The beautiful and miserable male supporting role in the abuse novel

The man's withered lips trembled slightly, as if he was unable to stand still, and his bony fingers supported the doorknob in front of him.

With a "click", there were wet drops of water dripping on the light brown wooden board.

There were no extra voices in the room, Xu Zhixing had tried his best to restrain himself, he had been restraining his sadness all the time, he didn't want to expose his soft and helpless side to others, but when there was a gap, negative emotions rushed out like a flood gate. to.

He tried to change his pessimistic fate, but life often went against him, as if it was doomed long ago, everything about him was not optional, even if he wanted to hold that little bit of tenderness, it was a luxury.

Shen Ang was almost in a daze, there were many things he wanted to blurt out, he should be like a winner to mock the fragile man in front of him, but Xu Zhixing lowered his eyelids, and his back that was straight before also bowed a little.

For some reason, it was as if his heart had been pricked by a needle, and suddenly he didn't feel any pain, but gradually, the dense tingling pain spread to all his limbs.

"You..." Shen Ang pursed his lips, and asked uncertainly, "I am your first man?"

The man's body trembled, and his broken voice seemed to come out of his throat, "If I hadn't met you, I'm afraid I wouldn't have known that I can actually please the same sex."

"..."

When I first came into contact with Xu Zhixing, I did have a playful attitude and didn't take it seriously, but then the nature gradually changed. After returning to China, I saw another man beside Xu Zhixing. After he was done, he would be thrown away by the next family, and when he thought of Xu Zhixing's proficiency, he automatically labeled this person as a chaotic private life in his mind.

He was jealous of Xu Zhixing's humble appearance to please him, and was seen by others, and he was even more jealous of Xu Zhixing's desire to live with others after resigning.

But why did things deviate from expectations...

The boy lying on the sofa saw that Shen Ang was too late to come, so he stepped over and whispered beside him, "...I... we can actually stay in the living room..."

The boy also realized that something was wrong, he wanted to get rid of Shen Ang as soon as possible, just being intimate with Shen Ang was enough for him to brag in the circle.

Xu Zhixing kept silent, supporting his thin body, trying to escape from here.

With a sullen face, Shen Ang gave the boy a card and said, "Take a taxi and go back."

Originally, Shen Ang didn't like overly feminine homosexuals, so he felt that it was no different from finding a woman, but the boy seemed to like him quite a bit, and there were many opportunities to make money in the prosperous age, but it was too rare to get close to Shen Ang.

"I don't need money... I washed it very clean when I came here..."

It was probably because Shen Ang had humiliated Xu Zhixing in front of him before, the boy became bolder, "He's all uncle's generation..."

Shen Ang looked at him sullenly, "Try to say it again?"

The boy trembled in fright, no matter how obsessed he was, his life was still important, so he could only take the card and look at Shen Ang reluctantly.

If in the past, someone dared to ridicule him like this, Xu Zhixing would definitely fight back. He still has the ability to protect himself when he is alone, but after getting along with Shen Ang, all his misfortunes were brought to him by this person. Ang took off his armor and let him bear the world's abuse and bad words with his flesh and blood.

He didn't understand these words, he just wanted to find a corner to hide himself, licking the wound alone like a wounded cub.

Shen Ang has long legs, he blocked Xu Zhixing's way.

He hadn't figured out many things. It was unbelievable that he was Xu Zhixing's first man, and remembering that Xu Zhixing had really planned to live with him for the rest of his life, the thoughts in his mind became more and more confused.

"...Then what's your relationship with Jiang Chengcheng? You haven't done such a disgusting thing, how could he help you no matter the cost?

Xu Zhixing must have lied to him, trying to make him feel guilty.

It was clear that he also saw Jiang Chengcheng send drunk Xu Zhixing home. As far as he knew, Xu Zhixing rarely drank alcohol. He had inquired about it that day. Isn't it for that kind of thing to drink too much wine together?

If he hadn't appeared, I'm afraid Xu Zhixing would have brought others home.

Xu Zhixing's eye sockets were wet and red, and his face became paler. He raised his head, and there was a trace of revenge in his words, "You and your friends are the only ones who have done disgusting things with me. If I ask him to help me, I won't be reduced to such a state."

Although Sun Haohai was driven away in the end, the trembling and vomiting touch was real when he was conscious.

Xu Zhixing is a very conservative person. If a strange man gets close to him, he will feel uncomfortable, not to mention being hugged and played with by Sun Haohai intimately, being forcibly inhaled drugs, and forced to open his body .

These memories followed him like a nightmare.

