Black Basket - The World's No. 1 Idiot's Guide to Growing a Man

'I don't want to see your face. '

It was as if someone had pressed the loop button, but the pause button was useless. Even now, Yuiya's words are still ringing in Kise's ears.

Works better than any spell.Every time he listened to it, Huang Lai's psychological defense collapsed, and when he realized it, he was already looking for the watch in a hurry in every corner of the campus.

You can't find it.

Wei will also be angry.

will hate him.

Although Kise had heard Yuiya say he hated the word before...but he only felt that it was just a moment of anger for Yuiya, and he would soon return to his usual state.

But when he was in the health care room, what Kise heard and saw was only Yui's tired tone and tired expression, as if he had exhausted all his strength just by saying a few words.

Yuiya at that time was not just rejecting him with words.

He seemed to be able to hear the words that Wei Ye was silent.

Those words were silent but powerful.

Like a nail, it was firmly nailed into Huang Lai's heart.

'—disappear soon.

hurry up.

Don't ever appear in front of my eyes again. '

For the first time in his life, Kise felt panicked.

This kind of panic is like a tide, quickly submerging from the instep to the top of the head, but he can't float to the surface, let alone breathe - he is like a person who is about to be drowned, passively sucking the tide of panic into his chest , so after a while, his whole body was filled with this kind of thing.

Now, this panic prompted him.

—if nothing is done.

I will never see Yui again.

No basis, that's all he thought.

Maybe this kind of thinking is wrong at all, but as long as there is this possibility, Kise hates it from the bottom of his heart.

After finding Qihai and asking some questions, Kise began to search for the watch all over the campus.

Next to the stadium where the incident happened.

The playground for physical education classes.

The classroom where Yuiya spends most of his time.

The entrance that must be passed through when entering the school.

There are also science departments, chemistry rooms, home economics classrooms, and even the teacher's office, he rushed in hastily.

But even though Kise searched all the places he could think of.

No.

nowhere.

It took Kise the whole afternoon to look for it. Classes and training in the basketball club were all forgotten by Kise. It wasn't intentional, but he couldn't remember it. Now Kise only had to find the watch and ask for it. Both thoughts must be forgiven.Just switching back and forth in his head.

The trash can was the last thing I had to go through.

The only place on campus that I haven't looked for is here.

After the students had left and the security patrolled, Huang Lai began to dig through the trash cans in the school. After the trash cans were finished, he came to the garbage storage place again.

Nothing could be more stupid than that—but it's a stupid way, as long as it works.

As long as Yuiya can be saved, I can do whatever I want, and it doesn't matter what I do.

Besides...

Just like Yui said.

He's an idiot anyway.

It's normal for idiots to do stupid things, right?

Find the watch and give it back to Yui, even Yui won't forgive him... But as long as he is willing to look at him again, Kise thinks it's worth it.

But if he got his watch back, Yuiya still wouldn't want to see him...

Kise couldn't figure it out.

In other words, just imagining it has already made him unbearable.

So this idea only flashed in Huang Lai's mind for a moment, and then it was rejected.

There is absolutely no way this will happen.

Right?

They are childhood sweethearts who have a good relationship, so it's impossible to just break it up, right?What's more, they are still in the same class, their parents have a close relationship, and - and Yui also said that he likes him.

Wei also clearly said that she likes him.

So, how could you hate him?

It must be so, right?

As long as you make a proper and sincere apology, you will always be forgiven... right?

But even though Kise cheered him on over and over again, he was still afraid of seeing Yuiya again.

Because Wei also said it.

Don't want to see his face... or something.

Kise also knew that his thoughts were too contradictory, he wanted to see the other party very much, but was afraid of seeing the other party.

Which is more important, hope or fear?

Kise, who couldn't even understand this, almost cried when Yuiya asked him to turn around.Being caught by Yui while digging through the trash was enough to make him terrified. Although he tried his best to appear lively and cheerful, when Yui mentioned that he would face to face with him, Kise became nervous I can't even look cheerful.

No.

Turning around at this time, Wei Ye saw his face, what expression would he show?

