your name

After 5 minutes, Ji Jue finally finished typing.

Jue: "Being your husband? Is this a new type of joke?"

Zuo Zhengyi replied immediately.

End: "It's not a joke, I'm serious."

Jue: "..."

Ji Jue did not speak again."The other party is typing" is displayed on the screen again.

Zuo Zhengyi imagined the expression that Ji Jue might have on the other side of the network, and wanted to laugh even more.

Good or bad.

He has worse.

End: "Don't you want to?"

End: "I'm in a bad mood recently, I just want to find someone to chat with me."

End: "Since you don't want to, I'll go find someone else."

Jue: "..."

Jue: "Wait."

Jue: "So you're just looking for a netizen to chat with? Not a boyfriend?"

End: "Uh... how should I put it, it's hard for me to explain it clearly to you."

Jue: "?"

Zuo Zhengyi deliberately paused for a minute.

He thought to himself that Ji Jue should also understand that his vest came so suddenly that it aroused suspicion.

So now Ji Jue's mental activity is likely to be: "Did he guess my identity? Did he say that on purpose? To get revenge on me?"

That's right, Zuo Zhengyi was taking revenge on him.

But how can a smart and wise "Avenger" be easily seen through?

Zuo Zhengyi will continue to pretend to be an idiot.

End: "To tell you the truth, I used to suspect that you were the trumpet of a certain friend of mine, but after I got together with him, I let it go."

End: "Now I don't doubt it anymore. He knows that I hate being cheated the most, and confessed all the bad things I did before. So if you were him, you wouldn't come to me today, how could he lie to me with a trumpet?" Second time?"

Jue: "..."

End: "I'm sorry, I misunderstood you for so long and alienated you because of it."

Jue: "It's okay..."

End: "I broke up with him for more than three months."

Jue: "You don't like him anymore?"

End: "I don't know."

Jue: "..."

End: "I've been in a bad state of mind recently, and I don't want to think about the things that make me unhappy."

End: "Will you be my boyfriend and make me happy?"

End: "Hello?"

End: "Speak, why don't you answer?"

End: "Hurry up and say yes."

Jue: "... willing."

Zuo Zhengyi was so happy that he fell on his back on the bed, knocking the pillows all over the place.

End: "OK, then let's start dating online now."

Jue: "Online dating?"

End: "What else? I've never met you, what if you don't look good in real life? I'm very picky."

End: "You can switch to reality if you want, you can post a selfie first to see."

End: "No?"

End: "The default face is ugly if you don't send it."

Jue: "..."

End: "It doesn't matter, as long as you can make me happy, I don't care if you are beautiful or ugly."

Jue: "..."

End: "Are you a master of ellipsis? Can you type a few more words?"

End: "If you don't speak again, I will dump you and find someone else to [get angry]."

Jue: "Don't, don't look for others."

End: "[smile]"

Jue: "You have to let me get used to it, I feel now..."

End: "Like a dream?"

Jue: "Almost."

End: "I understand, it's hard for anyone to calm down if you suddenly find an idol."

Jue: "I have a question."

End: "You say."

Jue: "Why did you choose me?"

End: "Didn't you say it? I'm in a bad mood and I want to find someone to chat with me."

End: "Most of my friends are real acquaintances, they are very annoying, I don't like it. You are a friend in the online world, and you have a distance from me, which can give me a sense of security."

Jue: "You don't feel safe?"

Jue: "Why? Did the competition push you too hard?"

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi noticed that Ji Jue was probing his heart.

But he didn't want his mood, which had finally been relieved, to turn heavy again.

End: "You are so annoying, can you talk about what I like to hear?"

Jue: "I'm sorry."

Jue: "What do you like to hear? Tell me."

End: "Will you fall in love? Do you need me to teach you?"

Jue: "..."

End: "Say the ellipsis again and I'll knock your head off."

[The other party retracts a message. ]

End: "[smile]"

Jue: "Talk about the past?"

Jue: "Do you remember how we met?"

End: "Remember, you always sniped me when I broadcast live solo queue, and you'll get used to it as soon as you play more times."

Jue: "Well, you were so arrogant back then, you didn't like to talk to me."

End: "Where is it? I've always been very polite."

Jue: "Really? I think I sent you ten messages, and it would be nice if you could reply two."

End: "I'm busy."

End: "What are you doing? Settling old accounts?"

Jue: "No, I want to say, you were very cute back then. It's a little different from now, but it's also very cute, I like it very much."

Jue: "There were a few times when you were online and read it, but still didn't reply to the message. After a while, you pretended to find an excuse to perfuse me, saying that you didn't see it."

End: "..."

Have it?Zuo Zhengyi didn't remember at all.

At that time, his friend list in the game was full, and there were a lot of news, so it was not impossible to say that he was perfunctory.

At that time, he was indeed different from now, mainly because his mind was simple, he could think about everything easily, and happiness came easily.

Now I find everything is difficult.

Zuo Zhengyi's interest in "revenging" Ji Jue suddenly disappeared for the most part.

End: "You are so annoying."

End: "I'm sleepy, I won't chat with you anymore, goodbye."

Jue: "What's wrong?"

