The system forced me to be a scumbag [Quick Transmigration]

Lu Yan was taken aback by Shen Siyang's evasive action.

He moved back slightly, looked at Shen Siyang's eyes full of astonishment, and asked doubtfully, "Can't... kiss you?"

Shen Siyang was dumbfounded by Lu Yan's rhetorical question.

He quickly flipped through his memory, and after confirming that he and Lu Yan are indeed ordinary friends, he explained in a slow voice: "Kissing is something that couples can only do."

The doubt in Lu Yan's eyes was even worse: "I know."

Lu Yan was so straightforward that Shen Siyang was stunned again, and he lowered his voice: "You still kiss me if you know?"

There was a brief silence in the carriage.

Lu Yan connected all of Shen Siyang's questions together, and after thinking for a while, asked softly, "Aren't we a couple?"

Seeing that Lu Yan's expression was serious, Shen Siyang didn't seem to be joking, and searched all over the memory to no avail.

Just when he was puzzled, Lu Yan's voice came.

"Don't you remember what happened the night you had a fever?"

Shen Siyang frowned in thought, and finally shook his head.

Lu Yan's breathing slowed unconsciously.

Most of the blood in his body was cold, he looked at the distance between Shen Siyang and Shen Siyang at this moment, it seemed a little too close.

So he stepped back again, back into the driver's seat.

The air in the compartment suddenly became thinner.

Lu Yan's beautiful face could still see the blush that hadn't completely faded away, but the color of his eyes was gradually darkening.

Shen Siyang opened his mouth and found that his throat was severely blocked.

My heart tightened even more.

He almost thought of just letting it go.

Just like the last world, explain the situation to Lu Yan, if Lu Yan is willing, don't worry about the future and focus on the present.

However, as soon as such thoughts arose, Sang Xiaoshi's voice echoed in his mind uncontrollably.

——I have always heard that the tree-lined avenues of this school are very suitable for walking, and I want to take a walk with you hand in hand.

--Can not find you.

——Do I never see you in my dreams?

--really miss you.

—Brother Siyang, let me see you again.

Shen Siyang's heart stopped beating for a moment, and the endless sadness of that night surged up again.

Sang Xiaoshi's love for him is beyond doubt.

But for the rest of his life, when he followed the bubbles and couldn't find him for decades, would Sang Xiaoshi regret it sometimes?

Regret ever met him.

I think it would have been better if I hadn't met at the beginning.

If you don't meet, you won't have so many sleepless nights, and if you don't meet, you don't need to spend the rest of your life savoring what you can't get.

When facing a decision in the last world, he had already accompanied Sang Xiaoshi for more than ten years, and there was no turning back.

But not now, he has only been with Lu Yan for a month now.

Lu Yan still has a choice this time.

Shen Siyang tried his best to keep his brain awake, and finally looked at Lu Yan and said, "What did I do to you that night?"

Lu Yan looked at Shen Siyang: "Kiss me, confirming the relationship."

After Lu Yan said this, Shen Siyang finally remembered some fragments.

After he came to this world, out of ten times he dreamed, at least seven or eight times he would dream of Sang Xiaoshi.

There were too many similar memories, so he didn't take it to heart at all.

Seeing that Shen Siyang frowned and didn't respond for a long time, Lu Yan said again: "Did I... misunderstand what you mean?"

Shen Siyang was about to speak, but when he saw Lu Yan's pursed lips and drooping eyes, his mind became confused again.

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, finally said: "I need some time to think, can I?"

-

"My mouth must have been opened."

Tao Yuanyao, who had just finished a trip, sat slumped on the work station, drank most of the bottle of water, and then took a breath: "A few days ago, I just said that Mr. Lu's talents were drowned after he took over Lu's, and Mr. Lu began to rectify the company drastically. .Although it is very comforting to see the trash being sorted out, I really don’t want to work overtime until the early hours of the morning.”

"You go back today, I'll stay." Shen Siyang said.

Tao Yuanyao glanced at the gauze on Shen Siyang's neck: "Have you recovered from your work-related injury?"

"Small injury, the gauze can be removed this weekend."

Tao Yuanyao thought for a moment, picked up the work tablet and smiled gratefully: "Thank you, let me explain the work content to you."

