I received a bounce from a non-existent player

Ten minutes later, I slowly walked out of the doctor's office with the checklist in hand.There was a light knock on the door lock behind him, and the light cast on the white wall in front of him narrowed to nothing.I stood there, staring blankly ahead.

I should have thought nothing of it.My mind was as blank as the wall.

"How is it? What did the doctor say?" Jiang Heng asked me as he came over with a bag.

I was still staring at the wall, my eyelashes trembled when I heard his voice, and then a little heat slid down my cheeks.

"……What's wrong?"

I replied "It's all right", lowered my head and wiped my tears with my sleeves left and right.

He looked at me in bewilderment, then moved his eyes to the creased checklist in my hand.I heard him gasp very lightly, tremblingly.

"I have kidney failure."

He froze: "Come on... what?"

"Kidney failure. Early and mid-term." I looked at him, and smiled with tears in my eyes, "There are a few indicators that are not normal, and I don't really understand them. Last year's physical examination was still within the normal range. of……"

He stared at me blankly.

"After that, it's probably... diet... and other treatments, and so on..." I tried my best to sound relaxed.

I actually wanted to say "Why is life so colorful" as a joke, after all, Duan Si inadvertently instilled the idea that "Jiang Heng, who is a calm type, doesn't like girls who are equally calm", I don't want to be with him. It's too serious in front of me, but obviously my skill is not in place.

Because I choked up just after I finished the first two words, and I already had a trembling cry when I spoke again, so I bit my lower lip tightly and stopped making a sound.

What is kidney failure?If it is cured well, it will drag your life, if it is not cured, you will die, but I am only 20 years old-why should I worry about life and death at this age when I should love beauty and fall in love?

I couldn't stop crying, and my body was shaking.

After a while, Jiang Heng gently embraced me.I have no one to comfort me, but as soon as someone is gentle with me, I will be defeated and buried in front of him crying until the sky is dark, and the experienced medical staff in the past can't help but take a second look.

I didn't know what I was crying until the end. The content probably went far beyond the fact that I was seriously ill.Thoughts traveled through the years, taking me back to that night filled with the smell of water, boring TV, endless rain, and cries for help that I couldn't hear.

Why is my life trying to push me into a corner like this?

Jiang Heng didn't say a word, just hugged me in his arms.

A long time later, we were standing on the side of the road outside the city hospital.

"How did you get back?" he asked.

"Take the bus back to the dormitory. It should be in time for the gate control." I looked at the heavy traffic in front of me.The bright lights hurt my dry eyes.

Even when life beats me to the bone, I still have to wipe the blood off and move on.

I wanted to laugh at myself: just after I was diagnosed with kidney failure, the first thing I worried about was whether I could go back to the dormitory.After all, I probably have other places to spend my living expenses in the future. I don’t know how much my uncle and other relatives can allocate. I have to save on food and drink, let alone spend the night outside.

He hesitated for a moment: "You don't go home with your family..."

"No need." I interrupted him lightly and looked at him, "What about you?"

"I'll go home tonight." He pursed his lips and said again, "Let me call you. It's very late."

"Thank you." I didn't refuse, looking down at my shoes on the edge of the isolation zone.

I know he is pitying me.I do deserve to be pitied.

After a while, he asked: "You said before that you have something to tell me, what is it?"

I froze for a moment.When he said this, a car happened to pass by my eyes, and the bright taillights left a hot pain in my eyes, which made my tears gradually flow.

Finally, I whispered: "I can't remember."

I'm not a good liar, and I can't think of any other excuse.

"Ah."

After another meeting, I said, "You told me in the practice room that you have something to say after the game. Does it still count?"

He was silent.

I turned my head to look at him, and it seemed that the tears that filled my eyes couldn't stand this movement, rolling down one by one.His position is the direction the car came from.As soon as I turned my head, the headlights in my eyes were blurred by my tears into an unbearably dazzling light.

He just shook his head slightly: "It's not important."

I lowered my head and smiled, then turned my face away and looked in the other direction.