The system forced me to be a scumbag [Quick Transmigration]

For the first time, Shen Siyang regretted the heavy words he said at the beginning.

Because of the sudden departure from the previous world, he didn't want Lu Yan to repeat the same mistakes as Sang Xiaoshi, so he asked Lu Yan to lower his expectations to the lowest level in advance.

But at this moment, he suddenly realized that this was an extremely wrong decision for Lu Yan.

He tried his best to try to pull Lu Yan out of the predicament when he was seven years old.

But now, he has become the source of trapping Lu Yan even deeper.

The car drove slowly into the garage.

The sun was blocked outside the garage, and the surrounding gradually darkened.

After turning off the engine, Lu Yan saw that Shen Siyang was still sitting still, so he leaned over to unbuckle Shen Siyang's seat belt.

Raising his hand to caress Shen Siyang's pale face, he asked softly, "Did my words bother you?"

Shen Siyang shook his head, and took Lu Yan's hand that was on his face.

I don't know what to do, but I desperately want to do something.

He looked at Lu Yan's face close at hand, raised his chin and kissed him actively.

I have exchanged lips and teeth countless times, but this time it seems to be different.

Shen Siyang's kiss gradually changed from gentle and cautious to greedy and forceful.

Lu Yan turned on the car again and turned on the heater.

Then he crossed the gap between the driver's seat and firmly trapped Shen Siyang in the passenger seat.

He rarely pinched Shen Siyang's face.

Wrapping his arms around Shen Siyang's neck, he lifted Shen Siyang's chin, and kissed Shen Siyang back with the same force.

Shen Siyang's hand picked to open the hem of the clothes and looped around Lu Yan's waist.

The cool fingertips caused the person in front of him to tremble reflexively.

The bitterness of tears gradually stained between the lips and teeth.

It was unclear who it was, and neither of them paid attention to it.

Until the smell of rust appeared, the two froze at the same time.

Lu Yan reacted first, turned around and took a tissue to cover Shen Siyang's nose.

However, this time the nosebleed did not stop, and several tissues were still pouring out after being stained red.

Lu Yan's hands trembled uncontrollably: "Let's go back to the hospital."

While speaking, he wanted to return to the driver's seat, but was pulled by Shen Siyang.

"Let's get out of the car first, maybe it's too stuffy in the car. Go outside to take a breath, if it still bleeds, we'll go to the hospital."

Lu Yan's gaze fell on Shen Siyang's flushed cheeks, and his lips were pursed into a straight line: "Sit still, I'll open the door."

Shen Siyang nodded slightly in agreement.

Lu Yan quickly returned to the driver's seat and opened the door to get out of the car, then went around to the co-pilot to open the door for Shen Siyang.

He stretched out a hand to let Shen Siyang lift him out of the car.

When Shen Siyang got up, he didn't feel any discomfort. The moment he stepped out of the car door and stood firm, his eyes suddenly went black.

He subconsciously tightened his grip on Lu Yan, and called softly: "Lu Yan."

Dimly, I saw that Lu Yan seemed to have opened his mouth to respond to him, but he couldn't hear him anymore.

-

Shen Siyang opened his eyes.

What catches the eye is the whitewashed ceiling.

The familiar smell of hospital disinfectant lingers in front of the nose.

Consciousness gradually came back, and I found that my throat was very dry.

He turned his head slightly and looked around.

It was a single ward, and he was the only one in the room.

I found that there was no other discomfort except for a dry throat, a little pain in the nose, and a swollen head.

He sat up.

As soon as he sat up, the door of the ward was pushed open from the outside.

Lu Yan appeared at the door, saw Shen Siyang sitting up, and was slightly startled: "When did you wake up?"

Shen Siyang responded, "Just now."

As soon as he spoke, he realized that his voice was very hoarse.

Lu Yan walked into the house and put the freshly bought water on the table.

Take out one of the bottles and unscrew it: "Would you like some water?"

Shen Siyang's gaze rested on Lu Yan's red eye sockets for a moment, then he retracted his gaze and nodded slightly.

Lu Yan didn't let Shen Siyang handle it.

He took out the straw he bought together and put it into the mouth of the bottle, then held the water bottle up to a convenient place for Shen Siyang to drink.

