Manhattanhenge

Ning Yixiao's breathing was almost stagnant.

Su Hui's cheeks were soft and hot, rubbing against his healed wound, leaving restless waves in his heart.

"You're so cold." Su Hui's face slid down, and her warm breath was embedded in the crest of his neck, and then she whispered his name over and over again.

"Ning Yixiao, Ning Yixiao..."

It was as if a spell was destroying Ning Yixiao's hard-working defense system step by step.

At the moment when he was about to sink, he woke up.

"You're drunk." Ning Yixiao held Su Hui's forearm, and the remaining willpower brought him back to his senses.He didn't want Su Hui to wake up tomorrow and regret it.

"That's right." Su Hui's body was limp, like a glowing water snake, "I'm so dizzy."

Ning Yixiao put down the wine bottle, picked him up, and took a lot of effort to get him onto the bed.

Su Hui lay on her back in the soft, white bed, with her eyes closed, like a ripe peach exuding the heat of summer.Ning Yixiao adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner, pulled back his half-lifted clothes, covered him with a quilt, and finally sat on the floor next to Su Hui's bed, watching his face quietly.

Su Hui doesn't drink very well, but her wine tastes pretty good, and she's very good.

Just when Ning Yixiao thought he would fall asleep in a second, Su Hui opened his eyes.His eyes seemed to have been painted with a layer of sugar water, bright, and the corners of the eyes were red.

"Ning Yixiao." His voice was sticky.

"Huh?" Ning Yixiao looked at him with an indistinct expression, "Want to drink water?"

Su Hui shook her head, "No, I haven't taken a shower yet."

"Go to bed first." Ning Yixiao told him, "Don't take a bath when you're drunk, it's dangerous."

Su Hui hummed, nodded, and said, "Listen to you."

"Listen to me for everything?" Ning Yixiao said suddenly.

Su Hui nodded, turned sideways and closed her eyes, "Yes."

Ning Yixiao found it interesting, so he began to issue instructions, "Stretch your hand over here."

Su Hui stretched out a hand obediently, resting her forearm on the edge of the bed.

Ning Yixiao also stretched out his hand and shook it, like playing with a kitten's paw.

"Take it back."

"Yes." Su Hui obeyed.This caused Ning Yixiao to have some strange feelings, like sweetness, but not limited to this.

"Su Hui, open your eyes."

Hearing this sentence, Su Hui obediently opened her closed eyes, and met her eyes in a daze.

"Look at me." Ning Yixiao showed no expression, and even had a cold desire to control.

Su Hui listened to his words and looked at him.There was a distance between them, looking at each other at the same level.

"open mouth."

This request was a bit unreasonable, but Su Hui was drunk, and he didn't have the thinking ability of a normal person at all, and could only process instructions.

So he parted his lips.

Su Hui often shows coldness and alienation, which comes from his straight and thin bridge of nose and thin bones, while his eyes and lips are always moist and full of emotion.At this moment, her pale face turned rose-colored, as if something urgently needed to be released, it would burst if poked, and would flow down and flow everywhere.

Through the air, without any physical contact, Ning Yixiao's desire can be stretched.

"Stick out your tongue."

Su Hui did as he did, but only once, and quickly took it back.

"No tongue stud." Ning Yixiao's tone was quite calm, and the question was like a statement.

"It's too late." Su Hui spoke slowly, eyes closed unconsciously, and her voice was soft, "I put the suitcase..."

Ning Yixiao realized that she was not normal.

He is used to treating his desires in a suppressed way, but after meeting Su Hui, this habit was broken again and again.

Su Hui often showed him a gesture of "enjoy me", awakening his desire to control deep in his heart.

But his rationality still withdrew the improper venting.

"Don't drink in front of other people."

After saying this, Ning Yixiao got up and covered him with a quilt, then went back to the bathroom, washed his face and hands with cold water, and quenched the desire to continue to swell.The hair that hasn't been blown is already half dry, and the sweet smell of Su Hui's body remains.

They lay side by side in a foreign hotel, the night here was very bright, and the light covered Su Hui's body like a tulle.Ning could not sleep overnight.

He thought of the brutal sexual voices coming through the non-soundproof walls when he was a child, swearing, slapping, all made him want to throw up.He thought of his mother's sobbing, for his biological father who never appeared, for a love, she seemed to sacrifice everything, and all she got was endless pain.For the lover in her mouth, she eloped, broke up with her family, and came to his hometown full of fishy smell, bringing a child who would drag her down for the rest of her life, and depended on each other, waiting for him to come back.

