Destiny of crossing

I woke up, looked at the strange world, the strange people, trying to remember the strange me.

The elegantly dressed woman in front of me told me thoughtfully that she was my mother.

She told me that I am the current emperor, and I lost my memory because of an assassination attack on my brain.

I have no reason to doubt, especially when those richly dressed officials bow down at my feet and shout long live.

So I accepted my identity as a matter of course, and I also accepted the mother in front of me. She wanted me to call her queen mother, even though I had no memory of her, let alone feelings for her.

She instilled many memories of the past in me every day, and taught me the behavior and etiquette that the emperor should have.

She told me that I am the emperor, and all people in the world are mediocre, so no matter what I say, no matter it is right or wrong, no one will disobey it.

Those words made my blood boil.

Life without memory always feels like something is lost, so I keep listening and remembering, sometimes when I walk somewhere in the palace, I suddenly think of something, but these things, I can’t tell whether it is My own memory is still the obsession they instilled in me.

I had several strange wounds on my body, but gradually, they all disappeared without a trace, and I feel very sorry.

As a man, there must always be something masculine, such as a scar, the thing on my shoulder that looks like a tooth mark is very good, it seems to remind me of something ambiguous and evil, very special, but it was also removed up.

Since my injury has improved, the queen mother or the ministers have tried their best to send someone to me.

The beauty is indeed alluring, seductive to look at, and fragrant.

But unfortunately, seeing their smooth nudes is like seeing a shedding hen, disgusted, disgusted, and so on.

Until I met him.

It was a heart-pounding feeling, a kind of waiting that had not been seen for thousands of years.

Whether it's her dancing solo under the moon, or him running away in a panic with his clothes all wet in the pool.

I never knew that a man could dance so softly and seductively. I never knew that a man could be so elegant and refined that the world would be overshadowed by it.

Especially those clear, lively, smiling eyes can suck you in firmly, and you will never be reborn forever.

I can't help getting close to him, I don't know what to do when I like someone, because my mother didn't teach me about this.

I slandered him time and time again, and even beat him. I didn't want to do that, but when I saw how close he was to Xie Xuan, and how he didn't care about me at all, I couldn't suppress it. live manic.

Wangyue Downstairs, by the Xinghu Lake, he kissed my lips when he was unconscious. He only felt soft and sweet on his lips. There was a coax in his head and he went blank for a while, his heart beat violently, and he was at a loss for a while.

I didn't taste that kiss carefully, but I know that I like that taste, and I long for that feeling.

I used Xie Xuan to threaten him and asked him to go to the palace to play chess with me every day. In fact, playing chess is only secondary. I want to see him. I want to kiss him and hug him all the time.

That day in the imperial garden, I kissed him forcefully, and my wish came true.

His lips were soft and lubricated, unexpectedly sweet, like endless nectar, making people intoxicated.

His waist was held in my arms, slender, warm, and full, as if holding him would own the whole world.

It's just that since then, he has been hiding, and after he slapped me hard, he disappeared from the world.

I began to have trouble sleeping and eating. I was afraid. I was afraid that I had never seen him again. I sent people to look for him, but when I found him, what I saw was a picture of him kissing another man. .

At that moment, I wanted to eat him alive.

I know that good things are always missed by many people, such as Xie Xuan, such as this man named Wenyu in front of me.

He is mine, a voice roared in my heart, like a mad beast, about to rush out of the cage.

I want to tear him apart, savagely, possess him.

I want to confine him, in this life, only I can touch him.

I can't let it go on like this anymore, I am his man, the only man, I must let him realize this deeply.

I put him on the bed.

Desires have been suppressed for too long, this night, I can finally enjoy my dinner.

But, why resist, why do you hate me like that, cry!cry!After tonight, you just follow me wholeheartedly!

I don't need to feel guilty, yes, I don't need to, I'm the emperor, so I can do whatever I want.

So I stripped off his clothes without hesitation, and entered his body without mercy.

His taste is beautiful.

I am grateful for my decision, if not, I will never be able to see the beauty wrapped in his clothes, if not, I will never see the beauty of this snow lotus-like boy, pure, crystal, spring rain like silk .

I'm completely lost.

However, I was not as satisfied as I expected. I knew that there was always someone in his heart, a thorn in my heart.

If this thorn is not pulled out for a day, I will not be at ease for a day.

However, where is that man named Shen Yi?From the beginning to the end, he seemed to live in my imagination, out of reach, unkillable, driving people crazy.

I began to think of ways.

I took away the jade pendant he had been wearing around his neck, trying to erase the last traces he had left on his body.

However, he was crazy, searching in the rain with bare feet, his expression was desperate and fragile, and my heart was broken into pieces.

Distressed, because I care too much, this is not what an emperor should do.

