Alive

"Brother TOP, I have your call." Zhixian gestured to TOP holding TOP's mobile phone through the glass wall, and TOP, who was recording a radio program, nodded slightly to show that he knew.

The phone vibrated persistently, but finally fell silent.

"Ah, the recording is finally finished." Shengli stretched.

"Zhixian, who called just now?" TOP asked after taking the coffee from Zhixian.

Zhixian didn't answer, and handed the phone to TOP.Some people's names are not suitable to be spoken out in public.

"Brother TOP, go back and call again."

Cui Shengxian flipped through the missed call records, paused, and said, "Okay."

It was very quiet along the way, and everyone seemed a little tired, leaning silently on the seats of the nanny car.Zhilong fell asleep with his head on Jixian's lap, he was so tired.Zhixian gently pressed his brother's temple to relieve his brother's pressure, but he was thinking about the call he just saw.

Brother TOP's girlfriend is probably Cha Gang's.ha, so sweet...

Back in the dormitory, Zhilong went to take a shower first, he was a bit of a clean freak and couldn't bear the strange smell on his body.Shengli hid in the room and didn't know who to call, Dacheng went back to the room to surf the Internet, and Sun lay on the sofa in a relaxed state as usual.

TOP went to the balcony to answer the phone.The night wind was strong, and the white curtains made of gauze fluttered, covering TOP's figure faintly together with the night.

"..." My song rang on the other end of the phone, it was "Lie", a new song just released. TOP smiled softly, happy for his girlfriend's silent attention. .

"Yabusai?" A sleepy female voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Are you asleep?" TOP's voice was intermittent in the night wind.

The voice on the other end of the phone paused, "...um. Just finished the announcement?"

"Sorry, I couldn't answer your call during the recording. What's the matter?" Choi Seung-hyun, who is busy with work and can't always be with his girlfriend like ordinary couples, sometimes feels a little guilty, although she always smiles and says it's okay.

"...Shengxian, we haven't seen each other for a long time." The other end of the phone seemed to be organizing his words carefully, "Do you have time tomorrow? I want... to meet you, and I have something very important to tell you."

Cui Shengxian tried hard to recall the itinerary for tomorrow that Zhixian said.Seunghyun's silence was heard over the phone, "Ah, if, if you don't have time, next time."

"It's okay, I don't have a schedule tomorrow morning, where can we meet?" Cui Shengxian decided to meet tomorrow.

"Then, at 10 o'clock, let's go to the old place. Okay?" The other party seemed to be relieved that the meeting had been decided.

"Okay. Then, good night." Cui Shengxian hung up the phone after waiting for the other party to hang up. This was the little tenderness he could give.Feeling guilty about not being able to see each other often, Cui Shengxian, who is actually very gentle in his heart, always feels that at least he can't let his girlfriend face the busy message of hanging up the phone alone.The regular and lonely busy tone always makes people feel lonely.

Standing silently on the balcony and blowing the wind for a while, Cui Shengxian returned to the room and prepared to pack up and go to sleep.

"Brother TOP, bring an umbrella. It looks like it's going to rain." The sky was very gloomy, with flaky dark clouds and dark clouds, and it felt like heavy rain was about to pour down.

"Well, I'm leaving." Taking the umbrella from Zhixian, Cui Shengxian was going to go out to date his girlfriend whom he hadn't seen for a long time.

Walking to the cafe where we often met in the past, pushing open the door, the crisp sound of wind chimes rang.This is a cafe opened by a friend, and the security is high.As soon as he entered the door, Cui Shengxian saw her sitting in the corner.

Stepping forward quickly: "Have you been waiting for a long time?"

"Ah, no..." Her face was a little pale, and the girl forced a smile.

"There is a new movie released recently, let's go see it together."

"...No, actually I have something to tell you." As if she had made up her mind, without looking into Shengxian's eyes, the girl lowered her head slightly, stroking the white porcelain coffee cup with both hands.There was no sound, only the coffee in the girl's hand was steaming white alone.

"let's break up."

silence... silence...

Cui Shengxian was a little breathless, as if the dark clouds outside the window were pressing on his heart.Slowing down, he asked softly, "Why?"

The girl looked sad, "Shengxian, you are only 21 years old, but what about me? I am five years older than you, and I am already 26 years old. I can't wait anymore, do you understand?"

Cui Shengxian lowered his head, unable to see his expression clearly.

"Huh..." the girl sighed, "I've listened to your new song, it's very good. In the future, you will have more new songs, and you will be more popular, and I am not someone who can stand shoulder to shoulder with you .”

"I don't care that you are intimate with various women on the screen, because I know it's fake. I don't care that we can't meet often, as long as I know you still have me in your heart."

"But, I can't wait."

"Feel sorry."

The girl grabbed her bag and rushed out.Cui Shengxian, who bowed his head and remained silent, and the coffee that was gradually cooling down were left behind.One person, and two cups of coffee.

"Wow..." The rain outside the window finally started to fall.The air is filled with the smell of dampness, and the whole world seems to have only the sound of heavy rain hitting the ground.It was disconcertingly noisy.

