Helpless

The four of them walked towards the private school in silence in the dark, and the atmosphere was so frozen that it was embarrassing.

Although they didn't continue to ask any more, it seemed that there was no need to ask.Everyone is not a fool, the amount of information in the words from those people's mouths is enough for them to connect all the things together, and then come up with Sugiyama Nozomi's true background identity.She has always pretended to be stupid and pretended to have amnesia, and she never refused to talk about it, and no one asked about her past.

She's a celestial... no, or to be precise, a combination of half-celestial and half-terrestrial.Because of her mother's relationship, the village where she lived was frequently visited by heaven and man, so the people in that village knew her life experience clearly.And after her mother was kidnapped by heaven and man and gave birth to her, she fled back with her, and continued to be with her original husband, migrating and fleeing to another village.But within a few years, Heaven and Man came to find him, and Sugiyama Nozomi's mother and mother's husband all died at that time, and Sugiyama Nozomi's whereabouts have been unknown since then, and the whole village was almost wiped out.

Among the three of Takasugi Shinsuke, Sakata Gintoki, and Yasuhara Tong... and everyone in the private school, let's not talk about bloody feuds and the like, there is no doubt that no one will have a good impression of Tianren.She walked, stopped, and looked at the backs of the three people silently.

I don't know if there are eyes on the back of the head (how is it possible!), Gao Sugi, who was walking in the front without looking sideways, also stopped, and looked back at her silently.

"..."

According to the usual development, she should have yelled at him at this time, "what are you looking at, go see Kotaro", but now, she felt that she didn't even have the right to speak.You should find a hole to crawl in right away, hug your knees and curl up in a ball, and that's the end of the world.

"Hey, I'm still dawdling. If you run out of dinner, Yinsang's fist will definitely greet you in the face!" Sakata Gintoki's voice was filled with impatience—the impatience of being hungry. , and then turned his head to mutter, "Don't think that people won't be able to see the flirtatious eyebrows at such a time, the brat likes to do this."

...You little brat!

If it was normal, she would have already thrown the shoe over, and Takasugi would definitely glance at Gintoki with a look of 'you deserve it', and if the situation permits, he would take advantage of the chaos and kick the two without changing his face and heartbeat. feet or something (…).However, the atmosphere was not right today. She continued to look at them silently, turned around and wanted to run again, but was grabbed by An Yuan: "Run again?! Xiaoxi, I'm hungry, let's go back to eat, if I want to run, I will run tomorrow, at night If so, there are likely to be snakes in the woods_”

I finally found her out of the woods, there is no way to run away ==+

"I..." She had the urge to turn around and run away, but she was appeased by the attitudes of the few of them who were not too abnormal, and said hesitantly, "I...I'm not..." I don't know what to say How to say, I don't know what to say, it is very difficult to say such words.Do you want to say "I am not human" to yourself?Although this is true, but...

"If you don't go back, Xiaoxi, your favorite lady's theater will be over soon."

She quickly raised her head, followed the voice to look at the speaker: "Song, Teacher Songyang...!"

Teacher Songyang came here from not far away, the expression on his face was as gentle and smiling as ever - he didn't know who she was, if he knew, would it still be this smile?

It is very wrong to know clearly in my heart that I would actually have such doubts about the teacher.You should trust the teacher completely, you should trust the teacher even more, you should... But at this moment, there is no way to believe it! TAT

It's not so much that I don't believe in the teacher, it's better to say that I question myself.Because even he hates himself, how can such a person not question other people's trust in him?

When a person has suffered too many blows, he may become numb, or he may become more frightened, panic-stricken, and overwhelmed.No matter what he usually looks like, once someone touches a certain line, he will immediately retreat to the corner, and be vigilant and vigilant to guard against the familiar scene that makes him afraid.

"..."

So you must have eyes on the back of the head for Takasugi's fleshy face! TAT obviously didn't you go to see the teacher, why did you turn around and grab me immediately? !

Sugiyama Xi, who was about to escape but was caught in time, looked at him with a sad face, and said in a low voice: "If I want to run away, there will be one less person to compete with you for the teacher. Isn't that great, you idiot!"

You are the stupid one! "It's so late, it doesn't matter if you want to continue hiding in the woods like an idiot, do you want Teacher Songyang to suffer from the thorns and thorns?" He glanced at her contemptuously.

"..." You kid also give me a little bit! ! !She was about to cry, and she couldn't care about her appearance for a while, and her voice was full of tears, "I don't know how to tell the teacher now! Let go and say that I suddenly want to live at Hongzi's house." Two days! Hongzi said that her sister has a bathrobe that she no longer wants, and plans to give it to me, so I'm going to try it!"

It's a ghost if you let go!Will believe you have a ghost!

When the communication between the two failed, Teacher Songyang had already walked over: "Hongzi went to uncle's house today, and he won't be back until half a month later."

