Alive

Kwon Ji Hyun had no idea when TOP put the gift beside her bed, walked out of the room full of complicated feelings, only to find that the dormitory was empty.

"Ah, I forgot!" Zhixian slapped his forehead angrily: "Brothers still have a radio announcement in the morning! Ah, really, I really forgot my responsibilities recently!"

Seeing a note on the table, Jihyun went up to pick it up and read it: "TO Jihyun: We are going to post an announcement, please stay at home and wait for your brothers to come back. Merry Christmas! PS Do you like the Christmas gift? ( ☆_☆)"

"Really..." Zhixian was a little amused: "It looks like TOP brother's style!" Putting down the note, seeing TOP's funny message, the boredom in his heart dissipated a lot.Whatever his emotional problems, today is Christmas!He patted his cheeks, went back to his room, changed his clothes, and went out.

Winter in Seoul is always very cold, but it is rare to see a sunny day on Christmas Day.The sky has long since lost the gloom of Christmas Eve, and the blue sky makes people feel inexplicably lighter.Zhixian walked slowly, and the warm sun shone on his body, making him feel comfortable and beautiful.

At noon, Bigbang also finished recording the announcement on the radio station. The manager turned around and asked, "Shall we go directly to the dormitory now?" The nanny's car had already driven to a place not far from the dormitory.

The members nodded in agreement, TOP suddenly said, "No, stop at the next intersection."

"Brother, what's the matter? Do you want to go home?" Da Cheng asked puzzled.According to TOP's habit of going home from time to time, he probably wants to spend Christmas with his family.Dacheng secretly nodded in his heart and praised his guess for being reliable.

"Not going home. I just suddenly wanted to go to church. Isn't it Christmas today?" TOP replied with a smile.For some reason, there was a strong premonition in his heart telling him to go to the church he often went to.

"Oh, bro, come back early, let's have a party to celebrate tonight." Probably something happened between Lin Xiyuan and Lin Xiyuan last night, and today Shengli's smile is extraordinarily sunny.

"Well, I'll come back after walking around." Nodding, TOP got out of the car and walked slowly towards the church.

The gospel prayers and choir activities on Christmas morning have long since ended, and the church has returned to its former tranquility and serenity.At one o'clock in the afternoon, the bell in the bell tower was struck, and there was a long and heavy bell.Standing in the vestibule of the church, listening to the bells ringing again and again, my mood calmed down bit by bit.

In the distance, there was a sound of pigeons or birds flapping their wings and flying to the sky, which awakened Cui Shengxian, who was intoxicated by the sound of the bell.Quietly evoked a smile, and slowly stepped up the winding stairs of the clock tower.

The sound of the bell spread far and far along the warm afternoon breeze, and finally gradually disappeared into the blue distance.

The girl propped her hands on the railing of the bell tower, looking up at the blue sky that was so pure that it seemed to suck people in, her eyes were far away.The slightly long hair swayed gently in the breeze, and the golden sunlight slanted on the girl's face, as if the angel was about to put on its wings and leave.

When Cui Shengxian came under the curved dome of the clock tower, he saw such a beautiful picture.A fateful encounter?Presumably we were meant to be together.

Looking at Zhixian's fair neck, Cui Shengxian frowned slightly, took off his scarf, stepped forward and tied the scarf around Zhixian's empty neck: "Isn't it cold?"

Ji Hyun was taken aback by the sudden warmth, looked back and saw TOP standing behind him and heaved a sigh of relief: "It's Brother TOP, you scared me."

Cui Shengxian looked at Zhixian with some reproach: "I don't even wear a scarf, what should I do if I'm sick?"

"But, what will you do if you give me the scarf?" Zhixian turned around, leaned his back on the railing, looked up at Cui Shengxian, and asked with a mischievous smile.

"The important thing is you." Cui Shengxian looked into Zhixian's eyes seriously, and Zhixian looked away in a panic.

Zhixian didn't know how to deal with such a straightforward "confession", and remained silent.The atmosphere was awkwardly quiet, only the bell rang by Zhixian was still shaking slightly.

Choi Seung Hyun supported Ji Hyun's shoulders with both hands, "Hey, Ji Hyun, look into my eyes."

Quan Zhixian raised his eyes, as if he was sucked in by the deep eyes, fixedly looking at the eyes she had praised so much, "Quan Zhixian, listen up."

"I, Cui Shengxian, like you. Whether you like me or not, whether you have someone you like or not, no matter what kind of memories you have with him, from today onwards, I will use my love to cover all those memories .”

After a long time, Quan Zhixian said with a choked voice, "Why? Why do you like me?"