Hearing his words, Shen Ang's complexion really changed. He originally thought that Xu Zhixing was in a mess, but in the end it was he who turned him into such a look.

Shen Ang backed away staggeringly, a dazed expression appeared on his handsome face.

"Brother Xu... I... I was just dumbfounded at the time, I didn't want him to do anything to you..." Shen Ang's incoherent explanation, who has always been a careful thinker, didn't know what to do for a while. Explain clearly this matter that has already been concluded.

Xu Zhixing was sick at the time, and he didn't see anyone in the house when he came back. Finally, when Jiang Shengcheng sent Xu Zhixing back, it seemed that Xu Zhixing couldn't wait to leave him and be with other men.

Sun Haohai was indeed the one who called.

And he did acquiesce to what Sun Haohai did at the beginning.

But thinking back carefully, Xu Zhixing actually didn't have to go home at that time, and he also heard Jiang Chengcheng's persuasion, but of course he was so angry that he completely ignored this point.

"Brother Xu..." Shen Ang suddenly panicked, he hugged Xu Zhixing in his arms, his clothes were still stained with the smell of cigarettes and alcohol when he came out of the nightclub, and the smell of the boy's perfume, all kinds of smells intertwined Together, it made Xu Zhixing dizzy.

As if feeling the distance from Xu Zhixing, Shen Ang, who had been entangled with others just now, leaned the man against the wall and kissed the man's eyebrows, as if to kiss away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

Xu Zhixing's ability to resist now is also weak, "...Your goal has been achieved, please leave me with some dignity."

He broke the man's arrogance and made the man humble in front of him like a dust in the dirt, but he couldn't feel any joy in his heart.

For some reason, what came to mind was the first night he stayed at Xu Zhixing's house. At that time, he had to squeeze into the same bed with Xu Zhixing on the grounds that he would catch a cold because the guest room was too cold.

Such a clumsy excuse, the man actually listened to it.

Throughout the night, the man only dared to turn his back to him, as if there was a gap between him and him, until he squeezed his body in front of the man out of mischief, and put his arms around the man's waist. It was his body that trembled, and even the roots of his ears turned crimson.

He felt the uneasy trembling of the man in his arms, and then buried his face between the man's neck, like the ambiguous intimacy between lovers. At that time, he didn't know how many people Xu Zhixing had been with, and he never thought about touching this man.

But Xu Zhixing's response was too uncomfortable, so he kissed the tip of the man's ear and asked in a hoarse voice, "If I do this...will you hate me?"

He knew that the man in his arms hadn't fallen asleep.

After a while, Xu Zhixing replied, "...I don't hate it."

"You are so kind, what should I do if I like you more and more? It would be nice if the sky didn't dawn, and we could be so close forever."

From then on, he began to get used to sleeping with his arms around the man's flexible waist.

The man never pushed him away, as if he had been acquiescing to him all the time.

She acquiesced in allowing him to live in her own home, even if the reason was not so reasonable, she acquiesced in his unreasonable request, knowing that soup was being boiled in the kitchen, but considering his mood, she still endured the cold and hard marble and whispered to him to hurry up a little .

What he used to trample on was nothing more than the privilege Xu Zhixing gave him because he liked him too much.

But the privilege is gone.

However, he was able to easily subdue the man's resistance. He forced Xu Zhixing to kiss him, his voice wet and hoarse, "...my goal has not been achieved, brother Xu, don't reject me, okay?"

He couldn't get the answer he wanted, Xu Zhixing resisted, even when he was close to him, he would feel a burst of physical discomfort.

"...I like you, I didn't lie to you... Actually, I missed you a lot when I was abroad, but you blocked me and kept ignoring me. After returning to China, I saw you with others... I thought it was because of him that you would leave me..."

He said he liked it, but he was always selfish and only cared about his own feelings.

Since Sun Haohai's incident, this smell mixed with several people invaded the nasal cavity, as if being invaded by many people.

Xu Zhixing's forehead was covered with cold sweat, Shen Ang hugged him self-consciously, it was very painful, Xu Zhixing clenched his wrists impatiently, as if he would not feel so uncomfortable only if he fell into deeper pain.

Shen Ang didn't dare to look at his face, but just kissed him over and over again, as if this could glue a broken heart together.

He ignored the fact that the man hadn't moved much until the warm liquid slid down his arms. He thought it was Xu Zhixing's tears, but he saw a scarlet color in front of his eyes. The man's pale skin is like a withered mandala, beautiful and rotten.

When he raised his head, he found that the man's eyes were tightly closed, and his thin cheeks were as gray as death.