The girl walked absent-mindedly in the rain.

Seung-hyun, I'm sorry.I just don't want to be a drag on you.

Since I could choose to be with you back then, it means I can ignore the age gap.I don't care about watching movies alone, drinking coffee alone, just like being in love alone.As long as I can always receive your concern and hear your voice.However, your world is no longer the one I entered at the beginning.

Now you are gradually moving towards your dreams.I just don't want to be an obstacle on your way forward.Just like a kite, no matter how high it flies, there will always be concerns on land.That being the case, let me take the initiative to cut the thread holding you short.Seunghyun, I hope you can, freely, chase your dreams.

Remember, you must be happy.

☆、15 Promised happiness?

The author has something to say:

I'm sorry, I'm not in a good mood recently, and the words I write are somewhat mixed with my emotions.

I coded this chapter the day before yesterday, but I was in such a bad mood that even I couldn’t accept what I wrote. It was too sad, so I decided to revise it and post it again.I don't know why the backend couldn't be opened yesterday, so I had to post it today.

There will be another update later.Today is also a double update.Ask for praise!

I have no choice but to quote the lyrics, and the lyrics are too suitable, so I can't help it... Everyone understands.Sure enough, these sentences that mean breaking up must be written and sung well by those who have experienced it.As I write, I can't help feeling distressed.

I don’t know why today, I have a rare insomnia, so I got up to type and update the text.uncomfortable.

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"Click." TOP lowered his head and opened the door to enter.

"Brother, what's the matter with you?" Dacheng, who was sitting on the sofa, looked at the soaked TOP in surprise, "Didn't Zhixian prepare an umbrella for you?"

"...Ah, the umbrella fell in the coffee shop." Cui Shengxian, who was still bowing his head, obviously didn't want to talk, "I'm going to take a shower, call me when the announcement to leave is made."

"...Oh, okay." Dacheng replied in a daze, not understanding why it was only an hour, and his brother seemed to be a different person.

The dampness that has nothing to do with the appearance and the water dripping from the shirt is a feeling of exhaustion and powerlessness from the inside out.

Dong Yongpei, who came out of the room, was stunned when he saw the drenched TOP. TOP didn't talk to him, but went straight back to the room to take a shower in silence.

"What's wrong, brother?" Feeling very confused.

"I don't know." Dacheng continued to flip through the magazine in his hand, "Didn't you go on a date with your girlfriend happily in the morning?"

Suddenly, Dacheng raised his head and stared at Yongpei, and the two said in unison: "It can't be...broken love?".

"This is terrible, do you want to tell Brother Zhilong?" Dacheng asked.

"Yes, Zhilong is the captain. I'm afraid TOP brother will be depressed. He needs to be persuaded. Let Zhixian talk to Zhilong?" Sun paced in the living room, "Zhixian should know, brother's phone call yesterday It was Zhixian who told me."

"What can I say?" Zhixian who came out of the kitchen was a little puzzled.

"Did that sister call brother TOP yesterday?" Dacheng asked.

"Well, what's the matter, Brother TOP went out to meet her in the morning, don't you all know?" Zhixian said, "Why are you making such a fuss?"

"The point is not that Brother Seunghyun received her call yesterday, nor is it that he went out on a date today. The point is that he came back within an hour after going there, and not only left the umbrella you prepared for him in the cafe Get yourself drenched and look down and out of your mind. So we suspect...".

"He's broken in love." Men and women chorused in unison.

"Zhixian, go and talk to Long. I'm worried that my brother will be in a bad mood. "Lie" has just started to hit the charts. At this time..." Dong Yongpei looked a little nervous.Seeing TOP's uncomfortable face, even Dong Yong Pei, who has never been in love, knows that his heart is really painful.

"Well, good." Zhixian nodded obediently, "But I think it's better not to tell the manager brother. Although it's not good not to tell him, but let us solve it ourselves. In case the boss finds out... It’s not good to have a red light on.”

It is a unique rule of YG. If an artist does something bad, he will be given a red light, and if he reaches three red lights, he will be suspended from activities, and even disappeared from the entertainment industry.This is considered a very serious punishment, and the artists of YG also know the importance, so they work harder to regulate their words and deeds and manage themselves well.

Zhixian's house next door has actually been renovated, but everyone, well, five people who are used to Zhixian's personal care, feel that it is troublesome to move there again.Furthermore, the room is relatively large, and everyone will occasionally go home to live there, so they all strongly oppose Zhixian moving out, even though it is the next door only separated by one wall.

After Zhixian decided to live here, the house over there was filled with other items brought by everyone. Quan Zhilong even exaggeratedly occupied a room as his temporary studio, and occasionally he would go with the members I recorded some demos and so on, and I also created there when I got inspired.

Zhixian knocked on the door of the studio: "Brother, are you in?".

Zhilong was very surprised when he heard his younger sister's voice open the door: "Why are you here at this time?" When he was alone here to create, Zhixian seldom appeared, afraid of disturbing himself.

Zhixian had a serious expression on his face, "Well, I have something very important to tell you."

