The princess is reborn

When I was sober, I didn't dare to ask these questions, because I was afraid that if I asked, I would feel sorry for my father under the nine springs. It was more like a kind of betrayal to my father. I am not even qualified to forgive my dead father. A murderer who killed him.

Asking these questions is more like the imprisoned prisoners are driven by excessive stupid preferences, and can't help but find a thousand sophistry reasons and rhetoric for the executioner's injury, how absurd and ridiculous.

But now, taking advantage of the turbulent drunkenness, I suddenly asked, only as if I was really drunk, and did not bring any real feelings here.

When I said those words out of my mouth, I almost temporarily let go of those inextricable hatreds and resentments that cannot be loved.

I only give Xie Yan this last chance, if he can explain to me well what happened that year and tell me that my father's death was not what he wanted, he didn't do it on purpose, and he is willing to go with me to my father's grave to plead guilty .

Maybe, maybe, I will let go of the obsession with revenge in my heart.

As long as Xie Yan didn't intend to kill my father on purpose, as long as he apologizes to my father, I will no longer take revenge. Although I will no longer be with him, I will not continue to live with hatred. From now on, my life will be Accompanied by the lonely mountain where my father is buried, until life is exhausted.

Thinking of this, my pupils were covered with mist, and I looked at Xie Yan's expression with only remaining hope. He didn't answer my question, but just stared at my face deeply and painfully for a long time. , as if looking at another person through my flesh and blood.

The rims of his eyes were reddish, like a defeated ferocious beast gurgling blood and tears, his gray pupils flashed pain, remorse, resentment, resentment and other emotions at the moment my words fell, and then these unspeakable pain was overwhelmed by sorrow The reality of defeat extinguished the raging fire and turned it into a lifeless sea.

He opened his mouth, and there seemed to be thousands of words in his throat, but in an instant he turned into an incomprehensible silence. He just looked at me quietly, like a dilapidated statue about to fall apart in the wind and rain.

I waited and waited, waited and waited, and waited for a long, long time before I heard a very soft thank you, "This is between me and him."

At that moment, I was awakened by the death knell ringing in the middle of the night, and I couldn't help laughing, yes, this is a matter between Xie Yan and Feng Jiuyue, why am I making trouble here.

I almost couldn't control my emotions, I wanted to rush up, cut open Xie Yan's heart with a sharp knife, and see if it was black inside, I like him so much!Like him so much!But what did I get in the end? !

I suddenly felt that what I thought and did just now was extremely ridiculous and shameless.I was delusional about giving Xie Yan one last chance, and even more exaggeratedly, I was delusional about the slightest chance that Xie Yan might be innocent, but the reality was like a heavy punch that beat me to pieces, with bruises all over my body.

Only a fool would plead bitterly for the wolves to put away their claws, hoping that the villain will return to justice. I have lived a new life, but I am still so stupid and stupid as a pig.

Never again, I won't ask again, and I won't give Xie Yan any chance to hurt me.

When I just asked those words, it already meant a betrayal of my father, and these words did not have a hint of repentance that I hoped to thank.I am fed up with deceit and disappointment, and I will no longer be soft-hearted towards Xie Yan, nor will I have unrealistic illusions about this person.

One day, in the name of Feng Jiuyue, I will make Xie Yan kneel and repent for the crimes he committed against my father.

After Xie Yan said those words, he got up and left. As he walked, his white clothes swayed gently with the night wind, like a fairy in the moonlight.When passing by my side, his wide sleeves brushed against my face inadvertently, and I smelled the familiar cold fragrance, like pine trees covered in winter snow, like snow plums in full bloom in the cold.

His back is disfigured, walking in the evening wind, as silent as the last ray of lonely soul in the world, as if blown by the wind, it will turn into a cloud of smoke and slowly scatter in the dust.

