Rebirth · Mausoleum

My Erniang is the most beautiful woman in the palace. I heard from Aunt Zizhu that Erniang once loved Huang Ama deeply.But when Huang Ama knew that others intended to hurt me and Er Niang, Huang Ama chose to protect the person who hurt us.I don't remember what happened at that time, Aunt Zizhu said, it was because someone Er Niang trusted so much that I almost died.In order to protect the safety of our mother and child, Er Niang went to the Old Summer Palace to live a life of chanting sutras and chanting Buddha. Since then, Er Niang has never been close to me. She told me not to get too close to anyone, because Being close leads to trust, and anyone I trust may want to hurt me.

As a matter of course, I can only get close to the fourth brother once or twice in the Old Summer Palace, but the fourth brother wholeheartedly hopes that Huang Ama can see him, and he studies desperately just so that Huang Ama can see him.I have also read the books that the fourth brother read, and they are all extremely boring principles, just as boring as the fourth brother.But there is no way, who made the fourth brother the only one of my age who can say a few more words with me.

Until that day, I was bored to accompany my fourth brother to endorse, and I saw the two other mothers in the palace.

One is dignified and generous, and the other is elegant and gentle.

That beautiful and gentle woman recognized me and my fourth brother at the first sight. This empress is willing to joke with our two unfavored princes, and she will touch my head like the mother on the forehead. At that time, I thought, this empress is really gentle, if only Erniang could treat me like her.

I heard Mammy call her An Chang, so I should call her Mrs. An.

The second time I saw her in the Buddhist hall, I complained to her about the boring homework, but she patiently listened to what I said, and praised me in front of Er Niang—I can’t remember the last compliment Who is my person? I think that since this lady is so good, at least, don't call me fifth elder brother like others.So I tugged on Niang An's sleeve and told her that I wanted to have another conversation with this Niang An.Mother-in-law, it's even right.Probably this is the fate of Buddhism.

After this farewell, I thought that since she called me by my name, I should also know her name.So I went to ask Aunt Zizhu, and Aunt Zizhu said that she was a new concubine entering the palace, named An Lingrong.

The third time I saw her, she took me to eat delicious snacks with Er Niang's permission.I don't know why, Er Niang agreed to me to get close to others for the first time since this time, and she is still a concubine in the palace.

From now on, I can go to play with Mrs. An, and Mrs. An's Zuiyun Pavilion will always be very fragrant. Mrs. An will ask me what I want to eat and what I like to do. Huang Ama's approval.The time when she was there was really the happiest time of the day, because no one cared about me for a long time, not even Er Niang.

At that time, Huang Ama didn't look for Empress An very often. I almost forgot that Empress An was still Huang Ama's concubine, thinking that she would stay in Yuanmingyuan like Er Niang.

Until she picked lotus and played in the river of Yuanmingyuan, which amazed Huang Ama.After I saw everything, I realized that she is actually the same as other concubines in the palace, they all revolve around Huang Ama, and even her most beautiful side is for Huang Ama to see.

I asked Mammy that since favor is so important—it is so important that even people who Madam An usually doesn’t care about—why Er Niang didn’t compete for favor, and Mammy told me that it was because Er Niang had me.

Soon, she returned to the palace.I still remember the day before she left, she told me that she should not be naughty in the future and should study hard, but I didn't listen to half of it, because I only thought that Miss An, who was very good to me, was leaving.

A year later, Er Niang went to the palace to accompany the Empress Dowager to pay homage to the Buddha and brought me back a box of pastries, all of which I like. Er Niang told me that they were all prepared by Empress An for me.Soon I had a new master who taught me martial arts and art of war, and it was also Niang Niang who found me.

It would be a lie if I said I was unhappy.But when I think of her smile at Huang Ama in Yuanmingyuan, I feel very unhappy. Obviously, like Er Niang, she can survive.But that box of pastries is really good, and... the new master is really good too.

When Niang Niang came to Yuanmingyuan again, she was left in Yuanmingyuan because Niangniang angered Huang Ama.Although Er Niang said it was not a good thing, but I was so happy in my heart, because Niang An could stay with me for a few more days, and the whole Old Summer Palace seemed not as boring as it used to be.Moreover, it was the first time for me to wear the clothes that Mrs. An embroidered for me. The clothes she embroidered were very snug and comfortable.As the daughter of Mrs. An, my imperial sister, Yanxu, I am really envious of being able to wear Mrs. An's embroidered clothes often, but faintly, I also feel that I am not her biological child to make her worry, It's also something that makes me happy.

I remembered how she treated Huang Ama in the past, so I asked her if she was not worried that Huang Ama would forget her.But she showed the kind of smile only for Huang Ama again, and even this time, it was mixed with some trust.She also said that she trusted Huang Ama.I don't know why, but I really want her to smile at me like that.I really want to.

So I hardly thought about it, and I blurted out and asked her if she could trust me like this.