In Shen Siyang's previous job, he would be on duty every week. Once he entered the project period, it was common for him to stay in the company all night.

It was already nine o'clock at night to complete the handover work at hand.

There is no shortage of light in the city at night.

Shen Siyang stretched, turned around and watched the neon lights flashing outside the window.

The familiar night scene made him feel dazed for a moment.

As if he was not in another world.

What you see and what you step on is real.

But only for a moment.

He quickly withdrew his thoughts, walked out of the president's office and looked at the inner office.

Ever since he was held hostage with a knife to his neck in the company that day, Lu Yan's office hours began to stretch infinitely.

In the past few days, the company's high-level personnel have undergone a major change, and the whole company is tense, for fear that if one is not careful, the next one will be replaced.

Shen Siyang was staring at the inner office in a trance, when he suddenly heard the ringing of the direct phone in the CEO's office.

He walked into the room, and it was the direct phone on Tao Yuanyao's desk that rang.

Picking up the phone and answering it, Lu Yan's slightly tired voice came from the phone.

"Make a cup of coffee."

Before Shen Siyang could answer, Lu Yan cut off the phone neatly.

A few minutes later, the office door opened.

Hearing the sound of the cup falling off the table, Lu Yan raised his hand to take it out of the corner of his eye.

"You can go back when the work is done."

As soon as he finished speaking, he found that the glass was filled with milk, and he frowned slightly: "What I want is..."

When I saw the person coming, I suddenly lost my word.

The milk in your hand is warm.

Lu Yan glanced at Shen Siyang, who seemed to have no intention of leaving for the time being, and obediently drank the milk in the cup.

Putting down the empty cup and wiping his mouth, he asked Shen Siyang, "Why haven't you come home yet?"

"Switched class with Tao Yuanyao."

Hearing this, Lu Yan took the phone and checked the time.

Finding that it was past nine o'clock at night, he raised his eyes to look at the gauze on Shen Siyang's neck.

He quickly closed the documents in his hand, took the car keys and stood up: "Let's go, I'll take you home."

Shen Siyang didn't move immediately: "You will come back after sending me off?"

Lu Yan paused, and after looking at Shen Siyang for a moment, he shook his head: "I won't be coming back."

Only then did Shen Siyang make a move. He stretched out his hand to Lu Yan: "Give me the car keys, and I will drive."

The company is very close to where the two live.

10 minutes away by car.

Just 10 minutes away.

When Shen Siyang stopped the car, he turned his head and found that Lu Yan, who was sitting in the passenger seat, had fallen into a light sleep by leaning against the car window.

Tao Yuanyao had been working overtime for the past few days until he left in the early morning, while Lu Yan was still working.

When Shen Siyang reported to Lu Yan in the morning, Lu Yan was already fully awake.

It is conceivable that the sum of Lu Yan's sleep time in the past few days may not be as much as ordinary people sleep in a day.

It was dark in the compartment.

There is only a little light cast by a street lamp in the distance.

Under the dim light, Lu Yan frowned, his face was obviously tired.

Shen Siyang leaned on the driver's seat, quietly watching the landing weir without making a sound.

Ten minutes later, the eyelashes of the person in the passenger seat trembled slightly, showing signs of waking up.

Shen Siyang withdrew his gaze and turned off the car, as if he had just parked there.

After a while, Lu Yan said with a tired voice: "Are you there?"

Shen Siyang nodded and looked at Lu Yan.

Lu Yan rubbed his eyes, noticed Shen Siyang's gaze, and looked at Shen Siyang too.

The two looked at each other and fell into a brief silence.

Then Shen Siyang said, "Lu Yan, are you doing something that will make you happy?"

Lu Yan blinked lightly, and stared at Shen Siyang two points deeper.

He was thinking about an answer when he heard Shen Siyang say again, "It's not about the two of us, I'm referring to the work."

Shen Siyang clearly remembered that in the last world, Sang Xiaoshi told him that he liked finance-related things very much and found it very interesting.

And in this world, since Lu Yan can show that kind of talent in college, it means that there must be an element of love in it.

People do what they like, even if they fall down or even if they are exhausted, they will always be motivated and satisfied.