I heard that he went to Japan, or some other country, and married someone else.Ning Yixiao still remembered the way her mother collapsed to the ground when she heard the news. She was beautiful when she was crying, but beauty was useless.

Why do some people want nothing for love, why do some people only love one person in their life?

Ning Yixiao didn't understand at that time, but she vowed not to be such a person.

So when he found himself sinking, he felt the fear of being choked by fate.

"Ning Yixiao."

In the dark blue room in the early morning, Su Hui's voice was like a soft light.He turned his back to Ning Yixiao, pulling him back to reality.

"Ok?"

Su Hui's voice was still not fully awake, vague and soft, "Ning Yixiao, I'm sick."

Ning Yixiao froze for a moment, got up without hesitation, and reached out to touch his forehead, but luckily, it wasn't hot.

"Where does it hurt?"

Su Hui smiled, grabbed his hand, didn't answer his question, but said drunkenly, "Don't be afraid of me."

Ning Yixiao suddenly thought of the night he disappeared at the party, stroking the stray dog's forehead and whispering, don't be afraid of me, I'm not bad.

He still didn't understand why Su Hui said that.

No one is afraid of good things.

"No." Ning Yixiao comforted her with words, "You are very nice and cute."

"Am I..." Su Hui's voice was ambiguous, and she turned around with her back to him.

"Yeah." Ning Yixiao took his hand away, put it under the quilt, and said in a voice so soft that only he could hear it, "You are the cutest person."

Then will you love me?

Su Hui opened his eyes and asked in his heart.The drunkenness had completely disappeared, but he didn't show it at all, and he acted peacefully.

The night was silent, and when the sky turned white, Ning Yixiao woke up.Su Hui was half asleep, half awake, feeling the door opening and closing, Ning Yixiao seemed to have gone out, but he didn't have the energy to get up.

After a while, he felt his hand being pulled up, and then there was a beep, and he woke up.Ning Yixiao leaned over and stood beside the bed, taking his temperature.

He really thought he had a cold or something.

Su Hui opened his eyes and asked him how much it was.

"36.7, normal body temperature." Ning Yixiao's tone seemed relieved, "I thought you were sick."

He found that Su Hui's lips were very dry, so he poured a glass of water, "Drink some."

Su Hui took the cup, drank all the water, then got up and went to the bathroom to take a quick shower, put on new clothes, as if nothing happened last night, he didn't put Ning Yixiao's face to feel the temperature difference , and did not pretend to be drunk after waking up, and almost confessed his illness to him.

They took the bus to the address of the seminar, a very beautiful university.The car passed through a tunnel on the way. According to the driver, it was an undersea tunnel. For the first time, Su Hui didn't want to think about the sea, but wanted to hold Ning Yixiao's hand in the dark.

But the tunnel was too short, and his idea was destroyed by the light before it was realized.After getting off the bus, they walked across the entire crowd in a strange school, came to a strange teaching building, and a strange and spacious stepped meeting room, waiting for the seminar to start.

Seats are also divided according to department, and Su Hui sits at the edge of the finance department.Ning Yixiao was the third student to present on stage in the morning. The first two were students of this American university. Compared with them, Ning Yixiao had a natural indifference and composure, and his spoken English was much better than Su Unexpectedly, it is not inferior to those native speakers, and can even use more concise expressions to make reports, and even a computer layman like myself can understand a lot.

He is wearing a white shirt that is more approachable than yesterday, but he still seems to have a subtle sense of control, especially some details, such as when he talked about a formula for deep learning, he took a whiteboard marker and unbuttoned the sleeves of his shirt casually. Button, write and talk smoothly on the whiteboard without stopping.

After finishing a report, Ning Yixiao's solid mathematics skills were fully demonstrated, and he answered questions from the teachers and students fluently.He is not like the American students who love to intersperse jokes in the speech, which won the audience laugh, but he is very confident. When he finally showed the running results on the presentation, he also said very comfortably, "Of course, give me more time, this The result will be more than human labor.”

A 40-year-old blond professor in the audience was very interested in his research and joked that he would invite him to his laboratory, "I welcome you anytime."

"Thank you very much." Ning Yixiao smiled and gave an ambiguous response, "I will always remember this wonderful invitation."

