[Comprehensive] I just wanted to watch

The book said that children are angels, I scoffed.

Children are not angels, children are the darkest demons.They are sinful because of their ignorance, and they use innocence as an appearance to bring the deepest harm to people.

Forgot to say, I was a kid myself, so I hated myself, or rather, facing this Tom Riddle who was left alone here, which was me.

My mother, that woman, died when I was born, and I can have memories probably because I am different.

Yes, different, I am different from other people.I have strange abilities, don't know the source, but I refuse to believe that it was from that woman, I prefer to believe that it came from a father I never met.

This power makes me strong, but it also makes me suffer.

The people in the orphanage are all idiots. They even called me the son of Satan, which is ridiculous.If I really were, how could they still live well and bully me.

But they can't bully me, I can command the snake to bite them, and scare them away with that strange ability - but that ability is not very stable.

But they still have a trick. As long as they tell the dean about that woman, I will be locked in the room and have nothing to eat for a few meals or even a few days.

The taste of hunger is not good, but no one will sympathize with me, so I knew from a young age that showing weakness is meaningless, it will only make others worse.

I pressed my stomach that was throbbing with hunger, and sat expressionlessly in the darkness of the room.Being malnourished for too long made me thin, but I didn't care.

They won't let me die, because that would cause them a lot of trouble--and trouble is what they fear most.

So it's just that I'm hungry, it doesn't matter, I can bear it.

My childhood was not bright, and sometimes I wondered, if I grew up in an ordinary family, would I, who is full of gloomy eyes now, laugh like the kid holding a popsicle on the road? stupid.

Unfortunately, I am not.In fact, there is nothing to be sorry about, I am mature enough, and guessing will not be of any use.

I thought that such days full of darkness and loneliness would fill my whole life, but fate was not willing to give up on me.

When I was 11 years old, a middle-aged man who dressed in a strange style - I thought wizards had that kind of taste, but then I learned that even among wizards, his clothes are still very unique - When I came to the orphanage, it took me to another world that I had never touched.

Diagon Alley, Gringotts, Hogwarts, Slytherin.

It all felt like a dream and it made me feel like I was alive again and I was going to live in this world for the rest of my life.The wizarding world is where I truly belong, and I will never leave it again.

I'm very intelligent, I've always been aware of this, my grades are absolutely outstanding even in Slytherins of noble origin.

But I did not appear arrogant or unreasonable because of this. On the contrary, in the eyes of professors, I am studious and motivated, extremely gifted but humble; in the eyes of students, I am personable, polite and gentle to everyone. The appearance is also outstanding.

Who can refuse me like this?In fact, everyone liked me except the wary and inexplicable Dumbledore.

I became friends with Abraxas and we had a great relationship.For me, the only person who can truly be called a friend is Abraxas.

I thought my life would go on smoothly like this. After graduation, with my strength, I can definitely live a very good life.

But at this time a girl came to me and told me an incredible thing.I looked at her memory unceremoniously, and then the so-called later.

I can't believe I could be so stupid to be tricked by a kid like that and end up dying at the hands of a kid.It's just ridiculous.

But I knew it might be true, because that idiot girl couldn't fake a memory so real.But now that I know it, I will naturally not make that kind of low-level mistake again.

After a moment of hesitation, I didn't forget all about her.I packed up my things, and I was talking to Leonard, who was one level below me, about a new type of potion change, but a broom caught my attention.

Yes, a broom.

The whole school knew that I hated Quidditch the most, but I was really attracted to the broom because it was really weird.

He was twisting and twisting, as if he was still talking to himself?It seems to have noticed me, and the broom stopped moving, but how could any broom stand there by itself?

This is simply a big mistake.I laughed, despising the broom's stupidity and at the same time becoming somewhat abnormally curious.

I wonder what the hell is going on with this broom.

So I looked closely at it, but unexpectedly found that it trembled slightly because of my sight.On a whim, perhaps out of potential mischief, I pulled out my wand and started sliding it back and forth across the body of the broom.

It trembled, but still tried its best not to move.

It was rare for me to exhaust my energy, so I didn't leave immediately, but persisted.But it couldn't bear it anymore, and did something that couldn't be more stupid--run away.

Stupid broom, where else can it go in Hogwarts.

Turning back unhurriedly, I realized that Abraxas was looking at me with an obscene smile on his face.Looking sideways at him a little bit, I realized that I had absolutely no desire to hear what he had to say, because that wasn't what I wanted to hear.

Sure enough, what he said almost made me choke.

"Riddle, you don't even let go of the broom now." I'm sure the corners of my mouth twitched a bit, but I didn't bother to talk to him, and I knew he was just joking.

After dinner I went to the rooftop and searched for my scratches one by one.

This method worked very well, and I found the stupid broom without any problems.

After shrinking it down, I took it back to the dormitory. I thought it would take some effort to negotiate with him, but I didn't expect this broom to be honest and frank to a certain level, so I recruited it directly.

He briefly explained his affairs, and I could hear some concealment in it, not all the truth, but I didn't really mind it.

Because I also won't tell him all my thoughts, so I don't owe each other, just right.