But these days, Luyan is obviously not in such a state.

He is showing talent, but his soul is withering.

In the end, Lu Yan didn't answer the question of whether he was unhappy, he just said: "It was my negligence that caused you to be injured. I have the ability to avoid such risks, but I didn't do it. It shouldn't be."

Shen Siyang frowned lightly.

Just as he was about to speak again, Lu Yan changed the subject: "You don't need to call me to report on work tomorrow morning."

Shen Siyang was taken aback: "Why?"

Lu Yan responded softly, "I won't go to work tomorrow."

Shen Siyang thought for a moment, then asked aloud, "What's the matter?"

Lu Yan agreed.

After agreeing to see Shen Siyang's slightly puzzled eyes, he finally explained: "Tomorrow is the death day of my parents."

His eyelashes trembled twice, and he looked away from Shen Siyang, before continuing with the next sentence: "I'm going to sweep the grave."

-

Shen Siyang was absent-minded all morning.

Lu Yuankai's words that Lu Yan's parents' death was a big taboo for the Lu family kept flickering in his mind.

An ordinary death must not be enough to become a taboo in a family that cannot be mentioned.

It was not easy until noon.

Thinking that Lu Yan should have almost finished sweeping the tomb, he called Lu Yan.

Unexpectedly, after the call was made, what I heard was a shutdown prompt.

For a long time, this was the first time that Shen Siyang couldn't get through to Lu Yan's phone.

Not to mention shutting down, Luyan's mobile phone has never even been shut down due to arrears of payment.

The phone hangs up automatically and returns to the dialing interface.

Tao Yuanyao, who came back to the president's office after lunch, happened to see Shen Siyang's mobile phone interface, and she reminded: "I can't contact Mr. Lu today, and the work matters can be postponed until tomorrow."

Shen Siyang looked at Tao Yuanyao upon hearing this.

Tao Yuanyao explained: "Xu Tezhu told me when I was working in the first year. When Mr. Lu took over the Lu family, your position was still Xu Tezhu. Don't look at his young age. It is said that he was still in the When I was in college, I was picked up by the old lady for training. Ever since Mr. Lu’s father took over the Lu family, Special Assistant Xu has been in your position. It’s just that after Mr. Lu took office, he seemed to dislike him very much. The talents on the board began to change frequently.”

Shen Siyang listened to Tao Yuanyao's words with a pensive look on his face.

A long time after Tao Yuanyao returned to her work station, seeing that Shen Siyang hadn't exited the dialing interface on her phone, she said again: "If you really need to find Mr. Lu in a hurry, you can call Special Assistant Xu."

She said, looking around, and lowered her voice: "Today seems to be the anniversary of the death of President Lu's parents. I remember that when I worked with Special Assistant Xu, his itinerary for this day was to accompany the old lady to the cemetery. Xu The special assistant has been employed by the old lady alone, and the decisions of these old ladies are basically issued by him, so I don't think his itinerary will change much."

Half an hour later, Shen Siyang finally dialed Xu Qingwen after hearing Lu Yan's phone shutdown prompt again.

For more than a month, Shen Siyang and Xu Qingwen basically communicated by email.

The last time the two talked on the phone was Shen Siyang's first day in this world.

The call was quickly connected.

Xu Qingwen was very quiet there, but when he spoke, he obviously lowered his voice: "What's the matter?"

Shensi Yang Ying: "There is something wrong in the company, I can't contact Mr. Lu."

Xu Qingwen's answer was consistent with what Tao Yuanyao said: "If you are not in a hurry, you can postpone it until tomorrow. If you are in a hurry, you can find a way to postpone it until tomorrow. Is there anything else?"

Shen Siyang thought for a moment, and tentatively said, "It's urgent, can't you contact Mr. Lu?"

Before Xu Qingwen could answer, Shen Siyang vaguely heard a slightly older voice.

"Qingwen, go to the trunk to get flowers."

There was a murmur from the phone.

Shen Siyang vaguely heard Xu Qingwen's respectful reply, and then Xu Qingwen's clear voice came out from the phone again: "I can't get in touch, no one can get in touch with Mr. Lu today. Remember this day, all business affairs must be avoided every year in the future. Open today, you can find a way to solve it in advance or postpone it reasonably. I still have something to do, so I hung up."