When faced with things he doesn't want to do, he is the most ambiguous, and Su Hui knows this very well.Another person might immediately say "it is my greatest honor to be able to enter the professor's laboratory", but Ning Yixiao didn't want to go, or in other words, his goal was much higher than that, so he ambiguously refused.

Ning Yixiao is clear-headed and has clear goals, she doesn't seem to stay for anyone or anything that is not in the plan.

The last person to report from the computer department was Feng Cheng, the son of Su Hui's driver.He stared at Feng Cheng's face, feeling that he didn't look like his father, he looked very shy, and his spoken language was not very fluent, but the content of the report was very good and substantial.

During the tea break, Ning Yixiao, who performed well, was stopped by several professors. He also started effective social networking in a timely manner, and got some contact information and promises from professors who were very helpful to him in the future.Su Hui didn't bother, she walked to the side, picked up a sliced ​​cake, and ate it quietly.

He found someone looking at him, sensitively followed his gaze, and found it was Feng Cheng.

So Su Hui walked towards him, Feng Cheng's eyes were a little flustered, and he seemed to want to run away.

"You are Uncle Feng's son." Su Hui said in a gentle and soft voice.

Only then did Feng Cheng stop, nodded, and did not speak.

Su Hui smiled, "You're so nervous." Although he was not good at socializing, he felt that the boy in front of him was the child of an acquaintance, and when he thought of Feng Zhiguo's refusal to accompany his son before he left, he couldn't help feeling pity in his heart, so he took the initiative Say to him, "I've heard your daddy talk about you and he's so proud."

Feng Cheng looked at him, "Really?"

Su Hui nodded, "Are you younger than me?" He raised his eyebrows, "First grade?"

Feng Cheng nodded. He always looked at Su Hui with his head half-lowered, instead of looking directly at him, but cowardly with the upper part of his pupils. Once they met, they lowered their eyelids, like a snail.

"really."

"Your report was well done." Su Hui encouraged him with a smile, "Don't be so nervous, eat this cake, it's delicious."

He handed Feng Cheng a piece of cake, smiled and told him what Feng Zhiguo had said to him on his first day at work, such as the origin of Feng Cheng's name, but he didn't realize that Ning Yixiao's gaze was always on him.

He is like a leopard keenly locking its prey.

Not long after, Ning Yixiao, who was surrounded by the crowd, came over and stood between the two of them, a cloud fell over his tall figure.

"Such a fun chat."

Su Hui would be frightened by him every time, but this time it was not bad.It's just that he didn't know whether his sentence was a question or a statement, so looking at him, it was strange that he read some sullenness from the smile on Ning Yixiao's face.

"This is Feng Cheng." Su Hui kindly did not introduce the relationship between his father and himself, but said, "Your junior."

Ning Yixiao thought this boy looked familiar, but couldn't remember it for a while.He smiled, "Hello, junior, your report is very interesting."

Feng Cheng seemed to have something stuck in his throat, and it took him a long time to shout out "Hello Senior".

Su Hui smiled and said, "Look, I'm not wrong, your relatives and seniors think you've done a good job."

Seeing Feng Cheng like this, Ning Yixiao didn't intend to embarrass him, so he made a random excuse and took Su Hui away.

The afternoon report was only scheduled for the Department of Finance, and Su Hui didn't come on stage until the end.He does not have the slightest feeling of being trained by an elite, and is very casual. When speaking in a non-native language, the soft and light feeling in his tone is even stronger, and he also uses proper nouns as if he is reciting poetry.

"You don't seem to be learning this." The professor in the audience was quite straightforward, and then smiled after speaking, and the other students also laughed.

Su Hui on the stage showed a little shyness, "You see me through."

After completing the task, he walked down very easily.There was another student reporting from behind. Su Hui, who was sitting in the corner, picked up her schoolbag and walked out quietly.Standing in the aisle outside, he edited the news for Ning Yixiao.

[Kitten: I want to go first. ]

Soon he received the message.

[Ning Yixiao: Didn’t you say that we want to stay and eat in the school cafeteria together? ]

[Kitten: I won’t stay anymore, I don’t like the food here. ]

[Kitten: Do you want to walk with me? ]

After sending this message, he stood in the aisle and waited for a while. Before the phone vibrated, the side door of the meeting room opened.

Ning Yixiao came out sideways, closed the door, and said "Let's go".

Su Hui felt happy, he pursed his lips and smiled.It was hot outside, with the hot, humid summer air surrounding them.Leaving the campus full of young people, Su Hui led Ning Yixiao to the crowded subway according to the navigation instructions. Surrounded by unfamiliar languages, she felt a strange sense of security.