Shen Siyang drank most of the bottle of water through the straw, and then stopped and said, "I won't drink it."

While speaking, he noticed the dark outside the window.

His brain short-circuited for a moment.

After repeatedly confirming that it was noon when he lost consciousness, he asked Lu Yan aloud, "What time is it?"

Lu Yan sat beside the bed and responded warmly: "It's eight o'clock in the evening, are you hungry?"

Shen Siyang felt it seriously.

No hunger.

He shook his head slightly.

After Lu Yan sat closer, the redness of the eye sockets became more and more obvious.

Not only is it red, but even a little swollen.

Shen Siyang's heart went numb, and the thoughts that flashed through his mind before he passed out resurfaced again.

If I want to ask a question, I can't ask it all at once.

Lu Yan made a move first.

Leaning over to hold Shen Siyang in his arms, he said softly to Shen Siyang like comforting a child, "I will stay in the hospital for a few days and do some examinations."

Shen Siyang held back the sourness in his eyes, and changed the topic with a chuckle: "Can I still eat that night? I'm still a little hungry."

"Yes." Lu Yan patted Shen Siyang's back tenderly, "You don't need to fast for the examination tomorrow morning, what do you want to eat? I'll go out and buy it."

Shen Siyang thought for a while: "I'll go out with you, I want to go out and get some fresh air."

"It's cold outside."

Shen Siyang looked up at Lu Yan: "Wear a hat, wear a scarf, and put your hands in your pockets."

Lu Yan and Shen Siyang looked at each other for a while, finally got up and began to help Shen Siyang dress.

This year's winter is obviously extremely cold.

But when he walked out of the hospital gate, Shen Siyang suddenly felt less cold again.

Lu Yan's pocket was very warm, and Lu Yan's hand in his pocket was also very warm.

There are rows of plane trees planted in the hospital.

Before the recovery of all things, the branches are bare, and when the wind blows, only the branches sway slightly.

Most of Shen Siyang's face was wrapped in a scarf, and he asked Lu Yan in a low voice, "Did the doctor say that greasy food is forbidden?"

Lu Yan responded warmly: "Forbidden."

Shen Siyang said regretfully, "I still want to eat a bowl of noodles."

Lu Yan paused for a while, and replied after a while: "Let's eat green vegetable noodles, I will accompany you, and I will also eat green vegetable noodles."

Shen Siyang suddenly turned to look at Lu Yan.

Sensing Shen Siyang's gaze, Lu Yan also turned to look at Shen Siyang, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

Shen Si Yang Lu's eyes in the air were slightly bent into crescent shapes: "I just suddenly felt that green vegetable noodles are also very delicious."

He gently shook the hand he was holding with Lu Yan in his pocket, and looked forward again: "I want to add another poached egg."

"Add one for you too."

"it is good."

"You can also add some shredded pork, and I will share half with it."

"Okay, just divide it into one-third."

"It's okay to only divide into three pieces?"

"it is good."

"Lu Yan, you cheapskate!"

Lu Yan laughed lightly: "Well, what a disgusting cheapskate."

-

For the first time in Shen Siyang's life, he experienced the feeling of vomiting during an examination.

On the first night of hospitalization, he and Lu Yan went out to eat noodles.

He finished his bowl and drank the soup, and even wanted to bring over the soup in Lu Yan's bowl and drink it up.

On the third day of the inspection, a bowl of green vegetable noodles was put in front of him, but he couldn't arouse any appetite after just moving a few chopsticks.

But he still suppressed his nausea and finished eating the noodles.

He didn't want Lu Yan to see that he couldn't eat.

In the past few days, he didn't sleep deeply, and when he woke up, he could feel that Lu Yan came to check his breath several times a night.

After probing, he will touch his face and hands lightly.

If it was cold to the touch, Lu Yan would not go back to the accompanying bed for the rest of the night, covering Shen Siyang's hand until dawn.

The day after Shen Siyang endured his nausea and ate the green vegetable noodles, the food Lu Yan bought turned into light and easy-to-eat sweet porridge.

The portion of porridge is not much, and it is served with side dishes, which is just enough for Shen Siyang to eat.

Shen Siyang lowered his head several times during the meal, holding back the tears that were about to roll out.