After agreeing to "help" each other, I made a small change to him. Although I was a little depressed that it couldn't be changed into something else, it was much more refined and beautiful than before.

When I watched him jump awkwardly on the blanket, the corners of his mouth turned up slightly.

There were other "creatures" in the dormitory where there was only one person, but it didn't look as bad as imagined.

My life has become a little tricky, I have him turned into a bracelet and I wear it on my wrist, and I am with him all the time.Whether it's eating or class, there is someone who listens to me and responds appropriately and somewhat endearingly.

His knowledge and ignorance of the magic world seemed contradictory. He knew some things that he shouldn't know, but he lacked some simple common sense. However, it didn't feel too bad to teach a person for the first time.

He is actually a very strange person, or rather, a broom.He seems to be able to see what is going on in people's minds. When you are a little silent, he will also say some relaxing words in an appropriate way. It is wonderful to adjust my mood to the original state.

I have to say, this makes me feel good, and no one else has ever given me this feeling.Maybe it's because no one has ever had such close contact with me. Even Abraxas only had a small amount of conversation during class and meals, which is different from his situation.

Something has changed in me, I just didn't realize it at the time.

I don't know when I started to look forward to his human form. I don't know what he will look like, but from my imagination, I probably know what he will look like.

When I heard him talking to himself, it was impossible not to be angry.I even feel that I am agitated for some reason, but even if I can't figure it out, I still feel self-deprecating.

I haven't spoken a word to him for several days. I don't know who I am angry with. This appearance is really stupid, but my intelligence is recognized.

Maybe people do some foolish behavior sometimes, even me.Childish and terrible, I can't admit that this person is me.

Due to my low air pressure, a dance partner who should have had no problems has not yet.

I thought this time the Halloween ball was over like this, and it didn't matter if I didn't participate.But I didn't expect that Abraxas would bring me two dresses.

Besides my one, there was an oriental gown, absolutely exquisite and beautiful, even to my critical eye.

Not sure what Lil would look like in it.My face darkened when I thought of this, and I invited Abraxas out.

That kind of thinking is simply stupid, Ritsu still looks like a broom, how can he wear such clothes.

But before I could react, I heard a bang.

Subconsciously raised my head to look around, and saw a scene that made me a little dazed.

The broom, which was originally small and exquisite, turned into a boy right in front of my eyes.

The delicate face is not the most important thing, but the fair skin tells me what is important-this person is now naked.

Obviously, the law in front of him also realized this cognition, and his face turned red, as if he had a fever.

Hearing his roar: "Bastard, don't watch!" My first reaction was not anger, but amused.

Out of sheer whim, I tricked him into agreeing to join me in the Halloween ball as my dance partner.When I handed the dress to him, I felt a little bit of anticipation.

And he did not disappoint me, the effect after wearing it has to be said to be really good-looking.Maybe it's because he is originally from the East, and he is very different from the West, no matter in appearance or feeling.

Then the words about the mirror in the dormitory made me think that apart from being noisy, it was actually kind of cute.However, in view of Ritsu's situation, let it be silent.

On the way there, I discussed with the lawyer how to face Dumbledore's suspicion, and that was to tell the truth.From the conversation with Li, I learned another way of negotiating, which is simple and easy to use, and does not require too much thinking or calculation.

It's the simplest straight-forward approach.

When the eyes are all focused on me and him, this feeling is completely different from the attention I am used to.

At least it's much more enjoyable.

After the dance, he and I came to drink with Abraxas, and I knew he was interested in Lil.

It's just that Lil's reaction was very flat. Although I know it's because Lil wears it on my hand every day and I'm already familiar with Abraxas, but I still feel very good.

I am very satisfied with Dumbledore's reaction. What Lu himself said was to be honest and straightforward, and Dumbledore agreed to it easily.

This negotiating skill is really amazing.

The Ritsu who turned into a human form is very attractive. He no longer follows me to class, but wanders around the castle.At first I was worried that he would get lost, but it turns out that he is incredibly popular, and someone can always bring him back to the cellar.

So I just let him go around, anyway, Dumbledore has already agreed, so there is nothing to worry about.

When Abraxas came to the room, I already guessed that it was because of Ritsu. The relationship between these two people has been getting better recently, which makes me feel a little uncomfortable, although I don't know why.

Abraxas, who just arrived at my dorm in the afternoon, did not wait for Lili first, but instead received the letter from the owl.

There was something wrong with his expression. I didn't want to see it at first, but I felt something was wrong.When I finally got the parchment in my hand, I must have looked very ugly, because Abraxas changed his expression and was a little worried.

See, he thought so too.

When I saw the things said in the letter, I just felt that I was cheated again.Sure enough, no one in this world is trustworthy, except myself.

Maybe the extreme of anger is calm, I regained my expressionless face, and even sat down and continued to wait for him.Wait for him to come back and explain.

When he stood in front of me with the tray, I suddenly didn't want to hear any explanation.If I listened, I might choose to forgive.But such deceit can only be done once.

So I didn't give him a chance to defend himself, and let him leave directly.