Jue: "Is this also something you don't like to hear?"

Jue: "Brother End?"

Jue: "Okay, it's better to rest early, see you tomorrow."

Ji Jue didn't talk any more, Zuo Zhengyi glanced at his phone one last time, turned off the light in the bedroom, and forced himself to sleep.

He tried hard to sleep, but didn't fall asleep until almost dawn.

Sleeping alone in an unfamiliar room, the deeper the night, the deeper the loneliness.

A while ago, Zuo Zhengyi called Zuo Yi and asked where his grandma's cemetery was, and he wanted to visit the grave.

After Zuo Yi informed, he added a superfluous sentence: "I will be buried near her soon, so you can come and see me by the way."

Finally, he asked, "Will you come to my funeral?"

"..."

Zuo Zhengyi thought to himself, you are gone, so you still care about the funeral?

He habitually replied "I'm too busy to train and don't have time", and rejected it indifferently.

But for some reason tonight, Zuo Zhengyi suddenly couldn't help but reflect on himself.

He seemed a little cold-blooded, he thought.

He is merciless to anyone, pushes and pushes and breaks.When I feel dependent on them in my heart, I have to warn myself: Don't rely on them, don't give in to the weakness of human nature, must stand upright, and never compromise.

So he was not pushed too hard by others, but by himself.

The same is true for career planning.

With his current fame and status, if he changed to a smarter player, he might retire.Changing careers as an anchor is easy, you can sign a big contract, earn more than playing professionally, and relax for the rest of your life.

But Zuo Zhengyi couldn't live a relaxed life, that was not his pursuit.

But therein lies the contradiction of man.He knew exactly where he was going, but he couldn't move.It's like being stuck in the gap between ideal and reality, constantly fighting for one more day and one more day of respite for myself to digest my inner fears.

Thinking wildly about dawn, Zuo Zhengyi finally fell asleep.

On August 8, it was a rare sunny day in recent days.

Zuo Zhengyi slept until the afternoon, and when he woke up, there were a lot of messages on WeChat, all of which were sent by his online dating boyfriend.

Jue: "Are you awake?"

Jue: "The game is not online, it seems not yet."

Jue: "Your cat is hungry and barks non-stop in the yard. I wanted to help you get some cat food, but just after I walked in, my housekeeper arrested me as a cat breaking into a private house."

Jue: "I'm in jail."

Jue: "I'm out."

Jue: "It's twelve o'clock, why are you still sleeping?"

Jue: "Did you sleep too late last night? What did you do after saying goodbye to me?"

Jue: "It's two o'clock, and I haven't woken up yet."

Jue: "You don't regret online dating, do you deliberately ignore me?"

Jue: "Brother End, I understand."

Jue: "You can't forget your ex-boyfriend."

Jue: "Actually, I know, your ex-boyfriend is Righting, right?"

Jue: "Righting is a good guy."

Jue: "Forget it, if you can't forget, you can get back together with him, don't care about my feelings :)"

Jue: "I just want you to be happy :)"

"..."

The acting was quite similar, Zuo Zhengyi was entertained as soon as he opened his eyes.

He read the news from beginning to end, went online to feed the cat first, then got out of bed in his pajamas to wash, took out an apple from the refrigerator, washed it casually, and ate it.

In less than 10 minutes, Ji Jue sent another message when he saw his game was online.

Jue: "You really are ignoring me on purpose."

Zuo Zhengyi ate most of the apple, and his hungry stomach felt better before replying to him.

End: "I just woke up, I didn't sleep well last night."

End: "I don't want to get back together with Righting, how can he be better than you?"

Jue: "..."

End: "Why are you persuading me to go with another man? Do you not like me?"

End: "Speak."

Jue: "No, I like you."

End: "It's so perfunctory, I can't feel your sincerity."

End: "A few more words."

This message was sent, and the other party did not reply for a long time.

Ji Jue seemed to be unable to hold on anymore.

Zuo Zhengyi ate the apple bite by bite, staring at the WeChat interface, and suddenly thought, is he going too far?

From Ji Jue's point of view, he just empathized with someone else, not only that, but also bad-mouthing Ji Jue behind his back.

Ji Jue must be in a bad mood, and under such circumstances, he forced Ji Jue to pretend to be another person to make himself happy.

"..."

Forget it.

Zuo Zhengyi suddenly felt bored.

He is indeed in a bad mood, but there is no need to deliberately step on other people's sincerity to have fun.If it's just for "revenge", these are enough, and there is no need to make troubles to the point where it ends badly.

End: "If you don't want to go back, you don't have to go back to me."

End: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be entertaining others when I'm unhappy, forcing you to date me online."

End: "Pretend I didn't say those words last night, so you can be busy."

Zuo Zhengyi's hand touched the delete friend button, and before he could press it, a new message popped up.

Ji Jue sent two paragraphs:

Jue: "I'm not angry. I was just thinking about how to reply to make you happy. It doesn't matter if you amuse me. Besides, what else can I do for you? I am already very happy to be able to talk to you."

Jue: "I love you, Zuo Zhengyi. Don't hide alone, let me accompany you, okay?"