"..." Teacher, why do you know everything? ! =mouth=

She coughed twice, not daring to look directly at Mr. Songyang's bright and beautiful eyes at this moment: "I, I..." After stammering for a long time, she shook Gao Shan's hand vigorously, turned around and spread her legs, and started desperately Run, shout while running, "Teacher, just forget about me! We are not people from the same world!!!!!!!!!"

………………………… Sakata Gintoki is seriously considering one thing: whether he should join hands with this guy Shinsuke Takasugi, and pretend that one day he will accidentally let this guy Sugiyama Nozomi disappear from the world It's...at least smashed her TV. ==

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If you must say that Nozomi Sugiyama has a specialty, it is climbing trees.When she competed with the boys in climbing a tree, she really never lost. When the boys were still grabbing their sleeves, she had already climbed up.But if you have to say why Mr. Takasugi Fleshface has always regarded her as an idiot, it is because it is the first time he sees a guy who likes to climb trees but can't come down at all, every time he stands on the tree and screams and begs Everyone get her down.

...Since you can't come down, don't climb up the tree every time!Do you think you are a stupid author Mi○?When I was in elementary school, I bravely and vigorously climbed up a tall polygonal pole that I don’t know the name of. I stood on it like an idiot looking down at Wansheng and shouted the translated version of "I'm the king of the world", but when the bell rang, I didn't dare Jumping down, finally attracting a group of people to carry out a big rescue operation, the most important thing is that boy who first love why do you lean against the window and look at all this with a half-smile and sinister sarcasm, even after many years, you still ruthlessly mock this Things, you bastard... In short, in this world, don't do things that you can't confidently finish from the beginning, a guy who only causes trouble for others is too disgusting OTZ

So Sugiyama Xi squatted on the thick trunk, silently and profoundly looking into the distance, thinking in his heart that the day he finished eating the fruit on this tree would be the time to starve to death...

It's not like the one shown on TV at all, no one is yelling her name all over the hillside, everything is very quiet.Occasionally, the sound of the wind blowing the trees, or the sound of small animals scurrying and rubbing the flowers and plants, will be extraordinarily clear because of this tranquility, which in turn will further accentuate the tranquility at this time.Things in the world often have two sides and complement each other.

So when she sat for a long time and almost fell asleep leaning against the tree trunk, when she heard the voice of a person who came under the tree without a sound, she was so frightened that she almost fell off—fortunately, she hugged the tree trunk in time!

"..." She looked down at Teacher Songyang who was looking up at her, and she almost burst into tears: Teacher, do you walk silently? !

Obviously, Mr. Songyang understood another level, and moved his eyes to the tree trunk to look at it: "... Teacher may be more difficult to climb trees."

No, teacher, you must not climb the tree, and please pay attention to the dangerous human-shaped moving object next to you!Look, he's staring at me - no no no!It's clearly an expression that is ready to kill me at any time!Takasugi Shinsuke, do you really plan to go where the teacher will go and where will you go?Could it be that the expression on your face was translated as "You still don't roll down? It's enough for me to kill you 1000 times if you let the teacher suffer from the pain of thorns and come to such a broken place. Now if you let the teacher climb a tree because of it, it will be destroyed. I'll beep you off [-] million times if you look like that!"? ! TAT

Sugiyama Nozomi waved his hands again and again in horror: "Teacher, don't come up! The trunk will break!"

"..."

"........."

"..." I just wanted to find an excuse!I don't mean to say that the teacher is fat!Takasugi Shinsuke, give me a little too! TAT Speaking of eating, it’s not you who only gain weight but not height, you meaty face!If you hold your face during class, it will only make your eyes flood your eyes! (becoming angry from embarrassment)

Teacher Songyang didn't care about this at all, just smiled: "Xiaoxi, looking at the scenery from above, shouldn't it have a special flavor?"

I only saw you, teacher, and the extremely dangerous dark air mass around you!In addition to that, I can't see anything clearly at night! TAT

"If a person climbs high, he can see far." Teacher Songyang calmly raised his hand and stroked the hair on the head of the dark air mass, looking up at Nozomi Sugiyama's eyes, "but because we are in the vast world, Only then will I feel even more insignificant, just like a drop in the ocean. Feeling that life is fragile and perishable is a topic that people have always talked about, but Xiaoxi, it is meaningless to do so."

"If you feel vulnerable, you have to protect it. If you can't protect it, you should find the reason, blindly escape, and only use the words of life impermanence as a reason to comfort yourself. What do you think of such a person?"

"..." Such a person is cowardly, and will never raise his head again.But……

"The teacher is not competent. I don't know what happened today, and I don't know what Xiaoxi is carrying on you."

"That's not it!" She wiped away the tears all over her face, and shouted anxiously, "No! This has nothing to do with the teacher—"

"As a teacher, you don't see the sadness in the students' hearts, and you only teach the things in the book according to your own ideas. You are not a good teacher."

"It's my own fault, it has nothing to do with the teacher!" She said hastily.

Teacher Songyang shook his head, and said slowly: "So Xiaoxi, are you willing to make an agreement with me?"