She returned to her usual smile and told me that if I could be her reliance, she would trust me in the same way.

Er Niang finally couldn't support herself any longer, and passed away in the Old Summer Palace. Until the last moment of the burial, Huang Ama didn't even pay a visit to her, and even buried Er Niang in the Old Summer Palace instead of the concubine mausoleum.I don't really understand what happened between them, but I think Huang Ama is so heartless.Why would Mrs. An trust such a ruthless person?

I looked at Mrs. An, who was with me, and suddenly remembered what Zizhu said to me, she was getting better and better for me, probably because Er Niang was not in good health, and once she was gone, she would let me become her daughter in her name. mother.

But she said that as long as I am still Hong Zhou like this, she will always treat me well.

Something inside of me told myself that I didn't want to be her child, even in name.I rejected Huang Ama's chance to choose another empress who is close to me to be my mother.She has indeed done it, as long as I am still Hong Zhou, she will always treat me well.In the days when I often greeted her in the palace, I watched her look glamorous in the palace, but in fact she was quite calculating. Every step I took, I had to think about what to do with the remaining two steps.More than once, I saw her occasionally inadvertently showing fatigue, but there is one thing that she is never different from other concubines-whether she is in favor or not, she is always so gentle, as if she doesn't care about favor, But Huang Ama will always think of her.

I also gradually understand why Er Niang said not to trust anyone, because everyone in the palace is like her, wearing a false face, which makes you feel that you don't know who to trust anyone.But I can't hate her, because I can't forget her picking lotus in Yuanmingyuan that year, because she never broke her promise to me.It's ridiculous to say that I actually feel that she is my only warmth in the world.I still remember that she said that if I could be her reliance, she would trust me like she trusted Huang Ama.

When she became a concubine, I carved a jade carving for her, but I didn't want people to think that I carefully sent her to please her because of her promotion, so I gave her a jade carving that was exactly the same but much rougher. She was very happy to see her.

I entered the military camp and worked hard to practice martial arts and art of war. Even though I was so busy, I would always think of her in the dead of night. Every time I couldn't help it, I would carve a few knives on the jade carving. Every month I would Send her one.

In the past few years when I was not in the palace, I would inquire about her situation through my master. Most of the time, it was good news. The worst news was that Concubine Mu died of dystocia that year. She was in a coma for three days and three nights.I immediately wrote a letter of greetings, she would not know, she was in a coma for three days and three nights, and I also suffered from insomnia for three days and three nights.During those three days and three nights, I finally realized that I didn't feel like a mother and child to her from the very beginning.

When I was 16 years old, because the emperor's grandmother was seriously ill and Junggar was in turmoil, Huang Ama recalled me, my son who was trained in the military camp, and called me back to the palace.After inviting Huang Ama and the emperor's grandmother to Ann, I immediately went to her palace. Her face was really the same as in my memory. She still remembered what I like to eat, everything was the same.

I told her that Huang Ama wanted me to have a family, she would not know how much I expected her to have a different look, words, even if it was just my misreading, but there was nothing wrong with her, instead she asked me if I could The woman I like—does she know that when I first thought about getting married, I dreamed that she was wearing a wedding dress and waiting for me—enduring the disappointment in my heart, I told her that I intend to pacify Junggar civil strife.

She finally became nervous and repeatedly prevented me from going to the battlefield.I don't know how much she cares about me with genuine affection and how much she cares about me—since she found me a general master, she should know that I will have this day—but it doesn't matter, I take her as true love just fine.She said that she had already arranged the affairs of the harem, and that the sixth younger brother under her knees was likely to be the new emperor established by Huang Ama, but she didn't know that she was weak in the court, and some courtiers proposed to leave the mother and keep the son, how could I Will there be such a voice, not even one.Since it is her wish, I naturally want to help her.

The day before going to Junggar, she prepared a three-layer box of pastries for me, and I told her that I couldn't finish it by myself.She returned it to me and gave it to others if she couldn't finish it.But how would she know that what she gave me, how could I be willing to give it to others.

After the victory in the Battle of Junggar, Huang Ama was already afraid of generals, and he was more inclined to give me the military power.I fought everywhere, established myself in the army, and became the first prince.I don’t know if it’s because of being an adult or because of fighting for a long time, I am more and more unsatisfied like this, just wearing the clothes she embroidered for me, seeing the safe letter she sent me, not to mention that she even touches my head now There are no more actions.

Huang Ama is seriously ill, but she takes care of Huang Ama regardless of her own body. Obviously, I already have half the military power in the Qing Dynasty and the prince has a pivotal position in the court. Obviously, I already have the capital to be her reliance, but she still The promise of the year was not fulfilled.

On that day, when Huang Ama and Guojun Wang came to me to discuss what might happen, I suddenly realized one thing. It was not that I had not become her reliance, but because I was not her only reliance .

If I become her only support, she can only choose me, she can only smile at me like that, and she can only be mine.

Right, Ronger.

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