As soon as the voice fell, a busy tone came from the phone.

The surroundings returned to quiet.

Shen Siyang heard his heartbeat that was constantly accelerating.

Lu Yan lied to him.

Put away your phone and leave the office building.

On the way to Lu Yan's house, Shen Siyang kept replaying the scene of the conversation with Lu Yan last night in his mind.

Lu Yan always looked at him when talking to him, and it was the same last night.

But there was one exception last night.

——Going to visit the grave.

When Lu Yan said this, he lost sight of him in advance.

Shen Siyang ran to Lu Yan's house in one breath, opened the door and entered the house.

I yelled a few times in the living room and got no response, so I went up to the second floor.

He noticed it when he came here just now.

The windows of Lu Yan's room were closed and the curtains were drawn tightly.

Go to the bedroom door on the second floor.

The bedroom door was also closed.

Shen Siyang stood at the door and knocked several times. After waiting for a while, he raised his hand and pushed open the door in front of him when there was no movement.

Today is cloudy.

The room was pitch black.

Shen Siyang's gaze fell directly to the curled up ball on the bed.

His hand on the door tightened unconsciously.

It took a while before he stepped lightly, closed the door and walked into the room.

The person on the bed was silent for a long time.

Even the rise and fall of breathing is hard to notice if you don't stare carefully.

Shen Siyang thought that Lu Yan had fallen asleep.

When he walked to the bed, he realized that Lu Yan's eyes were open.

It's just that those beautiful eyes have lost the freshness of the past, and are as silent and empty as stagnant water.

Shen Siyang stood in front of Lu Yan.

But Lu Yan seemed unable to see him.

He is obviously a person who is close at hand, but seems to be separated by an invisible barrier into an untouchable time and space.

Shen Siyang's heart was like a ball of yarn scratched by a cat.

He stood beside the bed for a long time, squatted down and looked at Lu Yan, and said: "Lu Yan."

The person on the bed didn't respond at all.

Shen Siyang raised his hand again to touch Lu Yan's face.

Lu Yan still didn't respond.

Shen Siyang gradually felt something was wrong.

When he entered the room just now, he could still see Lu Yan's body undulating slightly.

At this moment, Lu Yan seemed to be completely frozen.

Shen Siyang put his hand under Lu Yan's nose, but he couldn't breathe.

Lu Yan was holding his breath.

Shen Siyang's pupils shrank suddenly.

He didn't care about other things for a while, he directly picked up Lu Yan from the bed, pinched Lu Yan's face, trying to wake him up to let him take the initiative to breathe.

However, Lu Yan still did not move at all.

Her beautiful face gradually turned red due to lack of oxygen.

Just when Shen Siyang took out his mobile phone tremblingly and was about to call 120, Lu Yan seemed to have finally reached his limit, and gently grabbed Shen Siyang's clothes, his chest heaved violently and began to breathe again.

His long, quivering eyelashes were stained with tears of pain.

Shen Siyang put down his phone to take a picture of Lu Yan's chest, helping Lu Yan breathe smoothly.

Lu Yan's hollow pupils finally condensed some substance.

His eyes fell on Shen Siyang, he blinked lightly, and slowly raised his hand to rest on Shen Siyang's arm.

Shen Siyang choked up, "Can I take you to the hospital?"

Lu Yan didn't respond.

Shen Siyang thought of what Xu Qingwen said on the phone - no one could contact Mr. Lu today.

He closed his eyes: "Did you live like this every year in the past?"

Lu Yan still didn't respond.

Shen Siyang opened his red eyes and looked at Lu Yan again: "Can you tell me what happened?"

He left his hand from Lu Yan's chest, and raised his hand to wipe the tears from the corners of Lu Yan's eyes.

Lu Yan's breathing gradually returned to normal.

He fixedly looked at Shen Siyang.

After a long time, there was finally some reaction.

He slowly lowered his eyes, and responded with a voice so light that it seemed as if the exit would dissipate in an instant: "I killed... my parents."

The author says:

It's not Xiaolu's problem, I will explain it in the next chapter