I may be able to fight, but to win, my teammates have to show 80.00% performance. But I don't trust them, I think they can only hit 20.00% at most. In this case, if I have the confidence to make up that [-]%, a person can hit [-]% If there is no effect, I will order to attack. But heroes like Zhiniang can't give me confidence, and I can't use so much power, which leads to hesitation in decision-making, passive rhythm, and a vicious circle."

Ji Jue looked at him: "Does 'teammate' include me?"

"You are different from them." Zuo Zhengyi hesitated and said, "If they can hit 80.00%, you can hit 90.00%."

"..."

90.00% nine, a delicate evaluation.

Zuo Zhengyi had never seriously expressed his views on Ji Jue's game technology before, and only jokingly asked Ji Jue to compete with him for the core position, but in fact Ji Jue didn't have the fighting spirit at all.

Ji Jue lacks the passion to put aside all personal emotions and simply dedicate himself to e-sports.

It is precisely because he does not have this passion that he is so strong and stable that he cannot go up or down—it is good not to fall below the lower limit, but it is not good to not be able to raise the upper limit.

So Zuo Zhengyi's evaluation of him is "90.00% nine", which is close to perfection.

This may not seem like much, but it is actually quite a lot.

However, after hearing this evaluation, Ji Jue didn't show any frustration or displeasure, as if he knew it well.

Ji Jue still looked at Zuo Zhengyi, and listened to him say: "In short... I don't have any confidence in any style of play other than Dharma Core. Even if you give me a very weak Snow Lantern, I still feel If you use it to play games, your winning rate will be higher than that of the weaving girl. I know it's irrational to think so, but I can't control myself."

"Now I can only... take the most extreme path." Zuo Zhengyi exhaled softly, "Other than that, Scorpion doesn't know where to go, and I don't know where to go either."

When Zuo Zhengyi was 15 years old, he proclaimed himself the number one mid laner in the world, and he was extremely arrogant.Now he plunged into a dead end, and he didn't know whether it was fate that killed him, or he himself broke fate's neck into today's shape.

Fortunately, he is much stronger now than before, and he can still keep calm after making a decision. It feels nothing to be afraid of. Being tired is not a problem, and being scolded is even a trivial matter. The worst result is just "come again next year" - anyway. Once you die, it is better to go all out and treat a dead horse as a living horse doctor.

"Don't worry about me, and don't blame yourself." Zuo Zhengyi said quietly, "I feel very lucky to have you. If the jungler wasn't you, I wouldn't have enough courage to make such a decision. … You have to help me, Ji Jue."

Zuo Zhengyi held Ji Jue's hand tightly, "Stand by my side and make up the one percent, okay? My boyfriend, my jungler, I need you."

Zuo Zhengyi kissed Ji Jue.

Ji Jue responded by turning the distance between them into a negative number.

……

That night, Ji Jue was heartbroken for Zuo Zhengyi, on his bed, on his heart, and in those intangible electronic beliefs.

Zuo Zhengyi was tired and clingy, and when he said he needed it, his body also showed the need.But this kind of need is actually a kind of giving. At the end, Ji Jue was almost satisfied. He felt that he had completely eaten Zuo Zhengyi, and there was no part of this person's body that he could not reach.

"I promise you anything." Ji Jue bit his lips, licked and kissed him again, "Actually, e-sports is more like my rival in love, it tortured you to death, and you are still infatuated, like a fool."

Ji Jue held up Zuo Zhengyi's chin, saw Zuo Zhengyi's dumbfounding expression on his face, and kissed him hard for a few seconds, draining all the oxygen in his lungs, and then pouring in his own breath, drowning, encroaching .Until Zuo Zhengyi's eyes became watery again, his hands unconsciously grasped him.

Up to now, Zuo Zhengyi can only show this kind of demeanor on the bed, and he can only be calm, indifferent or tough outside.

He is becoming more and more like a "brother", more and more charming.

But those things that are gradually lost in him, such as unreasonable trouble and arrogance, also become more cherished and desired by Ji Jue because of the loss.

He was fine no matter what, Ji Jue suspected that he was hopeless.

Now you have to give not only your body and mind, but also your soul with both hands.

"I promise you, I will give it a chance to torture me." Ji Jue said, "Even if it is an extreme dead end, I will accompany you to the end."