However, I couldn't restrain myself, I couldn't restrain myself from wanting to see him, I wanted to treat him well, to love him thousands of times.

But later, I realized that I was so ridiculous.

When I thought he was snatched away by traitors, and I did not hesitate to go all the way to rescue him, I suddenly saw him sleeping soundly on Wenyu's lap, peaceful and peaceful, and his faint smile hurt my heart Eye.

Fu Jian, Fu Wenyu, the Great Qin King.

It's really touching, why don't you care about the emperor and ministers, just be a husband and wife, why even if you send out all the soldiers, you have to take him away from the Eastern Jin Dynasty, out of the sea of ​​suffering?

Haha, it's ridiculous, could it be that he fell into a pit of fire by Sima Yao's side?Could it be that he just doesn't want to come back to me?

It's really embarrassing to me.

Originally, I sent people to the Western Regions to ask him for the antidote to the twelfth lunar frost. I wanted to surprise him when he entered the palace. I was afraid that he would be lonely in the palace, so I brought Miss Liu Yan into the palace to accompany him. , originally wanted to investigate the Fengming Pavilion tragedy for him, but really...

But where can he go?So a weak little flower who always likes to sacrifice himself to achieve others, where can he go?With Xie Xuan in my hands, where would he dare to go?He doesn't even deserve to die.

Are you sad?Are you unwilling?It will be fine slowly.

Don't you care about monarchs and ministers?Will he be satisfied if I give him the position of queen?

As long as he is willing to forget that man named Shen Yi, forget all the men in his heart, as long as he has the determination.

The Forgetfulness Pill is just a low-level temptation, but what I tried out was my discouragement.

In fact, what kind of Wangqing Dan is that?The cold frost of the twelfth lunar month must be cured by an antidote, but the antidote I found specially ended up like this.

Because of him, I have tasteless food all day long and can't sleep at night.

The king's heart can tolerate the world, but now he has lost his mind because of a man?

I started to snub him, and at the same time let him taste the feeling of being snubbed.

But, that lonely night, why did he become more and more manic?

It is the fire of desire that burns.

I summoned a woman from Jinlan Garden, who can be called an all-powerful woman, to attend the bed, but no matter how she pleases me, my second child who is not up to the mark still sleeps soundly.

I think I'm completely useless, I can only be in heat with men for the rest of my life?

A few days later, I sent someone to summon a few male prostitutes. They were all young and beautiful, and they knew how to please people. Fish is average.

However, why do I have a feeling of being in debt to him and betraying him?

betray?Thinking of these two words, I just feel that it is extremely absurd. I am the emperor, and only the people in the world cannot betray me. When should I be afraid of betraying the people in the world?

However, halfway through it, it becomes weak again, and I can no longer arouse interest.

Outside the tent, he stood there stiffly, looking at the position on the bed, pale and helpless, my heart hurt, and the wave of longing surged up uncontrollably.

What am I doing, what am I doing here without him?

I chased him out, and in this lifetime, I will never let him go again.

His attitude towards me made a sudden 180-degree turn, and I was secretly happy, maybe it was those days that made him think clearly.

These days, I have also thought very clearly that I, Sima Yao, only look for him.

After the seal, it should be taken for granted, and was opposed by the queen mother and all the ministers, even affecting the border.

But it doesn't matter, as long as I persist, what can those old things do to me?It's just that I didn't expect that it was him who advised me to make her another queen.

Why?Why?Why can't I understand it?Why even he has to embarrass me like this?

Seeing him kneeling firmly in the ice and snow, as if he would fulfill his wish until death, what kind of belief is that?Is that what you want to push me away?Could it be that the intimacy and admiration these days are all illusions?He and Ben don't want to be with me?

Okay, okay, if you are so obsessed, I will help you, but don't regret it!

But who was the one who hurt in the end?Why is that person's name still in his dream?I suddenly remembered what he said the first time I forced him.

I suddenly realized, yes, I have the same face as Shen Yi. He and Ben have always regarded me as his substitute. woke up.

Hehe, hehe, what a ridiculous game.

Pei Ran, I won't help you, you want to find your Shen Yi, but there is no way.

I want you to be locked in the palace, watching me and others kissing me every day, I want you to be left out, so that you know how to grasp the happiness you want.

Does it hurt?Pain!

Is it bitter?Bitter!

So, stop being persistent, forget about him, I'll wait for you!

(End of volume)

The author has something to say:

Analyzing Shen Yi (Sima Yao)'s heart, it can be regarded as rehabilitating him!Some relatives said that they really hated Shen Yi, wished they could kill him, hehe, that's what they wanted, oh yeah!

Well, starting from the second volume, I will switch to the third-person pronoun. Actually, I wanted to change it a long time ago, because the No.1 pronoun has too many limitations. Of course, changing the writing style all of a sudden will make me uncomfortable, but it will be fine. !

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