There is no emotion in my voice, maybe I am a person without emotion, like the devil that the orphanage said.

However, none of that matters anymore.

His face was paler than I had ever seen before, and I interpreted it as evidence of a guilty conscience, ignoring my slowly stirring heart.

The dessert is delicious, the taste is better than I have ever felt, but I put it aside with a cold face, laughing at the unpalatable, as expected of something made by a house elf.

His lips were a little pale, and he opened and closed several times as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't.

Seeing his silent appearance, I let out a shameful sigh.If he said anything, I might not be able to maintain the current appearance of indifference.

Abraxas, always soft-hearted, told him that the pastry was delicious.

He smiled, but that smile made people feel glaring - if you don't want to laugh, then don't laugh.

Uglier than crying.

he's gone.

I let him go and I know he will never stay again.

The man really left, but it didn't bring me any sense of relief or joy.It's just that a part of the chest cavity was hollowed out, and the cold wind poured in directly without any buffer.

Trust is just a temporary thing, and I will never trust anyone in my life.

But I was wrong.I, who thought I had never made a mistake, made a mistake in judgment.

Why didn't I think that there are indeed no human beings, but what about people who are not in human form?Animagus are not uncommon.

During this period of time, I have grown my power, but it is not for the so-called ambition and ambition.I needed something to divert my attention, only now that there was no need for a diversion, I held back.

Heh, Riddle actually sometimes flinches.But I have to admit, I don't know how to deal with it.Besides, what happens after being forgiven?If something like this happens again, it might as well stop here in the first place.

Abraxas was very disappointed. I watched him slam the door and leave expressionlessly, but I didn't have the heart to get angry with him.Because it's worth getting angry in the first place-I'm not a person who has difficult choices, but I'm always different in things related to that person.

I finally found a good excuse for myself.

Cultivation cannot go on without the help of Law, and there are many obscure oriental rhetoric. As a Western wizard, it is still difficult to understand.And Law is the best candidate.

So I began to look for Lil's trace with peace of mind, and I specially asked for leave to pick him up in person.

My predictions weren't quite right, at least I didn't go well.

Law didn't seem to want to go back with me, and there was already another person beside him who cared about him and had a strong possessive desire.

I squinted my eyes, I was on par with him in imposing manner, but I knew I was slightly inferior to him in strength.

Ritsu finally agreed, but the condition was to be with that man.I don't know why I agreed, I just looked at Ritsu's unyielding eyes, and suddenly worried that if I refused, I would lose something forever.

I calmly agreed, and then I disapparated and left without seeing the two of them looking at each other and smiling.

Originally, it was extremely mana-consuming and I didn't want to do it, but now it makes me feel less bored to leave a second earlier.

The lecture went smoothly, and I had the illusion of returning to the time we were together before. Although I knew it was different from before, I still felt happy from the bottom of my heart, and the smile on my face was much more real.

Lil is different from everyone else around me, he is confused and a little dazed, but he is cute.Before I met him, I had never seen a person smile so genuinely, which was totally different from Dumbledore who was known for his affinity.

It surprised me a little that I wasn't offended that he tried to tease me.It's just that the corners of his mouth will rise unconsciously when he thinks of him.

Wanting to go out for a walk was just a whim, but I heard Ritsu's request.Say "I was wrong".This may not be difficult for others, but for me, it has never been said.

It turns out that Lil has always owed such a sentence in his heart.So if you say it, Ritsu will have no gap with him as before.

"I was wrong." When I said it, I was unexpectedly relaxed and calm. I just thought that if I said it, it would be the same as before.

Lu's dumbfounded expression made me laugh, it turned out that I looked so unreasonable.

He asked Sebastian to take us out, and I didn't say no.I'm just wondering why this man agreed so readily, without any displeasure.

This is definitely not normal, coupled with the meaningful look he gave me before he left, I was a little inexplicably irritated.

But when I saw the smile on Ritsu's face, I suppressed this emotion for a while.

These three days have been fulfilling but very fast. I think I will never forget what Lil said on the tree that day.When I fell from the tree, I looked at the pair of black eyes that were staring at me, crystal clear, shining in the mottled light and shadow falling among the leaves.

I understand what it means to be heartbroken.

This is the first time I want to be nice to someone, and it will be the last time.If I put my trust in him again, I believe I won't feel disappointed again.

Unfortunately, I'm always right, and I'm wrong again.

That night, I vaguely felt that someone was watching me, but it stayed there for so long that I thought it was an illusion.

The next day, he was never seen again.I searched the whole house and asked the sleeping Muggles, but couldn't find it again.

The man was waiting when he walked out the door.My expression was calm, "You already knew he was leaving." I used an affirmative sentence, I should have found out.

The smile on Sebastian's face made me churn inside, and my face gradually turned cold.

Apparated again.

Maybe I should be thankful that I have learned such a useful magic that always allows me to leave quickly when I want to escape.

Thinking of him who seemed to disappear out of thin air, my expression didn't change, but the coldness around me was about to freeze the air.

wait until i find him

Maybe it was really the sudden drop in the weather, and on the lush trees, there were only empty branches swaying lonely in the wind.

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