I stared at his receding back with resentment for a long time, and I grabbed the corner of the robe with my fingertips until I was about to tear them apart. My mouth was full of bloody smell from biting my lower lip, and I stuck out the tip of my tongue. , gently rolled the blood stains from the corner of his lips into his mouth, and suddenly smiled charmingly.

"Thank you, we will have a long time in Japan." I said very lightly.

These words were instantly annihilated in the empty and lonely dark night, but they were engraved heavily on my heart.

On the second day, when I was dressed up, Huaixin just opened the door and entered the room. The moment he saw me, his eyes flashed with amazement, his mouth was slightly opened in surprise, and he walked up to me in a few steps, excited. He said calmly, "Young master, how do you dress up like this today? Don't you always dislike such flamboyant attire?"

Yes, Huaixin is right, Qiu Yunqing is low-key by nature and doesn't like publicity, but I, Feng Jiuyue, like it.

I sat in front of the bronze mirror, looking at the hazy and simple bronze luster in the mirror, just like the slowly flowing time.The person in the mirror is wearing lotus-colored spruce, the style is cumbersome, the half sleeves are tied with ribbons in a fancy butterfly pattern, the skirt is embossed with a large expanse of purple wisteria flowers, and the belt is a purple totem with cloud and mist patterns, wrapped around it. Wearing strings of thin belts, the waist looks more and more unbearable and weak.

As for the headgear, I didn't pay too much attention to it, because I didn't know how to do it, and Xiaoman was in charge of my makeup before. He knew that I love beauty, so he often learned about various hairstyles and was proficient in various styles of combing hair.

Now that I'm away from Xiaoman, I can't take care of myself, and I turned my head to look at Huaixin who was in a daze, thinking that he was too thick and rough, and he definitely couldn't help me, so I just tied the black hair behind me with a crimson hairband loosely, as a convenience It's over.

When I was about to go out, Huaixin's face was full of hesitation, so I could only look back at him, and said softly, "Say something quickly."

"My lord," Huaixin scratched his head, hesitantly said, "As a servant, Huaixin shouldn't talk too much about what you want to do, but Huaixin still doesn't want you to get too close to His Royal Highness. His Highness the Crown Prince feels very dangerous, and being with you is like a tiger, I feel that His Royal Highness is very unpredictable, and I felt it when he questioned me last time."

Huaixin's tone was sincere, and he begged at the end, "Master, let's go back to Yuanzhou, leave the capital, a place of right and wrong, and Huaixin always felt uneasy during the time he came to the capital. I don't know why, but I'm afraid that something bad will happen to the young master."

I have always been grateful for the warmth and sincerity of Huaixin in me. Now that I think about it, what I want to do in the future may not necessarily succeed. If it fails, Huaixin may also be implicated innocently. When I thought of this, I opened my mouth and said, "If you are afraid, I will send someone to take you back to Yuanzhou."

"Huai, Huaixin, that's not what I meant," Huaixin saw that I was very serious, and he was as anxious as an ant on a hot pot, and knelt down straight towards me, even his voice tremblingly crying, aggrieved Said calmly, "Young Master, Huaixin just feels that Young Master is not happy after coming to the capital, but instead looks sad every day. Huaixin just doesn't want to see Young Master sad, not because he is afraid of things."

"I know that you must have your thoughts and things you want to do, but Huaixin is just a small person, and you may not be able to help you out of your worries, and you are not willing to tell your thoughts, but Huaixin is definitely not a person who is greedy for life and afraid of death. This life of Huai Xin was picked up by the Young Master, and he will definitely be able to go through life and death for the Young Master, as long as the Young Master orders, Huai Xin is willing to go through fire and water for the Young Master, go up the mountain of swords and go down the sea of ​​fire, whatever he wants."

"Since that's the case, then you can wait for me to come back, and then you will have something to do."

I just left these words lightly, and stepped out the door.

I dressed up so carefully today in order to respond to Xie Yan. Going out a little earlier can make Xie Yan feel more uncomfortable for a while. How can I use such a good time to study it.

