help her chase his wife

At around twelve o'clock in the morning, Jian Qiao and Chi Yu finished washing one after another, and then lay down in their quilts one by one.

Chi Yu didn't feel sleepy at all, she turned over and patted Jian Qiao's calf through the quilt.

"What's wrong?" Jane asked.

"I'm suddenly curious... how close were you and Li Wanhao during that time?"

After Chi Yu's question, Jian Qiao unconsciously recalled some scenes of blushing and beating her heart. She clutched the corner of the quilt shyly, and let go of her hand silently.

Not hearing Jian Qiao's answer, Chi Yu stretched out her foot and kicked her: "Are you dumb? Why don't you speak?"

Jian Qiao was very embarrassed, she cleared her throat, and muttered awkwardly: "I've kissed you a few times..."

"The mouth-to-mouth kind?"

"……Um."

"Then how did she find out that you are intersex?" Jian Qiao didn't elaborate on this matter with her on the phone.

Jian Qiao bit her lower lip, her ears burning uncontrollably.

Seeing that Jian Qiao became silent again, Chi Yu had no choice but to sit up, carefully crawled over in the dark, lay down next to her, and then urged: "Hurry up, don't make me hungry."

Jian Qiao quietly turned to the outside and opened the distance between the two of them.

Xu Shi guessed that Jian Qiao was a little embarrassed, Chi Yu rolled his eyes, and his voice suddenly became delicate: "Qiao Qiao, good Qiao Qiao, please."

In the end, Jian Qiao couldn't resist Chi Yu's soft-spoken coquetry...

She curled her toes and described the scene in a soft voice: "The light in the theater room was already dim, making the atmosphere very ambiguous, and she sat on my lap again, breathing hot air, hugging and kissing me... ...I was really moved, so I couldn't help but have a physical reaction."

"You're really worthless." Chi Yu teased her with a smile.

Jian Qiao didn't answer, and bitterness slowly rose in her eyes.

"Are you feeling uncomfortable again?" Chi Yu reached out and touched her face by feeling, touching the hot and humid liquid.

Jian Qiao sobbed, tears streaming down her cheeks: "You don't know the disgusted look in her eyes and the disgusted expression when she found out my identity... I will never forget it."

Jian Qiao's voice was full of mourning, sorrow and despair, and Chi Yu felt distressed and guilty when he heard it: "It's all my fault, I shouldn't bring this up to make you sad."

Jian Qiao shook her head and covered her heart: "Whether you mention it or not, the pain here will not be less."

"Oh." Chi Yu sighed, turned on the bedside lamp, took out a tissue and wiped away Jian Qiao's tears.

"I want to smoke a cigarette." Jian Qiao choked up.

Chi Yu nodded and helped her get the cigarette case and lighter.

Jian Qiao lifted the quilt, moved to the corner, and sat there leaning against her.

Chi Yu felt a little choked by the smog, got out of bed and opened the window.

When Jian Qiao smoked the second cigarette, Chi Yu slowly opened her mouth: "I feel that Li Wan has such a strong disgust reaction, not only because of your bisexual identity... You told me before that she was born in a place full of A calculating businessman's family, her parents' marriage is unfortunate, and she has lived under Li Xin's disregard, belittlement and reprimand since she was a child, and was forcibly sent overseas by this person...even though she returned to China and inherited the shares under Li Chong's name , became the vice president of the company, but her life was still not easy. Her biological father regarded her as a thorn in his side, suppressing, humiliating and hurting her one after another... All of the above made her feel very sad, insecure, and unsympathetic to others. She is full of precautions, so it is difficult for anyone to enter her defense circle, and her friends and social interactions are all for profit, and she has no real affection at all... But you are different, you are the special exception, breaking her Years of barriers and intrusions in her heart have caused her to reveal the tentacles of trust..."

Jian Qiao burst into tears: "I know I did something wrong, I shouldn't have kept hiding my identity to deceive her... She is such a proud person, and she trusts me so much... Being so deceived, she must feel that she was fooled and played Well, I hurt her and failed her, she must be disappointed in me now."

"Don't blame yourself too much, I know you have your own difficulties."

Jian Qiao kept crying with her eyes closed: "I really don't want to lie to her... I tried to confess to her, but every time I got to the point of speaking, I fell silent at the last minute... The reason is that I subconsciously think that I am a Monster, I hate and hate my decomposed body extremely, I feel very ashamed... I can’t overcome my inner demons, so I don’t have the courage to tell her, and I’m also very afraid that she won’t want me if she finds out.”

Chi Yu leaned over and hugged Jian Qiao, patted her back to comfort her.

"The night she drove me out of the villa, I lay down next to the gravel and weeds on the side of the road all night. I was so hopeless that I even thought of committing suicide..." Jian Qiao twitched with her depressed shoulders, "It's not the first time I've had this kind of thought. I've had it during adolescence and adulthood. I feel ugly, dirty, and unworthy of living in this world... But when I think of my elderly grandma, I can't help it. If she leaves, how can she live alone."

Chi Yu turned sideways slightly, with worry on his face: "Have you ever seen a psychiatrist?" She felt that Jian Qiao's cognition was too distorted.

"No, my grandma has always warned me to keep my identity secret and not tell others." She didn't consider going to see a psychiatrist, but she thought about surgical resection, but was firmly opposed by her grandma. On the one hand, her grandma was worried that she would be killed. On the other hand, this kind of operation is very harmful to the body and the process is quite painful.

Chi Yu also became distressed. Although professional psychologists will abide by the principle of confidentiality, Jian Qiao's body is really special. She is not born bisexual, but formed by differentiation. This kind of thing sounds very mysterious, besides, Jane Qiao also said last time that she injured five or six big men who wanted to plot against her by herself. ...