"...Promise?" Her tears poured more and more like money, her eyes were blurred, and she couldn't see the appearance of the person under the tree clearly. The brilliant, bright light that should belong to this night.

"Well, it's an agreement that once you promise it, you can't regret it for the rest of your life." Teacher Songyang showed her a gentle and patient smile as always, "The teacher will not ask you anything related to today. In contrast, Xiaoxi, you have to think for yourself and decide how to solve it. Then, Xiaoxi will test when I will become a qualified teacher who can fully and truly take care of the students."

It's already such a teacher... It's been such a teacher for a long time.He took the lost, lost, and lost students to the private school with gentle hands, and shouldered the expectations and respect of all students.Use your own practice to tell all students how to face the world, how to respect the world, and how to integrate into the world in addition to textbook knowledge.

Tears are broken beads, sticky and falling continuously.She raised her hand and wiped it vigorously with her sleeve, but she wiped more and more. She dimly saw the teacher under the tree opening her hand towards her: "Come down, Xiaoxi."

"No..." she muttered, "If I jump like this, you will break my bone..." Unless you break Shinsuke Takasugi's bone first, teacher, I will be assassinated by him when I go back TAT

Teacher Songyang still maintained this movement, and said with a smile: "If I can't even catch you at this moment, how can I go forward with you again?"

There is no need to think about other things anymore, and there is nothing else in my head.She wiped away tears again, stood up and jumped down without saying a word——

Believing in Sugiyama Nozomi is the biggest mistake in this life.

"…………"

Mr. Fleshface is speechless, because he can't lose his temper anymore, he's already shied (assaulted).

In fact, we can simply explain it in one sentence: she jumped down smoothly, but there was a slight deviation in the landing point...

Unfortunately, Mr. Fleshface was thrown down decisively from the commanding height by her, and his face fell to the ground.In his heart, he grabbed someone's avatar and beat him. When he felt the guy on his back get up, he immediately got up from the ground. When he turned his head, he saw that the culprit had already thrown himself into Teacher Songyang's arms, crying loudly. .

After watching in silence for a while, he turned his head away, and decided to let her live a new year for the time being, and kill her after the new year ==+

"I'm not human..." She buried her face in Teacher Songyang's arms, grabbed his clothes tightly with both hands, as if she had been wronged outside and came back to complain to her parents, crying extremely fiercely, "I It's a monster, I'm a little monster... I'm a little monster born of a big monster!..."

Those words that he didn't want to say, and at the same time, he didn't know how to say them, at this moment, facing him, they said them all spontaneously.No matter how you pretend to be carefree or lively and cheerful, in fact, you have a very low self-esteem in your bones, and you have cowardice and weakness that you can't escape for life.Half-humans, monsters, ugly and dirty things that should never have come into this world.So the mother hates and loathes herself, and everyone despises herself.Why can I still live so shamelessly?Why do you have to say to yourself so shamelessly and hypocritically that you must live.

Teacher Songyang gently patted her head to comfort her. After listening to her howl, she finally became silent and only let out a sobbing sound before speaking again.

"One may be forced to accept one's origin involuntarily, but the shape of the soul will be determined by oneself." He pressed her shoulders, squatted down, and looked into her eyes, "and Xiaoxi, you have always been a student that the teacher is proud of."

Nozomi Sugiyama: 〒_〒

"You have a very gentle heart and are willing to love the world, aren't you a very good child?"

Nozomi Sugiyama: 〒_〒

"I think, if you, Xiaoxi, leave the private school, everyone will be very sad. Of course, so will the teacher."

Nozomi Sugiyama: 〒_〒

"Everyone likes Xiaoxi very much because Xiaoxi has something that people like about you. It is indeed bad behavior to be arrogant, but at the same time, you must never belittle yourself. You don't want to remember and face things. Don't force yourself to You have to accept it, but even if you have inescapable fear in your heart, as long as you always remember your goal and never give up to move forward, the teacher believes that if it is you, Xiaoxi, you will definitely overcome it one day This fear, become a brave child."

Sobbing, unable to say a word, she threw herself into the teacher's arms again, hugged him, buried her head in his neck, and nodded with all her strength.This was the first time that someone kept her and told her that she would be sad if she left.It's not an attitude of disgust and disgust, it's not vicious cursing and beatings... it's genuine, genuine tenderness and tolerance.He knew she was a little monster, but he still told her that she was his proud student.

……

"...The teacher is back!" An Yuan sat on the threshold and fell into a drowsy sleep. Suddenly he saw a figure walking towards the private school, and suddenly woke up. "Yinshi! Get up! Teacher, Xiaoxi, and Jinsuke are back!"

"Come back when you come back, do you want Yinsang to greet me Zzzzzzzz?"

"Then why are you still squatting at the door with me..." An Yuan gave him a funny look, then got up and looked at Teacher An Yang who was walking over.He held Nozomi Sugiyama in one hand, and Shinsuke Takasugi who insisted on following him with the other hand, his steps were very steady, and his expression was very gentle.

It seems that even if you have to carry a whole mountain on your back, you can do it with ease.