"Obviously, I'm not the prettiest, there are many girls who are prettier than me. I'm also not gentle, I will argue with my brothers and lose my temper, and I won't follow everyone's wishes. I can't even wear high heels, and I can't wear beautiful clothes The skirt stood beside the man like a princess. I don’t know how to cook, and I can’t make delicious dishes to tie a man’s stomach, let alone his heart. I…”

Before Zhixian finished speaking, Cui Shengxian gently covered Zhixian's mouth: "But you are Quan Zhixian."

"You are not the most beautiful, but I like your appearance, the way you tidy up the room, the way you drink tea quietly... I like everything. You are not gentle, but the noisy life is the real life, isn't it? You don’t know how to wear high heels, it’s okay, I can hold you and carry you, whatever you want. You don’t know how to cook the most delicious food in the world, it’s okay, I can learn how to do it for you. You can be tied without cooking My heart." Every sentence contains Cui Shengxian's love and sincerity.

"But, it's not fair to you! Even though I rejected Vincent, I know that I still have feelings for him. Brother TOP, you can like me with all your heart, but now, I can't..." Quan Zhi Xian stubbornly held back the tears that were about to fall.

Not daring to look into TOP's eyes anymore, Ji Hyun turned around and stretched out his hand to draw the shape of a cloud that happened to pass by in the sky: "Hey, Brother TOP, look at this cloud, there is no concern, so it can fly so fast High, so far." How can I be your concern, let you stay on the ground?

"You said that you are a person who is afraid of restraint. When you feel not free, you want to run away, to a place where no one knows you and feels safe. Me too."

"There is an undisguised rebellion in your bones, and you long to breathe freely. So do I."

"How can these two people who are so similar and also willing to exchange their lives for freedom be together and go on forever?" In a place Cui Shengxian couldn't see, tears finally couldn't help falling down.

Cui Shengxian stood behind Zhixian, he wanted to put his arms around this distressed girl and tell her that it was okay.However, he has not yet obtained the qualification to hug her, so he can only look at her from a distance, suffering from pain.

Reach out and wipe away the tears: "Brother Shengxian, Vincent and I have experienced the most beautiful love and the most painful parting. No one stops us from being together. He accompanied me all over Europe and the streets and alleys I wanted to go to. .In those two years, I shared memories with him almost every day. We were so happy.”

The voice of nostalgia carried indescribable pain, "But, I still said the breakup. Why? Obviously, we can still pretend to be ignorant and walk hand in hand together."

"Sometimes, I really hate my character that I see too clearly, and I can't bear the life of pretending to be happy at all."

"Vincent is a person who uses a paintbrush to sway his life. He is very good, and everything meets my standards. But, like him, I am a person with a free and unrestrained soul. When he starts to hesitate, he starts to be in love and the freedom of the soul. When swinging, as a lover, why do I not know, can’t see? His paintings began to appear confused, chaotic; my album began to appear blank, at a loss. How could I let love ruin the dreams of two people, lost The direction of the two of them?"

"Leaving is not without pain or without regret. However, we have no choice but to sacrifice love, the best time. Memories, at first, can only be memories."

This is the first time Cui Shengxian heard the story of Zhixian and Vincent, he listened quietly.Under the dome of the bell tower, only the breeze that was beginning to cool was blowing, dissipating the tears that fell in the air.

"The same pursuit of freedom, how can I let you fall into the same pain again?! No, no!" Zhixian roared a little crazy, "It is never possible for people who also desire to fly and travel far away. Together, it will never be possible!!"

As if all the strength in his body had been exhausted, Zhixian slowly slid down with his back against the railing, and finally buried his head in his knees weakly, sobbing softly: "Brother Shengxian, it's not possible, it's really not possible... "

Cui Shengxian knelt in front of Zhixian, hugged the crying girl in his arms, patted Zhixian's back lightly, and comforted her who was out of control: "Jixian, we pursue freedom because we haven't found a place to stop. I didn’t find a suitable safe haven, so I could only stubbornly face the wind and rain. But now you are the reason for me to stay.”

"Vincent is good, but it's a pity that artists need to keep moving forward, so you can only drift away. But I can follow your footsteps and hold your hand. Because of you, I have found my way. We can move forward together , to pursue the freedom we desire together, freedom does not mean loneliness, does it?"

"Perhaps my arms are not strong enough and my arms are not wide enough to create a completely warm home for you. Then, when I grow up and become more mature and can cover you from all wind and rain, I will hold you Your hand, can you?"

"Give me a chance, give yourself a chance, let's pursue the freedom we want together, okay?"

The golden sun began to turn into a warm orange, and Cui Shengxian carried the girl who was tired of crying and fell asleep, step by step, steadily walking towards home.When he was about to walk out of the church, Cui Shengxian looked back at the girl with teardrops on her eyelashes, the corner of his eyes saw the more reassuring cross in the afterglow of the setting sun, gently lifted the girl up, and walked out of the church without looking back .

The bell tower rang again, one sound, another sound...

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