At night, Jian Qiao had a nightmare, her body was writhing and struggling, and her mouth was also gurgling. Chi Yu turned on the light and woke her up.

"What did you dream about?" Chi Yu plucked Jian Qiao's sweat-drenched hair on his forehead.

The shortness of breath gradually calmed down, and Jian Qiao swallowed her saliva: "I dreamed that I went to Li Wan to explain to her...she wouldn't listen, and even spat on me, and finally someone threw me into an abyss. In the cold pool at the bottom, I almost drowned."

"..." Chi Yu didn't know what to say after hearing this, so he got out of bed and poured her a glass of warm water.

Jian Qiao held the cup in a daze, thinking that Uncle Tong might have told Li Wan that she was Mu Shishi, she was heartbroken.

"Stop thinking about it..." Chi Yu put his hands on Jian Qiao's shoulders, "Didn't you say you wanted to take me to the self-built house? Go to sleep quickly, and we will go tomorrow morning."

"Ah."

After putting the cup away, Chi Yu turned off the light, and the two of them lay down again.

Jian Qiao closed her eyes, and after a while, she opened them again: "By the way, I forgot to tell you that grandma plans to move to a self-built house before your parents come to Jiyang, so that it will be more convenient for everyone to live in. You how do you feel?"

"Okay, I don't mind."

It was just dawn on the second day when there was a knock on the door outside.

Grandma woke up early, she went to answer the door, Jian Yu was standing outside the door.

"Grandma, is sister up yet?" Jian Yu asked her grandma as she hurriedly walked towards Jian Qiao's room.

"not yet."

Jian Yu stood still in front of Jian Qiao's bedroom door. As soon as she raised her hand, her grandmother came over to dissuade her in a low voice: "Don't worry, they are god sisters, so they won't have such thoughts. They were very close yesterday. Rest at night, let them sleep more."

Jian Yu blushed when she heard the words, hummed like a mosquito, then turned around and went to the kitchen with her head down.

After breakfast was ready, grandma called Jian Qiao to get up.

Through the slightly open door, Jian Yu sharply saw the pillows of the two of them next to each other, and her lips immediately turned pale...

Grandma naturally saw it too, and her reaction was similar to Jian Yu's.

At the dinner table, Jian Yu looked so aggrieved that she was about to cry, and grandma couldn't wait any longer. When Jian Qiao was sixty percent full, she found an excuse and called her to her bedroom.

In the room, grandma frowned: "No matter how good your relationship with Chi Yu is, you can't be so close...Don't forget that you are different from other girls, you must know how to be careful." Here, the man's stuff hides animal nature, and she was afraid that Jian Qiao would be so full of energy and blood that she would accidentally make a mistake that shouldn't be made.

"Grandma, Chi Yu and I are good friends, a pure friendship relationship, I have no thoughts about her at all, and I will not act out of line."

"It's not that grandma doesn't believe you, it's just that she doesn't believe in the extra bastards in your body... At the beginning, your mother only had a little contact with that bad woman who couldn't control herself, and she was hooked into a shameless thing... Things... to create this kind of evil."

Jian Qiao's face was gloomy, and her whole body froze.

Over the years, grandma has complained a lot about her mother, and also tried her best to hate the woman who made her pregnant... Besides, grandma also does not accept and resent her divided body, and she often mourns and sheds tears...

When Chi Yu found out that Jian Qiao came out of grandma's bedroom, his expression became sad and bitter.

"Are you okay?" Chi Yu walked over, took Jian Qiao's hand, and looked at her with concern.

Jian Qiao quickly withdrew her hand, her eyes dodged, and then she quickly ran to the bathroom, locked herself in it, turned the shower to the maximum, and covered her crying with the sound of the shower.

When Jian Qiao came out again, her eyes were already red and swollen. Chi Yu was so distressed that she hugged her without thinking.

Jian Qiao pushed her away and smiled forcedly: "I'm fine..."

On the way to the self-built house, Jian Qiao really pretended to be nonchalant, and finally talked about interesting things in college.

Chi Yu couldn't laugh, she knew that Jian Qiao was acting, in order not to worry her grandma.

At night, after Jian Yu left and grandma fell asleep, Chi Yu took Jian Qiao and tiptoed downstairs.

After walking slowly for a while, Chi Yu murmured: "I didn't quite understand before...why do you have so many self-deprecating, even extremely distorted thoughts because of having that extra thing? understood."

Jian Qiao paused, staring at Chi Yu without blinking.

"I think... the root cause of the problem lies with your grandma. She dislikes and rejects your body differentiation, and equates this variation with a monster. You have been influenced by her, and gradually formed a paranoid Cognitive..."

After hearing this, Jian Qiao unconsciously clenched the corner of her clothes.

"Cry if you want to." Chi Yu gently stroked Jian Qiao's cheek with his fingertips.

Jian Qiao squatted on the ground, hugged her knees tightly, and wept silently.

"The night before New Year's Eve," Jian Qiao paused for a moment, wiped away her tears, and said in a hoarse voice, "Grandpa Zhou called me."

"what did he say?"

"He said that Jian Yu is a good girl, and he wants me to know how to cherish the person in front of me." Jian Qiao bit her lips silently, "He also said that in this way, I can marry and have children like a man, but I can't get a certificate..." Those During the past few years, the only ones who knew the secret of her body were grandma and grandpa Zhou. They couldn't accept it at first, but now, they have gone to another extreme, treating her like a man...

Chi Yu understood her pain point, and hurriedly bent down and stroked her head to comfort her: "He must be confused, nonsense, our Qiao Qiao is a girl."

These words broke the line of defense in Jian Qiao's heart. She sat down on the ground and burst into tears...

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In this chapter, Jojo sheds tears and cries loudly