Nobody here knows them, which means anything can be done.

They can ignore other people's stares, say nonsense in a language that no one understands, or pull their arms and clothes, pretending not to care, and making small gestures that are more intimate than before, and no one will jump out and accuse them.

The only pity is that Su Hui overestimated his ability to judge the direction, got off the wrong station and took the wrong way, and it was already evening when he came out.

Chaos and freedom are the hallmarks of New York. The two of them seemed to be the only ones walking in the opposite direction among the bustling crowd. Looking at the map on the phone, Su Hui realized that he had indeed made a mistake.

"What should I do, I can't seem to find my way." He smiled at Ning Yixiao like a child.

Ning Yixiao had no choice but to laugh along with him, the two of them didn't know who was laughing at the other.

"let me see."

"Okay." Su Hui handed him the phone, "But this street seems very beautiful."

As they walked forward, Su Hui was afraid that Ning Yixiao, who was looking at his phone, would bump into someone else, so he presumptuously grabbed his wrist, feeling as relieved as if he was grabbing his own belongings.

"There are so many people here." He felt strange, the car was blocking the road, and so were the people, as if they were not afraid of bumping into each other.

"Wait a minute." Ning Yixiao found a blue road sign with "42nd Street" written on it. He looked in the direction where he was, and there was an overpass on the map not far in front of him.

He led Su Hui to the footbridge.

"Cross the overpass, turn right and walk another 200 meters..." Just as he was speaking, Su Hui pulled his hand.

Su Hui pointed at everyone on the road, "Look, what are they waiting for?"

Ning Yixiao looked over, everyone on the street stopped here, raised their heads or picked up their phones, waiting for something.

Some people around were discussing enthusiastically, and what they said included words about the sun.

Su Hui was more perceptive than him, as if he had discovered something, he grabbed his arm and pulled him up the overpass, walking quickly, and ran to the bridge full of people.

"Ning Yixiao," Su Hui looked not far away, and the books he had read were now intuitively presented in front of his eyes, "The sun is about to set between these two buildings, and it is the sun hanging over Manhattan."

He looked over, and the rich and pure orange hung between the dark silhouettes of buildings.Only a small part of the sun is exposed, and the place is filled with unsparing light at dusk. Every street and every gap in the checkerboard-shaped block is covered by light.

Everyone stayed and waited for this, with happy expressions on their faces.There are also photographers who set up the machine and want to take a unique second.

Tiny dust danced in the sunlight, like stardust surrounding Su Hui.The golden sunset completely enveloped every inch of his body, and the sea breeze invaded the city, stirring Su Hui's hair and clothes, as well as the corners of his mouth.

"so beautiful."

Su Hui's pupils reflected the entire sunset, and he focused on the sun passing through the center of the city, as if he wanted to engrave this moment in his mind completely.

The hanging sun sank westward at an imperceptible speed, and gradually came to the middle of the gap in the building, entering the most appropriate beauty every second.But this grand beauty will not stay for any viewer. Once it passes by, it will gradually shift and leave bit by bit.

Su Hui didn't seem to want it to leave, so he kept walking to the right on the bridge, as if chasing the sun that was about to set.

No matter how good things are, they have a deadline, and he can't bear to miss them.

Su Hui suddenly gave up chasing, turned her head, and looked into Ning Yixiao's eyes in the golden ocean.

For Ning Yixiao, it seems that this is a unique second.

Su Hui's eyes didn't evade, he looked straight at it bravely, as if there was a burning train in his eyes, or broken lights floating on the sea at dusk.

"If you are going to die in the next second, what is the most regrettable thing?"

And in his blood, something suppressed was faintly boiling.

His rationality wanted to refuse to answer, and he wanted to leave the crowd, but his hand was held back by Su Hui.

"Are you sorry?" he repeated.

A photographer not far away said that the Manhattan sun hang lasted 15 minutes and 20 seconds.

At the last second, Ning Yixiao gave up on being a sober adult.

He pulled Su Hui into his arms, bowed his head and kissed her.

Hugging, licking, lips and tongues blending, and the tip of the teeth touching.

They are the two ends of a burning silk, and they are finally defeated by the fate that must be ashes together.

When we parted, it was getting dark, and tiny drops of blood oozed from Su Hui's lips.Ning Yixiao lowered his head, leaned over again, and gently kissed away the sweet-smelling blood.

"No regrets." He whispered.