If it's like that again, silent repulsion and rejection... don't.

Just thinking about it, the panic seemed to overwhelm him again.

Kise never wanted to experience the painful suffocation feeling like being drowned by the tide again.

"Why don't you turn around? Is it possible that you are bothered even to look at me?" Wei Ye's voice sounded impatient, which made Kise's heart beat faster.

"No! I like Yuiya the most!" Kise retorted loudly, anxiously and quickly: "But I don't want Yuiya to hate me! So, so I don't want to look at Yuiya!"

"...Only this matter, I don't want it."

That's right, you can't let Yuiya see yourself.

However, I really want to take a look at Yuiya.

It is still an insoluble contradiction.

After waiting nervously for a long time, Kise finally heard Yuiya's answer.

That was not a harsh tone.

Just like the attitude Yuiya used to treat everyone except himself.

Mild, but calm and waveless.

It's as if Yui Aoki also divided Kise Ryota into everyone.

——"Then don't look at me for the rest of your life."

Huang Lai paused for a while, and then slowly turned around.

Kise's back was still straight, but Wei Ye looked at it, but felt that Kise was very sluggish, like a large dog that had been reprimanded by its owner.

"Huang Lai," Wei couldn't see the other person's expression clearly: "Look up."

"I don't want it!" Kise shrank his shoulders: "It's scary."

"...What are you afraid of?"

"Wei also said that he doesn't want to see me again." Huang Lai shrugged his nose, trying to force the tears back: "I'm afraid that when Wei Ye looks at me, he will show disgust... It's really scary."

"...For me, this is the first time I know," Kise wanted to show a smile to ease the atmosphere, but the funny expression was uglier than crying: "...So the most terrifying thing in the world is not the haunted house in the amusement park, Not a bloody horror movie...but..."

But only a word from you.

"Weiya...you also think I'm weird, don't you?" Kise wiped his eyes, trying to rub the moisture out of them, but finally raised his face: "But... what I said is true?"

"Wei... I'm sorry."

"I haven't found the watch yet, but it doesn't matter, I'll find it soon."

"It's almost there!"

"Yuiya, if I find that watch, can you forgive me?"

"For Yuiya's words, I'm willing to do anything."

"I'll fix the watch."

"It will definitely be handed over to Yuiya again."

"Believe me!"

"So, Yuiya..."

"I beg you……"

Finally, Huang Lai couldn't bear it anymore, tears fell down patter, he frantically wiped them off, but found that he couldn't finish it no matter what.

"Yuiya! Don't hate me!"

"forgive me!"

"I don't want to be separated from you!"

"It's just an imaginary scene of being separated from Yuiya..."

"I can't bear it anymore!"

"I can't stop the tears!"

"So... Yuiya...don't leave me."

"Stop saying 'don't look at me for the rest of your life'."

"very scary……"

"It's really scary..."

At the end, Kise seemed to have lost the courage to continue to face Yuiya, and lowered his head again: "Ahh... suddenly... I started crying... what... isn't this just acting like a baby... "

"But...but I really like Yuiya."

"Separation or something is just an imagination, so I can't bear it."

"No... Even if it's just Yuiya and you not talking to me these days, I can't bear it anymore."

"No matter how hard I try, I can't find the touch when playing. Akashi has scolded me many times, and Midorima also complained that my basketball skills have deteriorated... But, I have no way to refute it."

"My mind is full of things about you, thinking about what Wei is doing, whether I will be bullied, how I can talk to you, etc."

"Even if I tell myself not to think about it, I can't stop at all."

"Then, the more you think about it, the worse it feels."

"Haha...it's a vicious circle at all."

"And that watch...that electronic watch."

"Although I don't know why you are angry about that watch, but it must be my fault."

"But, Yuiya! If I make you angry, tell me why! Then scold me! Or give me a few punches! But...but..."

"'Don't want to see you' stuff... please stop saying it."

"I can't stand that sentence."

"If I hear it next time, I will definitely not be able to cheer up again."

"To be honest, this time, I feel that I have..."

"It took all my courage and effort."