Thinking of this, I felt that everything in the garden was much more pleasing to the eye, so I couldn't help but quicken my pace and hurried to the study.

But when I got to the study, I didn't see Xie Yan's ghost. I was puzzled. Xie Yan is the most enthusiastic about official duties. Every day, when the rooster crows, he can get up and wash immediately, and then go to the study to work. That is the whole day, except when he is out, most of the rest of the time in the mansion can be found in the study.

"Young Master Qiu, are you looking for His Highness the Crown Prince?" the housekeeper happened to pass by and asked me with a smile.

Seeing me nodding, the butler pointed in the direction of the pavilion at the door, "His Royal Highness is over there."

I said hello and went to the gazebo. I was about to reach the gazebo when I saw Xie Yan sitting on the jade bench in the middle of the gazebo, pretending to play the piano. When I discovered my arrival in time, I snorted lightly in my heart and only quickened my pace.

I don't like to look at the road when I walk, and I didn't pay attention to the movement under my feet, but I only heard two barks of "bark", and I was thrown to the ground by a huge animal.

"Wow, woof, woof, woof, woof, woof!" A series of dog barks sounded in my ears, accompanied by the sound of tongue licking my cheeks.

The giant dog pressed me to the ground and licked my cheek desperately. Its white fur became more and more fluffy in the wind. It moved its head closer to me, and its tail was about to take off. It was a sign that a dog loves a human very much. , it does not understand human language, can only bark, and can only express its happiness and joy by wagging its tail.

I was thrown to the ground by the dog's paws, my face was wet from being licked, my face was covered with saliva, my clothes were all stained with mud on the ground, and it became messy, and even my barely tied black hair was scattered. Come, disheveled on both sides.

I barely opened my eyes under the crazy licking of this big dog, and saw the true face of this big dog.

It looks similar to Xiaobai, with round black eyes, erect triangular ears, fluffy and soft white hair, and a smiling arc when it opens its mouth. I almost recognize it as Xiaobai.

But it is impossible for Xiaobai to appear here. He must have been doomed when the house was ransacked, not to mention that this big dog is very fat!

It is impossible for my Xiaobai to be so fat, it is exactly twice the size of Xiaobai, that's why I can't get rid of it.

I still remember that when I domesticated Xiaobai before, I didn’t let him eat so much. I was afraid that he would become a ball like the big dog in front of me. What kind of owner would spoil and indulge this dog so much? It's unbelievable to eat, and I don't even look at it being fed into a pig!

"Xiaobai, get up."

Xie Yan's voice was cold and weak, and it sounded from directly above me. Only then did the big dog on my body shake its ears, get up from me reluctantly, and whimpered with great aggrievedness.

I was free, and I got up from the ground in a panic, I didn't even care about the mess on my body, and I didn't care how Xie Yan looked at me, I just opened my mouth and asked, "You, you said his name is Xiaobai?"

"Ah."

Xie Yan just responded to me lightly, then turned around and walked towards the gazebo. Xiaobai looked back at me and reluctantly followed behind Xie Yan, his tail drooped limply, not wagging as vigorously as before. Liu Liu's eyes were full of disappointment.

Xiaobai, Xiaobai, is this really my Xiaobai?I hastily followed.

Xie Yan sat down leisurely in the gazebo, and the big dog circled around him, and from time to time it went to rub Xie Yan's slender fingers, and there was a sobbing and crying sound from his mouth.

Is this really my Xiaobai?

I really wanted to ask, but I was worried that I would expose myself, and I didn't even know how to let go of my hands and feet.

Xie Yan opened his mouth first, but he didn't say it to me. He just lowered his head and stroked the fluff on the big dog's head with his cold fingers. His indifferent face finally showed a trace of imperceptible loneliness. Saying it to Xiaobai, or telling it to myself, that sentence was said very lightly, but it was still captured by me.

Xie Yan said, "He is not."