After eating, he packed the plastic box and asked Lu Yan with a smile, "Is the last two inspections tomorrow?"

Lu Yan agreed.

Throw the plastic bag into the trash can, wipe the table clean, take the computer from the bedside table, and put it on the table of the hospital bed.

Shen Siyang hugged Lu Yan's arm: "Are you still watching comedy today?"

Lu Yan turned on the computer: "Well, do you have anything else you want to see?"

Shen Siyang shook his head: "That's not true. Where did you find so many comedies?"

Lu Yan answered seriously: "Comedy ranking at home and abroad."

Shen Siyang raised his head and smiled.

Before finishing a comedy, Shen Siyang fell asleep in Lu Yan's arms.

Feeling the gradually long breathing of the person in his arms, Lu Yan stopped the movie.

Slightly adjusted Shen Siyang to a more comfortable position in his arms.

He put his arms around Shen Siyang, sat quietly and watched the person in his arms, and there was no other movement.

-

The two inspections on the second day were all in the morning.

After lunch, Lu Yan found a quiet movie.

Shen Siyang has always had the habit of taking a nap during work.

This habit has not changed in these few days.

Wake up.

The afternoon sun shone warmly on the ward.

Shen Siyang lay on the hospital bed in a daze for 2 minutes, feeling thirsty to get a water glass.

The water glass was found to be empty.

He touched his phone and checked the time, it was 02:30 in the afternoon.

In the past, when he woke up from a nap, Lu Yan would always be by his side.

Today is the first time that there is no one in the ward.

He sat up from the bed, his mouth was really dry, so he put on a coat and took a water glass to drink water from the tea at the end of the corridor.

Passing by the doctor's duty room, he paused slightly.

Today is his attending doctor on duty.

Lu Yan didn't say it, but Shen Siyang knew that his doctor in charge was the top oncologist in the country.

He once heard a chat with the nurses in the inpatient department that his attending doctor was studying abroad and was invited back to China by Lu Yan alone.

Shen Siyang knew about this.

Lu Yan said that the attending doctor, Dr. Cheng, was a friend of his father.

Although he knew it in his heart, he knew that this illness was just an opportunity for him to leave this world.

So it must be a dead end, and there can be no living end.

But standing at the door of the duty room, he couldn't help but wanted to ask.

The hand hanging beside him was raised.

He landed on the door and was about to knock, but found that the door was not closed properly, and opened a crack directly inward.

A familiar figure appeared in front of Shen Siyang.

Lu Yan sat upright.

Even though his back was turned to the door, he couldn't see his expression, but the tightness of his back was enough for Shen Siyang to distinguish his emotions.

Opposite Lu Yan, Dr. Cheng, who had white silk on his temples, looked down at the report in his hand, and shook his head slightly: "I can't do the operation."

There was helplessness in his voice: "I told you when the pathology results came out two days ago. In his case, the risk of surgery is far greater than conservative treatment, even if there is a [-] in [-] chance of surgery." If successful, the probability of recurrence is also very high.”

There was a dead silence in the duty room.

Dr. Cheng put down the report in his hand, sighed softly, and patted Lu Yan on the shoulder: "While there is still time, do what you want to do as much as you want. Sadness cannot be avoided, but regret is okay. Lu Yan, people always have It is to learn to say goodbye, which is a compulsory course for growth."

Dr. Cheng's words were like a drop of water dripping into Shen Siyang's heart that had been silent for a long time.

The falling of water droplets makes the water surface gradually ripple.

bid farewell.

He chewed these two words lightly.

This is probably the thing that Lu Yan is least good at so far.

I haven't been able to say goodbye to my parents who have passed away for many years, I haven't learned to say goodbye to myself who has been trapped in the attic for many years, and I am not ready to say goodbye to the people I love.

But people always have to learn to say goodbye.

Not everything that has been experienced can be a stone on the side of the road, which can be kicked away lightly and you can continue to stride forward without hindrance.

Some past events are thorns and vines that will wrap around your legs. No matter how you stride forward, you will only be torn and covered in blood.

You have to stop, turn around, and tear the vines apart yourself, so that you can continue walking on the road ahead.

The only effective way to treat festering old wounds is to cut open the wound with a knife, cut off all necrotic carrion, and then apply medicine.

Shen Siyang, that knife.