Zhilong signaled his sister to sit on the sofa, poured a glass of water and put it on the coffee table, "What is so serious?"

"Brother TOP came back just now."

"Didn't he go out on a date with that sister? He came back so soon?" Although Zhilong was a little puzzled, he didn't think there was a big problem.

Although the members and Ji Hyun knew that TOP had a girlfriend, they never asked his girlfriend's name, and just used "that sister" instead, because they were afraid that there would be problems if they accidentally said something wrong. tacit agreement.Everyone knows that sister is five years older than TOP and has been together for a long time.

At the beginning, everyone was surprised. After all, five years is not a small gap, and girls are bigger.What reason can make a girl summon up the courage to choose a boy five years younger than herself as her boyfriend in her most beautiful years?Everyone was surprised.Although Quan Zhilong also prefers women who are older than himself as his girlfriend, he never thought of a situation where his girlfriend is five years older than him.

After the initial surprise, Zhixian gradually felt that he could understand the elder sister's thoughts.In Zhixian's opinion, TOP brother is a very talented person, you can tell from the rap lyrics he wrote.Although his personality is a bit sensitive, unexpectedly he is a gentle person who does not match his cold appearance. He will never express his concern but will silently pay attention to some small details.His warmth is not as hot as the raging flames in the fireplace, but like the sun, far away, but the warmth it gives is just right after passing through the long distance.Such a boy, or a man, Zhixian thought, perhaps no woman would refuse, right?Even if there is a long distance between the two, it is worth chasing desperately.

"The truth is, not only did he come back in an hour, but he left the umbrella I gave him at the cafe and came back wet. What's more, TOP hyung's mood is very wrong. So we thought maybe," Ji-hyun cautiously She carefully chose her words, "Perhaps something happened between him and that sister."

"Brother Yongpei feels that now is an important period for ranking, and because TOP's condition is really not good, everyone is worried that something will happen, so I decided to ask you to talk to TOP and enlighten him." Zhixian said slowly Explain the matter clearly to my brother, "Don't tell the boss and manager brother." Even if the five members of Bigbang are children who are valued and close to President Yang, their positions may be different, and the means and results of dealing with the problem may be different.Everyone does not want to cause any bad consequences because of this incident.

"Well, I see." Zhilong's expression was also a little serious.As the captain, he really understands the seriousness of this matter.

Zhixian sighed softly and left the room where his brother was working.I hope Brother TOP can recover as soon as possible, although the emotional injury or something is a troublesome problem that will leave a lifetime of scars.

After taking a shower, Choi Seung Hyun changed into dry clothes, but it was still raining in his heart.The heart seemed to have been severely gouged out, not only bleeding, but also a dull pain that could not be relieved.

The decision to break up came too suddenly, and Cui Shengxian, who was still a teenager, was a little at a loss, but resisted this reality reflexively, and his heart was empty.Like an empty room, only the cold wind from the North Pole whizzes through it, so cold that people don't know the pain anymore.

The relationship of several years fell apart.Confusion is probably what Cui Shengxian is feeling at the moment.

He muttered his girlfriend's name in his mouth, heh, we agreed to be together and not to be separated, why did we leave ourselves alone?Is it because you are not good enough?Is there no way to give you the happiness you want?So what do you want to be happy?

I kept recalling the past of the two of them in my heart, but there was only the scene of being extremely happy. Compared with the reality, it was more like a merciless mockery given by fate.

Sitting by the window alone, raised the neck that was already a little stiff, and smiled self-deprecatingly, since it can't give you happiness, then let it go.

Even if we can't be together, I still hope you are happy.I love you.But your happiness seems to have nothing to do with me.

"The song I used to sing for you

Contains all my feelings for you

Maybe other people won't know

no one knows but me

yeah everything i said was a lie

I am alone

With that decadent look

Holding tightly in my pocket the note that means parting (hey)

where are you

Calling your name has become my habit

i want to change

laugh it all off now

i'msosorrybutiloveyou are all lies

I didn't understand it, now I understand that I need you

i'm so sorry but i love you

I lost you unknowingly when I said hurtful words

i'msosorrybutiloveyou are all lies

i'm so sorry, buti love you

i'msosorrybutiloveyou leave me you

please allow me to slowly forget you let me feel the pain

ohohohohoh hope it's all a dream

ohohohohoh that's all i want

I still can't forget you

I can't forget it in my life, I can't forget it even in my death

Is the sore I brought on you healed?

I'm sorry I can't do anything for you

i'msosorrybutiloveyou are all lies

I didn't understand it, now I understand that I need you

i'm so sorry but i love you

I lost you unknowingly when I said hurtful words..."

On the stage, the lights were so dazzling that people felt like crying. They raised their heads and pretended that the tears that could not help but fell were because they were moved.In the audience, there was a lot of loud cheers.

"One of this week, Bigbang, "Lies"!"

Heh, probably this is Choi Seung Hyun, not TOP, the hardest rap ever sung, the saddest "Lie"

I hope it's all a dream, that's all I want.

☆, 16 goodbye