Why aren't people raising me

For Akashi Masaharu, love is a painful word.

It's hypocritical to describe it like this, but every time he thinks about it, every time he thinks about it, even when he hears it occasionally, he feels his heart constrict, as if an invisible hand is pulling hard, causing him pain.

He sometimes wakes up at night, it should be a dream, the content of the dream is vague, only the strong feeling of being watched lingers, he will hold his chest and curl up into a ball, and then follow the memory of the cocoon. Explore the past.

Who?

Who is it?

Whenever this time, Darryl would jokingly say to him, "You really like him..."

So he really fell in love with others in his previous life, not the warm and equal love among family members, but a hopeless, perhaps even more desperate and tragic emotion than that.

"Did the person I like die?" Akashi Masaharu murmured.

Daryl seemed to pause for a moment, "...well, dead, all gone~"

Then Masaharu felt even more uncomfortable. He felt that the reason he was in such pain must be because he saw his lover die with his own eyes.

It must be an unforgettable experience, so that he can't forget it even after reincarnation.

After telling Darryl about this suspicion, Darryl didn't reply for a long time.

"If you think so...you should be right, anyway, he did disappear before your eyes."

With this expectation and answer, Masaharu Akashi accepted the past that was only sad.

Although he felt that the god of death paused and hesitated unnaturally, as if he wanted to deny something and tell him something inside, but in the end he would shut up resentfully.

So after hearing Xia Youjie's expectation, Akashi Masaharu fell into depression again,

"Jie, you actually want to fall in love?" Gojo Satoru dropped the straw in fright, "When did you already have a date?"

"What are you excited about? Marriage is almost everyone's pursuit."

"NONONO, at least not my pursuit."

"So it's almost..." Xia Youjie sighed, "When a person becomes an adult, he will form a brand new family and grow old with another person, otherwise he will go to the end alone."

"Isn't that right for you as well?"

"It's just social reality." Xia Youjie shrugged, "Aren't we talking about the future? This is very likely to happen..."

His gaze turned to Masaharu Akashi unconsciously,

really weird,

Xia Youjie secretly doubted,

Why did he feel a little hot in the heart?

Akashi Masaharu restrained his emotions, and said slowly, "I may not have the energy..."

Nitro couldn't help but said, "Although, you are so serious, making it seem like falling in love is a matter of course, then you have to meet someone you like first, and the other person also likes you, right?"

"Now that you're talking so seriously, no one actually likes you at all...if you don't meet new people."

The social circle in the conjuration world is indeed very small, because there are very few conjurers. Counting people with a little talent in conjuration, it is a great opportunity and talent to be able to make friends with triple digits.

But if you meet ordinary people, that's another story.

"And Akashi..." Kazuko began to gossip, "Although I don't think it's possible in modern society, I read that in novels, business marriages are common among chaebols."

Akashi Masaharu: "..."

Gojo Satoru choked on the drink in his mouth, and Xia Youjie coughed unnaturally.

"What, cough...family marriage? Does your family still have this tradition?"

Akashi Masaharu twitched the corner of his mouth, "...Although it may be true..."

"What—?!" Before Masaharu could finish speaking, Gojo Satoru slapped the table, "Isn't this terrible, no way, Masaharu, just leave the family right now! You can't have this kind of guy with a bag in his head! .”

Xia Youjie looked serious, pressed Yazhi's shoulder with a gloomy expression, and lowered his voice as if talking about something secret, "If you are forced, you must say it, no matter what kind of big chaebol he is, we will help you escape from the pursuit and assassination, It doesn’t matter if you go abroad. As long as you don’t want to, no one can arrange your life.”

Nitro: "Force, sex, grievances from wealthy families, deep sadomasochistic love, are you my second life?"

Akashi Masaharu was almost drowned by the heavy expression and increasingly outrageous speech: "..."

He said weakly, "Listen to me first."

In the end, he still couldn't help laughing first, "What, what are you all thinking about, are you really joking?"

He smiled and narrowed his eyes, "It's just a choice. If I don't have someone I like, I will arrange a blind date for me when the time is right. I also have to see the girl right before we can get together, Akashi. We are not a chaebol relying on marriage, we are an enterprise supported by means and strength."

At the end, he quickly added, "What's more, falling in love is too sad, I don't want to do it a second time."

This sentence was like a thunderbolt on the ground, and several people who were relieved by Ben raised their breath to their throats again,

Gojo Gojo was dumbfounded, "Have you... been in a relationship?"

Nitro blinked, "It seems... still failed?"

"Cough." Akashi Masaharu clenched his fist and pressed it to his lips, his expression revealed an ambiguous astringency, "It's just a crush."

Xia Youjie: "Where is it, a college classmate?"

"..."

Akashi Masaharu was silent.

Then he said,

"It's my teacher."

The person in the dream is his teacher.

This point, Akashi Masaharu finally recalled one day.

Only then did he know why he had a soft spot for people with black hair and red eyes.

The smile on the man's lips was modest and elegant, but the corners of his eyes and brows were full of pride and nobility. When he approached his curly hair, there would be almost inaudible incense, and his fingers were slightly warm and soft when he was fiddling with the cuffs.Masaharu Akashi even remembered that when the young man was angry, the corners of his lips would curl up and droop, he remembered the gloomy look between his brows and the trembling in his pupils.

His name is Yue Yan.

The name passed softly on the tip of his tongue,

It's a pity that such a good person...

"Teacher?" Gojo Satoru took out his mobile phone, and began to search for the official professor of Dongda University, the young one, and the one related to Akashi Masaharu...

Xia Youjie leaned in front of his screen and watched it with him,

Masaharu Akashi was about to die laughing at their faces, "You guys..."

The next moment, more and deeper memories suddenly came out unexpectedly, Akashi Masaharu was startled, then opened his eyes slightly,

Huh?

His fingers clenched tightly,

what?

what happened

He touched his neck, which had been cut open by someone.

why open your mouth

I want to inject blood into it,

inject blood...

In the dark alley, the two brothers who died tragically because of their bad words and the woman who turned into blood appeared in front of Masaharu again. Their lives passed away so vividly that even the screams were so sad, helpless and painful.

Akashi Masaharu felt as if a stone had hit him in the chest,

There was another name in his mind—Ghost Dance Tsuji Mumi.

no misery...

Akashi Masaharu recited the name silently,

His face suddenly became gloomy, and he said coldly to the voice at the same time who was still waiting for his answer,

"No, it's all in the past. My crush is dead, and there's nothing left."

Once again, Masaharu's love affair is broken.